Sweet NamJesus.
From the bottom of my heart...
Thank you.
By sending The Jeon Jungkook to me this morning,
For his caramel frappuccino...
You have blessed me more than I could ever deserve.
As if being enlightened by a higher power, you felt your mind leave the physical world, travelling across infinite planes of reality while time stood still around you.
Never before now had you considered yourself a spiritualist by any means,
But you could be...
For him...
If it meant experiencing the addictive, euphoric high of Jungkook's presence just one more time.
In the short minutes after Jungkook had left the cafe, your head still felt so high up in the clouds, but the after-effects of withdrawal quickly began to settle in.
Still completely paralyzed in your place, you tried to process what had just happened, but your mind was in complete and utter disbelief.
Was I dreaming?
Did I just black out?
If it weren't for Ji-eun vigorously shaking you back into reality, her high-pitched fan-girl squeals mirroring exactly how you were feeling on the inside, you might have fallen into total shock.
"Girl. Holy sh*t. That did NOT just happen!!" your best friend was now yelling straight into your face, unable to contain her ecstatic excitement any longer.
Feeling your eyes well up with tears from the overwhelming adrenaline that was now coursing through you, the raw emotions of meeting your idol in real life made you completely forget how to speak in that moment.
Jumping up and down, you did the only thing you could do in a time like this.
You screamed.
And pulled your best friend in for the most intense hug ever.
"W-What on earth happened in here?" Hana walked back into the kitchen after throwing the trash out earlier. She only needed to take one look at the pair of you to know that something was definitely up. "Did I miss something?"
Still trying to process exactly what had happened yourself, you were a little dumbfounded over how clued on Hana had suddenly become.
"W-We can't tell you," Ji-eun quickly stuttered out, remembering Jungkook's innocent favor of keeping his visit a secret.
Up until now, you never imagined a secret being so hard to keep, wanting to broadcast to the rest of the whole world that you met Jeon f*cking Jungkook.
But of course, as always, you were going to respect his privacy before anything else.
We owe him AT LEAST that much....
"Aww.. Why do I have to miss out on everything interesting that happens around here," Hana pouted, sulking back out of the kitchen to refill all of the garbage bags.
"Don't go hating the player, Hana. Hate the game!" Ji-eun spat out as she followed Hana out the kitchen, unrelenting from the promise she made.
Taking a deep breath out, you took this short moment of being alone to try and ground yourself.
Well sh*t.
Hands trembling slightly, you went for you phone that was laying beside the coffee machine, hoping a dosage of social media might be enough to distract you from spiraling any further into panic and withdrawal.
But when you began to scroll down your Instagram news-feed, your mobile abruptly vibrated, the new notification startling your already fragile state into almost shattering your phone into pieces.
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[08:24] 🔥Yoongi: Morning.
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I swear...
Curse this boy and his damn terrible timing...
Desperately trying to calm your already racing heart, you took a slow breathe in and out before sending a reply to your masked 'Genius'.
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[08:25] Yoongi's Girl💜:
Morning.
[08:25] 🔥Yoongi: Damn, Yoongi's Girl.
[08:25] 🔥Yoongi: I know I'm amazing and charming and all, but you don't need to get so excited to talk to me..
[08:26] Yoongi's Girl💜:
😑
[08:26] 🔥Yoongi: How's your morning going?
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Being asked such a generic question like this might normally send your eyes rolling to the back of your skull, drawing out the same kind of boring and repetitive answer from you:
"Gee, I don't know."
"Breathed a lot."
"Ate a bunch of pastries..."
"Sighed heavily..."
"Probably got mad at an inanimate object...."
The list goes on.
But this morning was different.
You don't usually start your mornings off by being graced in real life by the Golden Maknae's presence, and quite frankly, you weren't sure if your elevated heart-rate would even be able to handle that on a regular occurrence.
It took you a while to steady yourself from hyperventilating again, before you were finally able to type out a reply.
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[08:29] Yoongi's Girl💜:
This morning has been... something.
[08:30] 🔥Yoongi: Something..?
[08:31] Yoongi's Girl💜:
Yeah... Something unbelievable happened.
[08:31] Yoongi's Girl💜:
Someone came into our cafe earlier...
[08:31] 🔥Yoongi: Correct me if I'm wrong..
[08:32] 🔥Yoongi: But aren't people meant to come inside your cafe?
[08:33] Yoongi's Girl💜:
Nooo. This person was special!
[08:34] 🔥Yoongi: Strange. I don't remember being there earlier....
[08:35] Yoongi's Girl💜:
😡😡
[08:35] 🔥Yoongi: Who was it..
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Right now, you don't even know why you thought it was a good idea to bring that up in conversation, because of course Mr.742 was going to press you for answers.
The only reason you could chalk it up to in the moment, was simply by being caught off guard by a charming devil in disguise.
But even if you were never going to admit it, the more you flirted with the idea that your masked 'Genius' was interested enough in knowing more about you, excited you to say the least.
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[08:36] Yoongi's Girl💜:
Sorry, but I'm sworn to secrecy not to tell.
[08:37] Yoongi's Girl💜:
I really hope the come back though...
[08:38] 🔥Yoongi: If that little punk knows what's good for him, he won't...
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Huh..?
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[08:38] Yoongi's Girl💜:
What??
[08:39] 🔥Yoongi: Never mind..
[08:39] 🔥Yoongi: It would have been nice to see you today.
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His swift attempt at changing the topic went successfully unnoticed, since you were now smiling ear to ear at his unpredictably sweet comment.
Too afraid to actually admit out lout that you seriously missed him, you took comfort in the fact that he might possibly be feeling the same way as you did.
Hmm
Maybe I'm not doomed in the 'boy department' after all.
You stood there for a moment in silence before bursting out into laughter, earning yourself a sideways confused glance from your best friend as she walked back into the kitchen.
Ah, I should really be a professional comedian, you thought to yourself, a confident smirk adoring your face as you decided over a safe response to his message.
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[08:40] Yoongi's Girl💜:
But aren't you in Japan still??
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Despite him instantly reading your message, his reply was delayed.
Your curiosity over his concealed whereabouts beginning to overflow now, you were dying to know just how long you had to wait until he would finally return.
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[08:43] 🔥Yoongi: I gotta get back to work now.
[08:43] 🔥Yoongi: I'll talk later.
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Damn.
But of course, you had long become accustomed to good things quickly coming to an end when it came to Mr.742.
He's just a busy guy...
An infuriatingly busy guy at that...
Shoving your phone back into your pocket, you couldn't help but feel kind of thankful to your masked 'Genius' for his nice enough distraction, helping you pull yourself back down to earth and reluctantly get back to work after meeting your literal idol.
But before you could even reach the giant bag of coffee beans that needed grinding, your phone buzzed once again from inside your pocket.
You scrunched up your eyebrows, confused at who might be texting you, knowing full well it wouldn't be your anti-social 'Genius'.
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[08:48] Im___ltm: Hey (Y/N), How are you? 😊
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As you read his message, the breath you were holding in escaped you.
Over the last few days, Taemin had been periodically texting you, and of course not wanting to come across as rude by any means, you kept responding.
It wasn't like there was anything recognizably wrong about your conversations, he was actually pretty nice to talk to.
It just felt wrong.
In these times of silence in between your conversations, you had practically forced yourself into not thinking about Taemin at all, too far overcome with guilt over the entire situation you had created for yourself.
You knew that the more you kept messaging him, you were only digging yourself deeper and deeper into a hole in the ground.
And you knew you would have to come crawling out and face everything head on eventually.
As you stood there blankly staring at his message, you couldn't help but feel reluctant to reply to him.
It wasn't fair to him to string him along either.
Hypocrisy doesn't suit anyone.
Biting your lip, you shoved your phone back into your pocket, deciding to blame your radio silence on a busy day at work later on when you inevitably had to message him back.
"Hey, Ji-Eun!?" You called, not even turning your head to see where she was in the cafe.
"Mmm?" She hummed, her close proximity making you jump from not realizing earlier that she was cleaning the counter-top directly behind you.
"What do you say we get drunk on soju and go to Karaoke tonight?"
"Hell yeah! Sounds good to me!"
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Hi angels!😇
How is everyone doing?
I'm so sorry for the extra long delay in updating!
It appears the entire world is crumbling.
Just in the last few weeks, so much has changed. My job has completely changed. In fact, every single thing about my every-day life has now changed, which I can imagine is the same for a lot of ya'll as well! It's been hectic, and there is still no toilet paper lmao.
Anyways, I hope you like this new update which felt like it took forever for me to craft. It really is the bane of my existence, trying to pull stories from my inside head and turn them into coherent, semi-interesting words.
I swear. Sometimes... a lot of the time... English just doesn't compute with me. Ugh. I'll get better.
But I am really liking this direction, and can't wait to write the rest of this story and live vicariously through all of your comments and reactions!
So please don't forget to vote, comment, leave feedback or anything else. It seriously makes my day reading everything you all have to say!
I hope you are all safe and doing well.
It's a pretty sh*t time right now all over the world, but just remember that there is a light at the end of the tunnel! Sending out lots of love and hugs to everyone, where-ever you are!
❤ Katie ❤