Those subtle moments. My internal friend/enemy hadn't warned me. They'd either hadn't known or were pushing me. I spaced out. Normally it's not a concern except for those torturous moments with thoughts I don't want to think, but it was different today. There wasn't any particular thing that made me upset today, they just built up. I woke light hearted. Fallen to sleep with again torturous yet at the moment, lovely thoughts. Throughout the day my mind slipped into a state of sad. I wasn't sure why I was sad, I still don't. As my mind reflects I only wished I was again only resting with the unspeakable thoughts, and not upset this way.
I don't want the attention from them, it's just an instinct to want to have them with me.
I should accept that I get jealous yes but with all my feelings and emotions, no I won't do anything about it. I refuse to show weakness or fear or depression.
Sometimes however... Like multiple times today.. I felt like I hadn't belonged.
I don't truly.
A Little More Truth
By MariaBlue1dreader
This is where I put my thoughts and short ideas for writings. I suggest you read on with an open mind. Direct... More