It's almost 2 years since I got married with that kuto. We got married two months after announcing our engagement within the entire family of Kim and Villaflor. We planned on filing an annulment after 3 months after we got married pero, pinanganak atang may balat sa pwet ang lalaking 'yon kaya hindi natuloy. His grandmother got sick and stayed in the hospital for almost a year at gustong-gusto nito na palagi kaming nakikita at kami ang gustong magbantay sa kaniya. Kaya ang nangyari salitan kami ni kuto. If I have class he will be the one to look for grandma after my class ako naman dahil may mga shooting schedules din siya. He is an actor. And that is also the reason why our marriage is only within the family kasi ayaw niyang masira career niya. Like, hello? I don't like to be married to him 'no? Because he of his job. Lahat na uungkat kapag artista ka.
After his grandmother got well, I thought we can now proceed to our plan but no, his grandmother wants us to visit her every Saturday and now, they're asking us to give them a grandchild. Everything was just so frustrating. Gusto kong bumalik sa panahong 5 years old pa lang ako. 'Yong umiiyak lang ako dahil sa laruan, gutom or dahil gusto akong patulugin ni Nana During pero ayoko.
I'm in my second year of completing my residency and they're asking me for a grandchild? Don't they know that it is so hard to get pregnant while studying?
And, ew! I wouldn't like to have sex with that kuto. Over my dead sexy body! Make love, pwede pa. Oo na! I fell in love with that arrogant man. Sino ba ang hindi? He may be arrogant but sometimes he's sweet. Siguro? Well, at least for me. Kung nakikita niya akong nag-aaral pa rin kahit madaling araw na, he will give me a glass milk and cookies. The cookies that I baked, of course. Mababaw ba? Mababaw na kung mababaw.
And, oh! Before I forgot, I live with that kuto for almost 2 years now. After a month getting married, my mom and his grandparents forced us to live together. They bought a house for us. It's not too big and is also not too small. Tamang-tama lang na palagi naming nakikita at makakasalamuha ang isa't-isa. Okay na din 'yon para mas lalo akong mainspire. Charr! Pero ngayon, madalas madaling araw na siyang umuuwi. He's so busy with his acting career and with the ZK Pharmaceuticals. Inilipat na kasi sa kaniya ang kalahati nito after our marriage. Parang naging trophy wife pa ako dahil dun.
They're asking us why I don't get pregnant? Well, kasalanan nila 'yon. Bakit ba kasi nila nilagyan ng tatlong kwarto ang bahay the reason why we're not staying at the same room. At kahit na iisang room lang meron ang bahay na ito I wouldn't want to stay at the same room with him.
Sa labas siya matutulog. Aba! Bakit ako ba ang mag-aadjust? Hindi ako makakapagfocus sa pag-aaral kung iisang kwarto lang kami.
Though, my room is connected to his. Iisa lang 'yong bathroom namin. Pagitan ng room namin ay 'iyong bathroom. I can go directly to his room if I wanted to. Pinipigilan ko lang ang sarili ko dahil baka marape ko siya. Echos lang!
Noong araw din na lumipat kami ay tsaka ko lang nalaman na artista pala ang lalaking 'yon. I was like, OH MY GOODNESS! WHY?! Malay ko ba. Hindi naman ako kasi nanonood ng TV. 'Yong mga naging crush ko na celebrity ay nakikita ko lang 'yon sa search section ng Instagram. Fate is really playing on me. Years ago I told my friends that I don't want to have a celebrity boyfriend but, WHAT IN A FREAKING WORLD HAPPENED?! I got an actor as my HUSBAND. As in ASAWA! Kinain ko lang naman ang sinabi ko noon.
He wouldn't like his fans to know that I am his wife. Noon okay lang sakin dahil wala pa naman akong feelings sa kaniya. Pero noong tumagal, nasasaktan na ako. Sometimes, I get jealous. I wanted to shout at those ladies that he is my husband but I can't dahil baka magagalit siya sa akin at baka tuluyang iwan na nga ako. This is freaking frustrating!
I am currently cleaning the house. Matapos kong mag-mop ay pinunasan ko 'yong bintana. I don't like to have maids here. Kaya ko namang maglinis at hindi naman masyadong madumi dahil hindi naman kami nagtatagal dito sa bahay. Siya madalas wala dahil may shooting o kaya pumupunta sa company. Ako naman, busy sa pag-aaral o kaya pumupunta sa Cafe ni Kyza. Tinutulungan ko siya doon. Masaya kaya maging waitress. Pero hindi niya ako binabayaran, syempre tulong ko na 'yon sa kaniya. No, binabayaran niya pala ako ng CAKE at solve na ako.
Muntik pa akong mahulog sa upuan ng biglang bumukas ang pintuan.
The man grabbed my arms. I glared at him. Aba! Aba! Ngayon lang umuwi ang walking talong na ito.
"Hoy! Hindi ka ba marunong kumatok?! At bakit ngayon ka lang?!" - tinulak ko siya para ilayo mula sakin baka nangangamoy na ako dahil kanina pa ako naglilinis dito. Baka mafail 'yong operation making the kutong-talong fall in love with me.
He rolled his eyes. So gay. Ew. "You sound like a wife."
Oh my goodness! Baka kaya ayaw niya sa akin is dahil gay siya? Omo! I facepalmed mentally.
"Ikaw na kuto ka, asawa mo naman talaga ako." - I put my hands on my waist and giving him a death glare.
"A nagger wife, I mean." - He grinned at me at dumiretso sa sala. "I stayed at the office may tinapos ako dahil magiging busy ako next week dahil may shooting na naman kami." Right! Pagkatapos naming bisitahin ang lola at lolo niya ay inihatid niya lang ako dito sa bahay at siya naman, pumunta sa opisina niya. Imagine our routine? How can I get pregnant because of that? Well, it's fine ayaw kong mabuntis habang nag-aaral. Ang gulo ko, 'di ba?
I stomped my feet. Paano na 'yong operation ko? Mapopostpone na naman. Paano kung may nag-operation making the Vladimir Champ Quiroz fall in love dun sa set? Naningkit ang singkit kong mga mata.
Baka iwanan ako ng lalaking to? Wait, he can't do that. I am the legal wife. Walang sa kanila. Akin lang ang Champ ko. Ay wow! Makaangkin. Well, asawa ko naman talaga soya. Hindi ko lang maangkin-angkin sa public and that is so annoying. Sarap hambalusin ng mga babae parang tuko kung madikit sa kaniya.
Bakit ba kasi sikat itong asawa ko? Arrgh! So irritating.
I was stomping my feet as I walked toward the garden to water the plants. At ang hinayupak andito na naman. May pool kasi malapit garden. He is sitting on a steel chair near a cement table drinking a coffee. Relax na relax, ah? Hambalusin kita dyan eh!
Wait. Hindi pa pala natutulog ang lalaking to.
"Hoy, talong na humihinga." -tawag ko sa kaniya. He furrowed his brows. Bakit? Hindi pa ba siya sanay na tinatawag ko siyang talong o kuto? 2 years ko na siyang tinatawag niyan, ah?
He mouthed 'what' to me. "You should rest." I said as I grabbed my hair and twisted it to make a messy bun. Naiinitan na ako at medyo malagkit na rin ang katawan ko.
He turns his gaze away from me. Ano na namang problema ng lalaking to? Sobrang pangit ko ba? Madungis ba ako?
"Don't you know how to dress properly, you duck?" - he said without looking at me. He's calling me duck because of my pouty lips. Hmm, paganyan-ganyan lang siya baka gusto niya lang akong halikan.
Oh? Come here, bebe boy my lips are ready.
Tiningnan ko naman ang itsura ko. I am wearing a white sando and a black dolphin shorts. I am sweating hard at manipis lang ang sando ko kaya nahahalata ang nipples ko. Oh? At dahil wala akong hiya...
"Oh? Hindi ka ba nakakita ng boobs?" - I teased him.
"I've seen a lot and much bigger than yours." - he said while stuttering. Parang ayaw kong maniwala sa sinabi niya. But thinking of him watching others boobs makes me wanna wring his neck. At nakakainsulto 'yon, ha? Oo na! Flat na kung flat!
"Really? Baka hindi mo lang mahalata 'yong akin. Want to see it more vivid?" - I teased him again while holding the hem of my sando slowly pulling it upwards.
Gusto kong tumawa ng malakas nang pumula ang batok at tenga niya. Oh? Sweetie, I guess you're having a hard time. A really really hard one. I giggled.
I was about to tease him more when he suddenly stood up and glared at me.
"Are you a hired porn-star for free?!" - Napangiwi ako ng bigla niya akong sigawan. Wow ha? Ako pornstar? Eh, hindi pa nga ako nagka boyfriend at wala pa akong sex experience. "Why are you stripping in a public place?!" - With that he stormed away. I was taken aback and I looked around. I pouted my pouty lips. How is it a public place? Our house is surrounded by a very high wall. Walang makakasilip sa bahay namin.
Paanong---
Ah! I smirked. Tingin ko naapektuhan siya sakin.
I hummed while watering the plan. Sa tingin ko rin magiging successful ang operation ko. Sa tingin ko lang.
I giggled. Nababaliw na ata ko. Tumatawa akong mag-isa but who cares? No one can see me here.
I went back to my room para makaligo na. You may be wondering kung bakit hindi ako dumiretso sa bathroom. Wala naman kasi akong super powers para lumusot sa wall. The bathroom's door is inside my room.
The moment I enter my room I immediately take off my shorts and sando leaving my undies on. I put them in the laundry basket under the sink in the bathroom. I was about to enter the shower room when my phone rang.
Bitch Pechay is Calling...
Ano na naman kailangan ng babaeng to?
"Hello, love." - I greeted her.
"What the heck?! Don't call me love you bitch! Umayos ka nagdidilim ang paningin ko sa 'yo. If you want to call someone, love. Humanap ka ng boyfriend! "- Lumunok ba to ng megaphone? Ang lakas ng boses. My friends don't know about me having a husband. Secret nga daw sabi ng asawa ko, 'di ba? I feel like a criminal because of doing this. I don't like keeping a secret from my friends.
I laughed at her gusto ko siyang inisin pa. "What do you want, love?"
"ARGH! I'm going to kill you! Come here to the Café we'll prepare for Dane's birthday. You'll cook pasta, I'll make the sweets, Nerize will cook for the viands and I already hire someone for the decorations." - She informed me.
Yeah, yeah, yeah! Of course! This always happens whenever we have a celebration. Me, cooking the pasta. Kyza baked the cakes and cupcakes. Nerize for the viand and Mari as the photographer. Shy for the decorations and Gwyn - wala, walang talagang ambag ang babaeng 'yon. Ganda lang ang meron siya. But some things are different now.
Shy's not around. She was taken away by her parents and it's already a year ago. She was sent back to Spain. But she didn't know. Why? Because, for Pete's sake! She's been in a coma for almost 2 years. Nawawalan na ng pag-asa ang mga magulang niya na magamot siya dito sa Pilipinas kaya dinala siya ng mga ito sa ibang bansa.
I knew that there was already something wrong with her during our last conversation in Zoom. But I just shrugged it off. I also forgot to talk to her because of that marriage thing and moving in with Champ.
The time we moved into this house is also the time she got into an accident because of an unsaid reason. But I know for sure na may kinalaman ang demonyong asawa niya rito.
Ang alam lang namin ay binubugbog siya nito pero hindi namin alam kung bakit. Kahit ano pa man 'yon, wala siyang karapatang pagbuhatan ng kamay ang kaibigan ko.
"Hey!" - Oh? I forgot, I was still on the phone with Kyza.
I sniffed hindi ko namalayan na tumutulo na pala ang luha ko. "Okay. I'll be there."
"Hey, it's fine. I heard that Shy's already responding. She'll be awake soon." - Kyza might be a bitch but she's also sweet. Sometimes. She doesn't want us to see her sweet side pero lumalabas pa rin naman 'yon ng hindi niya namamalayan.
"I hope so. Bye, see you there. Love you."
"Love yo--- BITCH!" - I laughed when she immediately ended the call. So funny!
I put my phone back on my vanity desk. And enter the bathroom.
I was shocked to know that Champ was in there.
Wait? Nakita niya ba ako? I didn't close the door and I'm just on my panty. Bigla akong nataranta. What if he saw me?
Teka, bakit ba ako natataranta? Mas okay nga 'yon, para makita niya ang sexy body ko and with that, he'll fall for me. Ay? Bakit parang ang pangit. The idea of him falling in love with me because of my body is so damn ugly. Para naman akong pokpok nun. Okay lang naman maging pokpok niya. Pokpok only for you, Champ. Haha kidding!
I sat on my bed and my arms on the side while slightly bending my back, waiting for that kuto to finish taking a bath.
I lift my left leg and place it on the bed while my face is facing the ceiling. Thinking of nothing in particular.
I heard the shower room opened. Napatingin naman ako doon.
I licked my lips when Champ walked. His hair is still dripping wet. He uses the towel that was wrapped on his neck to dry it.
My eyes went down. So sad, his lower part was covered by a towel. Kailan ka pa naging manyak Jeva Leyn?
He looked at me for a second pero binawi niya agad 'yon. At dumeretso sa kwarto niya.
Napakunot ang noo ko. Am I not seductive to him? Am I really that ugly? That guy is so unbelievable.
Padabog akong pumasok sa bathroom.
Makikita ng lalaking 'yon! Makikita niyang malaking kawalan ang hindi pansinin ang maganda kong katawan.
Pasalamat nga siya at may pa live show pa ako sa kaniya. Isa siyang malaking talong! Napakalaking walking talong! Isa siyang kutong-lupa!
Nagmamadali akong maligo para makapunta agad ako sa Café ni Kyza.
After taking a bath, I do my morning skin care routine. Ayaw kong magmukhang losyang. I maybe stressed but I should not look so stressed out baka iwanan na talaga ako ng asawa ko.
Pang-ilang ulit ko na bang sinabi 'yan? Fine! I am really afraid that he might leave me. Hindi naman ako mahal ng lalaking kaya madali lang sa kaniya ang iwan ako.
I blew dry my hair and braid it. Para hindi na ako mahirapan mamaya sa paglagay ng hairnet. Syempre dapat malinis ka kung magluluto. Kinakain 'yon. Pumapasok 'yon sa loob mo kaya dapat malinis.
I wore a black choker sleeveless knitted crop top and a yellow cowl skirt ending above the knee. I wore a pair of white sneakers so it'll be easy for me to move around while cooking.
I took a navy blue sleeveless mini dress with a slit on both sides with a long zipper in front of my closet and a pair of stilettos. I put it in a paper bag. 'Yon ang susuotin ko mamaya.
I went out of my room. Nakita kong nakaupo sa couch si Champ. Oh? Walang shooting? Work or something? That's new.
He looked at me like he was examining me. I raised my brow at him.
"I'm going out." - I told him because I am not asking his permission.
"Where?" - Wow? May paki?
"I am going to my friend's café. We'll be preparing for my other friend's birthday." - Baka isipin niya na nakikipag date ako sa kung sino-sino. Minus points 'yon.
"With that outfit?" – I looked at myself. What is wrong with this?
I just shrugged malalate na ako. Marami-rami pa akong lulutuin.
"You can come if you like." - For him to know that I am telling the truth I may sound defensive but who cares? I also wanted him to be there gusto ko na kasing sabihin sa mga kaibigan ko ang tungkol samin. So, I gave him the address.
"I'll stay here. I have to memorize the script." - Nanlumo ako. Work na naman? Okay, bahala ka sa buhay mo!
Umalis na agad ako.
I drove fast towards Kyza's café. I know how to drive so that I don't need to ride a taxi or to hire a driver to drive for me. Already big enough to take care of myself.
Nang makarating ako sa café ay nagtatakang tumingin sa akin ang mga kaibigan ko.
I am not in the mood. Gusto kong sakalin ang lalaking 'yon. Wala man lang time para sakin. Paano na 'yong operation ko? Hays! Puro fail!
"What happened to you?" - Nerize asked.
"Am I not beautiful? Am I not sexy? Am I not ---" - napatigil ako sa kakatanong sa kanila ng makita ko kung paano sila nagpipigil sa pagtawa.
"Really?! What kind of question is that?" - natatawang tanong Mari.
"Hey! Hindi ka magiging crush ni Dane noon kung hindi ka maganda." - Nerize said. Geez! Why bring back old memories?
"Umayos-ayos ka nga kanina pa kita gustong sakalin." - Kyza.
"Eh kasi, bakit hindi ako pinapansin ni ---"
"WHAT?!" - All of them shouted in horror except Gwyn because she knew everything anak siya ng kapatid ni mom, 'di ba? At nakita kong natatawa siya. I rolled my eyes. Nakakainis!
"You already have a guy yet, didn't you tell us?" - Wow bilis makaconclude nitong si Mari, ah? Well, tama naman siya. May lalaki nga ako.
"Ha? Ano? Ewan ko sa 'yo!" - Pumasok ako sa kusina. Narinig ko pang humalakhak si Gwyn. Sana lang talaga hindi niya sasabihin. Gusto ko kasi galing talaga sa akin ang impormasyon. At sana mabulunan siya. Lakas makatawa, eh.
Mabuti na lang talaga at hindi na nila ako kinulit hindi ko alam kung dapat ko na bang sabihin. Hindi ko kasi alam kung okay lang ba kay Champ o hindi.
Naging busy na kami sa aming mga iba't ibang gawin. Except for Gwyn na naging display lang.
Parang supervisor palakad-lakad, tingin dito, tingin doon. Ako 'yong napapagod sa ginagawa niya. Nakakapagod kaya 'yong walang ginagawa. So boring.
Nang matapos na namin lahat ng gawain, umakyat na kami sa second floor nitong café. Café slash bahay ni Kyza. The whole floor on the second floor is her room.
Kumpleto lahat ng gamit doon. Naligo ulit ako dahil feeling ko ang baho ko na, dumikit sa balat ko 'yong amoy ng mga niluto kong pasta. Sayang naman 'yong inapply ko na skincare kanina. Hindi man lang umabot ng isang buong araw.
After naming mag prepare and everything bumaba na kami.
The café now is closed. Walang pwedeng pumasok na hindi invited. We also wanted to make it exclusive. Dane's fiancée is an actress. She might invite other celebrities. Baka magkagulo ang mga tao kapag nalaman nila.
So 'yon na nga, tama nga ako. Marami nga mga iba't ibang sikat na mga tao na pumunta sa party na 'to.
Ayaw ko na tuloy mag message para kay Dane. May pa message-message pa kasi silang nalalaman. Super nakakahiya. Mga sikat na tao ang nandito ngayon. Mga bloggers, influencers, businessmen, artista, mga ka-work ni Dane and many more.
Buti naman at parang nasa panig ko ang langit ngayon. My friends also doesn't want to give him a message so, we planned to play a song for him na lang.
Noong tinawag na ang atensyon namin ay umakyat na kami sa isang stage. May mini stage kasi dito sa loob ng café kumpleto rin ang mga instruments.
Mari pushed me towards the drums, Kyza pick up the bass guitar, Gwyn on the lead guitar, si Nerize na parang tangang nakahawak sa tambourine, ang laki ng ambak, ah? At si Mari 'yong kakanta. Hindi po kami nag practice. Impromptu ito. Haha. Sana lang maging maganda ang kalalabasan.
Okay, as I've said, I am not prepared for this. Nakamini dress ako tapos mag-dadrum? Hay nako! Pero kere ko to. Aja!
I positioned myself. Bahagyang umangat ang damit ko pero anong paki ko? Hindi naman nila makikita dahil natabunan ng drums at dim yng lights kaya okay lang.
I was beating the drum when the café's door opened and a group of men came in.
I was stunned. What is he doing here? I thought he was busy memorizing his script? I shook my head and continued beating the drum.
But I and my friends stiffed when we saw the man behind him.
What the fuck is he doing here?! Ang kapal naman ng mukha niyang magpakita dito.