Sometimes I dream of you
In a white dress
Smiling sadly as you knew your fate
Sometimes I dream of darkness
And I dread the void I plunged you into.
Do you hate me? Do you still love me?
Are you filled with feelings so conflicted you could only stare up at the sky, with glassy eyes, as you bled in my arms?
I can't find comfort, knowing now, you're beyond pain
Because jealously still writhes in me
Like an unforgiving punishment
While you sleep, oblivious to
The mourning doves crying in lament
And if I look up, ravens watch me from the mulberry tree
Filling my chest with emptiness
A thousand knives lodged in my bones.
Internal bleeding on both sides
Our eyes stare into space
Hoping we can breathe without sobbing
Wishing it'll all get better soon
Intertwine our fingers and watch the world go on
With peace, with quiet, with an understanding of each other's pain.