[trigger warnings: domestic violence & attempted sexual assault]
Atmosphere's P.O.V:
I was in my backyard, tending to my small vegetable garden that I've been working on for a while now. My mother always loved gardening and I never understood why, especially when I was little. But she always told me it was a nice escape for her from the harsh reality she lived in. After years later, I guess I can sadly say that I finally understand what she meant by it now.
A sigh left my lips as I slowly stood up, "Mom would be proud of you." I whispered to myself as I admired the white daises I had just planted next to the cherry tomatoes.
"Appna?" My lovely boyfriend called out for me.
"Over here." I waved him over.
"Are you ready to go, love?" He asked as he appeared by my side, wrapping his arms around my waist.
"Maybe I should just stay home." I mumbled as I avoided his stares.
"Come on." He begged, "It's the last day at the TrapHouse and you have to be there."
"Fine." I sighed, my eyes fluttering up to his, "But I don't think I'm staying for the party."
"We don't have to stay the whole time." He said, "We can come back home whenever you want to."
"Okay, fine." I gave in completely, taking off my garden gloves and tossing them into a small bucket.
"Go get ready, cause we have to be there in less than an hour." He said, checking the time on his phone.
I gently pecked his sweet lips before making my way inside the house. After stripping away my dirty clothes and taking a quick shower, I was now standing in the middle of my closet wrapped in a white towel, thinking about what I should wear for tonight.
A sigh left my lips as I grabbed my one and only turtle neck, "I'm going to have to wear this." I mumbled to myself in disappointment, because Colby had left a handful of love marks on my neck last night and I just don't want anyone seeing them.
I let the towel fall onto the floor before quickly putting on my outfit. I slowly made my way over to the landscape mirror and took a quick selfie before posting it on Instagram.
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Another sigh left my lips as I made my way downstairs and into the living room. Colby was concentrated on a random game that he was playing on his phone, but once he noticed me he shut off his phone.
A smirk appeared on his face, "Nice turtle neck." He chuckled as he stood up.
"I feel like I'm being choked." I whined as I tugged on it.
"But you like being choked." He playfully teased.
"Not like this." I spat, rolling my eyes at him.
"Gosh, you're really feisty today." He pointed out my odd behavior, "Why is that, love?" He asked as his face soften.
"I don't know." I mumbled, "I just haven't been myself lately."
"Are you sick?" He asked, resting the back of his hand on my forehead.
I shook my head lightly, "No, I don't think I am." I answered, "It's just a different kind of sick."
His eyes widen from a certain kind of fear, "Have you been throwing up, especially in the morning? Are you craving any weird food combinations?" He rambled on and on, but I soon stopped him.
"Jeez." I giggled lightly, "I'm guessing you have been in this position before?" I asked, eyeing him.
He sighed, "I just don't want us to be...."
"Pregnant." I mumbled.
"It's not that I don't want to have kids with you, it's just..." I pressed my index finger against his lips, indicating him to stop explaining himself.
"Colby." I breathed, "You're fine." I reassured him, "Cause I feel the same way too."
He let out a shaky breath, "We need to start being more careful." He whispered, nodding my head in agreement.
"Yeah, so you gotta start wearing condoms now." I said as I patted his chest, "And maybe let's not fuck every five seconds." I added, causing him to chuckle.
"Sorry, I just can't help it." He apologized as he scratched the back of his neck.
"I know, I wouldn't keep my hands off of me either." I teased causing him to playfully roll his eyes at me.
"It's more like you can't keep your hands off of me." He chuckled.
"I have more self control unlike you, buddy." I giggled.
"Buddy?" He questioned, raising his left eyebrow at me.
"Oh, it's just a word, Colby. Don't take it too personal." I laughed, causing him to roll his eyes again.
"Whatever." He mumbled, "We should get going though." He said, quickly changing the topic.
I drove us back to the Traphouse which will be the last time I ever do. I have a lot of mixed emotions about not being able to come back here anymore. This place brought me a new sense of joy and hope, gave me new friends and reunited me with an old one. It also gave me a boyfriend who I dearly love and the new opportunity to start my life over again. But it did put me through a lot of bad things as well, but that's how life goes.
The guys all got separate apartments from each other, including Colby. He decided he wanted to live on his own for a while which saddened me, because I truly wanted him to move in with me. And the fact that Kian has already moved out, I just feel so alone now at home. Even though they do come and visit me every once in a while, it still doesn't feel the same. Jake, Sam and Colby moved into the same apartment building which is great for me to be able to visit them all at once, but I still wish we could all be underneath the same roof again.
But I haven't felt the same lately with everything that's been going on and I'm thinking about moving again. I live by myself in a ridiculously giant mansion for no reason at all. It gets lonely in here and I don't like that feeling. Plus, with everything that has happened in this house with the blackmailer and all, I just want a house that isn't tainted with bad energy or memories. But I won't tell the guys about this idea until I truly figure out what's best for me.
Colby and I made our way through the empty house causing an overwhelming feeling of sadness to sink into my heart. All the guys looked downer than usual, including Elton, even though he had moved out months ago. I guess no one likes change, especially when we don't have control over it.
"Look at the lovebirds." Elton grinned at Colby and I.
"Hey, Uncle." I beamed, giving him a quick hug.
"How you doing, kid?" He asked.
"I have been better." I gave him a weaker smile as my eyes flutter up to his dark ones.
"Same." He sighed. I nodded my head before making my way over to my best friend.
"You good?" I asked as I sat down next to him on the floor since there was no furniture left in the house.
"Yeah." He breathed with a weak smile.
I slowly wrapped my right arm around his shoulders, causing him to rest his head on mine. I could feel negative energy radiating off of him. You could tell that he was sad and worried about what the future had in store for him and for everyone else in this room as well, but he will never show it though.
Jake never liked any sort of change as long as I could remember. I mean even if it brought great opportunities, he was still hesitant about it. He didn't want to change the way his life was going out of fear that it might ruin a relationship or another better opportunity for him. He was comfortable with the way life has been since he has gotten here, but now having to live on his own without his friends was terrifying him. And there's nothing I could do, but to just be there for him.
"So, are we just going to stay in our outfits for the rest of the night?" Sam asked as he stared down at his red jumpsuit.
"Yup." Jake weakly answered.
"You guys remind me of a wannabe boy band." I giggled, hoping to lighten up the mood.
"Yeah, a boy band that can't sing for shit." Corey chuckled as he made his way over with Devyn by his side.
"You don't need talent as long as you got the looks." I said.
"We got neither." Colby joked, but I don't think anyone noticed his joking tone.
"Coming from the guy who is literally the sex symbol of the Traphouse." Jake puffed.
"I am not." Colby smiled sheepishly.
"Colby, you really think I chose you, because of your personality?" I jokingly questioned him, causing his jaw to drop slightly.
"Bro, I love this girl." Elton laughed as he rested his hands on Colby's shoulders.
"My heart." Colby pouted as he hovered his large hand over his chest.
I quickly got off the ground and attacked him with a giant hug, "I was kidding, baby." I pouted softly.
A small chuckle left his lips, "You better be." He said as he tightly held onto me.
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I was lost in a sea of people as I tried making my way back from the upstairs bathroom to the main living room where I had left Colby. We didn't expect it to be these many people here, but once people heard that the "King of Youtube" was attending with some of his fellow vlogsquad members, a lot more uninvited guests headed over here and were somehow able to sneak pass security.
My breathing became uneven as my body was being squished by other sweaty bodies which made me nauseous.
I felt a strong hand grab mine, pulling me through the crowd but I couldn't make out who it was. The hand felt unfamiliar and very cold which sent chills down my spine. I tried getting out of the unknown person's grip but they wouldn't budge. And suddenly I was thrown into a dark empty room.
My glossy eyes fluttered upward towards the random stranger who is now guarding my only exit.
"Please let me go." I begged, my voice trembling.
A low chuckle left the man's lips, "Now why would I do that, Atmosphere?" He asked while turning to face me.
I took a step back, "Who are you?" I asked as tears started to roll down my cheeks.
"I knew you would be here tonight, so I decided to stop by." He grinned, "I wanted to be able to have a couple of rounds with you."
"I'm sorry, I don't know if you already know, but I'm taken. And also, why the fuck would you think I would sleep with your stupid ass?!" I shouted at him.
"You won't be forgetting me once I have my way with you." He chuckled, before pushing me against a wall.
"No, please stop." I begged as I tried pushing him away, but he was much stronger.
His tall frame towered over me as he held my arms above my head, "Stop fighting!" He growled, "You're just gonna make it harder for yourself." He growled again, causing a whimper to leave my lips.
"Colby!" I screamed on the top of my lungs, but he didn't like that one bit. His fingers quickly tangled with my hair before slamming the back of my head against the wall, knocking the wind out of me. I let out a weak cry as my body went completely numb, collapsing on the ground right next to his dirty white converses.
"Stupid bitch." He spat.
My vision became blurry as a sharp pain radiated from the back of my head, "No." I whimpered, because I didn't want an episode to occur while I'm stuck in this room with a crazy person.
I slowly started to crawl over to the door, since I was to weak at the moment to lift my body up from the ground.
"You're pathetic." He snorted.
"And you're a fucking pig!" I spat, which caused his face to harden.
He reached down, grabbing my hair tightly again before dragging me further away from the door. I screamed as loud as I could, but I knew no one could hear me over the blaring music.
"Colby! Jake!!" I screamed their names out, hoping that they would hear me and come to my rescue, but deep down I knew that I was all alone in this. I needed to put up a fight, because I'm not going down this easily.
I felt warm blood trickling down my chin indicating I only had a few minutes left to get out of the situation before blacking out.
He suddenly let go of my head, causing it to hit the floor pretty hardly, "No." I cried out as my vision became blurrier.
I felt his body hover over mine before he ripped my turtle neck, exposing my chest, "Damn, no wonder that Colby kid is obsessed with you." He chuckled.
A whimper left my lips as his lips hovered over mine. My watery eyes fluttered as his piercing green eyes were burning a hole through mine. Even though my vision was going in and out of focus, I was still able to see this creep's facial features. There was a giant scar that cut through his left side of his forehead and into his left eyebrow. His jawline was uneven with an indent in the middle of his chin. And his skin was permanently damage from years of untreated acne.
My eyes began to flutter as I was slowly slipping into an unconscious state, causing another whimper to leave my lips. I turned my head slightly and noticed a small pool of blood leaking from the back of my head.
He slowly leaned his rough lips against my ear, "Sweet dreams, Atmosphere." He chuckled before my eyes flutter shut.
A scream left my lips as my eyes flutter open to a white room. I quickly sat up, noticing I was just surrounded by pearly white walls and nothing else. Panic filled my bloodstream as I frantically spun my head around, trying to figure out where the heck I was at the moment.
"Atmosphere." An angelic voice echoed, causing me to quickly get on my knees.
"Hello?!" I screamed into the open as tears continued to roll down my face.
"Atmosphere. Don't cry, Honey." The voice spoke again before the figure of my dead mother appeared in front of me.
"Mommy." My lips trembled as I quickly hugged her.
She tightly held me, "Oh, honey. I have missed you so much." She softly cried.
"I missed you too." I cried into her chest as well.
"It's okay, honey." She reassured me, "You're back home with me, nothing can hurt you now." She whispered.
I slowly pulled away from her and stared into her soulless eyes, "What do you mean, mommy?"I choked.
She gently rested her hand on my cheek, "You're home now." She whispered, "We get to be together again, forever." She smiled as a single tear rolled down her now perfect face.
I shook my head, "But mommy, I can't leave my friends behind." I reminded her of them, "I can't leave Jake or Colby."
"But don't you want to stay with me?" She asked, her thin lips forming into a pout.
"I do." I said as I grabbed both of her hands, "But it's not my time, mommy. Like it wasn't yours either that time." I whispered.
A sigh left her lips, "You're right." She mumbled as her hazel eyes flutter away from mine.
She stared intently at the blank wall as tears continued to roll down her face, "I'm so sorry for leaving you behind, honey." She apologized, causing a whimper to leave my lips.
"It's okay." I reassured her, cause I didn't want her to feel bad for the unforgivable decision she made years ago.
"Honey." She whispered as she tightly held onto my hands, "You need to do something that I was never strong enough to do in my walking life."
"What's that?" I asked.
She leaned closer, "Fight for your life, because this isn't your time to come home." She whispered causing me to eye her.
"Mommy, but I'm not strong enough..."
"You were the strongest little girl I ever knew and now you're the strongest woman that I know." She said, causing a weak smile to appear on my face, "You fight for your life now, Atmosphere. I believe in you. Wake up and fight!" She shouted.
I leaned away from her sudden outburst, "Wake up..."
"Wake up and fight!" She screamed this time, before disappearing.
My eyes flutter open back into the dark room as a piercing scream left my lips. My dark eyes met the stranger hovering over me again. He was distracted from having trouble taking his pants off which became the perfect opportunity for me to make a run for it.
"Fuck you!" I screamed, causing his head to shot up. I kicked my foot into the middle of his face, causing him to fall onto the floor next to me.
"You bitch!!" He groaned as he rolled over in pain.
I quickly lifted my weak body up, limping my way over to the door. I swung the door open and was met by dozens of dancing bodies. I made my way through the crowd as blood continued to pour out of my broken body.
"Hey, are you okay?" A high pitched voice asked, but I completely ignored them. I wanted to find someone that I was close with, because I didn't trust anyone else at this point.
I continued to search through the crowd until my eyes landed on a buff, dark-skin male, "Kevin!" I screamed his name as loud as I could.
He lowered his red solo cup as his dark eyes wander around the place before landing on me, "Holy fuck!" He gasped before running over to me.
He quickly swept me off my feet, "Appna, what happened?! Who..?!" He couldn't even form a complete sentence, because of how taken back he was at the moment.
"Jake." I gasped for air as my body came into realization about what has happened to me, "Please get Jake."
"Fuck, fuck." He whispered to himself as he made his way through the crowd, "Has anyone seen Jake?! Or Colby?! Anyone?!" He shouted for help, causing a lot of eyes to be drawn towards us.
My eyes continued to flutter as I tried staying awake, but my body felt weaker than normal and that's because I was losing lots of blood at an alarming rate.
"Kevin, what the fuck?!" Mike's voice somehow towered over the music.
"Where's Jake or Colby?!" He frantically continued to ask.
"They're in the front-yard talking to..." His voice trailed off, because Kevin started running in the direction Mike told him to go.
The cold night air attacked my open wounds causing a groaning sound to leave my lips, "Kevin..." I whispered as my eyes involuntary started to shut on their own.
"You do not leave me, got it?!" He demanded, even though his voice trembled.
"Colby!" Mike screamed as Kevin quickly lowered me to the ground with me still in his arms.
"Appna!" My best friend screamed as well.
Dozens of heavy footsteps made their way over to me.
"What the fuck?!"
Who did this to her?!"
Kevin, what's..."
"I found her in the crowd like this." He shouted over their questions, "She's losing too much blood." He choked as he gently pressed his hand against several open wounds that were on my body to control the bleeding.
My eyes flutter up to Jake's teary eyes, "Appna, please tell me who did this to you." He begged as he rested his hand on my bloody face.
"I don't know." I whimpered, "I got out before he could do anymore damage to me." I choked as my tears mixed with my rare blood.
"Where is this fucker?!" Colby growled as he appeared by my side.
"Sam's old room." I weakly answered.
"Go get that bastard." Jake growled, causing Mike, Elton and Corey to head back inside.
"I already called 911, they're on their way." Sam said as he appeared in front of me with Kat by his side, "Appna." He whispered as his eyes instantly became glossy once he saw me in my broken state.
"I'm fine." I reassured him even though I wasn't, because I didn't want them to worry to much about me.
"Appna, you're not." Colby choked as he rested his hand on mine.
He was right, I wasn't fine. I was completely broken, not only just my heart, but my soul as well. Seems like I can't catch a break no matter how much I try. And it seems like I'm making things worse for my friends by being here. It was supposed to be a fun night, but everything went south, because of me again. Maybe I shouldn't have stayed, maybe I should've stayed back with my mom.
My watery eyes wander back over to Jake's, "Jakey." My lips trembled as I called him by his famous nickname.
He shook his head, "Please don't, Appna." He begged, tears rolling down his cheek.
"Mommy visited me." I whispered.
"What you mean?" His voice cracked as his eyes flutter.
"She wanted me to come home, Jakey." I whispered.
He gently cupped my face, "You're not going to leave us, Appna." He choked on his tears, "You can't leave me especially."
I gently lifted my hand and rested it on his wet cheek, "I told her I won't leave you." I whispered with a weak smile, "So, she sent me back." I choked as my hand fell to my side.
Sirens blared in the distance, overpowering the music behind us. My watery eyes flutter over to the red and blue flashing lights as they appeared outside the gates. A weak smile appeared on my face as my eyes flutter shut and let darkness consume me, one more time.
*****Author's Note*****
Hey buddies! Sorry for the late update but thank you for sticking around.
Hope you guys liked the chapter, let me know what you think.
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