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-1 month later-
Todd's POV
One month has already passed and I am just keeping my secret, well I believe. Mr.Keating is always so supportive but I just can't help but keep falling into this deep hole that seems neverending. Y/n and Neil are just so happy together and I don't want to destroy that, because of my damn feelings. Feelings, who needs them anyways?
"It was okay at first, that's what I thought, at least. It was okay, until I started losing sleep and staying awake all night thinking about them. It was okay until I realised I was a mess for them.I can't help but keep on loving them, no matter what.."
I begin writing and Neil walks into the room, making me close my notebook.
"H-hi"
I gasp and he greets me back with a small smile.
"You're coming today?"
He asks and I look up at him, struggling to let a word out of my mouth.
"I-I don't know."
I answer and he raises an eyebrow at me.
Your POV
"Are you serious?"
I ask Ams and she lets out a giggle.
"Of course I am!"
"You really want to follow the boys? We aren't even supposed to know about them going somewhere late an night! It's also forbidden!"
I warn her and she smiles.
"Come on, Y/n! Where's the girl who would take every risk I know?You don't even want to know where Neil goes?"
She asks and I roll my eyes.
"Fine, we will go! But, you owe me."
I laugh and she hugs me.
"Thank you bestie!"
She says and I hug her back.
"Tonight is going to be so fun!"
She says and walks towards our wardrobe, opening it.
"What are you doing?"
I ask and she smirks at me. God, she is up to something.
"We have to look great! I mean, they could see us! We are not going in our pyjamas, idiot!"
She jokes and I roll my eyes once more.
"You are wearing this."
She says and throws me a red skirt, with white medium circles on it,and looks back at the wardrobe.
"And this!"
She says and gives me a white tight shirt.
"Wow, isn't this somehow special?"
"Not even a little bit!"
She says and hands me a leather black jacket.
"And what are you wearing?"
I ask and she closes the wardrobe.
"This!"
She smiles and shows me an outfit simiral with mine,but with a blue skirt with little flowers on it.
"Damn we will look so good!Go to the bathroom and dress up! I am doing my makeup first!"
She says and I slowly open the bathroom's door.
"I still believe that these are too amazing for today!"
I yell and close the door,putting the clothes Ams gave me on. Damn, I have forgotten about that skirt she had. I should probably start borrowing her clothes more!
I look at my reflection in the mirror and fix my hair a little. I let some parts of my hair fall in front of my face,just to make a difference and walk out of the bathroom.
"What do you think?"
I ask Ams and she turns around to look at me.
"Wow y-you look gorgeous!"
She says and stands up.
"Just let me fix one little thing. Since you decided to have your hair half up and half down, you have to let a little more parts of it down."
She says and fixes my hair, looking at me.
"Perfect!"
She puts her head on my shoulders and smiles.
"You are beautiful!"
"You too!"
I say and she hugs me.
"Go and dress yourself up now!"
I laugh and sit in front of the mirror, beginning to out on some makeup.
I hear the door opening and I turn around,seeing Ams.
"You look amazing!"
I smile and she looks at me.
"Not as much as yo-Wait! Are you going to wear that cherry lip balm again?"
She asks and I nod.
"Why not? It has a deep red colour and it's also really good for my lips!"
I say and she rolls her eyes at me.
"Girl,wear some actual lipstick! You haven't let that lip balm out of your hands for weeks!"
She laughs and gives me a deep red lipstick to put on my lips.
"It's almost the same colour!"
I say and she laughs again.
"A little more colour can make a big difference!"
"Whatever, they are going to check on us soon!Let's lay down!"
I say and as soon as we lay on our beds, we hear a knock at the door.
"Good night,ladies!"
Mrs.Ratherford says and closes the door.
"Good night!"
Amelie and I say and look at each other.
"Now all we have to do is to wait!"
I say and look at Ams, who is smirking at me.I can't believe I am doing all this for her!
-1 and a half hour later-
"Did you see that?"
"What?"
I ask, half asleep.
"The boys switched on one of their lights and then they switched it off again!It was probably a sign!"
She excitedly says and makes me stand up from her lap, which I was laying on since I got sleepy.
"Let's go!"
She says and quietly opens the door,making sure noone is around.
"Here we go!"
She whispers and we are slowly walking down the stairs, in order to get in the front door.
"Are you ready?"
She asks me.
"No.Not really!"
I admit and she chuckles.
"Come on, it will be great!"
She says and quietly opens the front door of the school, revealing the yard. Damn, it's the first time I am so nervous about something, and I am nervous all the time..
I spot the boys, running towards the woods and I look at Ams.
"The woods? How cool are they?They actually seem boring!"
She smiles and grabs my hand, running behind the boys.
"I hate you for this!"
I whisper and she starts going slower and slower as we are getting closer to the whole bunch of guys. Ams trips over a rock and falls down as she grabs me down to the floor, hiding behind a tree.
"You are so stupid, oh my-"
I begin saying and she laughs quietly.
"That was hilarious!"
She says and looks at the ground.
"Did you guys hear that?"
I hear a male voice saying and a light approaching us.
"It must have been the wind, Charlie."
"Damn it,Neil!The name is Nuwanda!"
Charlie says and they continue walking again. Thank god.
"Nuwanda?What the fuck is wrong with boys?"
Ams laughs and I look at her.
"It's kind of cool!"
I raise my eyebrows and we begin walking again as she laughs.
We continue following the boys and Ams suddenly stops walking.
"Come here!"
"Why?"
"They are entering a cave!Can't you see?"
"Wow,no!I must be blind!Wait, a cave?"
I ask and she laughs.
"What the fuck? They are not as cool as we thought they were. They are even cooler!"
I say and jump up and down with her.
"Should we get in?"
"Have you gone crazy?They will understand we followed them here!"
I say and hit her arm,softly.
"And what do you want to do?We will get lost if we keep walking,smartass!"
She says and I take a deep breath.
"Fine, let's get in!"
I say, only to hide behind a tree. Why is Charlie getting out of the cave?
I look at Ams worried and she nods me to wait,so I do...Charlie leaves and she slowly takes my hand, moving towards the cave. I am so worried!
"I think we should wait for Charlie to arrive. At least it won't be as weird as it will be if we go in now."
I whisper and she shakes her head in agreement.
"You're right!"
We hide behind a big rock as we are waiting for him to arrive. God, I don't even know why I agreed to come here at the first place!"
We both hear a girly laughter and look at each other, turning around slowly, only to reveal there are three girls walking with Charlie. We quickly go back behind the rock and wait for them to enter the cave.
"Girl what the fuck?Do they hang out with girls too?"
I ask, weirded out and panicked.
"I have no idea! Let's go!"
Ams says and stands up.
"If Neil is talking or flir-"
"He isn't,I am sure!"
I say, not even believing myself. Like he is a guy!He of course does stuff like that, come on!Fuck.
"You go first!"
I say to Ams and she looks at me.
"Okay fist of all, we will say that we were for a walk and we saw the girls entering the cave and that we wanted to see if they were okay. Secondly, I know you are panicked about Neil. Calm down! He will have to do with me if something id happening in there!"
She says and I hug her.
"Let's go!"
I say and she enters the cave slowly and I do too, after her.
"Be careful! You will probably fa-"
"What the fuck!"
I scream as I fall down. Why is this cave so hard to enter?
"What the hell?"
I hear some male and female voices saying and I slowly stand up and look at everyone looking at us, weirded out and frightened.
"Darling?"
Neil says with a shocked expression on his face, but also with a huge smile drawn on it.
"Hey?"
I nervously say and rub my neck.
"What are you doing here?"
He asks as he is walking towards me.
"We were for a walk and we heard some girls laughing and we just thought they got lost. We saw them entering this cave so we did too, to see if they needed some help."
Ams explains and everyone nods.
"By the way you can join us!"
A girl says and I roll my eyes, annoyed as Ams does too.
"Thanks!"
I say kindly, I hope so.I look at Neil, only to realise that he had his hand wrapped around me this whole time. God, how much I love this boy.
"Hello!"
I say to everyone as I'm trying to find a place to sit.
"You can sit here!"
I hear a voice saying and I turn around, facing a blonde girl.
"Thank you!"
I say and sit next to her. Perfect.
I look at Ams, who is sitting next to Meeks, rolling her eyes at me.
"So I never got your names!"
An other girl said and I noticed Neil, staring at me, smiling.
"I am Y/n and this Amelie,my best friend!"
I introduce us and Neil's smile is getting bigger.
"That's my girl!"
He mouths at me and I smile at him.
"And what about you?"
Amelie asks the girls and one of them stands up.
"I am Gloria. This is Heather and this is Lilia!"
She said and sat back down.
"Nice to meet you!"
Amelie said and I nodded,as the other girls smiled at us.
"We are going to be besties! You will see!"
Lilia said and everyone laughs.I look at Amelie and she is moving her head from side to side.
"NO!"
She mouths at me and I smile deeply, trying to hold my laughter back.
"So girls let me explain it to you. The Dead Poets Society is our word. We basically come here often and read poems, either ours or not, and keep it a secret!"
Gerald says and Ams and I nod.
"So who begins today?"
"Me!"
Gloria says and I roll my eyes back.I look at Neil and he is whispering something to Todd.
I regret coming here so much, I guess.
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