Light Lost and Found

well.........shit

So my therapist told me recently that I have PTSD. She says It's because I have been abandoned so many times by my mother, and Psychological abuse from my father. she says that is why I tend to rush into relationships is so that I can feel the love and the nurturing that I never got growing up.  I mean she could have just been blunt with it and said I have Mommy issues. Honestly I have suspected for a long time that is why I want a strong female in the relationship, because I want someone better and more loving and caring than my mother. I just want to be diapered by a mommy and held safely in a their arms and to be carried to bed so I can fall asleep in their warm embrace while they play with my hair while . UwU.