"Run baby. Please and don't look back. Go find help, okay."
"I'm not leaving your here by yourself," I said in tears.
Xander was trying to convince me to leave him. But why? I love him and he wanted me to leave.
"I will not go anywhere my love, go for help. I'm losing a lot of blood and my wolf is hurt. Please." He says trying to convince me to leave him.
His leg was caught in a trap, I'm sure it has been planned. We didn't see it on our way. We were headed to help out neighbours after a distress call.
If only we hadn't come to help.
"Not like this, I can stay with you here just not going to leave you like this," I said already in tears.
"You can't Stacey if they find you they will kill both of us. I'd rather die than live without you."
"No, don't say that. I'm not leaving. We made a promise and I will not break it."
"Please go find help. They might reach this place faster and we would be safe."
"I'll give you my blood, we just need a way of transferring it."
It was then we heard shuffling behind us. Light footsteps, hushed murmurs, rustling dry leaves and low sounds of breaking branches and twigs.
They were here.
"Go now!" He said loudly. I'm sure the attacker heard us. Even if I was sure to get help they would have him.
I murmured a low, I love you to Xander then took off to the direction of our pack. I would come back with our warriors.
I was in tears wondering what was going to happen to my mate. We shouldn't have come here alone. Now I know that. I stopped dead in my tracks when I heard a powerful and loud howl.
It was one of those that sent unpleasant shivers through your entire body. What scared me the most was that it was an alpha's howl.
It was howl to show possession and conquering of a rival pack. It showed that one alpha had been defeated and the other would fight to win the rival pack. It meant that my mate had been captured by our rival pack.
Alpha Demitris.
Xander had been taken. My love was no longer an alpha.
NO!
††††††††
I shot up from my bed to find myself screaming a series of no's. I look around paranoid after that dream.
My heart was beating so fast and so loud. I am scared it would leave my chest. I'm sure people in the house heard it. I can feel my wolf in a state of panic after that nightmare.
'Shit'
Those events will forever haunt me for all my days. The day I lost my sunshine and my will to leave.
My inability and incapability to save my mate from his awful fate. I still remember his bright smile when he woke up to find me by his side. It was the most satisfying feeling. I felt complete whenever he looked at me with that longing stare. How he adored me and cared for me.
How he would hug me tightly whenever I had a problem. He would let me cry to sleep but never did he leave my side.
Unfortunately I ran away. First chance I got. I wanted to blame it on the fact that he used his alpha tone on me. However, I was his mate. I would have chosen to defy him and die next to him. I ran away like a coward.
I have been crying myself to sleep all alone with an empty void in my heart. We, as the pack, have tried searching for Xander all around but to no avail.
We have had witches chant their spells and putting locating spells. They tried a blood bond with me, they tried locating with him with my blood and some ash. The whole map went up in flames, they said something about a cloaking spell. I think that was the reason there was a barrier. They said that someone was trying to hide him.
At least I had the assurance that my mate was alive but our bond had been killed.
I couldn't feel him at all.
All the emotions were just gone. Woke up on morning and I couldn't feel my mate. It was like the connection between us had been torn and it hurt so much.
It hurt so much. So much.
So much for having alpha blood in my system. Did I even introduce myself? Please forgive me I don't think I did.
My name is Stacey Green. I'm a girl who lost her mate almost two years ago, Xander Green. I'm currently in the state of depression because of that loss. I mean, would you be strong if you felt like half of your soul was taken from you? I dont think so.
Away from the sadness. I think all werewolf lives are hard and mine been one of them. I mean we have to deal with rogues, hunters, betrayal from the pack, harsh mother in laws, wait that's just me I guess. All the dangers that come with been a supernatural.
In the future I will man up and go find my man. However, in the mean time let me continue with my sadness peacefully.
*
I snap out of my thoughts and head to the bathroom before any unwanted emotions drown me again.
I stand under the cold running water, my head leaning on the cold tiles. I recall some of the memories I shared with him, my beloved.
"Stacey, l love you." I heard a far whisper. It sounded like the person was behind me but still miles away. It sounded like Xander.
I turn expecting to be greeted by the brown eyes I had grown to love and adore. I'm met with an empty space. Silence, awful silence.
"Don't look away from me. You are beautiful. And you will always be."
I hear that voice again.
It has to be him.
I turn and find an empty space.
I close my eyes and slide to the floor letting the tears run freely down my face.
Fuck I missed him so much. I would do anything just to have him back. Even for a second.
"Anything," I whispered to myself as I let the silent tears fall.
*
I finally get out of the shower feeling mentally exhausted and in dire need of sleep. I needed to eat but I didn't have the strength to leave my room. I need sleep.
How could I sleep when my mate was some where unknown?
I couldn't even get a moment of peace. I saw him everywhere.
I see him in my dreams.
On the couch.
In the kitchen.
In his office.
In our bedroom.
He is everywhere.
It is like his shadow is lurking in all corners of this dreadful house, taunting me for leaving him. I didn't want to leave him, I really didn't.
That hurt a lot. Seeing him hurt a lot. Knowing that I could not even touch him. Not even the chance to apologize for making the most stupid decision in my life.
I laid myself on my bed and allowed myself to be drowned in my memories, our memories.
I want him back.
Why couldn't I have him back?
******************************
I hope you enjoyed reading this chapter.
I still don't have an actual time for updates but I will try and be consistent.
This is my first book ever or in a long time so I'd appreciate any constructive help.
Like
Share
Comment
~Black-Wicked 🐺
Out
:)
Continue reading.
*
This is me later in 2024, rewriting parts of this book, making some corrections and filling plot holes. Hope you enjoy this book.