Happy Birthday to Me!!!
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It was a few days ago...
I'm so sorry for being late! Like literally!
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Can't see when I'm falling
Losing myself but in there you calling.
There you are, There you are
You're there with open arms.
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Chapter dedicated to : manz_x khuwahish marwairshad2000 NusratHJ I-am-busy simranrathore8 and ablissfullfolly
Honestly I wanted to dedicate each of you a separate chapter (which I will. Lol) but then I couldn't help but do it all together here. I just wanted to make this chapter as a 'thank you!' from my side for always supporting me! . You guys made writing so much more easier for me. I owe you people. Love you all to the moon and back!
<<third person's p.o.v>>
Running away as fast as possible in her tiny steps she quickly opened the door of the cupboard and hid inside it. Her tiny figure shivered at the thought of being hit again.
Tears welled her eyes as she looked at his tall figure through the keyhole. There the man who she calls her father stood with a belt in his hand.
"Orvana! Come out right now!" He was losing his patience with his little one and it was one of those moments where she 'deserves' to be punished.
"He's here already! Where are you hiding, you bitch!" He screamed. Tightly shutting her eyes she tried to keep her voice as inaudible as possible and that's when it happened.
"Hey." A soft voice whispered making her stop breathing.
"Open your eyes." She had never heard such a soft and sweet voice ever before and something about it made a sudden sense of relief rush through her body. Slowly opening her eyes she looked around to find who it was and that's when her eyes landed on the holed crack of the cupboard which was initially to hide the broken wall. Frowning she bend down peeping through the damaged wall and her eyes widened on seeing the view of the streets.
Never in her life did the little girl ever have a glimpse of the other world. Where there are people, lights, cars, and so much more than just those 4 grey walls and dimly lit room.
"Hii" Her eyes snapped in the direction of the sound and at that time she felt the weirdest of them all. There stood a little boy dressed in a cute small white polo shirt and black shorts along with a flat cap placed neatly on his head. She frowned looking at the way he craned his neck just to see her more making her slightly pull back.
"H-hi" she replied. The little boy or who she thought was a boy on the other side passed her a toothy smile as he asked. "Can you come a little forward?"
Hesitating for a moment but none the less she did lean forward to the face-sized hole carefully taking in the boy's look. The lightest shade of brown eyes, small button nose, and rosy lips. The person in front of her didn't look like he had to go through anything like her. The person looked completely fine.
"Why're you crying?" He asked to which she just shook her head. "N-not crying"
The little guest to her cupboard just narrowed their eyes at her before saying "Liar. Mommy says we should never lie." Raqeeba's eyes widened as she asked
"You have a mommy? He just shrugged saying "Everyone has one."
She nodded sniffing. Maybe she's the only unlucky one. "What's your name?" He asked. Smiling at the kid she said "Orvana"
"Or--what?" She laughed at the boy's confusion before she thought for a simpler name. "Call me Ora" the other kid smiled saying "Hii Ora! I'm um... Wait let me think...." His widened as a nickname for himself crossed his head. " A-Man!"
Raqeeba frowned as she said "What name is that?"
He chuckled saying "Like super-man, bat-man, Spider-Man? I'm your A-Man!" She chuckled.
"Hii A-Man! Nice meeting you."
"I've chocolate!" He said offering her which she took through the hole muttering a 'Thank you'
With that without anyone knowing the little girl with no mother, drug addict father and a sensitive past made the very first friend of her life.
"Soo... Friends?" He asked.
"Friends" she nodded smiling.
First time in her life did the eyes of that little girl gleamed with happiness. She had made a friend. At that moment she couldn't thank God enough for the magical door which opened ways to a new friendship.
But little did she know how quick it would dissapear as the door to her cupboard opened with a flash and her eyes met those terrifying green ones.
"Hey, Doll. Missed me?"
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<<nuraan's p.o.v>>
I could visibly see her shiver at my words but for a change, it didn't bother me at all and the only emotion I could feel was the sense of satisfaction that rushed through me. I like it.
"I'm-I'm sorry" she whispered. Ya right. I straightened up resting my hands in my pocket as I said. "I'd appreciate it if you leave early tomorrow, Ms. Malik." There's no way I'd want Raqeeba to feel weird at her own house because of her.
She chuckled. "Why?"
Is she for real? Talk about being shameless.
"I don't want you near my Wife. Does that answer your question?"
She looked at me wide-eyed and slightly agape mouth making me roll my eyes as I turned back to the glass wall.
I don't know if I was being downright rude or it was normal for me to behave this way, considering her cringe-worthy behavior. But I knew one thing. I don't regret saying a shit not after she dared to curse the woman in whose house she's standing in.
"Now if you don't mind. I'd like to be alone"
I clenched my jaw and closed my eyes as I heard the sound of footsteps fading away.
Finally.
A small smile found its way to my lips. Something is happening to me. Something I can't really put a finger on. I could almost feel myself pushing the girl I love away from me and yet I didn't feel any pain like I used to. Hell in fact everything that just happened made me feel...free.
Like I was finally letting it go.
Letting her go.
Everything that happened in these past 4 years flooded through my mind but the strange part was that more than that, the mere 4 days spent with a special someone managed to overpower all my memories of the girl I once loved.
How is this possible?
Was my love for Anusha not strong enough or is this girl magically born to overpower my mind in every fuckin way possible?
Our marriage. Her smile. That smart mouth. Her weird little expressions. The jumbo and jerk thing. Her animated way of talking. The way she managed to punch me in the guts and slap me on the face. Her hatred for sushis and love for food. Our lunch. Her managing to make me dance. The way she sang for me. Her caring nature and... And those addictive lips.
God I sound like a girl! Or a hormonal teenager!
Chuckling at myself I shook my head. I'm losing it. To be honest she made her first impression in front of me at our wedding dance itself. I was impressed at how cool she acted and composed herself after everything. Considering she was almost terrified in the darkness. I admit it was a bad move from my mother. She almost looked freaked out.
It wasn't a secret that she was afraid of the dark. Fear from darkness is pretty normal, honestly. But from what I observed that day was the fact that her fear had a different intensity to it. She could be nyctophobic for all I know. And the fact itself left a bitter taste in my mouth. They say that someone having nyctophobia is often characterized by a severe fear of the dark. It is triggered by the brain's disfigured perception of what would, or could happen when in a dark environment or probably repeat itself.
I licked my lips as a thought occurred at the back of my mind... what could be her reason though? That probably explains why I made sure to tell Juliette to immediately take care of the power system.
Wouldn't want my wife to freak out.
My smile dropped the moment my eyes landed on the front porch and all I could see was darkness.
Wait what?
I squinted my eyes leaning a little closer to find all the lights out. I could feel tiny bits of panic eloping me slowly as I speed-walked towards the switchboard, turning on the lights, but nothing happened. How is this even possible? As long as I know we never really had power cuts here.
"Fuck." Shaking my head I cursed under my breath as I ran upstairs taking two steps at a time as her scared eyes from that day at the dance kept flashing in front of me. No no no. Damnit! I shouldn't have left her alone man. Call me a sissy but I could feel a weird
churn in my heart even at the thought of not being with her at this moment.
Maybe. Maybe it's not as serious as I am thinking it to be. Maybe she's already asleep and didn't notice the fact that the lights were out. Maybe I'm just freaking out. Maybe she's fine. I hope so.
Clenching my jaw I got up to the second floor with my palms getting sweaty for some reasons I don't know.
"Please let her be asleep." I couldn't help but whisper to myself as I slowly knocked on her door twice. The loud voice of thunder and heavy rain didn't help either. I sighed turning the knob of the door open as I slowly peaked through. It was very dark in here almost black. Speed walking to the balcony door I quickly pulled the curtains to let at least the least of lights enter the room.
"Raq---" I stopped clenching my jaw and closed my eyes as I realized she wasn't in there. Shaking my head I was about to knock on the attached washroom door when I just decided to open it and was again met with silence.
"Raqeeba!" Ok, this is enough where on Earth is she!?
Getting out in a haste I look around the floor calling out for her before going downstairs. Maybe she was searching for me or something. God this girl. A curse left my mouth when I couldn't see her.
"Is something wrong?" I mentally groaned at that voice not again. I didn't bother seeing her as I kept my search going on. I could hear her insolent chuckle when she said
"Your wife ain't there in your room or what?"
I stopped in my tracks when those words left her mouth. Fuck me! I turned towards her smiling as I said. "First. It's our room. Second, unlike your sleeping problem, that's her room. It's not that I'm gonna throw my woman out or something."
She clenched her jaw in anger as she shouted. "Well, you threw me out, you moron!" I just rolled my eyes jogging towards the stairs before I stopped and looked at her over my shoulder.
"Didn't I tell you I stopped doing sluts?"
It was mean. I know. To be honest never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that I would use such words for any woman ever. My mom would be ashamed of me but at this moment this is not even the least of my concerns.
How can a person be as stupid as me?
Shaking my head I hurriedly jogged to my bedroom stopping right in front of the door, taking a deep breath when as those soft sobs entered my ears.
How could I miss this for God's sake!
A sudden wave of nervousness hit me as I touched the doorknob. Please let it not be that bad of a situation. Pushing the thought away. I released a shaky breath before literally throwing the door open with a loud bang.
Ya, I know.
Bad move.
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<<raqeeba's p.o.v>>
I jumped, hearing the sound of the room door open with a loud bang making me shiver slightly. Clenching my jaw at the silhouette that stood in front of the door I practically pushed myself towards the glass balcony door before slowly standing on my feet.
Call me stupid but at this moment I didn't want anything more than just a simple confirmation that it's actually the person I am hoping it is.
Blinking thrice I tried clearing my blurry visions as I gulped looking at the figure that slowly approached me but stopped the moment it saw me pushing myself further away. Wiping my tears from the back of my palm I slowly tugged my shirt up and rubbed my nose. I know I can be disgusting at times but hey! It's better than having mucus all around your face!
Yuck!
His familiar scent hit my nostrils and relief flooded through my veins.
Thank God!
As if somehow managing to read my expression I felt him come forward and that's when the moonlight hit his face making me almost choke a sob as I bit my lips and clenched my fist literally trying to control myself from running into his arms, for which of course he'll push me away.
I couldn't picture the expression he had on his face as he kept his wide-eyed gaze fixed upon me. C-could he be angry because I just entered his room? Without asking him..? Taking a deep breath I tried passing him a small smile as I said.
"B-before you be angry at me I just wanted to say th-that I-I'm sorry I didn't ask before just barging in your room. I-I just get t-tiny itty-bitty freaked out in the darkness." I said as showed him the little gap between my index and thumb.
Tiny itty bitty? Bhwahahhahahahha
Shut up!
"I'm sorry okay!" I said throwing my hands up in the air before resting them on the sides of my forehead as tears started to form in my eyes AGAIN!
"I-I know I shouldn't have done that it's unethical to enter just like that b-but kindly understand I-i c-cant control this I'm just... Ugh! I hate it! I hate how weak I can be at times! I just hate this b-but I try. I try not to bother the people around me at---"
My words stopped the moment his arm circled around my waist and he pulled me closer to his muscular figure before engulfing me in a tight hug. As if on instinct my hands wrapped around his neck as I inhaled his intoxicating fresh smell.
Honestly, I don't know what was happening but at this moment I know that I wanted this.
I needed it.
Tears trailed down my eyes as I tightened my grip on him, while he pulled me closer by my waist if that was even possible. A sob left my mouth and I quickly tried to shut myself when one of his hands slowly caressed my hair.
"Shh. It's okay. I'm here. I'm here."
His head dipped in the crook of my neck as he kept muttering sweet nothings in my ear. I could feel my breathing calm down with every passing second as I relaxed at his warm touch.
You know those moments when all of a sudden just a little presence of someone makes you feel safe and secure? That's exactly what I was feeling at this very moment. There was silence for what seemed like an eternity before...
"I'm sorry." He muttered making me frown as I slowly pulled away but didn't remove my arms which were wrapped around his neck.
"I'm sorry, I was too late." I looked into his blue orbs that glistened as the moonlight cascaded upon them searching for any sign of pretense, but to my relief there were none. His words were genuine. Like he meant them. At that moment I couldn't help but be drawn into those beautiful blue which was shining like crystals. A small smile formed on his lips with a pinch of amusement in his eyes making me frown. Why is he smi---.
Don't smile like that you look creepy!
My eyes widened as realization hit me. Oh no! Please tell me I wasn't giving that smile?
The one with all your 32 teeth out, bulging apples, eyes squinted in an utmost creepy manner, and oh! Let's not forget the double chin!? You totally did it, fella!
Fuck me!
Pass
For the first time, I agree with you!
Shut up! Quickly composing myself I straightened up looking back at him with a blank expression as I turned my vocal cords to the most professional voice I could muster. "No problem."
Wait, what?
Someone just kicks her, please!
That's a two in sync.
Be normal Biscuit!
She means Bitch, bitch.
You guys can't team up against me like that! That's not how it's supposed to be!
Oh yeah. Try us.
Shaking my head I quickly looked at my feet, shivering as his hot breath hit my forehead. I was literally standing on my toes as I held his neck for support. Either he is too tall or I'm kinda short?
"I-I mean thank you." What? It's not like he is responsible for any of this. Hell from the way he has always been ever since. I didn't even imagine for him to be with me. Or react this way...
I inhaled a sharp breath as I felt him lean closer to me. My eyes met his and I could feel the loud thudding of my heart and lack of breath with every inch of the distance he kept closing bit by bit. His eyes widened before they flickered down to my lips making him lick his before his orbs met mine again.
I gulped leaning a bit back but to my surprise, I felt him lean closer yet again this time making me frown.
"R-Raqeeba?" I hummed at his voice, eyes fixed upon his lips which kept closing the distance between us.
"M-my.." I bit the inside of my cheek as his hot breath hit my lips making me close my eyes as I breathed out a "your?"
His hands loosened before grabbing my waist from either side as if stopping me from moving back any further as he quickly said. "My neck."
Wait, what?
My eyes shot open at his words as realization hit me that it's not him who kept moving closer but ME who kept pulling him towards me with my arms around his neck in a tight hug.
KILL ME!
"Sorry sorry!"
Wide-eyed I quickly tried to release him from my grip but immediately stopped when I was about to lose my balance. He frowned before craning his neck and looking down, over my shoulder making me shut my eyes in embarrassment. Great. Now he can clearly see how big time of a dwarf I am as I literally stood on the tip of my toes.
A chuckle escaped his mouth making my cheeks go warm as I lightly rested my forehead on his shoulder wanting nothing more than just to hideaway. How do I always manage to make things so embarrassing? A small chuckle left my mouth as I thought of the stunt I just pulled and as much as I hate this I can't help but admit that this is probably the first time that I have ever enjoyed the darkness. A little.
And it's not a secret that this is because of him.
I shivered the moment I felt his hands slowly move down my waist slightly brushing his fingers through my bare sides which peaked a little from my lifted top before they gently rested on my hips making my breath heavy. A shriek escaped my mouth the moment he grabbed my upper thigh lifting me up making me wrap my legs around his torso while my hand securely circled around his neck.
"This is better?" His eyes danced with playfulness as the corner of his lips lifted in a smile. I rolled my eyes smiling too as I said "I guess."
We stayed like that for a moment he asked.
"You're feeling okay now?"
"Yeah." I smiled to which he nodded before his grip around me tightened and I saw him walk towards the bed.
"You know I can walk," I said as a matter of fact. He just scoffed saying "sure" Gently placing me on the bed I saw him reminiscing through the bedside drawer before he took out something from in there and lit them up. The light from the candles barely lit the room but the sense of assurance they savored was more than enough for me.
His eyes met mine and I couldn't help but smile at him as I whispered a 'Thank you' to which he nodded. I licked my bottom lip the moment I felt his gaze bore deeper into me and for a moment I felt those blue become a shade darker. His eyes traveled down the length of my face before they stopped on my lips making me suck in a breath.
If it were some other day I would've shied away and looked anywhere but at him but for a change this time I didn't. I didn't look away. His jaw clenched as he shook his head before walking around to his side of the bed. My eyes followed his every moment as I saw him lay down, pull the duvet and close his eyes.
Weird.
Would it be wrong if I say I kind of... expected... Something?
Shaking my head I bit my bottom lip looking at my hand which rested on my lap. This man is far more much difficult to understand than what i ever presumed him to be. Either he is just too different, unique, and difficult for my understanding or he's just too common and cliche. Both ways I have experience of none.
One moment he is nothing more than an absolute narcissistic unapologetic dick while in the other he is this sweet understanding and caring companion I always wished to be blessed with.
Anything about him never fails to surprise me. Be it his playful talks or his bipolar nature, his calm composed, and collected aura or his dangerous dominance, his swift smooth velvety voice, or that cold glare that can manage to make a sane and confident person crumble down in defeat. He was just too very confusing.
Turning my head to my left I narrowed my eyes at the sleeping figure of my husband. After every time he gives me a reason to dislike or loath him, he comes another wave of kindness or something which ends up drawing me closer to his absolutely inconsiderable and unwanted emotions towards me.
What is it in him that keeps pulling me towards such an uninvited environment? And as much as he hates me. I wouldn't deny the fact that he is there in any situation I would actually want someone beside me. Be it at the day of the wedding or right now.
His coldness is soul-numbing, but his sweetness can be heartwarming.
And I am so not immune to it. Could it be his looks that keep on making me neglect anything he says or does? I mean sure he is the most gorgeous humanly art I have ever seen but---
"Stop looking at me like that, Wife. I don't feel safe."
My eyes widened and cheeks warmed as his words registered in my brain. Oh god. I thought he is asleep! His eyes opened before he raised a brow at me and gestured me to lie down.
Uh-oh.
My mouth kept opening and closing like that of a fish before an idea popped into my head. How is it that only he manages to make me feel conscious, hot, and bothered by his close proximity? Or maybe do I too have a little effect on him?
Well... there's just one way to know.
A playful smile spread across my face as I ignored the wild beating of my heart, got inside the duvet, held his hand opening them while making some space for myself as I slowly rested my head on his chest.
Bold move, bitches!
I know right!!
Biting my bottom lip hard I tried to stop myself from giggling the moment I felt become all stiff under my touch. I pressed my head closer to his chest and a sudden wave of pride rushed through me when I heard the loud beating of his heart making me almost want to pinch his cheeks when all of a sudden realization dawned into me.
Is he not wearing a shirt!?
"Fuck" I cursed under my breath shutting my eyes tightly at my stupid action. Great! Good job, Raqeeba! For successfully managing to make a fool out of yourself, yet again! My cheeks turned red as I slowly and swiftly tried to pull myself away from his completely naked torso when all of a sudden his arms tightly grabbed my waist, holding me in place, pulling me closer to him.
"Plan flopped, Wifey?" His teasing chuckle made me want to dig a hole for myself and just keep digging.
"Whatever," I muttered before rolling my eyes as I craned my neck to look up into those blue orbs which were already looking back at me. A small smile plastered on his face as he slowly leaned bit by bit closing the gap between us as his nose touched mine making me shiver. His breath hit my lips as his orbed darkened before he muttered.
"Good night, Wife"
I closed my eyes when his soft lips touched my forehead before he leaned down kissing the tip of my nose. I could feel the way his lips stopped hardly an inch away from mine making me open my eyes and smile as I slowly lifted my hand up, placing my thumb on his lips and lean forward before pressing my lips against my thumb which stood in between our lips being the only barrier which separated us from having the taste of each other...
Something we always do.
I could feel his lips spread into a smile against my thumb before he kissed it back.
"Good night, Husband."
I whispered slowly pulling back. He hummed but to my surprise I felt him lean closer before nuzzling his face on the crook of my neck and tightly wrapping his arms around my waist. His head rested on my left hand which tangled with his soft hair while my right was placed on his biceps.
We had never done this before.
And this was hardly the 4th time I was meeting him. But irrespective of every obstacle this marriage has, something about him being with me right now right here. Felt so right. Like it was obvious. Like we were always meant to be.
Like we belong together.
Or maybe I'm just fangirling out because he helped me when in need. I don't know. This man here is my husband and I'm supposed to be his wife. But we don't share single heed about each other. Or do we?
What name should I give to this relationship? Should we continue or should I just leave it like this, in between? Incomplete.
Out of everything that happened today. I can't stop but wish for a normal marital life but maybe I'm expecting too much. Or maybe I'm expecting too soon. Either way at this moment an unknown emotion swirled through me which I just pushed back.
I need to go slow.
Closing my eyes I tightened my arms around him as a small smile plastered on my face. I guess I've decided. At this moment from right here, I'll make sure to be with this man forever and always no matter what being his support and well-wisher in the name of friendship.
As stupid as I sound I know I want to do this. I want to be with him just like he was with me. Separate yet together. I know he's not ready and I'm completely fine with it. I will make sure he doesn't face any obstacle alone, from now on with...
No expectations.
It's just me being for him. That's all. Keeping just one and only one condition in mind.
I need to hold on.
I can't Unchain my heart. I can't let my unruly emotions come in between.
I can't fall for my, husband.
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I swear when I say I'm so very sorry for making you guys wait!
We had a cyclone here and literally there were hardly any internet connections.
Or else I would have given the update sooner! Seriously!
But still when I opened my Wattpad and I was met with the three comments by
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I know a lot of authors hate it when their readers nag for updates but definitely not me. Lol. In fact I love it!
Idk I just find it so damn motivating!
Ik I'm weird.
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