As the title of this entry states, this might be a long entry. I'm no longer mad, it died out yesterday. I was mad but after what happened last night my anger dropped rapidly to sadness.
You already know what happened to Micheal, Kai, and the others. Not too sure I told you about what happened to the others, so I'll write it later when I'm up to it.
After running away from the cafeteria, feeling both angry and upset, well mostly angry, I headed over to my house hoping uncle Wu wasn't around. Luckily, he wasn't so I decided to vent out in my journal while there. To be honest writing all that took till evening cause I was too angry to write properly. My uncle arrived home around six. I pretty sure he knew I was home with the sound of the vases in my room smashing on the ground.
I knew he was home but I pretended to myself he wasn't so I wouldn't have to worry about going out to meet him. He had brought home... a guest. I didn't know who it was at the time and I didn't care. I'd thought maybe it was one of his monk friends at the monastery staying to chat for a while. How I wish I was right.
Just before I had to abruptly conclude my last journal entry, I got a knock on the door. Already knowing it was my uncle, I had no choice but to answer.
"Lloyd there's someone I'd like you to meet." He said with a serious tone. Since he said it all serious like, I didn't want to meet this person. It could be the police for all I knew. It wouldn't be the first time.
"I'm not feeling up to it," I told him.
"Do not worry Lloyd, it's not officer Judy." I almost gagged at that name. Miss Judy is a police officer who specializes in people with my sort of case, whatever that is. They always send her over anytime I'm involved and let's just say she's not doing any better than the Sereni-tea my uncle gives me, which by the way does nothing for me.
"Is it Micheal's mom?"
"Did you get into another fight?"
I looked away. I had hoped he wouldn't bring it up so soon. I was still mad and in no mood to respond. Not like I was upset about how he emphasized on 'another' or the fact that he looked disappointed afterward. Either way...
"But you were in such a good mood this morning, considering it's your birthday."
"Yeah well, the school found out and I got mad at the people who spilled the beans."
"Lloyd you need to try to control your anger more. You can't keep blowing up at people for little things like this. You're sixteen now. Come," He held my wrist and led me down the hallway, "I must introduce you to someone but you must promise to keep your rage down."
Firstly, it wasn't little. I liked my birthday being what it was till now, a secret. I didn't think that correcting him would work out, so I just nodded. I decided to just wish it wasn't Kai or any of the five whose parents I was meeting. I think I would've fled the living room if I met them there.
"Koko, sorry to keep you waiting," My uncle said to a redhead middle-aged lady sitting at the dinner table.
"Hi," I waved, "I'm Lloyd. Are you a new therapist?" I did tell uncle Wu I was tired of the old one.
Okay, not the best thing to say upon introduction but I've led with it since I was thirteen and had over seventy percent of those questions right.
I heard my uncle chuckle to himself.
"What's so funny? Is she replacing Judy or what?" In my head, it was like- She's looks as old as Judy. Please let her be my new therapist. She looks really nice.
"Koko, meet Lloyd." I was getting aggravated at my uncle Wu. What was so funny that I couldn't assume she was a therapist.
"Fine. Is she one of your students from your monastery?" He just laughed to himself again. "A colleague? A mom for one of the students in my school who feel they could do a better job at raising me?" Uncle Wu just kept on laughing. Wouldn't be the first time the last one happened.
"Stop laughing and tell me who she is!" I blew my fuse a bit. I think it was like an everyday teenager just telling some idiot in his class to shut up already cause he's talking way too loud to concentrate especially in a physics class. Not that things like those bother me. Okay, they do.
I saw the woman staring at me as if she couldn't believe it. I guess she hasn't heard of the surprisingly infamous Lloyd whose uncle makes sure he doesn't go to juvie. Surprising because of the infamous part. I'm popular, that part I understand, but I just can't seem to get it around my head how I became nationally popular. I always see my face on the news a week after I break a few bones or leave someone in a terrible state. Before that, the federal police would pin me down in the middle of the street like I'm a terrorist. So embarrassing.
Like one time when I was going on an errand for uncle Wu and a boatload of cops just grabbed me and pinned me down like I could kill any one of them with the snap of a finger. I'm pretty sure the old lady at the tea shop hates me now. She always gives me a long suspicious stare until I leave. But back to what happened yesterday.
"I'll leave you two for a moment." Uncle Wu said trying to keep his smile down. There he goes again doing something I don't even understand.
"You didn't even introduce her to me!" I complained. It was almost like the time he tricked me into going counseling when I was twelve. We never saw that dude ever again when I was done with him. Payback for dumping me with someone who acted like he was dealing with a five-year-old.
I stared at the woman for a minute wondering what was going on. She looked unsure of herself and very nervous. She stood up from the table and walked over to me. I could see the tears she was holding in and the smile she had on like she was mentally encouraging herself.
"You don't recognize me?" She asked. Her voice was familiar but I couldn't place it. I shook my head.
"It's me, Lloyd, your mom." Those five words made me all wobbly. I moved back in confusion. She was supposed to be dead. Like 'I went on a secret adventure, got crushed by a mountain maybe' dead.
"But they said you were dead?!" I was having a semi-panic attack and the wave of emotions was burning my chest. I couldn't think about anything.
"I was on an expedition, but so many things happened and I'm just so lucky to have found my way back to Ninjago. To you."
"It's not true. It can't be true!" It was a voice in my head screaming out my doubts. I was in partial disbelief. I wanted to hug her and at the same time stay as far away from her as possible.
When I was a kid, I never felt grief for her disappearance. I didn't know her so I chose not to care. But right then, I wasn't just nonchalant. There was something inside me, I don't know what it was, but it wanted me to hate her, to wish she was dead, to want her to remain dead.
I felt so sick. "There's no way you could have come back," I told her.
"Lloyd, look I know you have a hard time coming to a realization but you've got to believe me. I never died, I just disappeared." I started to calm down I guess but then there was a part of what she said that stopped me.
"Wait, disappeared? You said you went missing." She fell silent. I'm not ten and neither was I ten when she said that. She -my mom- looked like she was smart, intelligent even. There was no way, to her, that being missing and putting on a disappearing act meant the same thing.
Turns out she went on an expedition and decided to disappear for almost twelve years. Then she comes back and hopes I'll still be the four-year-old kid she abandoned with her brother-in-law. That was the only thing in my head right then. To think I could have had a different life where I lived with my mom, my uncle taught at his monastery, and maybe, just maybe I wouldn't have this temper issues causing my downfall is just so unfair.
This is the end of my long entry. I'm sorry if the story wasn't clear. I got angry and ran away and now I'm underneath those weird tunnel things little kids play in at the park and it's super uncomfortable. I'm gonna go hide somewhere else in this park. Maybe someplace to sleep too. No way I'm going back home after I exploded in my mom's face. I wouldn't be able to live with the fact that on my first day as a sixteen-year-old, I crushed the arms of a classmate, broke a friend of mine too, almost killed another friend of mine, and put my mom in a spot she probably now fears/hates me.
Worst. Birthday. Ever.