Hi guys! I just wanted to say that I have 3 more chapters left before the end of 'Señorita' so thank you for all of your support to this book. I love you all!
Camila's P.O.V.
Soft hums floated in my ear the minute I found myself regaining consciousness, I felt myself lying on a very soft and comfy mattress. After a few seconds of finding myself fully awake and unaware of my surroundings, I fluttered my eyes open only to shut it down again with the bright light in the room. It only took me a minute before I opened them again and this time I was very successful and was greeted by such a very lovely sight.
I couldn't contain the small smile appearing on my lips the minute my eyes landed on the beautiful ceiling on top of me. It feels like a dream, like I really was dreaming considering the fact that I was seeing clouds, nothing but clouds and beautiful butterflies flying around on top of me. That was the ceiling I was talking about, the bright sunlight was never bright and instead the whole place just looks bright because of the setting. Beside me was a very beautiful looking window, there were several roses attached here and there in different colors but mainly with white, red and black roses. It was beautifully constructed not to mention how vintage and a bit down to earth it looked, it was simple but very elegant in my eyes.
Seeing these flowers suddenly made me remember my Mama and Shawn's mother's love for them. Red and Black really did go well, seeing them together gave me this small happiness as I thought of how those colors might appear dark and dull to other people but for me it seemed really good and a perfect match. When those two blends well together I couldn't help but think that it represents both Black Rose and Crystal Fire, it represents Shawn and I where we all are united and are working so good together. We might be at this moment, in a different page in both what we believe in and in life but I know that sooner or later this warlike world of ours will finally end up being united and filled with nothing but happiness.
At that very moment I know I had done enough admiring for the day, I slowly came back to reality and wondered where I was since this clearly isn't jut a place I should be at. Cascading my vision from the left, I turned to my right in hopes to get more filled in on what kind of room I am currently at seeing how I can feel a slight unusual thing about this place. The humming turned a little louder and then there was figure that caught my eye, someone with me in this garden like room which was filled with roses everywhere. Somehow that thought was never scary for me, I could feely heart even fluttering the minute I saw that blonde hair and that familiar back view that I haven't seen since I was 5.
Happiness and nervousness surged like a whirlwind and a storm inside my heart. Different emotions came to me and all I wanted was to cry but I couldn't, I wanted to let all the tears I have to fall knowing that this really is her standing in front of me! I know this is her with just one look, there's no denying that this is my mom, she's here with me...
"Mama"
Like a little kid, I called out to her knowing that she's going to turn to me in a swift moment the minute I ask for her. All energy left in my body seemingly disappeared as this great, unfathomable news greeted me first thing the minute I opened my eyes. There's nothing but pure surprise and happiness flowing through my every veins and then the most heartwarming scene happened.
The woman in the room turned her head to me and smiled very brightly, her eyes were looking at me that was filled with so much love and adoration. There was a very big smile on her face, she's brighter than what I remembered, she looked more calm and beautiful compared to the last time I saw her. She looked younger, she looked youthful and healthy making me feel close to tearing up. No matter how hard I try I just couldn't bring myself to sob in front of her as if I was being controlled, even with tears of happiness I couldn't seem to drop even just one tear to express these storm emotions inside me.
"Hey, you're awake now. How was your sleep? Were you able to rest well?" She asks just as she gracefully made her way close to me.
I watched her silently as she made her way to me where she placed the beautiful red and black roses looking like a bouquet on the nightstand beside my bed. Instantly it reminded me of the flowers Shawn would always bring me in the morning to woo me and show me how much he loves me, those roses are so beautiful to be just picked so I thought making a small bouquet and displaying it on my nightstand would be more beautiful and elegant. But I guess it was just my small own little way to make myself remember that Shawn loves me, the way he treats me, the way he always chose to pick me a rose tells me that I am someone important and dear to him.
Her voice was so soothing to hear, I feel like I was brought back to my childhood where my Mama was waiting for me to wake up only to pamper me nonstop like I was still an infant. I was probably in the verge of tears if I really can cry at this very moment but it seems like this palace forbids us from shedding a sign of sadness despite what I'm feeling is tears of joy. She doesn't know how much I wanted for this to happen, she didn't know how much I missed her, she didn't know how much I badly wanted to see her even in my dreams when I am already older where I can thoroughly remember her face and not just as a vivid memory or in a picture. All along, all those years I was imagining her to be here with me but right now she is! My Mama is here right in front of me!
It seemed like she was somehow reading my mind seeing her chuckling every time I look at her and admire her for second after second. Mama slowly assisted me in sitting up from the bed, her hand sent shivers down my spine the minute she was able to touch me as if she was real. Imaginary tears started flowing down my face as I quickly pulled her in for a very tight hug, my arms wrapped around her small frame and kept refusing to part with her as I let all the emotions I have out. I couldn't still believe that she's here with me! I can touch and feel her...
"I am dreaming aren't I?" I asked with a small voice, sniffling here and there just to let her know that I probably am crying at this point if only I can. Mama's laughters were melody in my ears, it seemed like the best music this world could ever make me listen to but I guess it happens all the time when you just really love and admire this certain person.
I momentarily pulled away from the hug, creating a very small distance between us. I refused to completely let go worried that she might disappear or go away from me and then I wouldn't see her ever again. I was afraid that the next minute she'll suddenly end up like just a fragment of my imagination but this feels so real... She is real but only in my dreams.
"I suppose you are my beautiful señorita, look at how you've grown dear. You look so beautiful my goodness"
I can see that she always wanted to cry with me at this very special moment, being reunited with her was just a blissful happening and up till now I still can't believe it! Her hands cupped my cheeks, running her hand on my hair and looking at me as if she was a scanner trying to admire me for a minute. We both were lost in our own world of happiness that all we ever did was to keep hugging each other while Mama adores me and trying to give me a good look.
But despite this beautiful happening I still can't help but wonder where I am since clearly this isn't the place where I thought I would wake up to. My memory was still slightly in a haze, there are a bit of fragments here and there but I couldn't remember that much. I guess this overwhelming feeling momentarily made my brain stop and all I could focus on was my mother sitting beside me on this very bed.
"Where are we? Am I in heaven?" I asked seriously, I am curious but at the same time confused.
I'm sure we're I'm heaven.
There's no way my mother could've been in hell...
"You still carry on you your father's lameness with jokes, you took so much after him I'm starting to get really jealous" Mama laughed, hearing my thoughts again. I felt her scooting beside me before pressing a small kiss on my forehead, lightly reminding me that she would always be here for me.
Survivor's guilt was one thing that keeps me alive up till today. I feel hopeless every day then, thinking what am I to the point that I was the only one who survived? Who am I to be the survivor and why not Mama? Why not Shawn's mother when clearly I know she was just trying and wanting to help us? Every day I keep asking that to myself, guilt keep breaking my heart every time I think of me as the main reason why she's dead. If only I didn't want to go to the park then maybe she's still here with us, with me and Papa. Maybe she would still watch me closely, watch me as I grow up and become strong, probably stronger than Papa which will make her tease him nonstop.
Before I always question myself why am I such a bad luck? All the people around me ends up being hurt, everyone was looking at me as if I was a princess who needs to be protected always but it will always have a price. Several people had to sacrifice so many things even their family just for me, they choose to protect me than to protect themselves because they said it was my mother's wish before she died. But then I realized that things happen for a reason, people leave, people die for a reason and its just up to the left relatives to choose if they will blame themselves and dwell in the past or move on and focus on what the present is.
"I miss you so much Mama, I'm sorry that because of me you were snatched by death-"
"Shh, everything's okay Camila. You don't need to always dwell in the past and I am so thankful that you let your heart win over your mind knowing that it was the one who was saying the right thing. Its good to make mistakes for you to learn more and to become a greater person than you are currently. Its good to push away others then realize that you don't need them in the end just like what you did with Catalina. Its good to break the rules only for you to realize that they were made for a reason and then you'll realize it in the end just like what you did with your father. Its good to contradict other people's thoughts only for you to know that those thoughts were also important just like Jesse. You judged because you were hurt but you realized that there are reasons on why people do what they do so you chose to listen to their problems rather than completely hating them just like with Alexandros. But most of all its good to be scared and fake everything but once you figure out what really is happening to you, you'd realize that the fear you feel is actually a part of love and the fake thing is actually the truth. You were afraid to lose Shawn because of the fake identity you made and in the end you found yourself falling for him the way he does with you as well. You don't know how proud you make me when you stand on your own feet and learn different things here and there, you make me so proud my princess and I know you did everything for me so thank you"
"Have you been watching me the whole time?" I asked with a small voice, slightly worried that she might've seen how angry I was before that all I could think off is plot revenge and hurt other people. I feel that she might've hated me slightly on that happening because of how dark and beaten my heart was but I feel like that wasn't the case seeing a playful smirk appeared on her lips and a teasing glint in her eyes...
Oh no no...
"Oh you wouldn't know what I've seen, goodness I feel like I've sinned seeing you and Shawn doing it all over the place-"
Oh my god!
"I love you Mama, I really do so please don't bring that up its so embarrassing"
Before she can say abything or even elaborate what she mwants to say I know I had to shut her up or else I'm going to die in pure embarrassment here. Okay, the act was very pleasurable and normal for couples like us but having this talk with my own mother who even witnessed the whole thing petrifies me! Its so awkward and unreal to me!
Goodness imagine your mom watching everything you did with your boyfriend, its a complete total nightmare! I'd rather die than be caught in the act Dios mio.
Mama sensed that I was already becoming an exploding tomato beside her so she chuckled and finally stopped teasing me. For a while we both were just looking at each other, her teasing me of course before she seemed to remember something very important. Her eyes looked at me amusingly before holding both of my hands on hers, putting it on top of my lap before looking at me with a very bright smile.
"Okay okay but since you're here I would really want you to meet a good friend of mine here"
As if on cue, the door in the room opened revealing a very beautiful and familiar woman standing before me with that beautiful white dress. Her jet black hair falls ever so perfectly on her back just as my attention focused on the black roses in the basket that she was holding. A very bright and calm smile appeared on her face making her look so elegant and prim for such a woman. The way her eyes landed on me seemed to put me into another whirlwind of emotions but the greater one was shock.
"Hi Camila"
"Oh my goodness am I dead?!" I shrieked immediately just when I realized that I was now talking to two dead mothers of my love and I.
There's no other explanation on why I am here with them! Is this even a dream or reality? Am I dead?! What about Shawn? I still haven't told him how much I love him! Will I be just like them and watch over him from afar? I promised him that I will be okay but-
My long train of emotions and fear stopped just when the two mothers chuckled and laughted together. I'm certain that they can hear my thoughts, very very certain now. Selene sat down beside me and gently placed her basket of flowers on the grassy ground, she sat on my right, quite close to me whereas my Mama was on the left and was still holding my hand.
"No you're not darling but I can say that the night after the party could easily pass in a porn website. I think heavens turned to hell the minute we all witnessed that" Selene answered causing me to explode in pure embarrassment again.
Am I even alive still? I hope this bed can swallow me at this very moment just so I wouldn't be seen by these two. The mothers took their own sweet time to chuckle and laugh at my reactions but it definitely isn't good on my part. I hope I really would just vanish. Two freaking mothers saw our act! Such a provocative act filled with lust and hunger for each other!
Never, I repeat never will I ever engage in such act with Shawn the same way again! I'll always remember these two cunning ladies watching over the two of us and taunting us, might as well cheering at the sides so many babies will be produced... god that sounded nasty Camila!
"Well now we're sure that Camila will end up becoming more pregnant in the future"
With that word being mentioned by my mother, I was quickly able to remember what had happened to me before I fainted. We were at the port and then there were several bullets here and there, Papa was shot, Alexandros was shot and Aaliyah was in total shock... I bleed and fainted... my baby... Oh my goodness-
"My baby, Mama-" I can feel small tears trying to form in my eyes, my heart was beating erratically and now I was in pure worry of what might've happened to the life that I was protecting.
The minute I woke up I feel like something was wrong, I feel so light and free compared to the mornings I've had when I was pregnant. With that thought running in my head I was scared that maybe I had already lost him or her, in my head I was already close to beating myself and blaming myself for the incident. I was close to thrashing right in front of them but the two mothers were able to calm me down with the revelation of how my baby is doing.
"Your baby is safe Camila, you're alright. My son is with you right now and had not left your side even for a second, he's very worried but I really just want to take this as an opportunity to talk to you and thank you for never giving up on my son"
Shawn and I had been through a lot together, we've become best friends when we were kids, he became my crush then for trying to get the teddy I lost, we became enemies for a short span of time but I know that this, what we have now as lovers or possibly as husband and wife will last until eternity. This love that we both feel for each other isn't just a weak pull that would disappear in the next months or even years. We both love each other so much to the point that it was bursting and us overloading.
"I love him so much despite everything that had happened, despite all the pain and the tears I know that my love for him was more than enough to him. And pain and misunderstandings are usually essential for our relationship to grow for us to both realize that in love we always wouldn't be happy and obstacles will test how strong and how much we really love each other"
Shawn did things he shouldn't have. He did things that hurt me, that made me feel undeserving and pathetic but that doesn't mean that the love I have for him will vanish. Love is not an easy thing, never will it be easy as there will be tough times where pain would become unbearable and more fights will occur but those things are just obstacles to strengthen the love and faith we have for each other. It's just up to the two love birds on what they'll choose, to keep fighting for the love they have or give up and walk away.
I chose love and I chose Shawn.
"Both of you are actually meant to be, I'm so happy to see that despite both of our deaths all of you still manages to become strong and to keep forgiving each other" Mama spoke with a smile, a very bright one that made my heart flutter seeing how happy she is.
"This means a lot, a whole lot to the both of us so thank you so much" Selene added before pulling me in for a very tight hug. I was shocked of course since I didn't expect her to suddenly be warm with me during our first meeting but nonetheless I hugged her back tightly, telling myself to hug Shawn also to make him know that his mother also wants to hug him.
"This is the time when I'm going to leave aren't I? Your smiles on your faces says so" I spoke, noticing that they were more calm and looking very happy now.
"You know how hard it is for me to say goodbye since I wasn't able to do so 18 years ago but I want you to always know that whatever happens the both of us are going to do everything to protect and watch over your family"
"Might I add this is just one of many seeing how energetic you both are at the whole place where you are close together" Selene really just broke my tears with laughter if I was indeed crying at this point, she knows how to jab a punch of joke and a tease at the right time.
"Don't tease the pregnant lady or else that future wouldn't come true"
"Mom" I whined, looking down on my hands as I suddenly felt embarrassed once more.
"Oh and if you're looking for the two mafia leader's weaknesses you better start cooking so many buns inside since the two couldn't resist those beautiful babies you're going to have"
"Can I at least know a number?"
Hey I need to be prepared since I am the one pushing them out of my woman part and not Shawn. I love him and I would love to have more of his babies to have a happy and beautiful family but I need to also prepare myself for the loud cries at night not to mention the cute little feet running around the whole place.
"You'd do everything to stop that from happening if we tell you"
Oh my god... dear heavens... good lord...
"That many?!"
Is Shawn even that fertile?! God I feel like he's going to knock me up every year or even twice a year! That man has a very cunning way of making his way with me and refusing to even use protecting all the time, goodness he even made sure to position me where his seeds would fill my womb all the time! That sly wolf wanted me swollen with his baby!
Just then, like magic I suddenly was able to hear a beautiful sound coming from who knows where. I froze immediately on my place before turning to look at the two mothers who had a very calm smile on their face. That voice...
"Love? Señorita Amore, wake up" He called our again making my heart flutter in complete happiness. I couldn't help but suddenly feel the need to be in his arms, to have him close to me and have his plump lips pressed against mine. The love that could feel for him seemed to awaken hearing him now calling out to me.
"That's Shawn" I pinpointed followed by a small smile from his mother. Selene pulled me in for another hug, one last I believe before pressing a kiss on my forehead.
"It is and now it's time to say goodbye, thank you Camila again for everything"
"I love you señorita" Mama spoke one last time before hugging me and kissing me on my temple, this time I closed my eyes and breathed deeply.
The next minute I opened them, I knew that I was back to reality seeing the dreaded hospital ceiling greeting me together with the slightly annoying stinging prick on the back of my hand. Bright lights welcomed me but that didn't even matter the minute I felt a hand holding mine tightly with the other gently caressing my still flat stomach. Happiness and love surged inside me just as I met those beautiful warm brown eyes of the man I love and the father of more of our children to come.
"Hey love, how are you feeling? Do you still feel dizzy? Is you neck okay? Do you want me to add another pillow?" My love's upper body towered over me as he pressed a small kiss on my forehead, worry was still etched on his face but that was quickly replaced the minute I gave him a very genuine and good smile.
"No, I feel wonderful really. Thank you"
In all honesty I actually feel strong, I don't know how long I've had such sleep since the last thing I know is that I fainted but I think that rest cured me right away. Bleedings usually happen when I'm stressed and what occurred on the empty building was a full on a hundred million percent stress on my part. Surprisingly now, nothing aches at all, I feel so fine and the warm feeling was just there in my stomach, that small connection making me know that my baby is safe from harm and is still resting inside me.
Shawn never left my side, from what I can feel and based on how warm our intertwined hands already are I knew he didn't wasn't to leave me thinking that I might awake suddenly at any moment. His disheveled long curly hair still looked fluffy as I remembered and I might just think I am going to keep touching them all the way through this little baby's stay in my womb, although he looks like a mess my hormones are actually more active and waiting to have a long smootch and make out session with him.
How can this baby daddy be so hot even when he's worried? God I want to feel him-
Shut up Camila! You are freaking pregnant with his child and then you're still captivated by his looks and want to get it on here at the hospital?! At this point I really think I would end up becoming pregnant all the time....
Yet unbeknownst to me, the man I was lusting over at this very moment was looking at me with worry filled eyes. He was clutching my hand calmly but tightly as if he was praying, the look on his eyes tells me how tired he is but it seemed like for me he's trying to pull himself together so he wouldn't collapse any minute now. I tightened my grip on his hand to steal his attention, I managed to successfully do that as he raised his head and met my gaze. I can sense a slight trouble in him so I smiled in hopes to encourage him to speak what he has in mind.
"You don't know how worried I was the minute you fainted. I really thought that I was going to lose you and our child. I didn't know if it was your blood or our baby's blood running down your legs so I didn't know whom I should worry about or whom I should attend to-"
Before he could even narrate everything, I quickly grabbed his shirt and pulled him in to press our lips against each other. My whole body shook awake and the fluttery feeling came dancing in my heart, I feel like even our baby inside me was doing summersaults knowing that his or her father was close to us. It was one blissful kiss, one that can knock you off your feet or make every part of your body tingle and became alive in just a short span of time.
I let him do his wonders, sucking and licking my lips the way he wanted it, letting him release all his pent up emotions and worry to that kiss. His hands roamed around my body but rests his right hand on top of my stomach before deepening the kiss, pulling me closer to him with very need and want. Small moans came from my lips as he slowly bit my lower lip, enjoying beautiful sighs we both release. Just when I felt like it was forever or to the point that we would all out do it here, Shawn pressed one last kiss on my lips before putting one on my forehead. There was still a small worried look on his face making me know that he was still thinking about the worse things that could've happened to me and our child.
"I'm fine now aren't I? Everything's good now. You don't need to worry about anything" I muttered, smiling softly before pressing another quick peck on his plump lips.
It was supposed to be a peck but this man was able to turn the tables upside down. He captured my lips once more and I almost thought that he's going to crawl on top of me and all but I must give it to him knowing that he still has a little bit of control left to stop his wolf to pounce on his prey. By the we pulled apart, I was already breathless and slightly tired, I bite my lip while trying to regain my breathing.
"You should do that often" Shawn spoke causing me to turn to him in surprise, I wasn't that much sure of what he meant by that but I still smiled at him.
"Assuring you that I am alright? I do that all the time don't I?"
"No, you should shut me up with a kiss not the other way around"
He seemed to deepen his voice before quickly capturing my lips in his, I couldn't help but squeal loudly before chuckling. He basically has my lips hostage so I can't fight him with that but just when I was about to allow him to devour me, I realized we still have unfinished business starting for the day he pushed me away. With a few energy left from me, I gently pushed him away before throwing my infamous glare.
"Hey mister, doesn't mean that you kissed me and saved me earlier means that we're already fine and had settled all of our problems. For all I know I still need a few words from you don't I?" Crossing my arms over my chest, I looked at him as if I was high and mighty wanting to just hear what he really have to say for what he did to me.
Rape is still rape I know but I want to hear why and I want to know what was running in his mind the minute he thought of doing that to me. I don't hate him for what he did, I'm sure all he ever did was to protect me and to show how much he loves me and our child.
"I love you" He spoke like a little kid, his eyes were looking down as if I had just caught him doing something bad. My heart swooned just by hearing his declaration of love, I wanted to throw my arms around him and shower him with kisses but I need a few talks first.
"That's a very good start but no, I need more"
"I'm sorry but I wouldn't ever regret pushing you away because that was the only thing I could do in order to protect you and our child. I had to let you go momentarily knowing how he's just planning to use you to hurt me and make me do whatever he wants and I can't let him rule my whole life like that anymore. But if there's really one thing that I deeply regret, it is by hurting you and making myself look bad just so you can hate me. I knew that you think I would never hurt you but in that moment I fear my father would really harm you. I had to act like a bad guy so you'll be hurt and leave me. I promise you, I never intentionally wanted to hurt you. I felt like I was a mess the minute you left, you don't know how badly I wanted to kill myself-"
Refusing to hear his dark thoughts and pain, I quickly pressed my lips with his and cried at how hard it must've been for him. He probably was trying to kill himself in his mind several times for doing what he did to me, for hurting me and especially for forcing himself on me. It was probably a nightmare to him and it just makes me feel so horrible thinking that he didn't feel the pain but in reality he suffered more.
"Do not ever try to think about that not even for a second. What would happen to me and our child? Would you rather choose to leave us than to just prove to us that you wouldn't ever try to hurt us anymore. You'd choose to leave us?" I asked with a sob, letting all of the tears to fall down seeing how painful it would be the minute I find myself all alone and without Shawn.
I can't live my life with that...
"I would never leave you, you're my life, you and our child. Where you are is where I should be because we are each other's home. I belong where you belong because we are a family now and that means I will never ever dare to leave you. I love you both till death and I'm willing to risk my life all for you and our baby"
As heart fluttering those words sound, as much as I wanted to throw myself in his arms and cuddle the whole day, I could help but remember that I actually was in some sort of an accident before I was here. The image of the two mafia leaders being shot and being conscious caused me to turn to Shawn in pure question and worry. How on earth did I forget out them?! Goodness are they okay? Are they in critical condition or probably in a coma?
"Wait where's Papa? How about Alexandros and Aaliyah? Where-"
"Calm down, they're all safe and none was even in a very critical condition. Aaliyah was slightly in shock but Torrey and Nick are currently taking care of her at this money, she's receiving the best treatment"
Wait Nick and Torrey? I thought Voight called in the police? My eyes quickly turned to check on myself, trying to see if there was a handcuff on the hospital bed and probably a police standing behind this room of mine but from what I can see there's actually none. Wait shouldn't we all be arrested?
"Shawn what's happening? I thought Voight called the the police so why on earth are they still licenced to treat? Where's Papa? The rest-" My worries all came into words as I started babbling to Shawn, he seemed to be slightly taken a back at my words but I immediately came to a halt when I heard a very familiar voice calling out to me.
"Señorita"
"Papa!" I quickly turned to the door and almost lunged at him only to be restrained by my handsome baby daddy, I literally almost jumped and fell on the floor if it weren't for him. Papa was coming inside with a nurse assisting him on a wheelchair, he was dressed in a patient dress the same way I was.
"Careful, don't jump so suddenly beautiful, you might hurt our baby" There was a slight anger issue on his voice since he really was worried of me, seeing how my baby daddy is slightly angry I smiled lovingly at him before pressing a kiss on his cheek.
"Sorry I didn't mean to but I'm just so happy to see him"
"Then I can say that it wasn't what you would feel with me?"
Another voice spoke causing me to halt on what I was currently doing. Shock was an understatement as I looked at the man entering the same way my father was, Alexandros was on a wheelchair that stopped on the left of the bed whereas Papa is on the right. Shawn was now sitting beside me on the hospital bed as I seek comfort to his warm and lean body feeling slightly fearful. My eyes quickly turned to Shawn that held so many questions but he, on the other hand just smiled and pressed a kiss on my forehead to assure me that everything would be alright.
"How are you Sir? Are you feeling good? How's your wound?" Garnering my courage, I looked at the man dead in the eye hoping not to show him that I was slightly afraid of him. Shawn was holding my hand tightly as a way to assure me that everything would be alright but then the most unexpected thing happened...
"Better now that I can see my beautiful daughter awake" Instead of Alexandros answering it, Papa was the one who answered my question with a very big smile. He even seemed to take the situation very lightly before the thundering voice of Shawn's father was heard once again.
"She was talking to me you idiot! Answer the question when you're the one being asked!"
"You took too damn long to answer the question" Papa retorted giving the man beside him with a hard glare, yet somehow there was. slight smile on both of their faces.
"You didn't even give me time to respond to her question"
What the hell is happening here? I felt like I was watching a horror action thriller movie and then the next thing I know the genre suddenly turned to family romance and something very chill... Am I even looking at the same people I was once with? Just what the heck happened right after I lost my consciousness?
"Love am I still dreaming?" I muttered close to Shawn, resting my head on his shoulder as I try to take all in at what I am currently seeing.
There's no way the world turned upside down in just a day right? How come these enemies suddenly turned best friends and even throwing jokes like this casually? I came fucking believe my eyes! And I still dreaming here or what?
"Let's go Dad, let me take you out for a small stroll" Shawn suddenly muttered, giving me a kiss on my forehead before making his way to his father.
What kind of sorcery is happening here? Even Shawn and Alexandros is already in good terms? Wait did I faint and did all those action thing happened or was I only dreaming? Just what the hell?!
"Before we head to the park let's take Aaliyah with us shall we?" Alexandros spoke just as Shawn was already moving his wheelchair, the two have very beautiful smiles on their faces as if they never had lived their whole life arguing. It's so nice to see us getting along like this, this is my dream and it hads to be one because I am so confused.
"Am I crazy?"
"Oh and by the way and in order to please me my dear daughter in law you need to start cooking more buns in the oven" If I wasn't so confused at this very moment I would've squealed and start blushing hearing Alexandros' comment but I was more in a daze not knowing what the hell is happening here. Those were the last thing he said before Shawn finally disappeared leaving me with my smiley father who was very amused at my reactions.
"Are you confused? Well let me tell you what happened"
Well you better should...
"Well, your old man doesn't know how to start this kind of conversation but I'll try my best to provide you the best information that I can in order for the slow poke brain of yours to understand"
"Hey let me remind you this brain is also heredited from you" I glared at him, feeling slightly offended but he better remember that I inherited so many things from him.
"You're right, we all are arrested and all of the people had lost their licences as an officer and as a doctor"
Then that means we all are arrested right? Then why on earth are we not handcuffed? We should be right? We're practically criminals...
"Actually, this whole thing was slightly planned. I called Voight 2 days before this whole war thing happens and told him that when it came a time that everything is already falling, that there are several men who are injured and close to dying either may it be in our team or Alexandros' men then he shouldn't double think and just call Lieutenant Walker. I knew that Shawn was going to do his very best to save you but knowing Alexandros of course he'd always want to win and he'll use everything he can in order to archive that. When two of us was injured it was high time for Voight to call him and then all of us got arrested not at the scene but here at this hospital. 4 of us were immediately transported here in hopes to save 5 lives which was your baby"
"Shawn was probably a complete total wreck, I couldn't imagine myself still looking so composed the minute I found out that my father, my sister, the woman I love and our child and my futures father in law were all rushed at the hospital unconscious and with unknown certainty that all of them are going to be alright. If I was him I would've already lost my mind, I might even go crazy and attempt to join the unconscious party to feel belong"
"If you do that I swear Mama is going to crawl her way out of the soil and rip your body into shreds, she might be an angel in the heavens but she can be a devil in hell too" I muttered, I just met her earlier so he better speak good because she can hear us from above.
"But as I was saying, your man is a very tough guy. He pulled through with everything and never even had a proper sleep for 2 days. He waited for the 4 of us patiently in each operation and check up, he kept walking up and down in each floor to check on me and his father at the operating room while you and Aaliyah was at the emergency room where you were being attended by several physicians. I would've already lost my mind if I was in that position, to think that everyone was in danger and then here I am still unharmed and instead is worrying over them. It was a very painful battle for Shawn but I was so thankful that he didn't surrender to the pain and the fears he had, he was praying earnestly for everyone to be safe even for his father whom he loathed so much. Despite everything that happened there still is love hidden beneath those hatred because he's still his father, he loves him despite everything, despite his rough childhood and the toxicity he was exposed to"
"Then at that very moment, the police all came to arrest us. Seeing that they couldn't touch the 4 of us they decided to arrest Voight, Jesse, Tracy, Nick, Torrey, Connor, Matt, Taylor, Jordan and even Shawn but Lieutenant Walker chose to free them all the minute Aaliyah couldn't stop fussing around. She was only calm when Nick and Torrey was around so he decided to let the two of them treat her to calm her down while the rest awaits for the surgery the two leaders have. Thankfully none of our heart was shot and no vessels that might've caused us to straight death, it actually amused the doctors seeing how exactly the same our bullet wounds are, right above the aorta and close to the main vessel which transports the blood. We were told to be very lucky as the shooter might've bee a great sharp shooter. Oh and by the way, that man actually is a great pal, he's cool and definitely is like an older version of Shawn. Your man takes a lot after him and we got so acquainted together when we suddenly found ourselves sharing one big room, he's my best friend now"
Exactly how?...
"As confusing and weird as it may sound but yes, my best friend is your mother's killer. And no, I still haven't forgiven him yet that fully for taking her life but I'm getting there as I chose not to dwell on the past and forever stay there. There is a reason why things like this happen in our life, there is a reason why people leave and why others stay eve if they are your worst enemy. I realized that the more I keep blaming him for what happened to your mother, the more this war will never end and the more we wouldn't be able to forgive ourselves from everything. He is a great man behind that facade we knew him of Camila. Truth is he never was going to shoot you or his son, the bullet that I saved you from was actually supposed to be nothing if it weren't for the bullet that shot him first"
What? But I was sure that he was going to shoot Shawn, he aimed the gun at him when he spoke that's why I threw myself before Shawn to take the bullet instead. Papa even saved me from it knowing that he was going to fire.
"He was going to hand the gun to Shawn, he was only making his voice loud for dramatical effects but Aaliyah was quick to pull the trigger and that bullet that shot him in the chest was the reason why Alexandros involuntarily pulled the trigger causing me to jump and get the bullet. That explains why he was the first one to faint because it was him who got shot first"
Oh my goodness... That makes perfect sense... That was why Aaliyah was shaking so much because she knew that she had made a mistake, she knew what her father was planning to do but she judged him and shot him instead. He wasn't intending to kill neither Shawn or I. This was a complete misunderstading and miscalculation of moves.
"Everyone would lose everything Camila but not you nor will Shawn, Aaliyah, Connor and Jordan. We all would be put behind bars but we, your fathers made sure that you three wouldn't suffer the same way we did. We want you to live your life to the fullest and to take care of your family for me, I know Shawn will do his best to protect you because that's what he learned from his father. To love and cherish his family and protect them till the end of time"
I was completely against with that idea but Papa and Alexandros made sure not to make me interfee on what they planned to do. Out of their love for their children, the wills and testaments they gave the police followed by giving them several evidences that we never are a part of the mafia is what we will stick with. We are granted the freedom to do whatever we want and instead will take over the companies that had been brought up my each of our fathers and our relatives so we can have a decent job. All of them will be put behind bars but I was really thankful that none of them will experience death penalty as none of them really did anything wrong other than being the leader of a gang and selling drugs.
My thoughts were momentarily interrupted the minute I suddenly heard a knock on the door, I turned to the door and found someone I wasn't expecting but I also wanted to see to have a small talk with. A small smile quickly appeared on my lips as Alexandros made his way inside my room with the help of a nurse but the minute he was comfortable he left us to give space and time to talk in private.
"Is this a bad time for a visit?"
"This is actually a great time, I've been meaning to talk to you" I spoke, smiling genuinely feeling very close and calm with him now in front of me.
Maybe in the past I would've shivered and be totally scared of him but now, hearing the whole truth, hearing everything that happened I know that he is a good man with a good heart but was just judged wrongly and accused with several evil things. In all honesty I can see Papa in him, one where he'd choose to sacrifice his life in order to protect his family especially his children and friends. Papa is just one lucky guy because instead of being accused, he was the one accusing and inflicting pain to the man who had been living his life blaming himself for everything that had happened 18 years ago.
"Hope its not to curse on me yeah?" He humored me but I only smiled and handed him the small square black and white paper in his hand.
A shock and confused look appeared on his face but took the time to admire the CT scan that I personally really wanted to give to him. Despite everything, the way we wrongly judged him and blamed him for everything that happened I want him to be a part of our child's life, he is their grandfather and I could never ever let them grow up without knowing that they have such a great grandfather like him. A little notorious but a good hearted man just like their father.
"Its still so tiny" Like a little boy who received a toy car at Christmas, his eyes lit up as he admired the picture of his first ever grandchild with his eldest son. There were unshed tears on both of our eyes but I couldn't let them fall at this moment knowing how beautiful this scene is.
"Yeah and I can't believe I have a life inside me. My child, Shawn and I's child"
"I hope it's a girl like you, someone beautiful, strong yet pure and intelligent. Shawn's one lucky man to have that kind of daughter if ever" He muttered, lightly brushing his cheeks to remove the fallen tears as I couldn't help but started crying as well. Hearing him speaking this calmly and beautifully wishing his son and I the best was just in incredible happening that quickly brought me to the verge of tears.
"I think he's the lucky one to have a father like you" Truthfully... he is a great man, keeping all the blame to himself when in reality he actually didn't do anything wrong at all. He was in a lot of pain but he ever said it to anyone name made himself look like a bad guy because of the guilt he was feeling with what happened 18 years ago.
"I never meant to hurt nor kill anyone. I never planned to stain my hands with blood and it definitely wasn't my plan to hurt you and to keep haunting you for the rest of your life. I was never after you to kill you, I wanted to find you to apologize for what I've done to you and your mother"
"I was only trying to scare Alonzo so he could stop going on with the mafia, he has a great beautiful family and a great daughter like you who should be far away from danger. I didn't want him to live a life the same way I did, everyday I worry if my family is alright, if they might be in danger if I wasn't with them for the slightest second. I wasn't supposed to hurt anyone that night not even your mother but when Selene stepped in and grabbed the gun I wasn't able to do anything as the trigger got pulled two times killing my wife and-"
"It wasn't your fault, it never was your fault but witnessing it made you think that it was because you were the one who planned it and was the mastermind of everything" I spoke sadly, slightly crying for him, for all the pain he had felt, for the way he felt so lonely all those years without knowing knowing how hard it might've been for him.
"How can you say its not my fault?" He chuckled with a soft tone, I wasn't scared of him now knowing what really happened in the past.
"Because she told me the story of how much misunderstandings is often the cause of a war"
That night when I was kidnapped, Alexandros never really intended to kill my mother, he never wanted to kill anyone but he did want to scare Papa so he could stop his madness of choosing to become a part of the mafia business. Selene found out about the kidnapping and thought that her husband will kill Mama the minute she found him and her in just one room, they were just really going to talk but Selene misinterpreted the situation and thought that he would attack her. Selene tried taking the gun from Alexandros which was a very big mistake as with that, Selene suddenly pulled the trigger two times. One was the bullet that pierced my mother's heart and then the second was the one that killed Selene... It wasn't Alexandros' fault no matter what but he made everyone think it is just to protect his wife.
"There's nothing to forgive Alexandros, I know you mean well and I'm so sorry for wanting to plot revenge against you for that misunderstanding we had. I'm so sorry"
I realized that I could've been the evil one among us, I intended to hurt and kill Shawn and if ever I didn't fall in live with him I could be committed a crime that will forever taint my whole identity and will haunt me in my whole life. I feel so sorry... I could've killed the man whom I am currently in love with, I could've made the biggest regret of my life...
"As you said dear child, there's nothing to forgive"
"But I would very much prefer to hear you calling me Dad next time"
Nothing could ever compare to the happiness I could feel at this very moment. Half of me was yelling inside that finally this whole fiasco has already come to an end and there would be no more pain and war between the two clan, the other half was still slightly confused at the sudden change of atmosphere since I haven't adjusted pretty well but I was so glad that everything is back to normal now. Alexandros left my room and joined my father in theirs to chat about their wives, slowly I know they're both healing for what happened as I realized that it was nobody's fault and not one was really to blame. Alexandros took all the pain when in reality he was just being a friend who wanted to protect all of us from that kind of crazy life.
"What was that smile on your face? Did something good happen?" Shawn trail led kisses from my temple to my cheek just as I rest my back on his chest. I know no one is allowed to climb on bed with the patient but I really do just want to feel his arms wrapped around me as I reminisce on what had happened today, Shawn, being the rule breaker and good lover he is quickly pulled me in for a hug just when I needed it the most.
"I just really had a great dream and then a great day"
This day was so unexpected. From the sudden visit of the two mothers thanking me and wishing me well to the fact that our fathers are finally best friends and the while mafia thing had been taken down. Even though some of our friends will end up behind bars, they came to visit me earlier and told me that it was for the best. Voight, Jesse and Tracy were all relieved from their position and their badge were taken away from them the same way Torrey and Nick had. They will be held accountable and will face a long 8 years or more in prison for becoming a part of the mafia as well as the rest of the boys. The two leader on the other hand, they refused to tell me their sentences but Lieutenant Walker came to tell me that everything is going to be alright, they wouldn't face such consequence such as death penalty as it has been proven that the two mafias only made it look like they killed someone but instead they let them live a new life away from that dark life.
Those two cunning men...
"I love you, you and our child" Shawn muttered causing my heart to flip and provide electricity in my whole body again. I raised my hand and slowly reached for him, caressing his cheek and smiling eagerly just by thinking of our future.
"And many more to come"
"Definitely, we're not going to stop until we both become infertile" Which might I add, will never gonna happen. I think Shawn will definitely impregnate me more than my fingers can count but what can I do? I just really love this man a lot...
"I love you"