//
i dont know what to do with my hands.
//
everytime,
i'm worried i'll say something i don't mean.
and then i do.
"i love you"
//
i'm never surprised when i dont feel them kiss back.
just tired.
and embarrassed.
//
i'm always willing to humiliate myself if it means
you'll feel more important than you are.
//
i'm staring at the wall.
want a tongue between my legs.
//
ill shoot them dead
ill shoot them dead
ill shoot them dead
//
i did bloody mary this morning after i got out of the shower.
all i saw was my own face.
//
but a light flickered.
//
i thought it was you.
//
i want you to kiss me again.
tell me you need me again.
tell me you want me okay.
tell me you need me safe.
tell me you love me.
tell me goodnight.
i love you too.
i hope.
//
sometimes
my legs shake when i think of you.
//
i miss when i thought you were in love.
//
i wish these feelings away.
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i wish you to return the feelings.
//
damn it.
//
why aren't my wishes working?
//
i guess i need a new star.
//
— a romantica in love without a heart.