I lay there empty and hollow,
as your words stung me with all their might,
you are so loving, so caring,
yet your words will not allow me to see the light.
Keep on sending mixed signals as if I would understand,
I am young, I am capable, I can do as I please,
and yet I am a failure, a sinking ship, I have no meaning in life.
After all this time I continue to stay hidden,
amongst the hurt, amongst the pain,
I refuse to be part of your despicable game.
Do you not realise that is the final straw?
I can no longer fight through this harsh and cold war.
Slowly, pulling me to pieces you remain unaware,
as you slash through the tender source of throbbing beneath my chest.
I am wounded, I am weak, will you not let me rest?
One day it's sunshine, rainbows and happy smiles,
the next it's torrential downpours and roaring thunder all the while
I sit on my comforter with tears in my eyes,
as I look up to the sky still wondering why
UPDATE: 23/9/13 - I have removed the last stanza as I find it is a little too personal, sorry if it seems a little offbeat now.