very first request uwu
this is for siyana2701 ❤
i also hope you guys enjoy this one!
little warning though: this imagine will be discussing several sensitive topics (depression, anxiety, self harm)
R/C - Random Country
R/A - Random Address
Y/F/F - Your Favorite Flower
"you're the one who makes me smile, the one who keeps me happy.
therefore, i could never imagine a life without thee."
Author's POV
"Let's end this..."
Jimin's world shattered as soon as he heard the words he dreaded to hear, especially from you. What had he done? Had he hurt you? Made you uncomfortable? Or was he just not good enough for you? There were so many of it: the thoughts, the insecurities. All was showing at once.
He had just gotten home after two whole years of touring the whole world, performing for the fans, and investing to different companies. But even if you were separated for that long, Jimin always remembered to text you and facetime you; yet now, he didn't get why.
He looked at you, both sadness and in confusion. You stood in front of him, a luggage and bag in hand:
"Wh-why?" Jimin's voice cracked, and you immediately closed your eyes, feeling the tears build its way up to you
"People have been speculating about you dating a 'normal' person, as they address it" You spat to him
"Every single day there won't be a time where I'd receive hate comments, traumatizing pictures, and even death threats! They keep on bashing on me; saying that I was never good enough and will never be for you" You continued on
"Many of them are even saying that I was only a fling, which is why you never introduced me to the public. They kept saying that I was just a toy you kept, that you just pity me, hence to why you dated me" And even though you hated it, tears slowly streamed down your face
"I thought that maybe, maybe I really was just a toy, that I was just a fling they described. You never defended me, did you even knew about it?! Did you know how hurt I was? Did you know that everytime I try to hurt myself because their words kept giving me nightmares and insecurities?" You sobbed, looking straight into his eyes
"No..." He croaked out, looking down in shame
You exhaled, a small painful smile making its way up to your face. The tears still continuously pouring down your beautiful features:
"I thought relationships are also about taking risks, and losing literally everything for the ones they love; even if it hurt them. I can't even go out of this house without people throwing insults at me, giving me death glares, the paparazzi following me, or even hurting me; physically" You further explained, removing the stains of your tears
"Jimin, I still love you, I really do. But I just can't do this anymore. Every time, I tried- I tried to protect us, I pleaded them to stop; but the more I did so, the more they'd attack me. And I can't live like that, I never intended nor wished to have a life like this" You said as he looks at you, eyebrows furrowed
"But you knew, you knew this was going to happen as soon as you said yes to me" He retorts, and you looked at him in disbelief, a tear falling down, wrong answer
"So it's my fault that I loved you?" You asked him, and he soon realizes his mistake
"No it's not like tha-" You cut him off
"But it sure looks like it is!" Jimin was shocked, he never heard you shout before. But could he blame you?
"You're an idol, Jimin; a popular, world sensational, superstar. You have many dreams to turn into reality, you have many opportunities to open and discover, you have many goals to achieve. I don't want to get in the way of you doing so" You say, walking to him, and placing a palm onto his cheek
"No, please Y/N. I didn't mean to sa-" He stutters, the tears now falling down his hazel brown eyes
"It's okay, Jimin. I'll still support you, I'll still care for you, I'll still love you. But I'm sorry, we're just not meant for one another. You're a singer, and I'm just me; we're both from very different worlds, I don't want to be such a distraction to you. And I most importantly don't want your fans hurting you as well, you don't deserve that, you never did" You said, both of you now crying
"You have so much responsibilities weighed down onto your shoulders. And I don't want myself to be added up to those; you have enough already"
"Please, don't leave me..." Jimin whimpers, crying as he began to kneel down in front of you, hands clasped together as he tightly closes his eyes
Immediately, you made him stand up:
"Don't kneel in front of me, please. I already forgave you, and what I'm doing right now is nothing but for the sake of both of us; for our mentality and for our sakes. I'm really sorry it had to end this way, but I'm not that strong to protect myself from them" You cried harder
"All I'll ever wish is for you to be happy. Can you do that? For your fans? For your members? For your family? For Me?" You asked, for the very last time
"Not without you..." He answers, hiccuping
As if on cue, a beep was heard. You kissed his lips, filled with so much void; he responds, holding you tight, not wanting to let you go. But soon after, you broke off from him, walking out of the household while you could still hear him crying.
You placed your luggage onto the back of the taxi, going to the passenger's seat afterward:
"No! Y/N! Please don't do this! Don't leave me! I'm sorry! I'm so, so sorry" You looked to see Jimin, shouting as he ran in desperation
He then taps at your window side, pleading as you did nothing but look at him:
"Where to, miss?" The old driver asks
"The airport, please..." You muttered in response
As the driver readies the engine, you looked at him one last time, placed your hand at the window, and sent him a smile. He shakes his head, still crying. Soon, the car began to move, you looked over and saw Jimin, trying to chase you.
You looked back to the front and once again, you began to cry. I'm sorry.
~1 Month Later~
Your POV
"Hey, Y/N" I looked to see my nonbiological brother: Jaeden, supporting himself by the door frame
I sighed, and returned my gaze to the window:
"How have you been?" He whispers, sitting beside me
Ever since the split up, I gradually forgot about him. The memories we had, the moments we shared, the talks we did, the dates we went to; I missed them all. But mostly, I missed doing it all with him, with Jimin.
I never heard a thing from him, but I do know that he was shining, and was getting known more by lots of people. I was happy he was rising, he was going to make his dreams come true:
"Still miserable..." I lowly replied, later that, he brings me to his arms
"I know, it hurts a lot to lose someone so important to you. But sometimes, you also have to let your guard down and move on; that's how you can overcome and heal. Being like this is not always the best thing" He explains, brushing my hair with his fingers
I looked up to him, with his beautiful, green eyes already staring down at me:
"How did dad ever get so lucky to meet your mom?" I asked, he chuckles
"That, I don't know. But I'm grateful that they both did" Jaeden answers, with me nodding, smiling a bit
"Yeah" I mumbled, and we stayed in that position for who knows how long
"Well, I need to go sis. Filming will start in a few. Are you sure you can handle yourself here?" He asks, now standing up
"I guess so. Just, be careful and good luck! I know you'll do great- as always" I said and he smiled, kissing my forehead
"Okay then, stay safe as well. I love you!" Jaeden bids
"I love you too..." I replied, and soon, he was now out of my sight
Boredom was getting to me. So, I decided to go grab my laptop and began surfing online, until I stopped at a certain article:
PARK JIMIN POSTS VIDEO ABOUT A GIRL: WHO COULD IT BE?
The named KPOP BTS member Jimin was reported to have posted a video, explaining about his unconditional love and mistakes to a special someone. It was approximately 15 minutes long.
Some speculate that it was about the girl whom he used to date, that had also ended things with him almost a month ago for some personal reasons.
The video showed many pictures of them together, doing adorable and sweet things!
Click the link below to see the video!
Curiously, I tapped onto it, which led me to see him. He was still the same Jimin I used to know, I used to cherish, the Jimin I used to love. But the difference was that he now has blonde hair, and seemed to be slimmer than before.
The video then began, it started with a song as several pictures of us were showed. I gasped, it wasn't just any song, it was our favorite song. And the pictures, they were all taken during our dates:
"Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard, you know it could get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive
We keep this loving a photograph,
We made these memories for ourselves,
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts were never broken
Time's forever frozen still
So you can keep me, inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer 'till our eyes meet, you won't ever be alone
Wait for me to come home"
My eyes began to get glossy, and almost a drop of tear fell down my eyes. Soon, I then saw Jimin's face, looking straight into the camera, to me:
"Hello everyone! It's Jimin here. Today is suppose to be a very special day for me, and for the love of my life. But I guess you heard the news that we're no longer together anymore" His smile was big, but it didn't reached his eyes, they were filled bitterness and sadness
"The reason why we broke up, was mainly because of the hate. She was bashed, received many hate comments, inappropriate images, and death threats. And every time that she goes out, she would be judged, there would paparazzi chasing her, and some would even think of beating her up" His voice once again cracked, but he straightens his posture, but I could still see that he was trying his best not to cry
"To those people, you should be nothing but ashamed of yourselves. Words can hurt so much more and you'll never know how it can affect a person so much. If you truly are a fan, who loves, cares and supports me, and my other band mates; then please, do not hate on the ones we love. It hurts us to see them hurting" His eyes were gloomy, and his tone was pleading
"But, it was also my fault. I was never there for her. I never even knew that she was receiving so much hate until she confronted to me about it. She was hurting and I didn't even notice, because every time that we would talk, I never even asked. I didn't defend her like how I was suppose to, I didn't protect her from the haters. I remained oblivious, to the point that I didn't even know it was continuously happening" He explains, the tears now fell down from my eyes
"I want to apologize for not being there, for neglecting you, for not protecting like how you did. I love you very much Y/N, I really do. And I'd like to give you a gift, happy three years love" Jimin smiles, and then it transitioned to him inside a studio
"The front pages are your pictures,
They make you look so small,
How could someone not miss you at all?
I never would mistreat ya,
Oh I'm not a criminal,
I speak a different language but I still hear your call"
I covered my mouth as I hear him sing, the tears began to again fall down and I silently sobbed:
"Diana,
Let me be the one to light a fire inside those eyes,
You've been lonely, you don't even know me
But I can feel you crying
Diana,
Let me be the one to lift your heart up and save your life,
I don't think you even realize baby
you'll be saving mine
Diana"
I stopped myself from sobbing, now listening to him sing every lyric in silence:
"It's only been four months but,
You've fallen down so far,
How could someone mislead you at all?
I wanna reach out for you,
I wanna break these walls,
I speak a different language but I still hear your call
Diana,
Let me be the one to light a fire inside those eyes,
You've been lonely, you don't even know me
But I can feel you crying
Diana,
Let me be the one to lift your heart up and save your life,
I don't think you realize baby
you'll be saving mine"
I smiled, admiring him. His voice was still as angelic and mesmerizing:
"We all need something,
This can't be over now,
If I could hold you,
Swear I'd never put you down
Diana,
Let me be the one to light a fire inside those eyes,
You've been lonely, you don't even know me
But I can feel you crying
Diana,
Let me be the one to lift your heart up and save your life,
I don't think you realize baby
you'll be saving mine
Oh Ah Oh
Diana
Oh Ah Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Diana
You'd be saving mine
Oh Ah Oh
Diana
Oh Ah Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Diana
Baby you'd be saving mine"
He ends the song with a smile, doing a heart with his hands. After that, the whole video ends. With me still crying, and my heart beating loudly, it was beautiful, he was beautiful. I love him so much.
After that, the doorbell ring. I immediately closed my laptop and began to make my way to the front door. Once I reached the fron, I then opened it:
"Hello, my sweet diana" He smiles, a bouquet of Y/F/F in hand
"Jimin..." I breathed out, mirroring his smile
"Y/N, where we are right now is definitely not the destination for us. For I see into a future where we are able to share our vows, exchange rings, and be truly happy. You are my heartbeat and the reason why I believe in love" He says, giving me the bundle afterwards
"I hope you could give me a chance to make it up to you. To do things that I couldn't before. Bring me back and I promise you forever and euphoria"
I looked down and waited for a few minutes, afterwards, I looked up to him and smiled:
"Yes..."
~🎶❤🌸👗The End👗🌸❤🎶~
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