"i'm home!" i called walking back into the house, mom was home and the girls were still at school
"oh your home early" she mumbled walking into the hallway
"it was going so fine, i actually thought maybe i could get along with him" i started
"and graysun, he's litreally like a brother already" i said
"that's good" she replied
"what happened?" she asked
"me and graysun were getting along, talking about harry styles and madison beer and we were like bonding and then dad was like my oldest and youngest and then morgan was like not for long and i was like what? and then i realised he's having another kid and that's the only reason he's here" i blurted out
"i don't want another sibling who won't bother with me mom" i added
"i get it, i do" she mumbled pulling me into a hug
"i'm angry" i said
"i know, he's not worth it" she added
"not at him, at myself" i mumbled
"why?" she asked
"i've lost all of my friends, my dads came back after so long, i should be holding him close not pushing him away even if he's only staying for a couple weeks then going away again, i want to have a relationship with graysun but i just can't, i won't let myself! i hate it" i said, a sob escaping my lips
"i don't want ashton to go away, i'm scared payton's going to leave and-and-and i just want olivia back" i cried
"i'm a mess" i mumbled
"oh hayden" she replied
"you, you should not be keeping your dad close or unless you want to" she added
"i don't" i sniffled
"but i do" i mumbled
"i just want to know what it's like to have a father figure" i added
"i get that" she said
"you want a relationship with graysun, make one" she shrugged
"you won't be mad?" i asked
"why would i? that's your brother i'm not going to not let you have a relationship with him" she replied
"he's is litreally me mom" i said letting out a laugh, i wiped the tears from my face and gave her a smile
"you look a lot alike" she said
"we do?" i asked, she nodded her head yes and a smile made its way on to my lips
"he's trying to be a singer, i added him on instagram earlier i wanna check him out" i replied
"give him a message hayd, he's your brother" she said
"okay okay" i said
"and i suggest you speak to olivia and the girls, all of you, aaliyah, sophia, olivia, jesse, payton, charlie" she replied
"i don't want to" i said
"stubborn, you get that from your dad" she mumbled, i gave her a disgusted look making her let out a laugh
"do whatever the hell you want, listen to your gut" she said
"my gut wants chipotle" i mumbled, mom once again let out a laugh and walked back into the kitchen
"i'm going over to payton's!" i called
"okay" she replied, i nodded and walked out of the door and across to the moormeier house hold, i knocked on the door and waited until someone came to the door
"hi" i smiled as faith answered the door
"payton?" she asked
"yep" i nodded
"payton!" she called
"what?" he asked
"hayden's here!" she replied
"already?" he said while walking down the stairs
"yep" i smiled
"oh, come up" he said, looking at my face, darn i forgot i has been crying
faith moved out of the way and i walked into the house and up the stairs with payton