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Sad chapter ahead!😥
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I need your love, I need your time
When everything's wrong. You make it right
I feel so high. I come alive
I need to be free with you tonight
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Chapter dedicated to: manz_x thank you soo much for always supporting me! Your comments make my day Angel!😘
<<third person's p.o.v>>
Her hands kept tapping on her mobile screen impatiently waiting for a reply from the other side of the phone. Every event that took place today kept replaying through her mind. Him coming back. Him trying to avoid her. Him fighting for her. Him caring. She couldn't help but smile at that though but that smile disappeared almost as immediatly as it came as a certain someone's face flashed in front of her.
The way her tiny arms wrapped around his neck and the way he carried her securely in his arms placing her in his lap gently while he caressed her hair with her head dipped in the crook of his neck.
That's certainly not how she thought them to be.
Hell she didn't even think that they'd even be comfortable enough to stay in each other's presence, forget being wrapped in each other's arms.
It was the moment she felt it. She felt the thing she never in her life though she could at least not when it comes to that girl. It wasn't a rocket science to Anusha that Raqeeba stood no where when compared to her. For all she new the girl who her ex was married off too was just an average simple introverted girl who likes keeping to herself. Although she can be chatty to the people she's close to. At least that's what she heard.
They'd hung out a few times before mostly because Nushra and Raqeeba were good friends and in all those time she never took that girl as anything more than a stupid chubby little teddy who is all about happiness or food. But now, looking at the way he listened to everything she said in the function and that respect and admiration that slightly passed through his eyes when he looked at her made her doubt her own judgements.
Sometimes in life you feel it when things were about to get out of your hands. And this was one of those times. And as much as she hates to admit it.
It was time she was starting to feel threatened.
Letting out a groan she cursed under her breath. It was supposed to be her and not that crazy little girl who was there in his arms!
Raqeeba was living the life she ever wanted. That girl who wasn't even a proper grown-up was living the life every girl dreamed of. She had money, power and Fame. Too bad she's never gonna use them. But most of it all she had that one thing which stood out the most. Something which didn't belong to her.
Never did. Never will.
The Bing of her phone made her slightly jump as she didn't waste a single moment checking the text she had been waiting for since ages. A chuckle escaped her lips as read the text. 'Of course this will be one of her many weak points' she thought. After all she's still a kid.
'Darkness'
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<<raqeeba's p.o.v>>
I bit my bottom lip looking at his retreating figure before looking down at my feet.
He apologized.
So?
So it means relationships matter for him just like it matters to her!
Bruhh! He wouldn't have apologized if it wasn't for the way she apologized FIRST!
The way!? The way she apologized was more like a freaking horrifying threat!
Oh wow. You aren't satisfied with that as well now! Guess what she shouldn't have apologized only. It was only and only HIS fault in the first place!
Well... He could've just NOT apologized at all!
God just stop it heart! Stop seeing everything with those optimistic love glasses!
No Ms. Brainy-Brainy you stop making her see everything with that pessimistic black eye of yours!
Woahh! You didn't just say that!
Oh I did!
How bloody dare---
God just shut up you guys! Will you! I'm so done with you people always fighting like cavemens! Uff! I'm-I'm just happy he apologized himself. That's it. Nothing more!
With that thought in mind I turned around straight into my room and jumped on the bed smiling.
"Room sweet room!"
Wait what?
What?
What's room sweet room?
I rolled my eyes. Haven't you heard of the saying 'home sweet home' well this is my room so...'Room sweet room.'
Remind me to remind you for a mental check up.
Fuck off.
I sighed grabbing the pillows and palcing them all around my sleeping figure and made sure to switch all the brightest lights onn before I shut my eyes. Finally ready to have a good sleep.
That Doofus shouldn't have come. The only thing he has done is to almost kill me with a punch and disturb my precious sleep cycle. Whatever at least I can have my beauty sleep now.
I smiled closing my eyes and thinking of what I should dream about. It's a force of habit. When I was a kid I didn't ever have those normal dreams only nightmares. I have them still and that was the time I literally imagine stuffs with closed eyes and labled them as 'dreams'.
It does help. Trust me.
I was about doze off when all of a sudden a wave of uneasiness stired upon me. Frowning I just clenched my and shut my eyes tight hugging the pillow on my side.
Don't open your eyes.
I could feel the voice at the back of my mind. This isn't normal. And I'm afraid I know why.
Taking a deep breath I kept my eyes shut knowing exactly what's happening around me. Call it the sixth sense or whatever, but I can feel my weakness whenever they are around.
After all it's these darkness which always manage to take away my light.
I could slightly feel the corners of my lips tug down.
Don't open your eyes Raqeeba. You're perfectly fine and safe. You do not need to see stuffs. Just stay calm hmm?
Yeah of course. But...
Don't.
Should I?
Don't.
For once.
Don't.
I'm sure it's nothing.
Don't.
Might as well confirm it.
Don't!
I gasped looking at the dark room which surrounded me. Shit! I shouldn't have done it in the first place! The loud thunder just added on to my horror. What do I do? Think think think think.
Oh!
Sitting up on my bed I joined my hands and closed my eyes
"God be my resting place and my protection in ours of trouble, defeat and dejection. May I never give way to self-pity and sorrow, May I always be sure of a better tomorrow may I stand and---
I jumped as the sound of a door shutting loudly came into my ears. Nuraan. Yaa i-i can go to him right. Or just ask him to bloody fix the lights. I know it maybe really off charecter but I can't think of anything else!
Getting up from the bed I rushed towards his room with my eyes closed. Please let him be there. Opening the door I slowly opened my eyes sucking a sharp breath. Tears prickled down my eyes as a sob left my mouth.
Where on Earth is he!?
And the stupid phone. I can't even bring myself to search for that damn thing. I looked at the dim moon light which entered from the closed balcony and slowly made my way there sitting on the floor beside the glass door.
He'll be here soon anyway.
It was still raining hard and I was failing miserably on controlling my sobs. As stupid as I sound I know I can just go down and serch for him but please understand. I'm too chicken to do that. Coming here from my room was a ride to hell and back how do I manage to roam around serching for him without dieing. Sniffing I bit my hand in an attempt to stop myself from being loud.
As much as I hate to admit it I know that at this moment I badly needed a closure or something. I can't just die in the dark. It's always been this way...with me trying to fight my fears all alone. With me trying to be brave every fuckin time. Not bragging but I know I have been through stuffs and seen a lot ever since I was given this life. And out all those times from me being a brave girl to a strong woman this would probably be the first time where I'll be saying that...
I can't handle this alone, anymore.
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<<nuraan's p.o.v>>
Can I just fuck up more than what I actually do? Like seriously what was I thinking! That she'd all of a sudden just forget all the insults I threw towards her and run into my arms because I apologized!?
Like seriously Nuraan, you can do so much better than that.
Clenching my jaw I face palmed myself as my doings a minute ago flashed through my vision. Why does this keep happening to me? I'm not a kid to not know what would've happened if she didn't push me away. Being near her always manages to make me forget every reason why I want to stay away from her.
I don't want to have this feeling anymore. I don't want to feel the things I felt four years back when I first met my heartbreaker. I don't want to drown in a pit where I know there's no one to save me.
I can't afford it.
Three months back in Dugg out. It was just me, her and some random people. No paparazzi, no media, no tabloids and surely nothing which could hurt my 'image' that day I realized that the girl who I have as my wife was more than just a simple lively kid, she was understanding, caring and loving. She deserves all the happiness in the world.
Standing close to her, looking into those beautiful stormy eyes which actually held admiration for me (and not some pity) along with that understanding look and sweet smile. I couldn't control myself. I couldn't control myself before capturing that sweet yet smart talking lips of her's with mine.
Just like I couldn't control it today.
I probably would have done it again if she didn't stop me. And I'm glad she did. Cause I lost that control over myself the very first time I tasted them. I was a jerk after the kiss I agree. But I can't do anything. I freaked out. Yes I did because I can't pull her in a pit as deep as mine. I don't want to give her hopes. I just don't.
Moreover whatever I'm feeling for her is maybe just physical.
That's right
Nothing more.
Sighing I jogged down the stairs with my hands damped in my trouser's pocket when all of a sudden my footsteps stopped right in front of the door of the guest room that stood in the opposite direction of the stairs making me clench my jaw. There she is just behind the door. The reason why I just can't move on.
Shaking my head I quietly descended the stairs straight to the ground floor towards the kitchen. Why is it so far man? I opened the refrigerator taking out the can of soda from it as I walked towards the huge ceiling to floor glass window which showcased the front porch. It was dark in here and the only light that entered the entire living room was the one that came from the porch since I didn't switch the lights onn.
The loud sounds of thunder and rain all of a sudden felt soothing making me close my eyes as I relaxed to the music of nature and the only thing that came across my mind were those beautiful pair of grey eyes which often leave me speechless and managed to make me smile for now.
"Nuraan?"
I turned around at the voice when all of a sudden some hot liquid fell on my t-shirt making me curse.
"Fuck." I quickly pulled the warm coffee stained tee away from my body slightly blowing on it.
"I'm so sorry!" She exclaimed before quickly putting the mug down and grabbing a towel as she moved towards me. That was untill I raised my hand stopping her. "It's okay" She shook her head.
"No I really am sorry. It was highly unintentional---"
"I said it's fine" This time I tried to make my tone more firm but she continued.
"No you don't get it.. you were alone and.. I-I though--"
"Why aren't you asleep yet, Anusha?" My voice came out exhausted. I really am not up for a conversation right now. Not even a little bit. Looking at my soaked shirt I sighed and decided to just pull the damn thing out before I turned the shirt into a clothed ball and wiped my torso with the dry side.
Guess I'd need to take a bath.
I frowned as I saw her still standing there looking at me before she quickly moved her gaze to her feet. Why is she still here?
"Why---" before I could ask her she cut me inn.
"Nuraan I... I couldn't sleep. " I raised a brow at her to which she sighed and continued
"I'm-I'm not really used to you know... I mean it's funny how this house seems so familiar but I still feel so strange in that...that guest room." Okay and...?
She let out an insolent chuckle before saying. "I've known this place for 4 years now and not even a single day did I went there forget sleeping" This time her eyes met mine
"Because I was beside you. Always." I looked at her for a second before saying
"You want to come to my bedroom?"
Her eyes widened and jaw dropped before she gave me an amused look before saying. "I-is that possible?"
The hope in her voice and the yet to be wide smile on her lips made me wanna laugh.
I couldn't help but smile at the innocent look she was giving me as I said.
"Of course not." I almost laughed at the comical way her face slanged at my response making me continue
"You see Anusha, having a person waiting for you with full faith and acceptance but still roaming around with some desperate whimp or dude is not my type. Yours? Of course. But not mine. I may not show it, but I do value the people who stand by me."
I don't know what is happening to me nor do I know why I was doing what I was doing but one thing that stood clear in my mind after the little 'convo' with my Wife is that a person may bare with a lot of things in life but one thing one should never sacrifice is their pride.
I can be a lot of things but I can never do that to Raqeeba. I can never do the thing I left Anusha for. It's not just about my wife's dignity but mine. I'm not some naive kid who can be played with for years nor am I an unruly one who can't even promise the least of things my marital life demands from me.
I'm not her.
She clenched her jaw looking into my eyes with that fiery emotions before she chuckled and whispered
"What is she doing to you?"
Now what's that supposed to mean? She shook her head as she continued.
"You weren't this way."
I chuckled. "You mean to say normal?"
"I mean to say insensitive and ignorant!" She exclaimed. "You aren't the same Nuraan I fell for. Yo-you're changing and it isn't something great! Don't you see how hard I'm trying here to be the woman you always wanted me to be! The woman you love. Just so WE can get back together! But there you are being a pain in the arse for that stupid slu--"
"Don't" To say I was pretty calm just a second before would be an understatement but right now at this very moment the only thing I could see was red. I wasn't very accustomed to someone insulting my family in front of me and right now I realized why.
Because it's a real bad decision.
"You really think so highly of yourself don't you?" My voice was slow yet firm grabbing her hand by her upper arm I jerked her closer to me making sure I spoke in the deadliest yet the most calm voice I could muster to cover up the anger that build inside me.
"Don't you dare speak a word of bullshit about my Wife."
I had known Anusha for years but this was probably the first time I saw that one emotion in her eyes which I never thought she'd have. Not because of me at least....fear. And it didn't bother me but what did was the point to show her where she stands.
"I can say a lot to you right at this very moment Ms. Malik but I won't. I respect what we once had don't make me regret stuffs to a point I can't even stand your existance." I could feel her shudder under my hold making me loose my grip on her as I said.
"The next time you even think of bad-mouthing about my wife, just remember who she shares her name with. It's Raqeeba Nuraan Khan. A word against her is a word against me and you know what I do to people who have the audacity to even think of tarnishing my reputation or my family's."
Her eyes widened as she prominently gulped.
I stopped taking a step back and maintaining a decent distance between us before looking straight into her eyes as I said.
"I destroy them."
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Alright folks! Don't know if it was even a tiny-itty-bitty good chap or not. Lol.
But I do hope it wasn't a big bore.
A chap without the two together but no worries the next is coming up.
(If you know what I mean...)
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Raqeeba?
Nuraan?
Or our dear Anusha?
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