!!!!TW!!!! (see A/N chapter one for details)
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Y/N POV
Minwoo(～￣▽￣)～
Hey no sorry it took so long
it took some time to put everyone to sleep
8 guys two bathrooms, gets crowded
omg shut up ur not annoying!!
im soso sorry i didnt text you>:(
what time is it for u?
its 2 am here
oh..hi
im sorry i overreacted i thought i annoyed u
i mean issa sleepover i get it u sleep late
but..
u guys have been practicing so much and u need ur sleep!
also ur 20 maybe u have college or sth??
also its only 8pm here dw
well i do have classes yes
im at college
and we were v busy so we rlly should sleep ur right dw
sometimes we r all too dumb to admit it
or realize it
okayy 8pm ur somewhere far damn
yeah
u should sleep Minwoo
we'll talk when u wake up
okay
goodnight isa!
nice meeting u
really
:)
nice meeting u too:)
goodnight^o^
s e e n
*earlier that day*
I came back from school and left my stuff in my room before heading to the kitchen when I heard yelling.
"YOU STUPID WHORE I WILL NOT MAKE THIS EASY FOR YOU" I heard my dad yell. 'huh he must have heard about the divorce then.' I thought 'mom, make it quick please' I sighed and went back to my room, appetite gone.
I scrolled aimlessly on my phone, texting Zack and now Minwoo! When they stopped responding I decided to be productive, because they probably just fell asleep. Although I was bummed and missed them I understood it's late. 'Fucking time zones'
I sat down at the table making out some part of the yelling, some being about me. I went to get my homework from my bag when the door flew open.
"You.. did you know about this??" my dad yelled angrily glaring at me.
"Em.. yes I knew." I said in a calm tone hoping he wouldn't get mad.
"And what do you think of it? It's bullshit right? Those people clearly brainwashed her. She wants me to move out WELL I SAY NO, SHE SHOULD LEAVE RIGHT?" he stomped his foot and circled the room. "I BUILT THIS PLACE IF SHE WANTS SOMEONE ELSE SHE SHOULD LEAVE"
I felt anger and frustration rise up in me 'incompetent asshole'
I took a deep breath "but she didn't find anyone else AND you didn't BUILD this. I think you should really talk with HER, this is none of my business."
He stopped and looked at me angry "DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT! IF IT WASN'T FOR ME YOU WOULDN'T BE LIVING HERE. STOP DISRESPECTING ME! YOU THINK YOU KNOW IT ALL? YOU ARE AN INSUFFERABLE 15 YEAR OLD"
"I am 17 DAD" I said in a tone I am not proud of.
"That does not matter! YOU ARE STILL MY CHILD AND WILL TALK WITH RESPECT TO ME" he stepped closer looking down on me.
"Well, for what it's worth, divorce sounds like a good idea, has been one for years now." I retorted, venom in my tone when suddenly my eyes closed and my left cheek throbbing in pain, I felt my eyes watering, numerous flashbacks popping in my head. I raised my eyes and saw him lift his hand again.
I stepped back and yelled "GET OUT! LEAVE ME ALONE" I then closed my room door only for him to open it again, "We are not done. Never say that again or I will make the trial hell for both of you!" he then left slamming the door shut.
I sat down on the floor as a panic attack took over me and images from my childhood flashed in front of my eyes. My breathing got quicker and shorter, I was sobbing silently in my hand. My mind could not stop all the memories playing, where my father constantly beat me. It has been four years since he last physically harmed me but at least it was only a slap this time. I chuckled softly at that and wiped my tears.
I started slowly getting conscious of my surroundings and started counting off things around me while practicing my breathing.
I got up and checked the time, it was 10:30pm. I grabbed my bag and decided to take a walk.
I texted my mom that I left for some air after the fight and left.
I walked around the neighborhood with my earphones on listening to my playlist until I reached a bench hidden between some trees. I sat down and took out a cigarette from my pack and lit it. I turned off the music to hear if someone was passing by.
I kept replaying every single fight with my father and I couldn't get my mind to stop running. I took another long drag and focused on the way my lungs burned numbly. I focused only on smoking trying to block out any thoughts or emotion that may come up.
Three cigarettes later I decide to visit an old playground. I lit up another stick and started walking. 'left, right, left, right.....okay that's a tree.. that's a house,,, a dog. okay what am I doing just.. stop.' I sighed before inhaling another puff of smoke.
I sat down on a swing looking around to see if there was anyone nearby, either a weird killer or someone who knew me, since I was still in the neighborhood.
I swung slowly letting the wind blow through my hair and the smoke fill my lungs. I started to feel uneasiness come over me, being in the dark while I was still scared of it made my anxiety rise a little. I sat down on a bench and scrolled aimlessly through instagram. I opened my account for friends only and decided to take a photo on my story and add a time sticker 'in case i get kidnapped they will know where and when' I laughed, only then I saw that it was almost 1am. I felt a little proud that I made it this long during the dark and decided to do it more often 'its more comfortable to smoke here than in my room anyways' I chuckled and started heading home, hoping they wouldn't hear the door opening.
I sent a text to my brother quickly to brother asking if he was awake, which ,fortunately, he was, and asked him to quietly unlock the front door because the keys made too much noise. He replied with okay and I sighed relieved, thanking God he was even awake 'might have to scold him for that one but eh what can you do'.
I finally arrived home and laid in bed scrolling through my phone and reading fanfiction to forget about my own world.
I sighed and put my phone down. Laying on my back I was involuntarily replaying the day and then my mind started drifting towards the future and how awful it will be. My dad making the house a living hell for my mom and I for the rest of the divorce process, him not wanting to move out, maybe starting to beat me again. My heart slowed down at the thought and my head started to hurt. I kept wondering about different scenarios of the future or thinking back on things from the past.
I breathed loudly and went to drink water in the kitchen. I filled my glass and sat down, feeling dizzy from the lack of eating and sleep from the past few days. I looked at the clock on the microwave and saw that it was 3:30am and sighed painfully. I filled a big water bottle and went to my room.
I sat down on my chair and packed my bag for school because I wouldn't have energy to do it at 6am when I woke up. I moved to my bed and starting playing some games on my phone not feeling tired at all. 'maybe a little thinking will get me sleepy' is what motivated me to play solitaire for an hour. I saw a notification pop up and immediately clicked it.
Zack(づ￣ 3￣)づ
hellooo~~
i went to sleep as u said
well more like Minwoo told me to
and our dad friend after hearing this, commanded us all to sleep
-_-
omg uwu ^.^
my power
wha- NO
dont uwu me youngg lady!
hmph anyways
Minwoo says hi but he is too lazy to get up and say it
omo so cute ヽ(>∀<☆)ノ
tell him i said hi too!
also good morning sunshine, slept well?
go eat breakfast
ok moooom -_-
I did sleep well tyvm
:)
im glad
wait isnt it super late there tho? (/early?)
em yh but its fine! imma sleep soon
dw~
ok..
oki imma go sleep now cuz i wake up at 6am
so bye zackie
bye isa!
s e e n
I went to my editing app and started making a lockscreen wallpaper for Minwoo to keep my promise. After half an hour I sent it to him.
Minwoo(～￣▽￣)～
*image attached*
soo what do you say?
any changes you want?
what the fuck
hey （>﹏<）
i tried!
not that
why the fuck r u awake its 5:30 am for u!!
u told Zack ur going to sleep
oh yeah only cuz he worries
i usually go to sleep right after tho
but today I went to do the edit before taking a 30 minutes nap before school
you sleep 30 mins?
why did u go to sleep so late..?
do you always do this?
well
yeah
but not always
my sleep schedule is off
i sleep either less than 4hours
or more than 10
no in-between
that
cant be healthy
oh well
im used to it so im fine
do you often have insomnia?
yeah i guess
but most of the time its not rlly insomnia per say
more like i get carried away doing stuff and forget the time
hm well i'll remind u to sleep then:)
hihi thank you
ihave to go get ready for school now
talk later?
definitely
bye~~
s e e n
I got up and made myself some coffee as I started getting ready to leave.
'6:25am shit I better run to catch that bus' I thought and ran through the door taking the keys quickly from the table.
I took a seat at the back of the bus and started looking on my phone.
Zack(づ￣ 3￣)づ
sooo
minwoo told me u havent slept
>:(
well yeah i forgot
but its okay
i mean im tired as hell now
but i drank a coffe and will get another before class
yeah speaking of
maybe u can nap during one!
hm no cant do
u kno my school is super strict
cant afford that
plus i sit in the front
and i have project today btw!
im nervous
u will do great
like on the last ones!!
also..
i wanted to ask
how is it with minwoo..?
its great!!!
he is super cool
i like him
seems like a tsundere
its cute
is he a tsundere?
nah not rlly
pretty chill
also v cute unintentionally
he resembles a puppy its amazing
but he is a bully and v mean (>~<)
hehehheehhe
love it
ok ttyl im at school
oki byeee
s e e n
I walked down the hall greeting my friends and stopping at the smoking place before class. If you saw me on the street you wouldn't think I'd smoke, but it happens sometimes and it helps with my nerves and anxiety. The bell rang and I put the cigarette out and headed to class.
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!!A/N!!
Hey guys!! So I am back from the dead,,, sorry I didn't update for SO long, I had some personal problems but I am back and I will try to update regularly! I hop everyone is okay. AND I know this chapter was a bit heavy but this is an insight to Y/N's life! Gradually I will reveal more. Sooo..who do you think Minwoo is and who is Zack? I mean I made it p obvious but yk:)
Anyways, thank you for reading so far I promise I will try to not to let you down!! Feedback is appreciated:(
Love,
Isa