"what's this babe?" i asked him
"a Pregnancy kit?" he replied
"yah i know what it is, but why?"
"just used it babe please" oh god he's using that look again
"oh gosh babe, be thankful that i love you--"
"thank you and i love you" he kissed me and push me go to the bathroom
He said his dad is excited for his grandchild, guess who's more excited to be a father
"babe what happened?" it was one minute ago and he's knocking outside the bathroom
"babe, can't you just wait"
"i'm just worried."
"babe...worried and excited are two different words and meaning" i said
For the nth time he force me to take pt, i don't know how many kit he bought for me "is it two line already?"
I went outside and hugged him "sorry babe, negative" i saw him change his mood from excited to lost
"i'm okay.. Maybe we can try tomorrow" he said with courage
~♥~
"good morning babe, i got something for you" he said and i know what it is
"no babe, not now please"
"please babe who knows, just try please"
"no.. I won't"
"please"
"please jake.... What if it's one line again?"
"what if it's two?" he replied
"no.." i started to walk away
"feli.. you know how much i want to be a dad right?"
"I KNOW..." my tears started to fall on my cheeks "I KNOW BABE... BUT IT HURTS ME SEEING YOU FEELING DOWN THAT I CAN'T GIVE YOU THE CHILD THAT YOU WANTED... EVERYTIME I TRIED THAT....THAT FCKING TEST...BABE IT HURTS ME... IT BREAKS MY HEART"
he pulled me to a hugged "i'm sorry... Babe... I won't force you to do it again.. I'm sorry..don't cry.. I'm sorry"
After that day he didn't force me to do it again, but i can see sadness in his eyes his lips can lie to me but not his eyes
"i'm leaving...." he kissed me
"take care. Let's eat dinner tonight babe?"
"we'll see babe.. I'll call you later, okay?" he replied
"okay babe.. I'll wait for your call"
I've waited for his call but no calls or messages... I wore my favorite dress for that night but he never came...he didn't come home...
I called yoongi and asked him but he said he's busy writing songs in his studio, i don't have any idea where he go. "where are you jake?" i whispered
We know our schedule in the office, when i got home he was sleeping already, or he's not yet home. We need to talk, we need to fix this as soon as possible.
Within two weeks i feel like living alone, our parents didn't know what happened to us. But now i feel lost, i feel alone, i feel nothing.
"sweety? Are you sure you're okay here? You lose weight?" dad asked me
They visited me once in a while "yes dad. I'm okay here" i faked a smile
"honey.. Is there any problem? Are you sure you're okay?" mom asked
"honestly.... Mom... I can't sleep.. I feel sick" i whispered
"you wanna stay with us for a while? I can talked to jk about it" dad said
"no dad... I wan't to stay here, i have my own family dad, i hope you understand" he hugged me
"you're always welcome to come home our princess, our only daughter"
"i love you both"
"we love you too, sweety. I'll make an appointment to Dr. Kim for you, go to him tomorrow okay?"
"okay dad"
~♥~
After meeting Dr. Kim, dad called me "hello sweety? How's the result?"
"dad i'm fine, i need some rest and eat healthy food, Dr. Kim told me to stop worrying and rest more"
"okay sweety, i'll buy fruits and veggies for you"
"dad i'm okay, i already bought it, thank you"
"okay sweety take care okay, jk knows about it already?"
"not yet dad"
"i'm sure he'll be happy"
"i'm sure dad"
~♥~
"i'm sure dad" feli's talking to his dad over the phone
"i'm home" i coldly said and about to go to our room, she glanced at me
"okay dad, see you" she ended the call
I heard her walking to the kitchen "feli i already ate dinner, Go eat by yourself" i said
"oh.. Uhm.. Okay" she returned all the plates
"aren't you gonna eat?"
"i already ate outside.... with yoongi" then why did she placed two plates, if she ate already? "uhh.. I thought you haven't eat yet, i want...uhm... I'll eat with you" she smiled
"ohh. Okay, i'm going to sleep now-"
"wait.. Uhmm..." she played with her fingers she's nervous "can i say something--"
"is that important? If it's not maybe it can wait tomorrow" i asked her
Her eyes got teary. I turned around, now my back is facing her "uhmm.. Okay...sleepwell"
Shit jk what did you do... I heard her sobbing
She breath in "oh this is the reason why i hated cutting onions haha" she faked a laugh "you go to our room first, now i feel hungry" i turned around and face her but all i see is her back "go now,... and sleep, don't wait for me" she said
"goodnight" i whispered but she didn't replied