AN: Next chapter will be longer.
I was speed walking down the street, trying to figure out where to go.
I was tired and hungry.
My body ached everywhere and black spots kept flashing across my vision.
I needed more blood so that my body could heal itself completely.
But what about mentally?
Mentally I was fucked.
My emotions were everywhere.
Anger
Hurt
Fear
Hope
Pain
Longing
Sadness
All mashed together.
I felt so lost.
I felt like a child.
With nowhere to go.
And no one to turn to.
I knew I should warn Jo about Kai.
But I couldn't...
I'd never felt so conflicted in my life.
Part of me wanted to scream, while another wanted to cry.
Being kidnapped and tortured by Kai had brought back the memories of Dahlia's torture full force.
And Kol wasn't here to help me through it this time.
I felt tears start to fill my eyes.
I wiped them quickly but they kept coming.
I saw a bar out of the corner of my eye and turned abruptly.
I quickly compelled my way in and rushed to the bathroom.
I ordered the women already in there out and slid to the ground with my back against the wall.
The tears kept coming.
Wave after wave.
Eventually, the tears stopped coming and the only sound that remained was the music from the dance floor.
I leaned my head back against the wall.
The crushing weight on my chest was gone and now...only rage remained.
My eyes flickered to the bathroom door and my blood sang a song of death and destruction.
My eyes darkened as my fangs extended.
And the monster was let out...
*******
I chugged the last bottle of bourbon as I sat on the bar counter. My eyes swept the destruction I caused.
Bodies littered the ground of the bar.
I estimated there to be around 30 bodies.
This bar had been the closest place I could find after I left the hotel.
I could feel the blood that was staining my skin, slowly drying.
I was so angry...
I didn't know what to do.
After I left the hotel, all I wanted to do was cause pain.
I wanted others to suffer as I did.
But now that I did that, all I felt was emptiness and a strange longing.
For what...I didn't know.
For so long, I had been alone in a crowd.
My siblings never understood.
Jeremy tried to but how could he?
He wasn't like me.
He couldn't find pleasure in causing pain...
In hurting others
In giving in to the rage and letting it control you.
Kol was the first person to ever truly understand me.
He knew what it was like to feel alone.
To have a wave of crushing anger that never seemed spent.
He was my best friend.
Klaus and Rebekah used to joke that we were twins.
Which we kind of were.
We always knew when the other was in danger.
When one of us was feeling down.
We knew the best ways to cheer each other up.
Typically murder sprees.
We had a connection like no other.
And I knew without a doubt that Kol was on his way to Whitmore.
God, what a mess that would be.
I took another long drink.
The alcohol burned my throat.
I placed the bottle beside me on the counter.
Part of me realized I was completely drunk from drinking the blood of drunk people and all the bottles of alcohol in the bar itself.
Whatever.
Right now I didn't want to feel.
Mainly because I was most likely going to have a breakdown when I was sober.
Too much had happened in so few days and it was killing me.
I didn't know what to do...
About anything really.
Kai was going to go after Jo.
I knew that but what could I do?
How could I protect her, when I didn't even know what was happening?
Who do I choose?
My Mom, who gave me up to protect me.
Or my Dad, who I never really knew.
I sighed out loud.
He snapped my neck.
He kidnapped me.
He tortured me.
And yet...
I couldn't bring myself to hate him.
Even though I knew he didn't give a rats ass about me.
But...was that really his fault?
He was a sociopath...
It wasn't like he could choose not to be.
He didn't have a switch that he could flip like vampires.
Kai couldn't force himself to care about me.
Or anyone else for the matter.
And I couldn't blame him for that.
He was a result of his environment.
Sure, what he did was bad.
I mean, killing kids.
Who were also his siblings?
That was a whole nother level of messed up.
But in the end, I couldn't hate him.
Did I have to like him or even love him?
Hell no.
Could I kill him if necessary to protect Jo?
I don't know...
Maybe.
Growing up, I had always wanted a dad.
I know I had Grayson but he was more like an uncle to me.
He never really felt like my dad.
Same with Miranda.
Although that was more because I instinctively knew I had a mom out there somewhere.
Even if I didn't remember her.
I didn't even know why any of this was happening.
Jo mentioned something about a merge and prison world.
And I put that together with the information I got from the old Gemini witch.
From what I could tell, Gemini twins were supposed to merge at some point in their lives.
Jo and Kai were twins.
So they were supposed to merge and whoever won became coven leader.
But that didn't happen...
Why though?
Was it because Kai was a siphoner?
That would make the most sense.
The Gemini Coven wouldn't want a siphoner as their coven leader because they are magicists.
So what happened?
Did they tell Kai no and he snapped, killing his younger siblings in anger?
Then they decided to put him in a prison world thing as a punishment.
And he escaped somehow.
Why do I have a feeling the Mystic Falls gang is to blame?
Probably because it was always their fault.
And they have a habit of releasing evil supernatural creatures.
Examples: Silas, Mikael, Esther, Tomb vampires, and possibly more in the time I was away in New Orleans.
If it was their fault that Kai was out and Jo dies as a result.
There will be hell to pay.
Now back to Kai.
But what was his plan?
Get revenge by killing the coven?
Or his surviving siblings?
Now I regret not asking more questions.
Then it might make more sense.
I jump off the counter, looking around.
I should get out of here before the police come or something.
I was not in the mood to do a mass compelling and I think it would be rather obvious to the gang if the entirety of the police department were eaten by a vampire.
And seeing as I don't want to hear the guaranteed lecture from Elena, I'm gonna move my ass out of here.
I sped out of the building heading to my hotel.
When I got there I entered quietly.
I went to my bed and collapsed on it.
Not caring that I was getting blood all over it.
My sober ass would tomorrow but right now?
Who cared...