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Breath in....breath out....breath in....breath out....common....dont loose your focus....breath in....breath out....!!!
what....am just repeating what am doing....why are you all staring at me....am already nervous here okay....forget it....you won't even understand so just don't bother....!!!
seriously....you are still here.... people and curiosity these days.... huhhh....okay then let's just get directly to the point...!!!
I am nandini....24 years old....south Indian....single (for now) and am here waiting for
"hey...!!!!"
waiting for the person standing infront of me....manik....!!!
MANIK : hellooo
NANDINI : sorry...haa...hiii
MANIK : am sorry for getting late....have you been waiting since long??
NANDINI : no...its ok
MANIK : you are nervous
God....Is it that obvious....but then why wouldn't I be nervous....!!!
MANIK : can you say it a little louder I can't really hear you
NANDINI : sorry....its just that
MANIK : I understand
NANDINI: what
MANIK : I get that alot of things are going in your head but let's just order something first and then we can discuss it all
NANDINI: yeah
MANIK : you are scared now
NANDINI: well it's because
MANIK : your past doesn't really bother me If thats all your thinking about
NANDINI: you don't want to ask anything?
MANIK : ask what...questions like what is your favorite color and all....well I would really like to but I don't think you want to waste time with those talks...!!!
NANDINI: you know what I mean....am serious
MANIK : okay sorry....on the cost of making you uncomfortable....not really....but if you want to say something that's bothering you then I do want to hear it all....!!!
NANDINI : I don't know what you really heard but
MANIK : nandini....honestly speaking even am nervous like you but for my own reasons and even am not sure how things are going to go ahead with us but let's just make this meet lighter....lets be friends and have an open conversation and let's not worry about our future together....!!!
Okay....let me tell you am meeting this guy second time....when was the first time???....well it was just two days back at my house when he visited my house with his family who were invited by my family with a goal of our marriage together by both the families....!!!
MANIK : am taking your silence as yes so cappuccino???
NANDINI: always a cappuccino
MANIK : two cappuccino's it is then
NANDINI : you just returned from office....your not hungry....you can have something else
MANIK : not really....I actually had a heavy lunch
NANDINI : ok
MANIK : so how many guys are on the list
NANDINI: list of what??
MANIK : your husband
NANDINI: please....its you who should talk about the girls list because you seem more perfect with all the qualities that are essential in a husband
MANIK : and what might those all qualities be
NANDINI: just the common things
MANIK : go on....am listening
NANDINI : like your genuine personality and all
MANIK : you are naive to think that
NANDINI : what does that mean
MANIK : generally alot of other things are being considered these days in order to get married and I know that you are well aware of that too so ya and let me tell you even I don't have any list of girls
NANDINI : that's not possible
MANIK : what
NANDINI : you are professionally great....you are personally disciplined....you have a lovly family....what else would a girl really wish....I mean according to me if it's for arranged marriage
MANIK : same goes with you too right....you are honest....down to earth....you understand that family matters....what else would a guy need to marry someone and with all your qualities how come you don't have guys waiting in the list for you
NANDINI : you know my history
MANIK : am sorry but according to my knowledge history is something that happened in the past right so enlighten me how it's affecting you
NANDINI : it's appreciatable that you have these thoughts but not everyone thinks in this way at least not few people in our society
MANIK : it's not the society but your to be husband who should understand you and like wise you shouldn't be bothered about the society
NADINI : I understand that....its just that I don't want someone to hear something from the society just because of me
MANIK : people are breaking their marriage and getting married thrice and more because they are not really in love with the person whom they are with....you just got your engagement cancelled and you weren't even at fault....why would you bother that someone would not accept you because of this reason
wowww....you all heard the same thing right....yes I guess....by the way the reason I was nervous was not because I was seeing a guy....but because I was seeing him after experiencing a uncalled stormy situation where I was supposed to get married but turned out to be single as my engagement got cancelled in a blink out of no where
MANIK : nandiniii....!!!
NANDINI : people who are doing that are not living in our locality....i know that it's 21st century but even you are aware how south Indians are (I only mean how traditional they are and not anything else so please don't take it wrongly)....how people in our families are....even if am not the wrong one no parent would willingly want their son to marry someone who got engaged with a guy before and got her wedding cancelled besides why would they even want to when so many single girls are out there who don't have a past unlike me
MANIK : you mean having past isn't something good....right???
NANDINI : nooo why would I say something like that....am just talking about elders in our locality who tend to search a perfect girl for their son or who ever for it matters....you know the taboo right how mostly every one prefers a clean chit women
MANIK : I won't deny about your words that sadly our locality people think alot differently than our younger generation one's but almost everyone has a past....some say you openly while some hide it because it's just past and that shouldn't really spoil someone's present and future whoever it might be and like you said....only few believe in that taboo....there are still sensible guys who understand that a relationship is all about trust, respect, understanding,patience, adjustments,friendship,love and all such things together with their partner in their present nothing more or less
NANDINI : it's true that all men are not same
MANIK : comparing me to the ex....are we???
NANDINI : ohhh please....I hate comparisons....lets just drink this it's getting cold
MANIK : okay
NANDINI : hmmm so you never had a girlfriend???
MANIK : would I turn bad if I say yes
NANDINI : no....like you said....most of the people have a past....that's a universal fact and you can't judge someone because of their past too
MANIK : true....well mine is a routine story....we met through one of our common friends.....we were together for an year....I was not settled professionally back then and she wasn't ready to wait...!!!
NANDINI : and
MANIK : and what...we just went our separate ways....thats it....!!!
NANDINI : you didn't try talking....you could have explained and asked her to wait
MANIK : people who want to stay won't think about leaving no matter however the situation may be and by the way hearing this from you now am curious whether you asked your ex to stay or not
NANDINI : I didn't...I did talk to him to have a closure but I wasn't really expecting anything else....like you said....the people who want to stay will always choose you....even when they have thousands of other options other than you....!!!
MANIK : right...!!!
NANDINI : ummm....I don't really have much to talk about him....wedding was arranged by both of our families....!!!
MANIK : you don't have to
NANDINI : it's fine....we never even talked in a call....we were in touch through chats....even that was for short span....apparently he was already in a relationship with a women and was going to marry me for his family....when things got into light dad just called off the wedding...!!!
MANIk : he didn't say his version about whatever happened or his side story???
NANDINI : he did....according to him she was an ex and he never planned to cheat me....!!!
MANIK : do you...feel bad...about whatever happened between you two....!!!
NANDINI : I just feel it's all God's plan and I strongly believe that at the end it's destiny that makes two people stay together....if you are parting ways with people then I guess it's only because you are not meant to be with each other
MANIK : ever heard the quote why do we have to meet people when they are not meant to stay in our lives
NANDINI : lessons....its always the lessons we learn from the respective person....though it's the common thing everyone says it's also the bitter truth....!!!
MANIK : I guess
NANDINI : hmm so your family is not bothered about society taboos??
MANIK : haha you don't have to worry they will choose my happiness over everything
wait....what???
NANDINI : I was asking it casually
MANIK : even i answered it casually
Jeez this guy....!!!
MANIK : am leaving to states they after tomorrow because of my work
NANDINI : ohkay
MANIK : so coffee tomorrow at same place and same time???
NANDINI : am sorry what???
MANIK : you asked me out first right so now am asking you out
NANDINI : listen...i did no such thing....it was my dad who talked to your dad about our meeting....!!!
MANIK : your dad talked to my dad because you talked to your dad about meeting me and talking to me so you kind of used your dad and asked me out through my dad
NANDINI : I didn't asked you out...stop saying that....!!!
MANIK : you have one way of denying it with a blush haa
argggg....how come our conversation turned this way....!!!
MANIK : nandini....am serious....please say yes
NANDINI : why??
MANIK : why not???
NANDINI : you are too good
MANIK : you are no less
NANDINI : you deserve a women alot more better than me
MANIK : is that your no....!!!
NANDINI : am sorry
MANIK : you look much more dissapointed than me....can I know why???
NANDINI : I guess I should leave
MANIK : answer me nandini...dont you think I atleast deserve an honest answer from you....!!!
NANDINI : please try to understand manik....you are too damn good to me....you deserve much more
MANIK : you like me or not....just answer me this
NANDINI : that's not the issue here
MANIK : yes or no
NANDINI : I can't deny it....I do like you but
MANIK : no more but's nandini.... tomorrow we are meeting here and then we will see how to take things ahead
NANDINI : am scared
MANIK : I won't leave you in the middle nandini....I promise....!!!
NANDINI : you don't have to rush.... take your time and decide everything....!!!
MANIK : my heart whispered a yes the moment it saw you nandini....i know my heart....just trust me once and I will prove to you that am one of those guys who knows how to cherish a women...!!!
NANDINI : okay
MANIK : yes or no nandini
NANDINI : yes....!!!
and that's how ladies and gentlemen I listened to my heart and took a chance of trusting this handsome man in front of me who was spreading warmth to my entire body with his loving gaze.
I don't know how things will work out between us. I don't know whether he would be my forever in this temporary world. I don't know whether we would be able to survive all the odds that gets throwed on us by this world knocking us down completely.
All I know is am ready to embrace this new chapter of my life where I might be blessed with someone who stood to his promise instead of silently walking away like my ex did or I might yet again learn that true love doesn't fall into your hands just randomly and one has to face alot of negativity and heartbreak before it finally reaches you and makes you forget all your pain.
Few may say that true love doesn't exist and all you can ever get back is betrayal when you love someone with all your heart. I won't deny it completely but you have to remember that we are no god and we can't possibly plan to whom we fall for. we are gifted with betrayal even when are being honest that's only because we are being right to the wrong ones.
The wrong one can never love you no matter how right you are and similarly the right one will love you no matter how wrong you are. So let's not try to be right and love someone emptying ourselves by giving them everything and instead let's just remain ourselves however we are and love the way we want to, like we can because right person will get satisfied even when we give them little true love and will shower us back with the same true love which we deserve.
you all were confused when I was nervous but you all are seeing me happy now because of manik. same goes with you all too no matter how disturbed and broken you are, you will have that day where you will smile with all your heart because of that someone special and to feel that moment you got to stay strong. Don't just give up and you will experience your own weird happy story.
I am trusting manik now after my ex which is a second and what am feeling for him is all new which is a first so that is why it's "THE SECOND FIRST". May you all too have such wonderful experiences in your life where though you have to put trust on someone various times its only to gain real happiness for once at the end.
I got to leave now. It was nice talking to you all. Remember to love yourself and everyone along with you. Good bye people. Take care.
3k followers it's my surprise story to you all. Thank you so much. I don't know whether you liked this or not. I wrote something after ages so I apologize if it's not up-to your expectations and also please stay home and stay safe. Let's fight against corona together.
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