amanda=you
amanda's pov
ondreaz and i have been going out for a couple weeks or so. he always encourages me to be a part of his tik toks and always invites me to go out with his group.
"come on! i wanna see you tonight?" he said through the end of the phone.
i turned on the lights in the 5 month baby's room. my baby. it wasn't an easy story to tell. but i only met ondreaz like 5 weeks ago; we clicked and my roommate knew that so she would babysit my baby when i went out with him. but there were so many times that he would invite me out but my priority was the life i had. but even though i didn't see ondreaz every day, more like 4 times a week maximum we would constantly call each other. i never invited him over.
"i'm busy tonight dre." i said picking up my baby who had woken up.
"let me go over tonight! i'll bring you some flowers and wine or like i don't know a mocktail because you don't drink."
if only he knew the actual reason i don't drink was because i had a child to breast feed. my baby was about to be 5 months. ondreaz to this moment hadn't noticed any reason i would've been pregnant because i didn't really get stretch marks and i lost the baby weight so fast; it was in my genes but also hard work.
"hey amanda, can you do the dishes?" asked my roommate, vicky.
"sure." i said.
"okay i'll be there in 10." said ondreaz.
suddenly at that moment my phone ran out of battery.
ondreaz knee where i lived; he's left me at my door before.
"how are you big landon!" smiled my roommate taking my son, landon, from my arms.
"ondreaz is coming over in ten."
"the apartment is clean minus the ditches and honestly you look cute." she said.
"yeah what about landon?" i asked her stressed.
"amanda he likes you so much that he won't care. if anything he'll start caring but in a good way."
i went to my room and quickly put on some grey sweats and sports bra and put a black zip up over it.
in like 15 minutes while vicky took care of landon i washed the dishes and did super quick minimal make up.
then we got a knock on the door.
"hey!" i said dying of nerves.
he was about the most important male in my life, my son.
"hey you look amazing." he said hugging me and kissed my forehead. "roses for you, and you still don't drink so; we're good."
"i can offer you something to drink here." i said as he followed me into our kitchen.
"in this cup?" he said laughing picking up a baby bottle.
"if you want to." i laughed back nervously and heard a cry out from landon.
"woah, you guys have a kid in here?"
"yeah..." i said shyly looking at him in the eyes kinda scared what'd he'd say; if he caught on.
"let me see, i love kids." said ondreaz as he sat on my couch.
oh god, here goes nothing.
i walked over to landons nursery and grabbed him from vicky. i gave vicky that "it's time" look.
landon calmed down once he was in my arms.
"oh god he's so cute!" said ondreaz as i sat in the couch next to him. "can i hold him?"
"yeah of course." i told him and when i passed landon on to him making sure he would support his head correctly and carry him so he'd be comfortable.
"aww he's giving me the lip. what's wrong baby?" he asked.
"he doesn't love to away from his mom." i smiled at my son and he looked to me happy.
"your roommate i'm guessing?" asked ondreaz passing him to me.
"no..more like her roommate." i said and he looked at me confused while landon whined. he was probably hungry.
"what do you mean?"
i covered myself up and lined landon up so he could eat.
ondreaz started off with a look of confusion to a look of a realization.
"...it's your son." he said.
"yeah.." i said looking down scared at what he would say next.
his phone started ringing.
"it's my manager can i get this and then we talk?" he said and i nodded.
he went to walk with his manager on my balcony and i fed landon. once i finished feeding and burping landon , ondreaz was done with his call.
landon was falling asleep in my arms. i knew deep down even if ondreaz told me he didn't wanna see me anymore, i still had landon and deep down he was all i needed at times. he was my life; everything i did was for him because i had to play the roll of a mom and dad due to his dad never even caring.
landon has sleepy eyes but he wasn't falling asleep just yet. then ondreaz came in and sat next to me.
"i just need to ask ; why didn't you tell me?" asked ondreaz putting his phone away to give me his full attention.
"i didn't want to tell you because no everyone knows this. it's not because i'm ashamed of landon, i'm not. he's my pride and joy like this kid is my everything and someone doesn't like that; fuck them. I'll give my life for my son. it's just that: i am ashamed of myself for being a young mom. everyone seems to walk away when i say that i have a son. which now that i say it i feel sorry for landon because he doesn't deserve to be ignored." i explained to ondreaz and put landon's pacifier in his mouth.
i picked up landon in my arms rubbing his head as he started drifting asleep.
"I really wish you would've told me." said ondreaz.
"i know..and i'm sorry." it made me upset that I didn't tell ondreaz i had a child; he deserved to know. but if he decides to tell me he didn't wanna see me anymore i'd understand.
"can I hold him?" asked ondreaz.
"yeah of course. he's falling asleep." i said gently passing him to ondreaz.
"kid i know you're sleeping but i really like your mom; i don't care that she's a mom." said ondreaz and turned to me. "i love you a lot and i want you to be my official girlfriend. i understand you have him but I don't mind. my brother has a kid; if anything i admire you because I know that this isn't an easy job that you have and you grind a lot. now i know why i can't offer you drinks or why you can't go out a lot of times. but i'd love to go out with both of you." said ondreaz and I felt my eyes getting watery. "aw i'm sorry if i said something wrong."
"no it was just--no ones ever supported me and landon besides my roommate and this means so much to me." i told him "and yes i will be your girlfriend."
he leaned in to kiss me and Landon let out of his screeches; which is odd he's a really quiet and calm kid.
"someones jealous." laughed ondreaz. "can i borrow your mom for a while?"
***
-4 years later-
"careful landon!" i shouted to him as he went on the monkey bars.
"don't be such a mom." said Tony nudging me while holding olivia.
let me catch you up : ondreaz and i continued our relationship and careers; Landon came along the way anywhere we went. landon didn't know that ondreaz wasn't his dad until his biological dad wanted to meet landon and told him "that's not your dad." but according to ondreaz he felt a love for Landon as if it was his son and Landon was still sad that ondreaz isn't his actual dad. so now landon calls him "dre". I knew landon wouldn't know the dark story about his biological father who is pretty much locked up for life, but the love and connection he and ondreaz had was a blessing.
it was never in our plans to have a baby but just 3 months ago I gave birth to olivia. she was a sweet soul like her dad. ondreaz's princess; he would hate to let go of her and was extremely overprotective with people touching her. we even bough a house in los angeles.
today was landon's 4th birthday and we took him to the park with a bunch of our friends and some other kids from his daycare. it was really nicely decorated and i could tell he was having fun.
"mommy!" said landon running up to me hugging my leg.
"wassup big boy." he said.
"dre says we can open presents." he smiled as ondreaz came up behind him.
"hey bud why are you ratting me out?"smiled ondreaz.
"yeah we can open presents." i said grabbing olivia from tony and going down to one of the tables where he had his presents. he opened all his presents and landon being the sweetheart he is went to go hug everyone when he found out what their presents were.
"wait! there's one present left!" said ondreaz giving a box to landon.
"who's is it?" asked landon to ondreaz.
"mine but it's a really important present." said ondreaz.
landon opened the box sitting on the table. and inside was a build a bear and a note.
"mommy can you read this please?" asked landon.
"read it loud we're all curious!" said dixie sitting at one of the tables. at this point lots of us had kids or were expecting kids.
"okay." i laughed and they gave me a microphone for that i could be heard loudly. "this is a note from ondreaz to landon. aww. babe you don't wanna read it?"
ondreaz smiled and grabbed the microphone. olivia was putting her hand in mine as landon tickled her.
"dude i feel so professional. anyways. no cussing in this lil speech because it's for kids. i do want to thank amanda too cuz she's given me two of the most amazing people i've ever met; being landon and olivia. this is my note to landon : hey kid, it's dre. maybe you will read this in 20 years and think i'm so dumb. but that's besides the point. i guess you know i'm not your actual dad, i wasn't there when you were born or in the first minutes of your life. but you have brought me joy since the first minute i met you and from them on out have had millions of adventures. i'm glad that i'm here to get a hug from you every morning, a laugh all the time. i'm always going to be here for you and help you run from monsters even when they're hard to fight. i love you from the bottom of my heart and i'd give the workd for you." said ondreaz and i was tearing u and so was everyone around us. "i'm not done. landon grab the teddy bear please."
landon smiled grabbing the teddy bear.
"there's a message behind the bear why don't you ask mommy to read it." said ondreaz
"okay." said landon. "mama can you ready it."
"of course." i sniffled and ondreaz turned the bear around. i cried before i could even read it out loud. "can i adopt you? -dre/dad"
everyone around us was clapping and so many people were in tears.
"come here buddy." said ondreaz hugging landon.
"i can call you dad?" said landon and i heard a bunch of people aww. ondreaz nodded hugging him. "i love you dad."
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comments
@user1; awww landon looks so happy
@lopez_tony: mans is rocking the overalls #adopted
@amanda: my two boys🥺 i love you both so much
@ondreazlopez : he's my best friend shh we're too cool for you
@amanda : he's my son.
@ondreazlopez : he's mine too and that feels amazing to say.