me playing the erhu somehow made it worse... because i never told him how i feel.
i dropped the erhu because i was shaking so bad, mask and skull tried hugging me again, but that resulted me pushing them away. hugs when im this vulnerable is very uncomfortable.
but somehow, they still stayed. they gave me my space until i calmed down. asagao's rough tongue licked my tears off my cheeks.
i lay back on his bed, skull and mask joined me and we stared at the ceiling for a while. and honestly i felt a little better because my two friends stuck with me, even if i was so hard to handle when im emotional.
as they were about to leave me in his house alone, i had to stop them. i felt as if i would do something horrible if they were gone, so they stayed with me for weeks.
we got an update about the plane crash, there's only been 5 deaths out of 50, 10 injured. i would want to hope that army was at least the remaining 45, he would be alive.
the news haven't came out with the death list yet... i don't want my hopes to get up.