TRIGGER WARNING!
Ever since I was young I struggled with anxiety and depression. I tried to go to councillors and get help but I always turned to the same method. Self harm. it ranged from cutting, burning even a few attempted suicides.
My brother was Tyler Posey and he was my best friend, we have always got along and he was my saviour. He was the one who found me the first time I tried to kill myself when I was 14.
He helped me and after my parents disowned me and refused to help me because I was a 'lost cause' he moved out with my, he is 4 years older than me. I am currently 18, he just turned 24.
He was casted on a show called Teen Wolf 2 years ago. He managed to get me a roll as one of the main characters during season 3, I was the sister of Liam and Stiles' love interest.
However, I began to fall in love with Dylan. I never knew if he felt the same but when he asked me out on a date and then asked me to marry him a year later, I guess that meant he like me back.
Dylan knew everything about me, including my mental health issues, but it never changed the way he looked at me.
We are due to get married after season 6, we had currently finished filming season 5 and I had never been more excited for anything in my life.
We were currently waiting to go into Comic Con as every year the cast answered some question about the previous seasons and we realise a trailer for the new. Season four had it's last episode air last month and season five was in the last edits before being realised at the beginning of next year, it was currently October so not long now.
"Please welcome your Teen Wolf family!" the host yelled at the hundreds of fans waiting for us
"You excited?" Dylan asked me as this was my first ever Comic Con.
"A little nervous." I said as I rubbed my arms
"You will be okay, Ty and I are both sat next to" he smiled
I nodded
"I love you" he said
"I love you too" I said a little shook.
"Welcome to the stay Dylan O'Brien!" the host yelled as Dylan walked out
"Next up, the new badass of the bunch, Y/N Posey!" they yelled
I walked out and smiled waving to the crowd everyone was screaming and yelling.
For once I felt loved by someone other than Dyl and Ty
"Tyler Posey!"
Tyler walked over to me and gave me a hug
"You know the signal if you need to go" Tyler whispered as he hugged me
"Holland Roden!"
"And finally Dylan Sprayberry"
We were all on stay, we sat down and waited for the talks to begin
"Okay, welcome hello, so first before we get started, I know that we have talked individually but on behalf of everyone else, congratulations Dylan and Y/N on the engagement" the host smiled as everyone clapped
"Thank you guys, we really appreciate it" Dylan said for both of us
"I need to know Y/N, how did he do it?" The host asked
I gulped nervous to talked
I looked at Dylan who smiled
I smiled back before I leaned in to the mic.
"Well actually it was pretty cute, and I am sure it is going to be in the bloopers for season 4 when they air" I began causing the audience to laugh
"Bloopers" Dylan frowned
"Okay, but basically we were shooting a really romantic scene in season 4, the one were Stiles and Sam (Your characters name) where about to get it on but Scott interrupts, but just before Dylan lays me down on the bed, he is meant to climb onto of me, just I am laying there and he just disappears, I thought that it was part of the script, I sit up and before I say anything, Dylan is there on one knee with a box with a ring in it" I smiled as I showed everyone my engagement ring.
"Look, it was really romantic until she tackled me to the floor" he laughed once agin causing everyone to laugh
"I was excited okay" I smiled
Things were going really well and I actually felt really confident for once.
That was until, the audience questions began
"Hi" a girl stood up
Something was recognisable about her but I couldn't think what
"Who is your question for?" The host asked
"Well, first Jeff, then Dylan' O'Brien but also Y/N" she smiled
We both looked at her
"I was just wondering about how you are going to write in all the scars that y/n has into her character?" she asked
This caught me off guard and I began to sweat
"I dont think that is an appropriate question" Jeff said not answering
"Okay, Dylan, does it make you worry that you are about to marry into a girl who cuts and hurts herself because she is so insecure make you regret breaking it off with Britt?" She asked
"I dont know who you are but you better leave" Dylan said firmly while standing up
"Or how about you Tyler, you annoyed that you found your sister alive and not dead?" She asked
"Who was this girl?
"Security, remove this girl before I take her out myself" Tyler yelled
"Or how about you Y/N, remember me, you were the girl in my class, sitting at the back, remember how I told you how you would never be loved, how you should kill yourself, why didn't you listen to me anyway because if ask me, this show was ruined the moment you put your face on TV" she said as security dragged her away
"Whisky" I yelled as I ran off stay
That was mine and Tylers code word for panic attack, it made sense because after a panic attack that I could handle I would have a glass of whiskey after.
I ran to the back, ignoring everyone calling after me.
I cried so hard my vision became blurry, I ran to my changing room and locked myself in.
I ran to the bathroom and looked at myself.
I was finally feeling better.
I finally felt love.
But it all vanished in front of me the moment I saw my school bully, I knew I recognised her.
I shut the bathroom door as I knew it gave me a little more time as the boys could easily break down the doors.
I grabbed a razor that was in the cupboard behind the mirror.
I looked at myself hard, and I realised I didn't even recognise myself.
Dylan's POV
I chased y/n into the back but she managed to shut the door before I got there, I tried so hard to bask it down but I wasn't strong enough
Tyler was next to me and he began to make progress with the door.
Soon other Tyler came after us and knocked the door straight down
"Babe!" I yelled through the bathroom door but there was no answer
"NO, NO, NO!" Tyler yelled, this was exactly what happened the time he found her at 14.
I prayed that we were about to open the door to my worst nightmare.
We got the door down quick
Tyler and I ran in, we didn't even realise all the blood that was covering the floor.
"Call an ambulance now!" I yelled, my voice breaking in the process.
Tyler and I both grabbed her arms to try and stop the bleeding.
"Tyler what do we do" I cried, I had never seen her like this, she was doing well, she was listening to her councillor and she was talking to me and Tyler.
"We don't panic, we just- we. Oh my god." Tyler cried
"They are on their way" Holland cried.
Everyone watched with tears in their eyes
Hoechlin came back with a few towels that would help us stop the bleeding.
"Everyone move, out the way" the paramedics were finally here.
"How long has she been like this?" They asked
"A few minutes, 5?" I said
"Has she said anything?"
"No nothing" Tyler answered
"Checking for pulse" one of them said
"I have a faint pulse, we need to get her to the hospital now, I cant get the stretcher in here as it is too small, can one of you carry her out while I hold the drip?" they asked as they implanted a drip into her inner arm. While the other put temporary bandages around her wrists.
"I will carry her" Tyler said picking her up gently.
"You go with her I will meet you there" I cried as I ran to my car.
I took the keys and put it in the ignition but I couldn't move.
I sat there, I stared into nothing and cried, I cried so hard that my lungs struggled to create air.
Someone knocked on my window.
I stopped for a moment and looked up to see Holland.
I rolled down the window.
"Let me drive" She said
I gave her the keys as she gave me a wipe for my hands to get rid of the blood, she wiped the wheel and began the car up.
She drove quickly in silence to the hospital.
She didn't get out of the car however.
"Why aren't you coming in?" I asked
"I will go back to your house, make sure your dogs are fine and come back with clothes for all of you, because she is going to be fine Dylan" she smield
I gave her a small smile as I nodded, she drove away as I ran into the hospital.
I ran to the desk.
"Hi, my fiancé would have just been bought her in the ambulance, where is she?" I asked
"Third floor sweetheart" she said. I ran up the stairs.
When I got to the floor I saw Tyler at the end of the corridor.
I sprinted to him.
"What's happening?" I asked
"She woke up in the ambulance" He told me
"Okay, that's good right?" I asked
He nodded
"She told me she was sorry, and that she didn't want us to be angry with her" he cried as he fell into the seat.
I looked blankly at the wall, she doesn't want me to be angry with her, how could I be angry at her. I almost lost the love fo my life, I am just relieved she woke up.
"Where is she now?" I asked
"She is getting cleaned, we can see her in a minute the doctors said" Tyler explained
Is at next to him.
"When you marry my sister, can you promise me one thing?" he asked
"Of course buddy" I said wiping my tears that were still falling
"Never, ever let anything like this happen again, if you are angry at her one day, rant to me about it first, talk to her calmly later, if you have bad news to tell her, make sure her councillor is there, never let her have a way to do this again and love her, love her and show you love her until the day you die" he begged crying even more
"I promise" I cried.
It broke my heart seeing Posey like this, his sister was the only person he loved, he is she night in shining armer and he would kill for her
"You can see her now" The doctors said next to us.
We both got up and rushed into her room.
She sat there, shaken and shocked.
"Sweetheart?" I said quietly as she looked over to me and smiled
"I am sorry" she said as her smile turned to a saddened look.
"No, we are sorry" Posey said
"I need you to make us a promise" I said walking over to her and grabbing her hand as Tyler took her other hand
"You need to promise us that you don't, ever do this again, you stop, you think and then you talk" Posey said as he looked his sister dead in the eyes.
"You really scared everyone today baby, and I know for a fact, I never want to see you like that again" I told her as I kissed her hand
"Me and Dylan love you so much, seeing you like that reminded me of the first time I found you, I can't see you like that again" Tyler cried.
Y/N looked between us both, crying with us
"I love you and I promise I will turn to other things" she cried
We both hugged her tight, trying not to hurt her.
"We can leave tomorrow, but do you know what I think will make you happy" I smiled
"What?" she asked
"Holland and Shelly are taking you dress shopping, because I want to get married next month" I smiled
"Really?" she asked surprised
"Of course, the quicker, the better" I kissed her
"I love you" she said to me
"I love you too" I said back
"And, I love you" she told her brother
"I love you more" he said as he kissed her on the head
Nothing was going to hurt her again
PART 2 COMING SOON;)