(Edited💕🧑🏾🎤) my fat ass was trying to cook some noodles so excuse the lateness yk😗😎
Imani Dior Dawn
Morning
I put on my sneakers and threw on my hoodie before getting up off the bed
Kentrell wasn't in the room when I woke up so I guess he was probably downstairs messing with Aaliyah and I could care less
I looked at myself in the mirror putting on some lipgloss
I was feeling ion even know I just felt like letting go but something told me to stay strong
"Mani you ready?" Kentrell asked busting in the room making me jump
"Yea" I said breathing out grabbing my purse
He stood there looking at me as I grabbed my phone off the dresser walking towards the door
"What?" I asked stopping scrunching up my face
"Nun come on" he said scratching his head walking out
I followed behind him downstairs to see Aaliyah sitting on the couch with Kason
"We'll be back don't steal or touch nothing" kentrell said to her mugging as I walked towards the door
"Where y'all going that I can't go?" She asked getting up
"We got sum to handle sit the fuck down cause you can't come" he said annoyed
"Mani-
"He's right ion want chu to come either I don't respect you and neither do my people" I said shrugging
"That's some fucked up shit" she mumbled
"And what chu did was fucked up as well guess we equal" I scoffed walking out the house
This bitch better not be on no fuck shit or I swear to god
Kentrell locked the front door before walking out coming towards his car
He unlocked it and I got in closing the door waiting for him
"I know it's a place couple minutes away that sell flowers" he said as he got in
"Oh okay" I said dryly looking out the window
He breathed out annoyed cranking up the car but not driving off
He did something on his phone before connecting his phone to the Bluetooth
"Oh my fucking god" I mumbled as a beat came on
He looked over at me before looking back pulling off
"She said that money ain't worth Nothin' if you can't treat me right I clearly see bitches ain't shit they just want see me cry" I heard kentrell mumbled as he rapped to the song
"Young nigga rollin' Keep that Glock
'Cause shit ain't safe out at night I say the money and betrayal Got my mind hypnotized" he rapped lighting up a blunt as he drove out my neighborhood
"Lies, that's what they told me I never asked for shit at night Only for you to hold me" he sung getting loud making me scrunch up my face
"I did it out of love, baby Never said you owed me Now I don't wanna fuck with you It's gonna kill me slowly" he said looking my way
Nigga please I don't want chu to fuck with me anyways the hell
"I made it out, don't mix me in the shit they say My feelings fallin', money callin' How we movin', shit ain't safe" he rapped loudly as he started getting turnt
This reminded me of when we use to be happy with each other and just rode around listening to songs he wrote about me
Shit them songs probably wasn't even about me it was bout one of his hoes and I was singing my lil heart out to em looking dumb
"Can't take cover when I start bustin' Leave 'em like one said they love me
Patrol still wanna cuff me" he rapped taking a pull from his blunt
"No love for one, say fuck me You supposed to be the one I run to, but you ain't 'round" he sung to me as I mugged him not feeding into his bullshit
"Never knew to succumb to
I don't know how" he shrugged stopping at a red light
"I lost my love for that dream and I don't know if it could be found You always bringin' some shit up Never once tried to put you down" he said hurt as I rolled my eyes
Same ole victim playing kentrell as always nothing fucking new
Him and his lil songs can get the fuck outta my face
"One person I'm lovin nobody I'm trusting Straight out of them trenches, I'm thuggin'" he rapped as he speed up , I put on my seatbelt thinking bout my life
"To me you the world, but I never could Tell you wasn't keepin' it real You was billing your budget" he smacked his teeth making me laugh
Aww po tink tink made cause im getting my own too bad
"You see me with bitches You think that I cherish , You ask them a question They can't tell you nothin'" he said mugging my way
Oh shut the fuck up
"Bad news and it's comin' out ugly
Truth be told, you was plottin' on somethin'" he said puffing on his blunt
I ain't never did such a thing maybe he ain't talking bout me
"Money mean nothin' when You really love someone How I be livin' take up time and We could have a one on one" he rapped grabbing my hand as I looked at him funny
What the fuck was this nigga up to?
"And fuckin' off ain't that important When you really for someone I'm scared to open up my heart I always been so nonchalant" he said parking in front of a flower boutique
"I just wanna live with you, build with you Smoke with you, yeah I know you think the shit I say" he sung dancing in his seat
I'm bout to get out this damn car if he'on hurry up
"But you just wanna misuse me and lie Said that I ain't never cared You left yo' diary by the bed" he said before I cut down the radio
"Is you done or are you finished?" I asked scrunching up my face
He turned off the car getting out making me roll my eyes
I got out grabbing my purse closing the door and followed behind him
"Welcome to queen's flower shop how may I help you?" The girl at the front desk said smiling
"Say gimme 2 things of flowers" kentrell said walking up to her
"Is there a specific kind you want?" She asked coming from behind the counter
"Shit you tell me" kentrell said tilting his head licking his lips
She laughed nervously walking over to some flowers
I rolled my eyes this nigga just aggy
"Are these good?" She asked pulling out 2 bouquets of flowers
Kentrell turned to me and I nodded taking my hands out my hoodie
"Great I'll just go rang them up" she said smiling walking past us to the back
Once she was gone I turned to kentrell sizing him
"You sure do know how to get em" I mumbled smearing my lips as we got to the counter
"Here you go" he said annoyed making me roll my eyes
"We're not together kentrell ion care what chu do" I laughed shrugging
"Then why bring it up" he said turning to me
"Cause I just wanted to throw it in yo face that chu got curved" I said smirking
"I ain't get curved she just ain't catch my time" he scoffed
"Mhm" I mumbled looking forward
"Okay your total is $58" the girl said smiling walking back out
Kentrell dug in his pocket pulling out a $100 bill sliding it to her
"Lemme get cho number" he said to her licking his crusty ass lips again
"Oh sorry sir but I rather get your number" she said turning to me biting her lip
Oh shit..
"The fuck" kentrell said mugging making me laugh
"You really fine as hell" she said to me as she handed me the flowers
"Thank you" I said smiling "at least someone appreciates me" I mumbled slickly
Kentrell grabbed the change and stuffed it in his pocket mugging before storming out
The girl bust out laughing making me tilt my head
"I'm not gay I really just wasn't into him" she said shrugging
I laughed a little shaking my head
"That's was yo nigga tryna be petty or sum?" She asked
"More like ex trying to get a new bitch to make me jealous but it ain't work" I said rolling my eyes
"Felt niggas be crazy" she said shaking her head
"As hell but aye I got somewhere to be" I said sighing
"Here you seem cool as hell" she said ripping a piece of paper grabbing a pen
"Call me I'm down to go out and turn up and shit" she said handing me the paper
It had her number on it
"Whenever I do you better be ready too" I said as I began to walk towards the door
"I will you already know" She laughed before I walked out
I got in the car putting her number in my purse
"So you like pussy now?" Kentrell asked mugging me
"Boy no she just ain't want cho ugly ass now drive" I said stank facing him letting my seat back
"Everybody want lil top" kentrell scoffed as he turned out and started driving
"No everybody don't" I said closing my eyes
He mumbled something under his breath but I ignored him taking a quick nap
10 minutes later
"Mani get up" kentrell said shaking me
I jumped up groaning lifting up the seat
I turned seeing the grave yard making me sigh
"You want me to come with chu?" He asked
I hesitated before saying yes
We got out the car and I grabbed the flowers closing the door
I looked around trying to remember where the graves where and felt kentrell grab my hand
I walked over reading names on the graves until I found theirs
I placed the flowers down on their grave and sat on the ground balling up
My parents weren't the best but they did what they could..
Kentrell sat next me looking around uncomfortable
"What's wrong? The graveyard scare you or sum" I asked
"Na it's just I might be hea soon and then what?" He sighed
"Don't say that..you all I got left..you and Isaiah" I mumbled looking away
"You got the gang too" kentrell said making me shake my head
"You don't realize once you gon allat over right?" I said licking my lips
"Na they yo friends they'll be thea" he said confident
"Their your friends and they don't know me forreal" I said shrugging
"You gon be good once I'm gon-
"Stop speaking on yo death kentrell ion wanna be out chea fa you too" I mumbled cutting him off
"You'on hate me enough to want me dead by now?" He asked looking over
"I don't hate chu kentrell I never hated you no matter how much I said it" I said sighing
"Nobody could hate lil top" he smiled
"Don't push it" I said mugging
I turned back to the graves looking at the dates
"12/25/03" I mumbled reading the dates of their death
"Christmas" Kentrell tilted his head
"Me and siah aint get shit they ain't even put up a Christmas tree" I said licking my lips
"They probably ain't have no money" he said shrugging
"They didn't they spent it all on drugs" I laughed trying to not cry "Like you said fucking crackheads right" I sighed
"Just think about the good times you had with em mani" he said looking over at me
"Ion think there is kentrell all I can remember is them and their drugs" I mumbled as a tear slipped out and I quickly wiped it
"You remember that thanksgiving dinner" kentrell laughed as I smirked
"Yo daddy cussed out cho auntie fa eating all the pie" he said looking at the grave
"He was so mean he called her a bald headed ass fat OompaLoompa" I laughed wiping my face
"That what she was too her ass fat ass ate my plate when I went to the bathroom" kentrell said stank facing the air
"Shut up I'm post to be sad" I laughed pushing his shoulder
"Ion want chu to be sad cause then imma be mad fa letting you be sad" he said as I playfully rolled my eyes looking back at the grave
"I miss them so much but I can't bring them back" I said biting my lip
"It be like that but you just gotta accept the fact they gone and you'll meet them again one day" he shrugged
"You did that with cho grandma?" I asked looking over at him
He looked over at me nodding
"I accepted the fact that I'll meet ha again shit maybe soon since I'm in these streets-
"Kentrell" I cut him off mugging
"It's the truth mani and you know it" he sighed
"It ain't the truth it's just you talking crazy" I said looking away
"We can't run from death you just gotta accept that shit and me I'm not scared of it I'm ready" he shrugged
"Since you talking crazy if you die then imma die too" I said shrugging
"Na you still got cho life ahead of you" he said licking his lips
"And you still got a son to take care of so what's yo point?" I asked reversing the question
"We'on even know if that's my son forreal but chu know I'll just put some money in his acc-
"It's not all about money kentrell if you is the dad you gotta be there physically to" I said annoyed
"When you'on have parents in yo life to guide you you know it fucks you up I mean look at us" I said sighing
"You right" he said nodding
"You think he mines?" Kentrell asked making me face him
"Ion know but if it is you know what chu gotta do" I shrugged twisting my lips
"Hm where this change of heart come from? You would've been saying fuck me and my child by now" he chuckled
"I've been going to therapy and just been thinking life's short so why be stuck on a ain't shit nigga" I said mugging the air
"Well damn" kentrell said holding his chest
"You know you ain't shit kentrell don't play" I said getting up
"I try to be" he shrugged getting up
I looked at the grave one more time before walking away from it
"No goodbye?" Kentrell said confused
"I'm accepting the fact their gone I'll meet em again" I shrugged getting in the car
They'll forever be in my heart tho...
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Mani never really hated kentrell🌝 kentrell talking about death?🐒
Told y'all I was gon do it . LJ wasn't the one I wanted🗿