Song: Eastside by Benny blanco, Halsey and Khalid
( I'm running out of songs, I need more recommendations)
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I remember once when I was 12, I was having dinner with my family when my father confronted me about sneaking into his office the other night.
He hit me so hard that day, I fell off my chair.
my ears wouldn't stop ringing. Even worse, he made me sit there and finish my plate afterward, even though I couldn't swallow anything from how hard I was sobbing.
I remember my mother watching the whole thing. Just silently observing. flinching when he hit me, but never saying a word. she saw me looking at her, begging her with my eyes to help me. to intervene. to do anything.
she saw me.
and she looked away.
she just looked away and went back to her glass of cocktail .
I remember how vividly I despised her at that moment. It was like my whole body was dipped in pure loathing . I remember my disgust with her. I remember the burning betrayal. I remember repeating "why" over and over again in my head, while I choked on my salad.
I remembered everything.
It was exactly how I was feeling now.
It was Sunday. I was back in my room, ignoring all my texts from my friends inviting me to go out with them.
When my father asked me why I went out yesterday when he specifically told me I couldn't go out, I gave him the excuse that I went back to get my phone.
Obviously I left out the part about my little trip to the club afterwards.
I didn't specifically remember the drive back from the club yesterday. It was just a blur of anger and tears, with only one thought in mind.
I had bumped into Kaylo's brother on the way out of the club. I had never seen him before, but the second I did, I recognized his eyes. They were the same as Kaylo's.
His brother was so tall and lean. He was in all black and yet, for some reason, you couldn't miss him.
He looked like he was in his early 20s, extremely handsome. It was hard to imagine someone as young as him, a gang leader.
He was on his way to room at the back of the club, where I had just been. Where Kaylo was?
I wonder if Kaylo told him what I came for?
Kaylo.
Kaylo was the definition of asshole.
I hated him. despised him. loathed him. Who did he think he was? Why did he treat me like that?
And why was HE so different? I didn't know what to expect from him, but it definitely wasn't that. I barely recognized him.
He was so scary. so intense.
Even when I slapped him, I half expected him to hit me back.
He could've.
But he didn't.
And I didn't understand why.
But now I had a major problem. What was I gonna do now?
I've never thought that he'd refuse. I always thought it was just gonna be a matter of payment.
I could always try to do it on my own, or hire someone else.
But now Kaylo knew, and he could easily expose me if I follow through with my plan. or even worse, he could go warn my dad BEFORE I follow through with my plan.
And that was an issue
True, I can threaten to tip the police about his gang . But what proof did I have? On the other hand, he probably had cameras in that room of his. He could've taped my whole confession.
I had to find a way to keep him quiet and fast before he does anything. and there was only one thing that I could think of.
Blackmail.
We both exposed ourselves yesterday. I exposed my plan to him and he exposed his secret hideout room to me.
What did he call it again? Casa Trasera.
I still needed evidence though, which I could use to blackmail him into staying quiet and even persuade him to go through with my plan.
It was gonna be difficult, especially now that he probably had me on his radar, but I'm too committed to back out now.
And besides, I had an idea of how I was gonna do it.
I realized the only way to get anything I could blackmail him with, is if I get close to him first.
It's gonna be hard, and it's gonna be cruel. But If I convince him that everything I told him about my plan was a lie I made up so I can get his attention, because I liked him, I'd probably be able to get some dirt on him.
It was far fetched, but it was the only shot I had.
The trick was gonna be HOW I get close to him.
My father was too busy with an important case. He had men and women coming in and out of his office all morning.
On the down side, I couldn't get out of my room. On the plus side, He was too preoccupied to pay attention to me as I spent the rest of my Sunday planning out my next move.
I didn't particularly enjoy manipulation. but desperate times called for desperate measures.
And I was pretty fucking desperate.
I lay in bed for what seemed like forever and decide to check my phone for the first time today. 7 missed calls from Lindsay and a huge text from Ally, which I expected. We were used to hanging out on weekends.
what I didn't expect was a missed call from Aidan.
I call him back first. he picks up almost instantly.
"TANYA WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN." he greets me, screaming over loud music in the background.
"good morning to you too Aidan"
"MORNING? ITS FUCKING AFTERNOON"
"your point?"
"Just get your ass over here"
"where?"
"Linds and I are at The Palace"
The Palace was our nickname for Lindsay's house, since she lives in a huge mansion, even bigger than mine. That's because both her parents ran a huge chocolate business. In fact, they hired my father a couple of times when they had some law issues.
"nuh thanks, I'll pass"
"HELL NO. Kaylo already has work, Ally's busy and Leo bailed cuz he's grounded and depressed"
"why"
"you know why. we went all mission impossible in his house, remember"
"no, why is he depressed?"
"I don't really know. He just said he didn't wanna talk about it"
oh shit. I forgot about that. Like I need one more reason to dread school tomorrow, I'm gonna have to face Leo after he kissed me yesterday.
But then I remembered Leo asking me if Aidan had told me anything.
And I remembered Aidan trying to tell me something about the note at the party.
did he mean that?
"Listen, Aidan. what was in that note ?"
"you're still hung up on that?"
"It's important."
"I wrote 'Tanya was checking you out'"
"wait, WHAT?"
"I'm sorry. It was a joke. but then he got all worked up and ruined it."
"Aidan, you fucking prick."
" what did I do? HEY-"
he lets out a yell, and I hear Lindsay taking over the phone and talking instead.
"Tanya? what happened?" she asks me in a concerned voice.
" Leo likes me, I think. And Aidan told him I liked him back and I don't know what to do and I'm scared to hurt his feelings because I think he'll hate me"
I wasn't planning on telling them what happened, but it's hard to keep secrets from Lindsay when she's so easy to talk to.
"what? Tanya just get over her. we'll talk about it. I can kick out this idiot too if you want"
"I heard that" Aidan mumbles in the background.
Honestly I would love to just go over to Lindsay's and cry to her for hours. Then she'd joke about us running away to Paris. After that, she'd break out her family's expensive chocolate sample stash for us to pig on while we binged all the 2000s chick flick movies.
After all, that's what we did when Ally went through a pretty hard breakup, last year.
"I can't . Dad has me on lockdown for the weekend. He's on a classified case"
"Can't you just sneak out"
That was her answer for everything.
The thing is, Lindsay doesn't even have to sneak out. Her parents let her go out whenever she wants. She just likes to pretend to have to sneak out sometimes, just for the thrill of it.
"No, he has Mary checking up on me every minute."
Actually, more than once, Mary has offered to cover for me. But one time she did that and she got caught. Father took a whole month off her paycheck. Since then, I've felt too guilty to risk it again.
"—Aidan not those. My parents are gonna kill me. Tanya I gotta go. I'll call you back- "
"It's fine. Bye"
and I hang up on her.
Ok I've been friends with Aidan for a while now. but some days, I just can't get over how insensitive he can get.
He really had to go mess with Leo, just for a joke. And now, I was fucked up too.
I'm too emotionally exhausted to even think about it anymore.
I'm going back to bed. rewatching Riverdale. ordering sushi.
and definitely not thinking about how I was gonna seduce Kaylo
****a.n****
Hey loves,
so I took a break from Wattpad for a while. Honestly I felt like this book was useless and no one was reading it anyways. but WOAH I came back and saw that people were actually READING this.
I just get demotivated sometimes. also, I have commitment issues. but I'm back on track now.
hope you liked it. I'm gonna try to write one more chapter today.
stay safe & stay home
Lulu~
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