They arrived at the main station, the commander waited for them on the entrance. He looks somewhat sad.
"Good job on your mission.", he said to them.
Hali didn't know what to say, should he say 'thank you, we lost our brother there.'?
He is silent, he gritted his teeth. Beside him, Solar and Ice looks the same too. They are as frustrated as him.
Blaze and Thorn is still crying.
Gempa gave the commander his salute, "i'm sorry for the improper behavior commander, we are back.", he said weakly.
"It's understandable, you guys could go back and rest first. Captain Kaizo will report the summary to me. But tomorrow you guys should report to me too, okay?", he said, he is mantaining his proffesionalism, they all know it.
But..
Can you at least show that you care?
"Where is our father?", Blaze asked him, his voice sounds cracking as he tried to stop his sob.
"He is not here.", the Commander said to him.
"He is busy, right?", Solar said.
"He is always busy, what is the death of his son anyway? Works is more important, right?", Solar sneered, but tears still can be found from the edge of his eyes.
Gempa's eyes got wider, he furrowed his eyebrows, "why are you saying that thing?, of course it's not like that...", he said, his tone is getting slightly higher.
"So? Like what?", he stare at Gempa.
"Did he know that his son died? Or maybe he didn't even know?", he asked furiously.
"Lance corporal! Behave.", Commander Kokoci said to him.
Solar gritted his teeth, he gave the commander his tapops salute and quickly walk away from there.
"Gempa, i don't know which one is more important to you. Your ideal of our 'father figure' that we haven't met for more than years or the brother we've lost.", he said to Gempa before the door got closed completely.
He strode fastly to the main room, the place where the elemental brothers usually gathered together.
That white sofa, usually Hali, Taufan, and Ice will sit there.
Right, that time, where Taufan confronted him about his manner, it's in this place too.
He stood there, staring down to the sofa in front of him.
A lot of questions is swirling inside his head.
Why did he die? If he realize it sooner, maybe he can prevent Taufan's death? Why didn't he realize it sooner? Why did Taufan manipulated the truth? Why did the others looks like they are not affected by this?
He fell, he gripped the sofa real hard. He gritted his teeth, preventing any sound to come out from his mouth.
I don't want this.
Losing a brother, if what they said is true, Taufan already lose all of his brothers back then.
How does it feels?
He always acted like there's nothing wrong.
How could he do that?
"Tell me..", he said, he clenched his fist.
"TELL ME!", he shouted desperately, tears is falling down from his eyes.
"You should answer my questions, you should have-", his words got cutted by himself.
His emotions is such a mess, he can't say any words without a sob.
He desperately cried, it hurts.
I don't want this.
It hurts.
Suddenly a hand reach him out from his back.
"It's okay.", a soothing voice that sounds soft and gentle said to him.
The navy blue jacket that he always wears, the hat...
"Taufan!", he said, he cried, trying to hold him.
Taufan smiled, "it's because you are too weak, right?"
"I can't help but fooling everyone, i can't help but trading my life.", he said, blood dripping from the part below his chest.
That injuries that caused his death.
"I told you not to be cocky right? And what? You never listened to me.", he said.
"It's your fault.", Taufan said.
Solar's eyes got wider, "Aaaaa-"
Taufan's figure fades away, it's just like what he saw on that planet.
He disappeared, he left them.
Solar tried to reach out, "i know...."
"It's my fault so.."
"Don't go! Please- Taufan!", he said, he tried to reach him.
But nothing, there's nothing.
"Aaaa....Aaaaaagh!", he shouted as tears streaming down, his golden eyes looks hazy because of the tears.
"Solar!", Ochobot called his name.
Solar could feel the hug from his behind.
"I know it's my fault.", Solar said.
"Just don't go- please.", he cried desperately.
"...Solar, calm down...", a gentle voice that sounds tired and even more sad than him said as he hugged Solar.
"..Gempa.", Solar said, his eyes got wider.
There's a lot of eyes focused on him.
But everyone is staring on him with a sad stare.
The only pair of eyes that's not there is that deep blue eyes.
"...it's okay, Solar.", Gempa said, he weakly patted Solar's back.
A cold hand joined to pat his back too, Ice hugged him as his tears fell. He can't say anything.
He is not qualified to say anything.
He is just like Solar, he is mad, he is scared, he is guilty.
He can't stop the grief from his heart.
Blaze cried loudly and Thorn rushed to him too. They hugged Solar.
As if they tried to comfort him.
But they all know, they are trying to comfort theirself.
Hali is standing there, he looks so lost. He wiped the tears that keeps falling.
But it's useless, as soon as he wipes it, the new stream is falling down again.
It hurts.
He hugged him too, he hugged them.
"..i'm sorry.", he said.
He didn't know why he said that.
He didn't know for who did he said that.
But it's the only thing he could say.
Because his heart is also in a mess, his mind is in turmoil.
Just like Solar. He is haunted by that feelings.
That torturing feelings.
He hates it.
He really hates it.
He hates it that it's only the six of them who shared the hug.
But isn't back then, it's all the same too?
They all died, leaving Taufan behind.
He is the only one who bear everything back then.
But now, they all have to bear the pain of losing one brother.
That one cruel brother.
//Author's note//
Aaaa thank tou for your kind words guys! Dont worry im okay now! I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter uwu 💖
And also that title is hehehhehehehe because im hehehehhehehe/sorry
(Sometimes my sense of naming is like that, pls forgive me)
Author's corner :
Solar : where is our father?
Taufan's ghost : he is out there, sipping coffee as he reads the book of hoe to berdikari.
Solar : Taufan! You are here! Dont leave us!
Taufan : from now on you guys should be berdikari ok.
See u on the next chapter!