Once that pain is engrained, we do everything we can to avoid it again. Don't get in too deep.
Nevaeh
"Ugh!" I yelled as I grew anger because my lash wasn't cooperating
I reapplied it and it went on fine and I just rolled my eyes. Today was Wednesday and yes I did decide to go on the little date with Bari. I reassured him that we were going as friends and nothing but friends.
I had just finished my makeup and I was wearing a basic fit today. I had on a velvet material grey tracksuit, cute UGGS and, a white hat with a puff ball on the top. My phone begun ringing cutting of my music I picked it up off my vanity and answered after reading Bari's name across my screen.
"Hello?" I said as I answered
"Address?" He asked
"222 Lesley road east, the condos" I said as I tidied up my makeup that was everywhere
"Alright be there in 10" he said
"Okay" I replied before hanging up
I then stood up and cleaned up my room picking up all the clothes that I had went through to get one damn outfit. I grabbed my lip gloss, phone and, purse before walking out my room. My apartment never really got dirty due to the fact that I had no kids and nobody really visited. Family is a non-factor to me so the only people that really have been to my house are Sarah and Delay.
I was sitting on my couch and about five minutes passed and there was a knock on my door. I stood up knowing exactly who it was but I still checked my peephole to be hundred percent sure. I opened my door and there stood Bari in a all black Polo tracksuit and, white airforces. His waves were beautiful and, he wore a Rolex on his wrists along with a chain that had a lion pendant on it.
"Sup pretty" he said as he smiled
I just waved and stepped out the door closing it. I locked it and followed behind him walking to his car.
"I brung out the special whip for you, you like Range Rovers?" He asked as he opened the passenger seat door
"Yeah, it's my dream car. Jet black with pink rims" I said as I smiled
He smirked. "Dreams come true" he said as he looked at me and smiled
I just ignored him getting in the car.
"Thanks" I said as he held the door open
He nodded before slamming it and walking over to the drivers side. I watched as he walked pass the front windshield and he walked exactly like a thug. He has the limp, the lean. He had the mean mug on his face as he looked around watching his surroundings. As he got inside the car I had just finished buckling my seatbelt.
"You good?" He asked as he looked at me
I nodded. He then started the car and pulled out of the parking lot.
"Food is boring, movies boring. So you tryna go some place fun?" he asked as he looked at me
I nodded. "Yeah, let's go Fun world. It's up the street on silica road. I've always wanted to go there, especially as a kid I never got the ch-" I said stopping myself realizing I said to much
"What you stop for? That's what I wanna hear, about you. Talk as much as you want, I'm always listening" he said as he looked at me then back at the road
I chuckled. "Well I've always wanted to go there. Especially when I was a kid, but I'm all grown now so it hasn't really came to mind but I guess we can go there" I said as I lowered my voice a bit
I hated bringing up my childhood. I always tried to hide it and keep my mouth shut from talking about it but it was hard. Everybody wants to talk about there childhood, right?
•
We had just pulled up to the place and we both opened our car doors getting out. Fun world was a big place and it contained a arcade, bowling alley, bumper cars, food and, a little bar. Rose kids never really made it this far so I was kinda happy to be able to experience it. Even as an adult.
"Welcome to Fun world!" The lady said as soon as we walked in
I flashed her a smile.
"Okay so we have two adults, both twenty or over?" She asked
We both nodded.
"Okay, so today is actually the perfect day. We have the fun world passes which means unlimited everything including tokens, bumper car tickets and bowling tickets. Only thing that is paid for is food and beverages, we also have alcohol beverages available the bar. It's sixty dollars for each pass, would you guys like that?" She asked as she stared at us with a slight smile
"Yeah, debit" Bari said as he went on his pocket
He pulled out a black card and I just stared at him.
"I'll pay for my own ticket" I said as I looked at him
Sixty dollars was pretty expensive for a pass. He ignored me and just shook his head.
"One hundred thirty five dollars and sixty cents is your total, gap when it appears" she said as she smiled
He tapped his card and slipped it back in his pocket it instantly read approved and she wrapped the fun passes around each of our wrists.
"I could have paid for myself" I said as I looked at him
"When you with me don't worry bout money, you good shorty" he said as he looked at me
I just stared.
"What you tryna do first?" Bari asked as we stepped in staring around at the big place
"Bumper cars, if you want to" I said as I looked at him
"Whatever you wanna do I'm down pretty, let's go" he said as he put his hand out
I looked at his hand then him and I slowly brung my hand up meeting his. It made me nervous I couldn't tell you the last time I let a guy even get close to me. Private dances was the closest it'll get and I never ever had sex with them.
As we approached the Bumper cars the sign read ages sixteen to thirty five and it also had a weight max of two hundred and fifty pounds. We stood in line and waited for our turn. As we approached the front the worker handed us both a hair cap and a helmet. We put it on before moving up in the line.
Once that round was done he opened the gates laying us in and I smiled.
"Don't be scared now" he said as he looked at me with a smirk
I rolled my eyes and chuckled getting into a bumper car. Once everybody's seatbelt was checked before I knew it everybody started to move. I pressed hard on the metal fighting my way over to Bari. I smiled and laughed as I bumped into many cars and they bumped into me. Bari has hit my car with full five causing me car to push all the way back bumping into some else's car. He then chuckled and blew me a kiss as I mugged him.
I instantly drove forward going right back into him causing him to shift to the side and get crammed in the middle of many cars. I laughed as he looked at me with a mug. Music was playing and I was enjoying myself, I never had fun in a long time.
After a couple more minutes of bumping each other fine was soon up and the cars had all stopped. I unbuckled my seatbelt and got out removing my helmet and hair cap putting back on my hat.
"That was so fun!" I said as we approached each other
"I had the sickest moves out there, never got caught once" he said as he smirked looking at me
I rolled my eyes. "Boy please, Lie again" I said as I chuckled
He chuckled. We then made our way to the arcade area and it scanned our wrists bands and we played unlimited games. We won a whole lotta tickets.
•
"What would you like?" The girl asked as she looked at me
"That bear is so cute" I said as I looked up at the light pink bear that sat at the top of the shelf
The bear held a white heart with its hands and it read Pretty in Pink on it.
"Not enough tickets for it" she said as she looked at me
I rolled my eyes. "Can I get that and just anything that equals up to this" I said as I pointed at the candy
She did as I said and I looked back at Bari.
"You don't want anything?" I asked
He shook his head. After she handed me my stuff we both made our way to the front. We've been here for more then a hour and I was exhausted. We did everything and played every game I enjoyed myself.
"You wanna get something to eat?" He asked as he looked at me
I nodded.
He then held my hand and we walked out of the place and to the car. After he opened the door for me and I got in he slammed the car door shut and walked to his side. He then got in and pulled off after I buckled my seatbelt.
"Seatbelt on" I said as I looked at him
"Ion need that shit, I'm good" he said as he smiled
I just rolled my eyes.
"What you tryna eat, chick-fil-a?" He asked me
I nodded. We soon pulled up there five minutes later and before I knew it we were ordering.
"Can I get a chicken burger combo, no sauce and add ketchup, what you want?" He asked as he looked at me
I looked at him like he was crazy. "No sauce, you crazy. I want the same thing as you just not with the whole minus sauce part" I said as I chuckled
"And another regular chicken burger combo" he said as he chuckled looking back at the machine "It tastes better" he said as he looked at me
"Eww. Strawberry Lemonade to drink please" I said as I looked at him
"Strawberry Lemonade and, sprite as the drinks please" he said as he put his head out the window a bit
"Okay, your order total is twenty two dollars and fifty cents. Pull up to the next window" she said through the speaker
He did as she said. When we pulled up the window slid open.
"Open the department and take out a fifty dollar bill" he said as he looked at me
I opened it seeing a stack of money sitting in a elastic band. It shocked me and I slowly grabbed the fifty dollar bill and handed it to him. He soon handed it to the girl and he then handed me the food.
"Keep the change" he said as he pulled off
"You wanna eat in the parking lot?" He asked as he looked at me
"We can go back to my place" I said as I looked at him
I then realized what I had just said. He nodded and pulled off.
•
"You got a nice place, you decorated yourself?" He asked as he looked at me
"Yeah" I replied
I then made my way to the couch and he followed. I opened my food after taking a sip of my lemonade.
"I enjoyed today, it was more enjoyable then I expected" I said as I smiled
"Well I'm just that nigga, what you expect? Boring ain't in my vocabulary" he said as he chuckled
We sat down and ate. It was dead silent and your girl was tearing her food up.
"So tell me bout yourself, I wanna hear it all" he said as he leaned back
"Here, lemme just throw this away quickly" I said as I took his garbage
I then walked over to the trash and tossed it out before washing my hands.
"Well I'm twenty one, my name is Nevaeh of course. Most people know me as Fendi though" I said as I looked at him
"Where you get that name from?" He asked as he looked at me
"It's my stripping name, my auditions I was friendly to all the other girls. Usually strippers argue, so they just switched friendly into Fendi and yeah that's that I guess" I said as I shrugged
"What's a pretty girl like you doing stripping?" He asked as he slouched back and stared at me
I just thought about it. That was a good question.
"To be honest, its really all about the fast income. I enjoy dancing and listening to music, the worst part for me is having to show my body. I mean nobody is gonna pay my bills but me, so I really just do it all for the money" I said as I fiddled with my fingers
He nodded. "You ever thought about college and, stopping stripping?" He asked as he looked at me well sipping his drink
I nodded. "That's another one of my main priorities. I wanna be a nurse, specifically working in sonography. I have a investing savings account, I really work for my bills, me and, my school fees" I said as I looked at him
For some reason I just felt comfortable with having slight conversation with him. I feel like when I talk about my goals to people it's easier to thrive to achieve it. I was even surprised that I let him into my home, it always brung fear in my heart when I was alone with a man. But for some reason I felt some type of trust building towards him.
"That's good, I like that you doing something to help you with your future. Most girls strip just to make money, at least you want something more then that in life" he said as he nodded and looked me in my eyes
I nodded. "So what do you do? Mister black card" I asked as I looked at him with a smirk
He chuckled. "I mean shit. I own multiple businesses I'm a business man. I own barber shops, strip clubs and, I do a little other shit on the side" he said as he shrugged
"Mhm, what kind of stuff on the side?" I asked as I smiled
He just smirked. "I move weight, from country to country. I got people on the streets who distribute and sell for me. If I wanted to stop I could, it's just I feel like it's my lifestyle" he said as he stared at the ceiling and shrugged
"Mhm, I knew you were that type" I said as I looked at him
"What type? Please explain" he said as he looked back at me
"Heartless and ruthless. Drug dealers ain't no good when it comes to relationships with females. They treat there girls like total trash and, there girls be the realist on they teams" I said as shrugged and sipped my drink
"Your right on the heartless and ruthless part, I love who I love and I hate who I hate. If you cross me it's fuck you and, if you cross me again that's the end. But there's a error. I ain't that type of nigga, I don't take shit for granted. If I wanted something and I got it I would do anything in the world to make sure that shit don't ever leave." he said as he looked me in my eyes
I felt a connection with him as he spoke. I liked how he kept it real, I felt like everything he said was one hundred percent real.
"That's what you guys all say, I've heard that before. Y'all end up damaging good people and turning them into the devil" I said as I looked at the ceiling
My mother. She was the best mom I could ask for until my father came back in her life. He treated her horribly and it damaged her so bad that when he left she became the total opposite of how she was. It was hard for me to live in a house when multiple guys were walking through well my mother sniffed cocaine and drugged her life away. Seeing my mom beaten and raped repeatedly broke my heart.
There was just one thing that happened in rose that shook the whole hood. It hurt everybody to see my mom how she was but it was ten times worse when everybody found out about what happened to me. I hated my past I never spoke about it and never wanted to. Most people don't know the story and just base it off of what they heard. Nobody really knows what happened to me behind closed doors.
"You basing me off of what you experienced, probably years back. I'm telling you that I ain't that type of guy, if I wouldn't wanna see my mother or future daughter being treated like that, what makes you think I would treat a girl like that. I want you to know me for me and, not how you think I am. I ain't like these other people on the streets, in different and been different since I hit earth air" he said as he slouched back and looked me in my eyes
I took his words in one by one. He seemed so smart and I was enjoying this conversation so much.
"I could tell your different to, that's why I been trying to take you out for these past three months. I like your laid back vibe" he said as he looked at me
I nodded. "I like yours to. Besides me hearing that your heartless and ruthless" I replied quietly as I smiled slightly
"I mean, everybody got there flaws. I guess that's mine, I just feel like I do so much for people and if they can't return to me with a simple level of respect then that shit is dead to me. I did to much to gain my respect and be where I am now, so I would never let a motherfucker feel like they could disrespect me" he said as he shrugged
"Yeah, I feel you with that. I have a problem with expressing my feelings, I hold a lot of stuff in and I think that's why I am where I am now. I mean I love where I am, my life is one hundred times better then it was. I just know there's some stuff that need to be set free that I still hold pain from in my heart. It's just so hard for me to forgive people for how they had done me" I said quietly I then rubbed my head "sorry, am I talking to much?" I asked as I looked up nervously
"Nah, this the shit I want. I'm tryna break you down, I wanna know everything about you good or bad. I never judge people off of what they've been through, I mean we all went through ruff times right? I'm tryna be someone you can talk to, so don't feel like you talking to much. I wanna hear it all" he said as he shrugged
"Okay" I said quietly
One thing I will never tell anybody is what happened to me on January 1st 2011. I will forever keep a brick wall over that, it breaks me just thinking about it.
"I find the more you talk about shit, is the less stressed you is about it. It's always good to have someone in your corner motivating you, someone you can talk your shit to" he said as he shrugged
He gave me such a I don't give a fuck vibe. He was laid back and just seemed like a nice ass person. The nicest King pin I ever met.
I nodded agreeing with him. We talked some more about family and other stuff. He also asked how I knew his mom and I gave him a simple answer. It was quarter to twelve and he was just getting ready to leave.
"Thank you so much Bari, I had a lot of fun. I haven't experienced that in a while" I said as I smiled well he stood outside of my door
"No problem pretty, anytime you need something. You got my number, and I mean anything" he said sternly pronouncing the 'anything'
I nodded. I waved as he got in his car and he nodded at me before pulling off. I then closed my door and locked it and made my way to my living room. I washed the dishes that were in the sink and swept and mopped the floor. I then made my way to my room and stripped before running the hot shower.
I put on my shower cap and then stepped into my shower. As soon as I stepped in I felt amazing well the steam hit my body. I hummed to myself as I applied body wash onto my loofa and then begun soaping my body. I washed my body twice before running out my loofa. I then grabbed my vaginal loofa and put my unscented dove soap on it and washed my vaginal area. After I rinsed off I stepped out the shower and wrapped my towel around my wet body.
I made my way to my dresser drawer and pulled out some Pyjama shorts and a tank top. I tossed them on my bed and dried my body before applying lotion, deodorant and, slight perfume. I then slipped on my tank top following my shorts before putting on my head tie and bonnet. I then laid In my bed and covered up with my white duvet blanket.
I texted Bari just to make sure he got home and when he responded he made sure to say goodnight. I texted him back before shutting my phone off and resting my eyes to sleep.