"What did she just say?" I ask, praying that it wasn't true.
"Ash, there's something I need to tell you." Lucy says
"Cancer? It's not true right?"
"I found out yesterday." Tears roll down my face.
"Are you going to die?" My voice cracks and I start crying.
"They found it really early. I have a really good chance Ash. I'm going to be okay."
"I can't lose another best friend. Please don't die."
"Ash I promise you I will not leave you."
I wipe my tears on my sleeve and sniff my nose. She opens her arms and I hug her. I start to sing. The same song that we first sung together.
If anyone asks, I'll tell them we both just moved on
Lucy looked at me and joined in.
When people all stare I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I'll see you I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
If anyone asks, I'll tell them we just grew apart
What do I care if they believe me or not?
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away?
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry
I give her a hug.
"Time to go to your audition. And your coming to my house this afternoon to work on your sing off song"