•• I am afraid °°°°
Jin's POV
"TODAY JUNGKOOK! TOMORROW JUNG FUCKING KOOK AND ALL THE TIME JUNGKOOK! DID YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT ME?! YOU ALWAYS ASKED HIM IF HE WAS OK ,YOU TRIED TO COMFORT HIM BUT DID YOU EVER ASK ME IF I WAS?! "
"KIM TAEHYUNG! KIM SEOKJIN! KIM NAMJOON"
"Did you hear the KIM? I'M YOUR FUCKING BLOOD BROTHER BUT YOU CAST ME ASIDE FOR AN OUTSIDER "
. "SCREW THAT KIM NAME YOU JERKS "
"Jin hyung, you were my only hope! You were my elder brother and I expected you.... To for once, give me an attention but NO! YOU NEVER DID "
Sighing
I feel so guilty
Taehyung was right
We left him, we paid no attention to how he feels, we failed to realize how he was suffering
We deserved every word he spat at us
I deserve it!
I joined my hands together and brought it to my face to wipe my tears
I burried my face in my palm , lifting it up after a moment to stare out at my balcony
What should I do?
I have done so many things to hurt Taehyung
I don't deserve to be a brother
I'm such a horrible big brother
How could we
How could I?
But then, I didn't know
I was too oblivious too know
Maybe I was ignorant to know
I was blinded by everything that I never realized how he feels
Taehyubg couldn't even hurt a fly
But he changed, all because oof me
It's all my fault
And now I'm crying
I'm crying because I'm such a horrible person
I know I cant get myself to face Taehyung
Not after everything
Now that I think about it, I know he had suffered
Bring alone
Loneliness
I stared out at the darkness,
It feels so serene outside
It's almost too mesmerizing to see the calm nature
Meanwhile, I, who lived in this calm nature isn't calm myself
I feel so miserable right now
And after a while of grieving, I reached a decision
I'll make things right
I can make it right
Maybe make it the best
. I can't turn back time, but
I can make the present and future right
***
Come in
A low voice from Namjoon rang and I pushed tue door opened to reveal him in the same condition as me
His face was buried in his palm
Guess I'm not telling only one feeling guilty then
"Namjoon"
He snapped his neck to look at me as I relaxed in the couch
"Taehyung is right, we are his brothers and ---"
"I know hyung "
He cut me off, making me look at him with a raised brow
"Ok then if you know, I want you to bring him back. Don't keep him in that dungeon again. We have to make it up to him. He has suffered so much emotionally let's make it up to him"
He sat still with his forehead creased as if in deep thoughts
After a long while of no reply, I shot up abruptly
His gaze followed my actions as I turned to leave
I stopped , my back still turned to him, tilting my head to the slightly to glance at him before muttering
"You get our little brother out of that pit or I get him out myself "
I warned, trying to keeps my tone as low as possible before exiting his office
***
"You"
"You will regret what you just said "
I shivered as his words as I recalled it
After putting on my pyjamas, I trailed my fingers on the marks he had left on my arm
They were red, probably from how his nails dug into my skin
But that didn't bother me compared what he had said
I walked out of the closet to my balcony, feeling the cold air brush on my exposed arm since I wore a short sleeves top.
But the shiver his words sent through me was more than the what the cold air does
I didn't mean any word I said, everything I had said was out of pure stress and of sorrow
I just......... I want to apologize to him but..... Will he even listen to me?
At first, the tranquility of the forest at night used to calm me down but now, I feel so tensed looking at it
.
A low pitched scream left my mouth when I saw a figure land beside me on the balcony out of nowhere
"J-Jungkook"
I stumbled back when he took menacing steps towards me
He had this dark look in his eyes and a mischievous smirk on his lips that made me shake in fear
Without a word, I felt his arms around me, with his other hand muffling my scream
In seconds, I was thrown to the ground, only to realize he had taken me somewhere
It was dark here but I could easily see we were in the forest
The atmosphere get creepy with only the sounds of various insects and the only source of light was the illuminating moon
I let out a scream when I felt my body ache at the sudden action
The dried leaves screeched under me as I crawled away from the figure in black which I assumed to be Jungkook
His smirk was wide on his face
He grabbed my arm and pulled me to my feet abruptly
I whimpered at the tightness of his grip but stayed silent
My quivering lips and fear filled eyes stared into his eyes that held unexplainable looks in them
"I told you, I will make you regret what you said "
My lips quivered more to the extent that I couldn't close my mouth
"J-Jungkook "
I felt hot tears well up in my eyes as I tried to stable my legs that wanted to give in.
He showed no reaction to my state and proceeded to move his head towards my face
His face by passed mine and to my neck
I stiffened, feeling his cold breath brush against my ears
"Jungkook, please, you are hurting me "
I heard a scoff escape his throat
"Taehyung had shown himself to be a man right? "
I didn't reply him
"Do you even know what that means ?"
A single sob left my mouth at how his grip tightened
He was drawing blood from his nails that dug in my wrist
"I'll show you...... Right here, what being a man means "
No
"Jungkook I.... "
I started but the panic in my voice wouldn't allow me to speak
He let out an amused snort
"I didn't mean..... "
"You let Taehyung touch you the way he wants"
He trailed his figure on my neck, making me stiffen
"He marked you"
His voice grew angry
"And now, why can't I also touch you? "
"I'm even your mate"
I knew he wasn't himself
It didn't sound like him at all
That was when I started to regret what I had said .
"Please don't hurt me "
I was close to breaking down from fear and I tried to convince myself he wouldn't actually hurt me
He laughed manically for a while before I felt his hand grip onto my shirt
I didn't have time to react and he had already ripped it mercilessly
I yelped at his action and tried to hold onto it, to prevent my exposed chest from being seen by him
"I like it when I see you cry in pain like this "
I didn't look up at him, tightening my arms around my body as I cried
I wanted to fight him or rip myself away from his grasp, so I could at least run away but he was way too strong and I felt so fragile
He pulled my hair from my face to reveal my neck
He leaned toward and It was the same place Taehyung had bitten me
This time I wasn't going to allow him to bite me so pushed his chest harshly
He was taken off guard and stumbled back as I turned to run away, still crying
A startled scream left my mouth when I felt my hair being gripped onto.
I was slammed harshly on the leaves covered ground
The action sent a wave of dizziness through my head
I whimpered and tried to crawl away but my hair was once again grabbed
This time, he raised my head so that I would look at him
His vampire side had taken over and I knew it wasn't good
I was screwed
"Don't. Test. My. Patience "
He snarled and I felt myself shrinking at his voice
I fell on my back when his push and he was already hovering on top of me
"No...... No..... Jungkook please..... You can't do this "
He smirked and leaned foward
My eyes went wide when I felt a sharp piercing through my neck
He had bitten me
That didn't stop there because he pulled away once again only to bite my shoulder
Then my arms
I realized he was biting randomly
I cried in pain at every bite he left on my body
I was getting lightheaded and terrified at the same time
He was showing no mercy at how ruthless he bit me
I cried and cried and cried for so long that my tears were no more flowing
It was when I realized how soaked I was, then I knew it was raining
My crying hand turned to chokes and hiccups
He pulled away to look into my eyes
His smirk still wide
"Wow, what a piece of art I have done there"
I shook my head at him pleadingly
I looked down at his lips covered in blood and some drippings from the corner of it
"Now, should we continue with our main objective ? "
My eyes grew wide in horror, knowing he wasn't done with me
"No..... Please...stop"
I covered my face with my palm , feeling extremely weak and embarrassed at how my body was being exposed
Taehyung had hurt me, but he didn't go as far as jungkook has gone. He never tried to rape me as Jungkook is doing. But I can't help but to blame myself for everything that is happening to me. Because if only I had been quiet, Jungkook wouldn't hurt me that way
My chest was bare as a result of the ripped shirt but I tried to hold onto the piece left, not ready to face him half naked
I screamed, kick and squirm myself under him, hoping he would show some mercy but it all went in vain. It was cold, my body had gone numb from the cold and I couldn't even feel my legs.
"Shhh, it's ok..... I'm just showing you how a man is, don't you want that? "
I sniffled and shook my head pleadingly at him
"No..... No....... I'm sorry..... I"
"I didn't mean it..... Please just stop "
That was the only statement I thought could save me, so I apologized. He stopped talking trail in of his fingers on my bare chest after I had said this words
"Say that again"
He dramatically brought his ears forward as if he couldn't hear me
"I....... I said I'm sorry. Please stop"
He quirked an eyebrow at me before he snickered. His locks hair damped on his eyes and dripping of rain water as he laughed
He grabbed my hair roughly and lifted my face close to his before muttering
"That is what good girls should say....... Don't. Ever. Double cross me"
My body was numb so I could hardy feel the sting of my hair being pulled. I watched as he stood up abruptly from hovering above me
It took one or two steps from me before I panicked
"J-Jungkook"
I called making him stop with his back turned to me
"Please don't leave me here "
He tilted his head slightly to glance at me before he proceeded to leave, ignoring my pleas
"Jungkook! Jungkook please "
He was already gone by that time, leaving me in this scary woods, alone
I cried my eyes out in fear of not surviving by dawn
Soon the coldness had crept into my body. I knew I was freezing because I couldn't feel any part of my body
I was soaked in blood as well despite the rain that keep washing it away
My eyelids grew heavy but I struggled to stay awake
I was slowly falling unconscious and I couldn't hang on anymore. I don't know if it was the feeling of dying that took over me but I felt like giving up.
Maybe death will not feel all that bad
And since I began to feel like the darkness that was struggling to overtake my vision was far better and warner than staying awake, I let my hand drop to my side and surrendered to the darkness.
****
One week had passed and no one has heard her say a single word.She only stares at a random direction for the twenty four hours in a day . Her acts has started to take a toll on each of them. She only hears voices talking around her but she doesn't really notice them.
The trauma of that night's incident refuses to let her rest as she keeps dreaming about it repeatedly. She hopes she never sees his face again and the thought of everything sends a sick feeling down her body.
It was the first time a voice caught her attention, only for her to turn and see Jerry's face sitting in front of her. He purses his lips at her and she finds herself scanning his body. In an attempt to touch her, she flinches so fast that his hands began to shake as he retreats them and he ends up apologizing to her
She's starting to think she's becoming a bit mental since she still feels the touch of Jungkook crawl on her poor abused and bite filled skin. Well, speaking of the bite marks , they had healed when she became conscious
She honestly didn't expect to be alive by now but she was quite relieved. She hadn't told anything to anyone and assume they already have a hunch or more
"Luna, you can't keep on like this "
She finds herself staring at him blankly, his voice seeming a bit distant from her ears
"Just let everything out.... Don't keep the pain in you"
She stares at him blankly
"It's ok if you cry it all out, we are here for you "
This time the words stung her heart so much that her lips parted to say something after a week of being deaf. Vainly, she feels her lips rather quiver and tears stinging her eyes as they gathered to flow
The moment a tear slides down her face, she feels herself bring pulled into a hug. To both of their surprises, she doesn't flinch at his touch anymore, it seemed she had halfway overcome the trauma.
But she could still feel her scars, those emotional scars hurt her to no end. She feels so broken and hurt. She feels so abused and disgusted. She feels so rejected than the word itself
Her cries get louder and it draws others attention to the door way. A smile of relief in their faces they realize she has finally moved from the position she was in after what seemed like ages
"Shhh, it's ok Luna , it's ok..... It won't happen again, we won't allow it again. I promise "
She can feel the spot on his shoulder where her chin was paced totally soaked by her tears and sweet. His white t -shirts drenched with her tears and sweats.
"Do you want us to teach him a more lesson? "
He asked, probably trying to make her feel better
"Luca already taught him a lesson, he almost killed him but left him for your sake ".
The mention of her brother makes her relief. A sense of relaxation takes over her as she knows that at least, he cares. The Luca she knows is still there meaning she hadn't lost him at all
But she pulls away from the hug with a worried look.... Jerry studies her for a while before he questions " What's wrong? "..
Her puffy eyes meet his green eyes
" Please don't hurt him.... " She pleads and every person who heard her gets puzzled at her consideration. They couldn't believe their ears that she was letting him off the hook this time. Just like that and it worried her brother who was hidden behind the wall, feeling too guilty to see her.
"What? "
Jerry asks in confusion, a tinge of annoyance mixed in his tone
"Please Jerry, don't hurt him anymore. It's not his fault and I just ....."
She pauses and they all wait anxiously for her to continue
"I just don't want to remember it anymore"
"But Luna you---"
"He didn't rape me Jerry, if that's what you think" She cuts him off and he frowns
"He listened to my pleas and didn't go that far. He just bit me because Taehyung had marked me "
"What? " She nodded at him
"Taehyung marked me and Jungkook found out, every mate would do that if he experiences such a thing. It was out of pure anger and a clear misunderstanding"
She hated how defensive she was being for Jungkook but she didn't want her wolf to hurt anymore. And she clearly understood Jungkook so she was ready to blindly blame the bond as a result of his lost of control and however
Deep inside her, she doesn't think she would forgive him that easily
She won't even want to see his face for now
Jerry released a heavy sigh before nodding as he placed his hand on her shoulder comfortingly.
Ok so I've been quite sad these days. My dog died😭😭😭 . He was just some months old, I grew to love him so much. Holy is dead😭😭😭. Now who will accompoany me to the shop and race with me?
I'll miss Holy a lot, there are many puppies here but Holy is exceptional. 😭😭😭
I miss how she'll always come in between my legs and curl her tail around my ankle. It always startle anyone I'm talking to whenever he comes to me unannounced 😂.
I hope he's in a better place..... Rest in peace, favorite puppy. I love u 😊❤
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