مصير
NADIA NYOMI KARTER
𝘚𝘖𝘜𝘛𝘏 𝘔𝘐𝘈𝘔𝘐
𝟏𝟏:𝟓𝟒 𝐀𝐌
" FEFE !" Daylin yelled running after Kay dog.
" Leave her alone !" She ran after him.
" This is why I don't baby sit." I shook my head.
" This is your nephew." She scrunched her face up.
" That's cool and all." I shrugged. " But kids ain't my thing."
" Mhm." She squinted her eyes. " You got one up in there with the rate y'all be fucking."
" No babies for me." I shook my head picking Fefe up. " Fefe girl , I need to talk to ya."
" Birth control can't fight off all that sperm." She eyed me " And Felisha don't have time for y'all."
" I don't want a kid at least not yet." I shrugged. " We got so much more to build on before a kid could come into the question."
" It's been almost half a year since y'all been fucking with each other." She frowned.
" Time don't determine anything plus we ain't even had a talk about none of that."
" You would think y'all would." She eyed me.
" Ehh." I sat my phone up on the counter. " Bitch you a dog and ya homegirl too !"
" You see Dess fought that girl from Kissimmee ?"
" Who ?" I said looking at her phone. " Damn she whooping her ass."
" Her name China assum." She clicked on the girl page. " She got a baby by that nigga that Saint killed a while back."
" He kill a lot of people." I mumbled.
" His name is like Dee-Dee something." She scratched her head. " DIOR."
" Ohhh , he was cute." I frowned looking at the picture of him.
" His friend died with him too." She huffed.
" Welp , my nigga like that." I shrugged. " God rest the dead."
" When he coming over here ? He owe me a dollar."
" He just pulled up." I said looking down at my phone.
I walked outside seeing him inside the car smoking while smoke came from out the window.
" AYE FUCK BOY !" She walked up to his car and I walked over there dragging my feet.
" Im not giving you no dollar , fuck out my face." He mugged her. " Begging like you the salvation army."
" Ima beat you up." She pointed at him and walked away. " Bye frienddddd !"
" See you later." I waved laughing.
" You rude." He eyed me. " What's wrong ?"
" It's just not my day." I shook my head. " A lot is on my plate."
" Like what ?"
" I just don't know what Im doing." I sighed. " I just feel like Im stuck."
" How ?" He looked at me.
" Im always trying help everyone else out but I feel like I never have enough time for me." I but my lip trying not to cry. " I don't even have a good enough job for someone my age , I feel like Im not improving since Day died."
" Well make time for yourself , it's okay to be selfish sometimes."
" I just want to be something that will make him proud-" I said then started crying.
" You gone make him proud regardless of what you do." He rubbed my thigh.
" I think our relationship is too much on me right now." I said lowly.
He looked at me funny then started to laugh like I told him a joke.
" You giving up on us because you want a new job ?"
" It's not that-"
" Then what is it ?" He parked his car. " You about to make me mad and I don't want to."
" I just want to give us a break." I said lowly turning towards him. " I don't want to have too much weighing on me."
" You clearly don't know what you want , how does our relationship affect anything you listed ? Be an adult and deal with that shit." He said making a face at me. " When shit go left you can't just give up , that ain't the way that life goes."
" I just don't want things to go left because of the things going on in my life."
" Then obviously you don't prioritize us." He shrugged getting out. " You would make sure that wouldn't happen."
I just walked in behind him and wiped my tears away.
" You staying here tonight ?" He asked me sitting on his bed.
" Only if you want me to." I said lowly.
" It's up to you , Im not forcing something you're not ready for." He walked into his bathroom.
" You want kids ?" I looked at him.
" One day , Only if it's with somebody that's not ready to give up at any given moment." He said as he put his gun on the dresser.
" Ima just go." I said standing up.
" Proving my point even more." He shook his head.
" I just don't want you to have animosity towards me then I feel unwanted."
" I just wanna know why you said all of this ?" He looked at me.
" Because Im scared." I sighed. " Im scared that I'll put my all in to you just for it to fall apart because of my problems."
" We all got problems." He shrugged. " When you get in a relationship you supposed to accept everything that come with them. It's just not as big to me because I've accepted everything with myself first."
" Mhm." I nodded playing with my nails.
" Admit what's wrong and work towards fixing it."
" Okay." I took off my crocs.
" You gone be straight." He wrapped his arms around me. " I got you , you know that right ?"
" I like you." I mumbled. " A lot."
" I still don't like you." He said pulling away from me.
" You'll like me after this." I said grabbing him by his jeans and pulling him to the bed.
xx
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or 600+ every 1.5-2 hours ?