Too innocent for sex jokes.😊
~• It's back •~
"Ew your disgusting!" "What a whore!" "Fat bitch!" "Your too extra!" "What a fucking baby stop crying." "Go back to your pole that's all you have anyways." "You think your so pretty? Your really not." "No wonder you have no friends your just annoying." "Maybe you should just die."
The petite boy was staring at himself in the dressing room mirror; not moving an inch just looking at himself. 'Extra' 'ugly' 'selfish' 'bratty'-
"Jimin-you okay you're supposed to be on right now?" Jungkook asked walking up to him wiping sweat off his head. Jimin didn't respond, "hey- what's wrong?" Jimin looked at him through the mirror shaking his head in denial.
"I-I need to go home-right now. Cover for me? Thanks." Jimin stood up holding his tears in packing all his things into his duffel bag ignoring his best friend calling him. "Hey Jimin, are you having them agin?" Jimin turned around zipping his coat up dismissing the question.
"I'll be home." Jimin said before just walking out of the club also ignoring the security guards he swore he saw Yoongis car pull up but he couldn't care less he just needed to get home.
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Song: crybaby; Melanie Martinez
After a cold lonely walk with just he and his thoughts Jimin reached home actually using the front door for the first time in a few days. He closed the door behind him dropping to the floor covering his eyes forcefully trying not to let tears fall.
'Your so weak! And you cry all the time! You want all my attention like a little whore! Just leave me the fuck alone for once!'
He couldn't hold much longer before his palms started to fill with salty tears and his voice hoarse from all the sobbing and shouting to be quiet. After a minute of crying he stood up walking to the bathroom letting the bath water run.
The room was foggy and his face burnt with tears. He looked at himself in the mirror, it usually made him feel better to look at himself, not in a selfish way but a rewarding way since he has improved greatly this last few years he doesn't ever want to feel the way he felt over 3 years ago it was a horrible time for him. And If there's one thing he's scared of feeling-
It's ugly.
He loved himself, even when no one would love him so he can be full of himself if he gets to that point. But every now and then he has his moments thinking back to his past, his family that forgot about him and the slurs thrown at him from the closet people in his life to the man he loved the most.
While his thoughts roamed free; He just kept inspecting his face with heavy critique...he was only snapped out when a splash of water was heard from the tub, he looked over and it had overflowed.
He cursed himself running over turning it off quickly. "Jungkooks gonna kill me dammit!" He whispered running his hands through his hair, "well...I'm not gonna waste it." He stripped sitting down in the tub not caring about the insane amount of water rising out of the tub from his sudden presence.
He breathed in and out heavily closing his eyes, he breathed on last long breath before letting his head slowly sink into the water, he stayed under longer than he can remember.
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After drying off and throwing a big shirt on he sat on a chair near the window looking out at the city, letting the neon lights illuminate the window. He must of sat for over 2 hours in the same spot cause when jungkook got home at 11:00 Jimin was still sitting in that same spot looking out the window.
Jungkook only cracked the door looking at the older, he didn't disturb him only sighing and taking his leave when a small voice called out for him. "Huh?"
"Why are you my friend? With a crybaby like me?" Jungkook clicked his tongue dropping his bags at the door walking over to him squatting down to his height. "Because your the most kindest funniest extra person I've ever met, but your heart is so big, your confident and perfect Jimin. Those people don't even know you. I know you and love you." Jimin let a tear escape his eye wiping it away immediately, no one sees him cry anymore.
"T-thank you...you should sleep; thanks for taking my shift kookie." He nodded kissing his head before getting up and leaving the room. As Jimin leaned back further into the chair, he caught a glimpse of the clock on the wall.
He turned back to the city taking in more of its beauty. "I hope Tae doesn't leave me either."
He sighed drifting to sleep in his chair, he knew he'd be in pain the next day but he couldn't bring himself to move.
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Jungkook placed down a plate of breakfast food for Jimin and himself, the older was quiet and only poked the food. "Are you gonna eat min? I don't want you getting sick." Jimin shook his head holding his knees against his chest with his feet on the chair.
"M'not hungry." He mumbled, "at least eat the bread...please." Seeing the younger care so much he sighed taking a big bite of it then placing back down looking to him for approval, he faintly smiled going back to eating.
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"Since it's our day off, do you wanna do something? Like get out?" Jungkook asked washing the dishes from earlier, Jimin was in the same seat shaking his head. "What about a walk might help your mind?" Jimin sighed getting up.
Jungkook frowned sitting down on the couch. After a moment Jimin came back out in a big hoodie and jeans. "Well are we still going?" Jimin mumbled sounding annoyed. "Oh, I didn't think you wanted to when you got up." Jimin shook his head walking over to the fire escape. "You coming?"
(This is their apartment☺️)
Jungkook POV.....
I've known Jimin for years and years since our first year of high school, he was always a big baby and a little bratty; some might say extra. I was really quiet and stayed to myself until I met Jimin. He was always in some type of drama being misunderstood or sometimes in fights.
At first I didn't think I should be his friend but the more we hung out the more I saw he was the sweetest person on this planet and had an unconditional amount of self love and confidence that it came off as ignorance or bitchy, but he tried to build up the people around him and love them without limits but not all people saw it like that, especially not his parents or his siblings.
He has-or had two older siblings one sister and one brother they don't talk anymore though. Jimin was always the hyper kid in his family of serious individuals. And was out casted a lot.
He might have an attitude and what not but he really is so pure and nice when he wants to of course. I wish he never met bogum he ruined him so much. That's why he has these little episodes they don't last long and only come 3-4 times a year since he is good at flushing out his emotions but it always comes back to haunt him.
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"You want bubble tea?" Jimin asked pointing to the small cafe in between two big buildings it almost looked hidden, he and Jimin have been there before countless times before but they got really busy so they haven't stopped by in a long time.
Jungkook shrugged walking in with him.
"My favorite boys!" A young woman with blonde hair waved from behind her counter with a bright smile.(y'all know I love my girls and they are in EVERY SINGLE ff.) "hey wheein." Jungkook waved back sitting on one of stools with jimin who just smiled at her.
"Is it a regular today?" She asked starting up her machine as other people came in talking and laughing, she smiled to them. "Yeah please." Jimin sat on the stool rubbing his sweater paws together getting used to the air.
After a few minutes of silence wheein came over with two drinks.
(That's three but Jimin was the purple and jk has blue)
"You know you two haven't been over this side of town in weeks why now?" She asked raising an eyebrow, Jimin chuckled taking the drink, "we've been...busy." Jimin rubbed the back of his neck.
"Ah I see, I'm not gonna charge you today you look like you've had a rough day." She patted his head Jimin slightly gasped, "I forgot my wallet...so." Wheein laughed walking away.
"Wait did you really?" Jungkooks asked walking over to him. "Yeah..." they started laughing together uncontrollably.
"Ah chim?" He caught his breath looking to the younger. "Yeah kook?" "I love you, I'm glad your my best friend." Jimin blushed pushing him slightly. "Ew you always make things weird."
No matter how hard things get at least jungkook would never leave him.
Soft friendship? I'm not crying you are🤧
Btw I'm making a new book y'all it's really cool I think I might post it tomorrow or Monday don't know yet💜💜