"What are you....doing?" he asked.
"What do you mean what am I doing?" you asked in return.
Namjoon cleared his throat, "Let me rephrase the question, what are you wearing?"
Glancing down at your usual fansite outfit, you found nothing to be wrong with it. When he asked you to join him for a photoshoot, you figure this was the safest choice. The managers gave you permission to take pictures, as long as it doesn't reveal anything about the theme or location. "My clothes?"
He sighed and chuckled lowly, "Y/N, darling, when I asked you to come to the photoshoot, I meant I wanted you to watch me, not take photos of me."
The pieces clicked in your mind. "Oh, I see," you nodded slowly. "Sorry, I guess it's not every day that my international superstar boyfriend asks me to join him for a photoshoot." You took off the cap and mask, Namjoon exhaled sharply, delighted to see your beautiful face. He reached for your hand and led you into the studio.
As you walked the hallways, he recounted stories of when they first started doing photoshoots. "I was terrible at posing in front of people," he chuckled in embarrassment, "The others were great at it, even Yoongi hyung. I was never one to like the cameras. In fact, I despised seeing myself up close. It's like if I stare long enough, I'll find something I don't like and that's the only thing I can hang on to."
"How do you feel about yourself now?" you asked.
He shrugged, "Not that much different from before. I still don't like looking at myself that much, but I don't hate it, at least. But now when I see myself, I see someone who means something to someone else." He squeezed your hand a little tighter as he spoke those words. On the inside, you wanted to scream like a schoolgirl, but on the outside, you only smiled like a fool.
From their Bangtan Bombs, you were aware of how chaotic this environment was, but nothing can describe the feeling of being here in person. So many bodies were preparing for the day and it was so obvious that you were out of place. The entire time, his hand was wrapped tightly around yours to ensure that he wouldn't leave you alone for the day. It eased your heart a bit. "Alright, I have to get changed but you can stay here with Manager Sejin, he won't bite, I promise."
"Are you kidding? I'm such a fan of his. I have a list of questions prepared." you exclaimed, fires emanating from your eyes.
"Alright...." Namjoon commented. "Don't hurt him." You took a seat Manager Sejin as Namjoon stepped away into the dressing room. The infamous man took a sip of his coffee and took a deep breath as he saw the list of questions.
"Okay, are you aware of your fanclub?" you began.
He blinked, "Oh boy, it's gonna be a long day."
Indeed it was a long day. The boys posed nonstop with genuine smiles and cheery eyes. You didn't know how they did it, but they always manage to stay happy despite their hectic schedules. That was one of their most inspirational traits, another is that they're always respectful to the staff, no matter the job title. Watching them laughing together is a sight you'll never get tired of, and seeing Namjoon's dazzling smile is a wonder. Your shoulders dropped and you began to think about what would have happened if it had been someone else. You would have been happy for him, of course, but a part of you would always wonder what could have been. A camera flashed, bringing you back to reality. You don't have to wonder anymore, it's all right here in front of you.
You excused yourself to go into the hall for a bit since you promised to give Hye Jin updates on the day. She picked up instantly. "What's happening? Are they shirtless now?"
"Um, no..." you answered, also slightly disappointed yourself. "I don't think they do those kinds of photoshoots."
"Boo," she sighed. "But how is it?"
"It's wild, I don't know how they do it," you explained. "It's a complicated life, they can't afford any breathing room. Also, I don't know, I feel almost jealous that other people get to see him."
"Oh my god," Hye Jin sighed exasperatedly, "He's literally your soulmate dumbass."
"Shut up," you whined, "I can get jealous sometimes. But I do wish you were here, Jin Jin."
"Yeah, yeah, whatever, go back to drooling over your man."
"I will, I love you!"
"Love you too."
Back inside the studio, the boys had changed into another outfit. Their faces still adorned with the same cute smile, all except one. For some reason, Namjoon looked clearly upset despite his efforts to smile for the cameras. Many others noticed too, and soon, the camera director called for a short break. The boys headed for the snack table, except for their leader. He excused himself to go outside the studio. The boys motioned for you to follow him.
He stood by the large window, letting light embrace his face. Out of the corner of his eyes, he saw you approaching, but remained silent. "Hey, what's wrong?" you asked.
"Do you like someone else?" he asked a few seconds later.
"What?"
"Do you like someone else who's not me?" he asked, turning fully to face you.
"What are you talking about, namjoon? How could I like someone else when you're my soulmate?"
"Is it Jin hyung? Do you like him better than me?"
You blinked, "I-I like him but not more than you, that's impossible."
"Then why did you give him a cute nickname but not me?" His lips came to a pout and you started to see the root of the problem.
"I see," you nodded. You grabbed his hand and pulled it up to kiss it. "Honey, I think there's a misunderstanding here. Jin Jin is the nickname I use to call Hye Jin."
His eyes widened, "Oh."
"I'm sorry for this, she told me that it would cause a problem. I should have listened to her. You're the only one for me, Namjoon, literally and figuratively."
"No, I'm sorry for overreacting." He rubbed the back of his neck shyly. "I was looking for you and I heard you say you love that person and I guess I got jealous. It was dumb."
You lifted yourself to kiss his cheek, he shut his mouth quickly. "I love you, Namjoon," you whispered. "Only you."
Namjoon puffed his cheeks and looked to the window. He felt faint. This wasn't the first time someone has told him they love him, in fact, he had heard it from millions of fans, but it was the first time he heard it from the person he feels the same way towards. "I love you too, Y/N." It made your heart skip a beat, and you wanted to cry. "Now, let's get back, you have to get ready."
"Get ready for what?"
"Your photoshoot, silly." he answered casually.
"My what?"
Your photoshoot, which apparently everyone in the room knew except for you. In fact, they had already prepared your outfit and as soon as the two of you got back into the room, the stylists snagged you away from him and chained you down to the makeup chair. It felt like hours as they painted your face while combing your hair in various directions. Good thing you shaved your legs last night because they decided to put you in a dress, something similar to a mini wedding dress with puffy clouds. "Is this right?" you asked once in front of the cameras. Everyone nodded and were pleasantly in awe that you could look like this.
Namjoon was most blown away, because as silly as it sounds, he had been waiting for this day since he was little, to belong to someone who's so right for him. You were also left speechless by him, wearing an all black suit with his hair pushed back and those dimples. He joined your side and kissed your cheeks. "You're stunning."
"You're one to talk," you giggled. "But what is this?"
"Think of it as a relationship reveal," he answered. "This is our announcement of our relationship to the world." You thought about it, terrified but it's not the first time a celebrity did this. Countless other couples have had photoshoots to reveal their relationships and you always secretly dreamt about doing one. Namjoon is quite literally making all your dreams come true.
"I don't know how to pose." you admitted.
"It's okay," he smiled. "Just follow my lead." He began to adjust his body naturally and guided you to match him. The cameras began to flash, and Namjoon would tell you little things about himself to keep you laughing. Soon, the world faded around you and it was just the two of you, smiling and enjoying each other's company. This would be forever, you thought, and that might just be enough.