AG POV
"You're sleeping with him!?"
"It's not a big deal, okay?"
"Not a big deal. Okay, 'cause my mom opening her legs to some dude, oh yeah and that dude is my coach by the way. How is that not a big deal? Hold on, is this why I'm captain, because you bribed him with your vagina?" I ask.
"Hell no! You've been captain since 14, me and Jason's fling been for a year now."
"A year!? You've been lying to me for a year, so that's why he would show up here at random moments, and that's why you can't tell me about my dad, you already found his replacement."
"You're not going to bring your father into this." Mom says.
"We sure don't need to bring Jason into this, but here we are." Iaugh senselessly.
"This is what he was talking about, you always being mad, maybe you need a break."
"Good, I need a damn break from you." I grab my car keys and I go to my car. "Annagrace! Get your ass back here." Mom is now by the doorway.
I ignore her and drive away from the house and the effects from the dope are getting to me, and my body feels lighter and I feel calm even though I'm pissed.
I go to the loft Mom keeps for business purposes and I grab my plastic black bag and I unlock the door shutting it behind me.
I throw the bag on the couch and a few things fall out and I soon realize I took the wrong bag.
When I found that many drugs on me from the party earlier this week, I hid them under my bed but then put them in a bag and placed it in my car.
I grab the remote off the coffee table and I turn on Netflix, I put on Stranger Things and I sit on the couch running my fingers through my hair.
I don't really know what to think. Like my mom? Screwing my coach? I really don't want to think about that.
I actually don't want to think at all. My hand grazes the heroin bottle as I glance at the needles. My life at this point is so fucked up and tomorrow's going to be a hard day for me.
What if I don't want to be here tomorrow? Can I forget with this needle, this pill, this liquid?
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Billie POV
"Boo." I say when I creep up on AG who was laying in the flower field, her eyes closed, breathing steady.
Hey eyes flutter open and they meet mine. "Hey." She sits up instantly and we both indulge in a quick kiss. "How are you?" I ask her and she says "I'm fine, you're here now."
"You're so cheesy." I tease her and she nudges me a little. "You love it." She mutters.
"I mean, you do have to deal with my dumbass all the time." I add.
"You're just lucky I love you." She says before pulling me on top of her. I squeal as she gets up and spins me around.
She picks a flower and hands it to me. "What's the name of this flower?" I ask.
"It's called the Gladiolus, it means remembrance, strength, and integrity," AG answers. "I gave it to you, so you remember no matter how bad things get, we'll always be there for each other, okay?"
I nod and she connects our lips one last time before we stare into the clouds until they disappear.
I wake up from my dream rubbing my eyes. I yawn getting up and turning on my phone. I see the date and it sinks into me. Today's the day.
I get ready for the day as quick as I can and I can't help but notice the bruises on my body and I sigh heavily.
I don't think I can do this anymore, if I don't leave now, she might kill me.
I pull out my phone going to Google. I go to the American Airlines and I book the quickest flight back to Los Angeles and I buy a ticket and I throw my phone on the bed.
I grab my suitcase and I neatly fold my case putting them back in. My hand grazes one of AG's hoodies.
Do I take it?
I huff and I fold the hoodie and put it in the suitcase. I grab my charger, my bandanas, and my few perfumes. I zip it up and I roll it out of AG's room.
I see Vanessa sulking on the couch. "Good morning." I say and she glances at me before throwing me a nod.
"How are you feeling today?" I ask. "Numb." She says and I nod knowing that would be her answer.
"I'm sorry," I sit next to her on the couch. "Is there anything I can do to help?" I ask.
"No, I'll get through it, it's Anna that needs you." Vanessa turns to me and she glances behind me and says "Wait- is that your suitcase? Are you leaving?"
I look down fiddling with my fingers, "Yeah, I need to go back home." I say. "Why? I thought you were staying until after Anna's game." She asks.
"Yeah, I thought so too. But my m-mom is sick, you know and I want to be there for her." I tell her a lie which I felt completely bad for.
I couldn't tell her I'm leaving because her daughter can't help but punch on me everyday, it'd break her heart. "Oh, then it's okay if you go. Are you going to say bye to Anna before you do go?"
"Yeah, I am. Where is she actually?" I ask.
"The same place she goes to on this day." Vanessa said. I nodded and hugged her one last time and headed out of the door. It was a warm day today so I was perfectly okay with just a loose t-shirt and some sweatpants.
The flower field wasn't that far and I needed the walk to clear my mind and prepare myself to meet AG. I walk through the gates of the flower field which is empty by the way.
I scan the place and my eyes land on her. She was wearing a red cap hat backwards, black t-shirt, and grey shorts. I walk over to her and I sit next to her.
"Hey you." I speak up and she mutters a hi. "How you feeling?" I ask. She was pretty calm today.
"I don't know," AG said. "It's been four years and yet I still blame myself."
"It wasn't your fault." I say. "Someone has to take blame for it." AG tells me.
"And the person who ran your sister over is taking the blame." I rub her back. "She was only 10 Billie, it's just not fair." AG told me calmly.
"I know. I know baby and I'm so sorry." I say. Brianna was AG's little sister who was killed when she was just 10 by a hit and run accident.
AG was 14 at the time and it has shaped her life in a way that's not even understandable. AG has not been able to even go to Brianna's actual grave since but she's been coming to a flower field her and Brianna use to come to together.
AG is one of the strongest people I've met and you can see her strength though her stubbornness which was one of the many reasons why I fell for her.
But lately, that changed. I never even imagine AG even grabbing me the wrong way. I don't know what's been going on with her but I can't stay here. I have to leave so she can't sort herself out and I need to figure out if I want her in my life.
AG started picking the flowers smiling and I took my phone out not being able to control myself of taking a few pics. She goes to hand the flowers to me and she sees my phone and hides her face.
"Stop.." She says. "What...you're cute," I say. "Just one picture of you?" I pout and she rolls her eyes and gives me a smile.
(A/n: Even tho she's being a meanie, she is so beautiful)
She hands me the flowers and I thank her and she pulls me closer to her. "I'm sorry," She says. "For everything. I don't know what got into me. I don't know why I thought I could touch you and do things like that to you. I know you hate me and I completely understand. There's probably nothing I can do to make you forgive me right away. My little sister wouldn't want to watch me doing this. I hurt you and I'm so sorry, let me make it up to you."
"AG, I'm leaving." I sigh. "What do you mean?" She asks. "I mean I'm going back home." I start to get up.
"Wait, why are you leaving?" She asks, disappointment clear in her voice. "I can't stay here with you. If I'm being honest, we need space. I don't know if I can forgive you right away, but I'm tired of you hitting or hurting me. You've been calling me names that I've never been called. You've put me through torture."
"I know and I apologized. Please, I'm sorry." She pulls me softly to her.
"You beat me with a belt, punched me, threatened to drown me in a lake. You think a 'sorry' is going to fix all of that?" I say.
"Obviously not, but I want to change. I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you." AG's voice cracks.
"If you want to change, you need to do it without me." I tell her.
"I don't wanna do it without you." She says. "You have to. There's no other way."
"Please Billie."
"I can't. I really can't." I say and I get up walking away from her and I hear her footsteps after me.
I turn around and she sniffles, "Can I atleast drop you off at the airport?" She asks.
"I already ordered an uber." I answer.
"Then cancel it. Let me drive you there."
"I don't know.."
"I'm trying here." AG says.
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AG POV
"We're here." Billie says as we walk into the airport with her suitcase.
"So this is goodbye?" I ask. "Yeah.." She looks down.
"Are you breaking up with me?" I blurt out and she chuckles. "I don't know what I'm doing with you. But I need time to figure out what I'm going to do."
"I'm sorry, Billie." I say to her and she cups my face. "I understand that you're sorry, but that can't make yo for everything."
"So what do I have to do? I'll do anything."
"Anything?" She asks. "Anything." I repeat.
"Let me go back home and think about us, heal physically and mentally."
"Are you going to come back for my game?" I ask. "I really don't know, we just have to see." She tells me.
"Okay."
"My flight is going to board right now, I have to go." She says.
"I love you." I say. "I- love you too." She reaches up and kisses me on my cheek and she walks away making sure to wave one last time before she disappears into the crowd.
I shake my head and I get back in my car putting my head in my hands. I fucked up and I fucked up well.
During my drive home, I couldn't help but think what if this really is it for us? What if she wants to break up with me, but not right now? Gosh, I'm such an idiot.
I make it home and I get out of the car and I open my house door and I see my mom sitting on the couch and she turns when she hears the door open.
My eyes water and she walks up to me. "Are you still mad at me?" She asks.
"Mama, I messed up." I say before crying into her shoulder.
Sad bunny :(