Freedom
Amoy ko ang kemikal pagkagising ko. Malabo parin ang aking paningin pero unti-unti na itong lumilinaw. When my vision was clear, I was finally able to recognize where I was.
Nasa hospital ako at mayroong dextrose na nakakabit sa akin.
"Amanda! Buti gising ka na," salubong ni Kaizz
He's now standing infront of me. Looking so worried, as usual.
"Bakit ako nandito?" nanghihina kong tanong
"Ah eh kase nahimatay ka kanina sa condo kaya dinala kita dito." paliwanag nya
Tumango ako.
"Tara, balik na tayo sa condo. Marami pa akong aasikasuhin eh, pagod lang siguro to."
"Oh ayan napala si doctor,"
Pumasok ang isang babaeng doktor at nginitian ako. I smiled weakly to her.
"Hi Miss Lopez, how are you feeling?" tanong nya
"I feel heavy," mahina kong sagot
Seriously, what is wrong with me? Physically? Kapag ba unwell yung mentality mo, automatic pati physicality damay din?
"That is very normal Miss Amanda, nasa first trimester ka palang kaya makakaranas ka talaga ng pagbigat ng katawan, makakaranas ka rin ng pagsusuka at pagkahilo." nakangiti nyang paliwanag
Hindi ko siya maintindihan.
"Anong ibig mong sabihin doc?" nakakunot noo kong tanong
"Congratulations Miss Lopez, you are 2 weeks pregnant!" bumaling siya kay Kaizz "Oh you might be the father? Congrats--"
"No doc, no. Girl po ako doc," tanggi ni Kaizz na ikinatawa ni doktora
"Oh I see. Anyways, Miss Lopez, you can be discharged tomorrow since you're only experiencing the normal symptoms of pregnancy. I will come back here before you get discharged to give you further instructions regarding it. Rest well,"
Nang umalis si doktora ay saka palang unti-unting nagsisink-in sakin ang mga sinabi niya.
Did she just said, I am pregnant?
"Are you happy?" concerned na tanong sakin ni Kaizz
I smiled at him, weakly still.
"Of course. Nagbunga na ang pagmamahalan namin ni Diego and I take this one as one of my biggest blessings." nakangiti kong sagot
Hinaplos ko ang aking tiyan, kasabay ng pagtulo ng aking luha. I am now carrying a life inside my belly!
NAKATULOG ulit ako pagkatapos kong umiyak. Pagkagising, gulat na gulat ako nang sinalubong ako ng mapupungay na mata ni Diego.
He is now standing firm infront of me, his eyes are concern and his face screams worries. He's still in his usual clothes so I assume he went here straight from work.
"Love, are you okay? How are you feeling?" bungad nya habang lumapit pa ng todo sa kinaroroonan ko
Binigyan ko naman siya ng ngiti.
"I'm okay, bakit ka nga pala nandito? Aren't you working?" nakakunot noo kong tanong
His presence somehow calmed my system and made me even happier. Kaya lang, naalala ko yung nangyari.
"Your friend told me about your condition so I immediately flew here to check on you," paliwanag nya
Iginala ko ang aking paningin at wala akong nakitang bakas ni Kaizz dun. Baka pinauwi nya muna.
"Do you need anything? I can buy you anything you want, just tell me." aniya
Ngayong nandito ka na, pati si baby, wala na akong kailangan pa.
"Nothing." I answered
"Umiyak ka ba, Amanda?" seryoso na ngayon ang boses nya
Agad naman akong umiling. I know he'll get real worried if I said yes, tho.
"Are you really alright? Ano bang sabi ng doktor, love?" kuryoso nyang tanong habang nakatingin ng malamlam sa mga mata ko
Nagulat ako sa tanong nya. Hindi pa nya alam? Akala ko sinabi na ni Kaizz sa kanya.
"Uh, ah, wala, okay lang naman love. Nagulat lang kase talaga ako masyado sa kumakalat ngayon sa social media eh. Binabash ka ba ng mga tao?" malungkot kong tanong
"Wag mo akong intindihin Amanda, I can handle myself. Ikaw, ikaw ang inaalala ko. For now, give yourself a break. I will take care of it, don't worry." pag-aassure nya
I smiled weakly at him.
"Pero love, kailangan kong klaruhin ang lahat. I need to clear your name. I need to tell them the truth so this stops,"
He looked at me tenderly.
"May panahon para sa lahat ng yan, love. Sa ngayon, magpahinga ka muna. Let's atleast let the situation cool down before telling them our side." malumanay nyang sabi saka hinawakan ang kamay ko
The warmth of his hands almost made me cry. Siya lang. Siya lang ang nakakapagpaganito sa kin. Tanging si Diego lang.
"Rest, for now, okay?"
Tumango ako. Pinatakan naman nya ng halik ang noo ko. Nakatulog ako ulit, this time, with my love's eyes on me.
KINABUKASAN, dumiretso kami sa bahay ni Diego. Marami kaseng reporters sa labas ng condo kaya hindi ako pwedeng manatili dun. Also, ginamit ni Diego ang chopper nya para mas mabilis at walang hassle ang pagdating namin sa bahay nya. Nasa isang exclusive subdivision iyon na kung saan pagmamay-ari ng pamilya Larrazabal. The security was heightened, siniguro ni Diego na walang makakapasok na media kaya mas nakampante ako.
We arrived at his modern house. It was large, not as large as his mansion in the ranch but it has this size that I like more. Sakto lang iyon at maaliwalas ding tignan. Everything was in placed.
Pagkadating namin ay dumiretso kami sa master's bedroom. At pagkadating na pagkadating ko dun, agad kong hinanap ang cr. Shit, nasusuka ako!
"Love, where's your comfort room?"
I tried so hard to maintain my posture kahit sukang suka na ako.
Tinignan nya ako at bahagyang kumunot ang noo.
"There," tinuro nya ang pintuan na agad ko namang tinungo
"Careful love, you might slip!" paalala nya
Hindi ko na iyon pinansin at agad na isinara ang pinto ng kanyang banyo. I immediately went to the sink and took everything out.
Maya-maya pa'y may nararamdamab na akong humahaplos sa aking likod habang panay ang suka ko. Hindi ko namalayang nakasunod na pala si Diego.
"Shit love, anong nangyayari sayo? Should I call the doctor? I'll call--"
"No love, I'm okay. Let me freshen up myself for a bit, please." pakiusap ko, nanghihina pero pinipilit bigyan siya ng ngiti
Nagsalubong ang kanyang kilay at hindi ko mawari ang emosyon nya. He looked startled.
"Lumabas ka muna, please." pakiusap ko
Wala siyang magawa kundi tumango at umalis din.
Nagtoothbrush ako at naghilamos narin. Pagkatapos kong ayusin ang aking sarili ay lumabas na ako ng banyo.
Nakita ko siya, nakaupo sa kama at seryosong-seryoso ang mukha.
"Hoy, ang seryoso mo." tawa ko
Nag-angat siya ng tingin sakin. He gave me a glare.
"Your condition is seriously no fun, Amanda. I'm going to call the doctor." suplado nyang saad at akmang kukunin ang cellphone nya nang lumapit ako.
I straddled him and instantly, I felt him stiffened.
Why is it that he became more handsome in my eyes and definitely smells better? Dahil ba to sa pagbubuntis o dahil, mas naiinlove ako?
"L-Love, what are you doing? Let me call the doctor first, please I'm worried." malumanay na ang kanyang tinig
"Actually love,nagsinungaling ako kanina." nakanguso kong sabi
There's no point on denying this to him.
Kumunot naman ang noo nya habang tinitignan ako.
"What do you mean by that, hmm?"
Humugot muna ako ng malalim na hininga bago magsalita.
"I'm 2 weeks pregnant." nakangiti kong sabi sabay dala ng kanyang kamay sa aking tiyan
Natulala siya sa sinabi ko at napakurap-kurap. Just like I expected, hindi rin siya makapaniwala.
"W-What?"
"Yes Diego, you're a father now." naluluha kong balita
His eyes went bloodshot and I saw how his tears fell from his eyes, kaya naiyak rin tuloy ako.
"Love, thank you! Thank you, love. I love you," aniya sabay yakap sakin ng napakahigpit
Umiyak kami sa balikat ng isa't isa. I can't contain my happiness. Seeing him happy like this made me even happier. The feeling is euphoric even.
Hindi pa siya nakontento sa yakap, tumayo siya at kinarga ako. Pinaikot ikot nya ako sa ere at pinaulanan ng maliliit na halik pagkalapag nya sakin.
"Actually, I planned this and expected it since I don't use protection on you, pero hindi parin ako makapaniwala love! I'm gonna be a Dad soon!"
"So, pinikot mo'ko?" biro ko
"Maybe, so you won't get rid of me anymore." pilyo nyang sagot
Hindi ko narin naman talaga gustong kumawala sayo Diego. Mawala na ang lahat, wag lang kayo ng anak natin.
AGAD naming tinawagan ang mga magulang namin para ipaalam sa kanila na buntis ako. Diego was with his phone now, talking to his father while I am with my phone, talking to Mommy and Daddy.
Nakita nila ang nagkalat naming pictures ni Diego.
"May nanakit ba sayo dyan anak? I mean, physically?" nag-aalalang tanong ni Daddy
"No Dad, I am safe here." sagot ko
"Then, anak, are you okay? Wag mo nalang munang pansinin lahat ng bashers mo anak, they're no good for you." ani mommy
I nodded. Yeah mom, I am now okay. Better, actually.
"Uhm, actually mom, dad, I passed out yesterday." nakakagat labi kong sabi
"What? Naku anak, yan na nga ba ang sinasabi ko, you were stressed out a lot, weren't you?"
"Don't worry Amanda, we'll hire an investigator and we'll find out who's the wench behind all of this!" galit na sabi ni Daddy
"No dad, it's okay. I can handle this." pag-aassure ko sa kanila
Nanatili namang galit si Daddy habang si mommy naman ay nag-aalala.
"Mom, may sasabihin ako." panimula ko
Pareho sila ngayong nasa kwarto, both of them are having their coffee while listening to me.
"What is it, Amanda?" tanong ni Daddy
Si mommy naman ay halatang interesadong-interesado.
"You're making me nervous, dear." si mommy
Bumwelo muna ako.
"Mom, Dad, I'm pregnant."
Parehong umawang ang bibig nilang dalawa. Nailapag ni Daddy ang kanyang coffee cup habang si mommy naman ay parang natuod.
"Shit, mom, are you okay?" nag-aalala kong tanong. Mommy looks like she's not even breathing!
"Are you serious, Amanda?" si Daddy
"I won't kid about this matter, Dad." seryoso kong sagot
"Jesus, Amanda! You almost gave me a heart attack! Ohmygod, are you serious? Are you really pregnant? Is that why you passed out yesterday, you say?" ani mommy nang mahimasmasan
"Sorry mom, I didn't mean to surprise you that way. But yes, I am really pregnant and that is exactly why I passed out." sagot ko
"Congrats dear! Diego is really a sharpshooter, eh?" ani Daddy habang napakalapad ng ngisi
Namula naman ako sa sinabi niya.
"My god anak, buntis ka na pala. Parang kahapon lang nung todo deny ka sa amin ng Dad mo ah! I knew it! I knew this would definitely happen!" nakangising sabi ni mommy
Napanguso naman ako. Yeah right. I was denying all the time yet here I am, telling them I am already pregnant. Nahiya ako ng konti dun ah.
"We're coming over there, tomorrow anak!" ani mommy habang pumapakpak
"Yeah, lalo na ngayon na hindi maganda ang nangyayari sa career mo Amanda. We need to be there to keep you safe and your baby."
"No, wag muna mom. We'll set a schedule together with Diego's family. Just not tomorrow. I promise you, it's within this week."
"Are you sure? Anak we're worried, lalo na sa estado mo ngayon!" giit ni mommy
"We're okay mommy, I promise."
"Let us talk to your husband then." demand ni Daddy
"But he's not here--"
"Good morning Daddy, Mommy."
Biglang sumulpot si Diego sa tabi ko at hinawakan ang bewang ko. We're now both facing my mom and dad.
Nagliwanag naman ang mga mukha ng magulang ko nang makita nila ang gwapo kong asawa.
"Good morning too hijo, how are you? Hindi ka ba nahihirapan dyan sa anak namin?" biro ni daddy
Tumawa naman si Diego at agad na umiling. Aba, dapat lang.
"Hijo, you look really good together with our daughter. But, hijo, as you can see, we're worried about here safety. Is she safe there?" tanong ni Mommy
Hinawakan naman ni Diego ang kamay ko at pinisil-pisil iyon.
"Yes, Mommy. We're currently staying here at the Larrazabal subdivision, our security is heightened. I promise to keep your princess safe with me." sagot ni Diego
"And how can you assure that to us?"
"I will catch even a bullet for your daughter, Dad." klarong saad ni Diego habang nakatingin sakin
Napangiti naman ako sa sinabi niya pero agad iyong napawi nang maimagine na matatamaan sya ng bala dahil sakin. No, over my dead sexy body! I won't let that happen.
Naputol lamang ang aming pagtititigan nang tumili si Mommy.
"Yiieee you two are inlove!!" tili niya na ikinatawa ni Daddy at Diego, habang ako naman ay pulang pula.
"Thank you hijo. We're looking forward to see you both soon." nakangiti na si Daddy nang sabihin iyon
"Yes! I'll call balae right after this, I can't wait to see them too!" pumapalakpak na sabi ni Mommy
Gumaan ang pakiramdam ko matapos kausapin sina Mommy.
"How about your parents? What did they say?" tanong ko kay Diego
Nasa kama parin kami ngayon, nakatalikod na ako sa kanya habang nakakandong sa kanyang mga hita. His arms are encircling my waist, tama lang para bigyan ito ng konting espasyo. Ayaw nya daw kaseng maipit si baby, eh fetus pa nga lang eh.
"They're very happy as well, love." aniya habang pinapatakan ng kaunting halik ang leeg ko
"That's good to hear, then." nakangiti kong sagot
Hindi lahat ng couples nabibiyayaan ng supportive na mga magulang kaya sobrang bless kaming pareho.
"Let's live here, for the meantime, okay?" aniya
"What about your work? Pag nagtagal ka dito, paniguradong hahanapin ng mga Albueranon ang kanilang gwapo at butihing mayor."
Mas lalo nyang isinubsob ang mukha sa leeg ko. His breath tickles me, and I like it.
"I filed a leave already. Don't worry, I'm sure they'll understand that their handsome mayor wants to take care of his gorgeous wife." he huskily said
His hands slowly crawled to my tummy and draw some circles there.
"Baby, how are you in there? Please don't stress your mom too much for now, okay? From now on, everything I do would be for you and your mother. My world spins around the both of you. Please, let's both make mommy happy okay? So baby, please be good in there. I love you,"
Diego kissed my cheeks, and my tears fell again.
"You're becoming so emotional, love. You are so cute, I love you even more." aniya
Humarap na ako sa kanya kase hindi na ako makatiis.
"And you're becoming extra sweet, my husband!" I pinched his cheeks
Pinunasan nya ang luha ko, then he pulled me for a very long passionate kiss. Sa halik na yun, ipinaramdam namin sa isa't isa ang pagmamahal at ang labis labis na pagpapasalamat. Our souls were talking.
"Love, can ask you one thing?" malambing nyang tanong nang bumitaw kami pareho sa halik
Tumango naman agad ako.
"Can you stop doing your job for a while when your tummy gets a little bigger? I mean, I'm not stopping you to do what you want, I just don't want to stress you out and also of course our baby." he gently said
Alam kong gusto nya akong patigilin sa pagtatrabaho pero hindi niya sinabi, kase ayaw nyang pangunahan at masaktan ako. Ganun siya ka selfless. Ang sarap nyang magmahal.
I smiled and nodded. Don't worry my love, I will definitely do what you want, even more than you were asking me.
LATER that day, I called Kaizz. Patago ko siyang tinawagan kase may gusto akong gawin para matigil na lahat ng 'to.
"Set me an interview tomorrow, I will tell them the truth."
Natigilan si Kaizz sa sinabi ko.
"Amanda? Is it not too early? I mean--"
"Buntis na ako Kaizz at ayokong maapektuhan pati ang baby ko kaya gagawin ko to as early as possible. Desidido na ako."
"Okay. But does your husband know this?"
"No, I doubt he'll agree if I let him to."
"Baka ako ang mapagalitan nyan, Amanda. Nakakatakot pa naman magalit yang si Mayor." aniya
"Don't worry, I won't let that happen. Tsaka interview lang naman eh."
Pagkatapos ng pag-uusap namin ni Kaizz ay nagopen ako ng email. Nireplyan ko sina Direk and all the producers of our upcoming movie. They were all worried about the movie, malulugi daw kase to panigurado so I assured them I'm going to pay for everything. Pati lahat ng mga endorsements ko na hindi na kumikita, pati yun willing kong bayaran.
Malaki-laki ang pondo ko pero alam kong baka maubos yun just to pay for everything but I don't care.
Pagkabalik ko sa kwarto ay nakita kong may kausap sa cellphone si Diego, nakapamewang siya habang nakatalikod.
"Do not give me bullshits Chelsy. You are just my secretary, know where you should fit in! Do not tell me you're sorry, you should have think about it a thousand times before doing it. Pack your belongings and immediately leave. I don't need you as my secretary anymore, you're fired!" galit na galit na sabi ni Diego sabay patay ng tawag
Nasapo ko naman ang dibdib ko sa narinig. What? Bakit nya sinesante yung sekretarya nya? And why the hell is he mad?
Diego was taken a back when he saw me standing near the door. Lumapit ako sa kanya nang nakakunot ang noo.
"Why did you just fired your secretary?" tanong ko
Siya naman ngayon ay unti-unti nang humihinahon.
"She was the one behind the issue. Siya yung nagpakalat nung mga litrato." sagot nya
Wow. She must really be obsessed with Diego. Alam kong may gusto sya sa asawa ko but I never thought she would go this far.
"She's in love with you," yun yung nasagot ko
Umismid si Diego sa sinabi ko.
KINABUKASAN, Diego was the one who took care of me. Siya ang nagluto, at umalalay sakin. Panay parin kase ang suka ko, si Diego naman, gustong gustong tumawag ng doktor but ofcourse I always stop him, it's normal, anyway.
Ngayon din ang interview ko. Marami nga raw agad ang nag-offer pero yung segment lang din ng kaibigan kong artista ang pinaunlakan ko.
"Love, can I go out for a while? May pupuntahan lang sana ako to fix something." nakakagat labi kong sabi kay Diego
We're currently in the kitchen. I'm sitting in the high chair at the bar counter while I watch him peel green mango for me.
"Love alam mo naman ang sitwasyon diba? Baka pagkaguluhan ka, you'll get hurt and I won't let that happen." matigas nyang tanggi
"Exactly! You won't let me hurt so you'll drive me there, my love. Sige na please, I just needed to do this." pagmamakaawa ko
Napapikit naman siya sa frustration pero napasang-ayon ko lang din siya sa huli.
"You really know how to wrap me around your fingers, huh?"
Napangiti naman ako. Yeah right.
JUST like how I wanted it to happen, ipinagdrive ako ni Diego patungo sa studio. He even wanted to go with me but I stopped him.
"Wag na, love. I assure you, I'm going to be okay. I'm gonna be safe, I promise."
Umigting ang panga nya.
"Okay, take care. Wag kang magtatagal. I love you."
Sinalubong ako ni Kaizz sa dressing room at doon nila ako inayusan. Ramdam na ramdam kong gustong gusto akong tanungin ng mga tao dun but they also wanted to give me privacy as well.
Nang magsimula na ang segment ay saktong tapos na ako sa aking look. I am white top that has bunky mesh sleeves na tinack-in sa aking high waisted faded jeans. I also wore my black chanel slingback. Smoky ang make-up ko and my hair was tied into a half ponytail and the ends was curled. Aaminin kong medyo nakakapanibago ang ganitong casual look ko dahil matagal-tagal rin akong nanatili sa Albuera.
I texted Diego, sabi ko balikan nalang nya ako dahil baka matagalan pa ako dito. I also assured him about my safety, since it was all he's been wanting to know. Tumanggi naman siya, aniya gusto nya daw maghintay lang sa labas.
"Are you really sure about this, Amanda?" nag-aalala paring tanong ni Kaizz
"Of course." I confidently answered
We waited a bit till the show finally started.
"Despite receiving a lot of invitations, she picked our show so it is really my pleasure to introduce the lovely Amanda Lopez."
After hearing the cue, I gracefully entered the frame, bumeso muna ako kay Anne, host, bago ako umupo sa sofa. Pumalakpak ang mga tao sa studio.
"Kamusta ka, Amanda?" nakangiting tanong ni Anne
I smiled genuinely.
"I'm very much okay. Please get straight to the point."
'My husband is waiting for me outside'
Halata namang natense si Anne sa demand ko.
"Uhm, is it true that instead of going to Los Angeles like what you told to some of your friends, you actually went to a province somewhere in Visayas?" tanong nya
"Yes. Actually, it's true that I planned on flying to LA, I've got a ticket already but for some personal reasons, I went to Albuera instead." sagot ko
Tumango-tango naman siya.
"Then, were Diego Larrazabal the reason behind of it all?" walang preno nyang tanong
"Yes," wala ring kaabog-abog kong sagot
I saw how the crowd gasped and also the host. They might be really surprised at how I answer confidently, without a bit of hesitation.
"I will ask you directly Amanda, who is Diego Larrazabal in your life?" tanong nya. I like how her voice screams respect tho, as if okay lang na hindi ako sumagot. But since, andito ako para klaruhin lahat, I will give them the answer they want.
"Diego is my husband and to clear everything, Jimuel is not my boyfriend. Hindi naging kami, kase nga may asawa ako. Although yes I admit,Diego and I we're not in good terms but still, I'm not the type girl who entertains suitor despite being married. I respect our marriage and I also respect the loveteam both me and Jimuel built. Tinanggap ko lahat ng tukso na binabato sa akin dahil nga for me, it is part of showbiz industry. I kept silent. Hindi ko rin naman masisisi ang mga tao dahil in the first place hindi ko naman dineny." tuloy tuloy kong paliwanag
Tumahimik lahat ng tao. Matiim nila akong pinakikinggan at alam kong gulat na gulat sila sa sinabi ko.
"Anong masasabi mo sa controversial post ni Jimuel? He's like claiming you as his girlfriend and he was stating there that he was hurt. Aren't you mad?"
"Actually, I was also shocked when I saw it. At first I thought it was just his fake account but when I knew it was real, I was disappointed, and yes I was hurt. I just... I just treated him as a friend, as a brother and I can't believe he could do that but don't get me wrong, I am not mad. I still believe that he has a reasonable explanation behind it and I'm more than willing to listen." sagot ko
"Wow, you really are kind, Amanda. So, what do you wanna tell you're fans? I mean, everyone who misunderstood everything."
Humarap ako sa camera and confidently deliver what I've been wanting to say.
"To all my fans, to all the people who supported me from the beginning, thank you. Thank you also to all the supporters of me and Jimuel's loveteam, I appreciate you guys. I love Jindas. Wala ako dito kung hindi dahil sa inyo kaya nagpapasalamat ako ng taos puso sa suportang binigay nyo sakin. The past few days have been shaky for me and even for those who are dear to me. I worked hard for my career, I even gave up many things just to gain the spotlight and I thought I would be so happy, not until this happened. I know, you were a big part of my career, I owe you guys a lot but I wanted to tell you that I am not a robot. I am not a remote controlled stuff that you can dictate. I have my own feelings, I can be happy, and I can also be sad. I love all of you, but I'm sorry, I won't let you dictate me. I will live the life I want behind the camera, in the reality. I also want to let you guys know that I am no longer renewing my contract, yes, I will quit this industry because I realized, I've done enough. I'm done dealing with this beautiful chaos. I want peace. With my husband. To all the people who helped me reach the peak of my career, thank you, especially to my assistant slash manager slash friend, Kaizz, sis I can't imagine my life without you, I am so grateful, I love you very much and I'm sorry if I won't let go of you, I'll keep you as my bestfriend forever. To my parents, thank you my, dy, for everything you've done for me. To you my love, I'm very sorry for all the mess and sorry to keep you waiting haha. I love you very much and I can't wait to see you after this. Again, I just want to say thank you to all the people behind my success. There is no Amanda Lopez without you. 'Til the next time."
The crowd cheered, some of them were teary eyed and a lot were already crying, even Anne.
Samu't-saring emosyon ang naramdaman ko. Malungkot, pero mas nag-uumapaw ang saya.
I love my career. I love this job, so much. But I think the love I have for Diego is something unmeasurable and way incomparable. Kaya kong isuko ang lahat para sa kanya. Sa huli, hindi ako talunan dahil siya ang panalo ko.
I lost the spotlight but I gained my freedom.
Now, I am more than anticipated to start a new life with Diego and our future baby.
A/N:
Before I end this, I just want you to remember that if something is for you, then it is for you. You do not need to rush. All you have to do is to be patient. You wait. And eventually just like how Diego and Amanda find each other's arms after how many years, you will find the happiness that is meant for you too. Salig lang.