They were sitting in the living room eating pizza and drinking beers. Mostly Jax was drinking. Turned out he's going to stay one night.
They talked about all this time they were apart. Now he has another son, Abel, with Tara. But things aren't so good but he's going to be fine, she knows he will.
"You didn't tell me..." Gabriela start and point his face with her finger. "What happened?"
He laughed and melt his body more on the couch. "I met your boy's father" he paused for a while. "Your boyfriend"
"He's not my boyfriend" she fired back.
"Okay okay chill. How he react finding out about Hector?"
"He didn't" she said and looked away from him. "He doesn't know"
"What you mean? Gabs...this isn't fair"
"I know Jax but... I'm scared? I don't know how he will react. What if he takes him away from me? What if he doesn't want him in his life? This would hurt Hector"
"He doesn't seems like a person who doesn't care. I think you should tell him. You are already almost seven years late. You don't want to make this more complicated"
"You're right. He overheard a conversation between me and Coco. Kinda admitting that i have a big secret and he knows it has something to do with him and my son. I just need a little bit more time"
"Come here" he opened his arm and welcome her inside of them. "Don't you think you suffer enough? I think it's time to tell him how you feel about him, or how you used to. Get all what you feel out of you. Give yourself some peace. You worth it more than anyone"
"Why you always know what to say? I hate that" she said and they laughed together.
"I learned from the b hiest, love"
"Oh I'm nothing like this"
"I have a different opinion. Let me know better kiddo"
"Jizz I am a woman"
"Yeah with a kid's mind"
"Asshole" she hit his head and stood up to go bring another two bottles of beers. "Enough with me. Tell me about you. Filip told me that you need my smart mind"
"This idiot. Always have to say things that shouldn't"
"Don't be so harsh on him. He cares about you, as me. Tell me"
Jax sigh and rubbed his face with his hands.
"Remember the book my dad wrote? About all the dirty things club is into?" Gabriela nod. "He was right back then. I mean i saw what he meant. I wanted to change the SAMCRO but i realized I can't. Shits gonna happen, and all this legacy will follow me whatever I do. I just... I want my sons out of this. Don't want them to live a life like this. Don't want them turn out like a piece of shit of a father they have"
"Jax..." She touched his face force him to look at her. "You love your sons and they know it. You are a good father. And all this thoughts proves it. You don't have to worry if they get in the club one day. You don't know how life is gonna turn out. And it's too soon to worry about all this. Just be their father right now. Not another club member who doesn't give a fuck for them. Keep this out of their life as long as you can if you want, but one day they gonna know the truth. It's better to hear it from you, instead of someone else and hate you"
"It's better to hate me and leave all this behind them, than get in it and make themselves killed"
"They won't. I grew up in this life and i turned out fine, as you did too. Don't look yourself like you are a bad person. You are not. You do whatever a parent do to keep safe their kids" she tried to calm him down. "I do the same thing. You know better than anyone"
Jax was about to speak when a loud knok on the door made him stop. He stood up without a thought and take out his gun, pulling Gabriela behind him to protect her.
"I'll go check"
"GABRIELA I KNOW YOU'RE HERE OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR" Angel screamed from the other side.
"Oh shit" she took Jax from the hand and pulled him in the kitchen. "Stay here and be quite"
"The fuck I am"
"Jackson please" she pleaded.
"Fuck. But if I heard anything suspicious I'm out to kick his ass"
"You won't. He wouldn't hurt me" she assured him and went to open the door.
"Angel" she opened the door and let him in. "Please be quite. Hector is sleeping"
"Sorry" he mumbled and looked around. "You have company?" He asked and nod to the beers on the table.
"No, just me"
"Since when you drinking so much? And you smoke too?"
"Since life hit me with a baseball bud straight in the nuts"
"You don't have nuts"
"You know what i mean"
"We need to talk" he finally said. "About this morning"
"We have nothing to talk"
"Gabbie please. Just.... I need some answers. And what's the secret you hiddin?"
"I told you before. It's nothing important"
"It sounds pretty important to me. I see you talking with Coco all the time. And he looks suspicious, he doesn't look at me like he used to. It's like he's almost ashamed"
Angel came closer to her, he grabbed her head and let his forehead touch hers. "I just want things get back to normal. I don't want to hate you. But everytime i see you...God, i want to scream at you. I need all this anger go away"
"I know Angel" her hands rest on his chest. Her eyes travel to his beautiful face and all the feelings she has for him suffocate her. "It's just not the time. Please understand that."
"Bullshits" he's mood changed. "You can't tell me why you left?"
"I needed space"
"For fucking eight years? Without a word? You disappeared with no explanation!"
"I fucking needed space? Why don't you understand those simple words"
"Space from what?"
"From everything" she responded. "And one thing bring another and i found out I was pregnant. I couldn't return back in this mess! It was about to be a war with the Cartel and Los Olvidados. I couldn't risk my son's life"
"Yet you could pick the fucking phone and told me that"
"I've called you so many times" Gabriela was walking up and down the floor frustrating, don't know what else to do. "You never picked up. You gave a pretty god damn message by that. What else was I supposed to do? Wright you a letter? Sorry i don't live in the '60's"
He chuckled and put a cigarette between his lips. "Just send a text"
"Why you never picked up?"
"I never saw the calls" he finally answer. "And when you called after months...Gods knows what I would do if you were here" he shook his head whooshing away the thought. "Still something doesn't fit right..."
"Just drop it" it was all she said. "I'm here now"
"And what? That supposed to fix things?"
"I never said that. But stop asking questions"
"I fucking can't?" It was like a question but a statement too. "What are you hiding?"
"Nothing"
"Hell you do. I know you Gab. Maybe you're away for eight years. But you didn't change that much. I knew you better than you knew yourself and i can tell when something's wrong"
"Yet you didn't knew me at all"
"I did"
"No you didn't!" She creamed and pushed him by his chest. "If you knew me you would figured it out!"
"Figured what?"
"Fuck!" She put her hands on her head feeling her mind going crazy. "You so annoying sometimes"
"Am I annoying?" Now he was really mad. Like he could kill a person mad. "Then you should gathered your things and go away again. Cause apparently this is your thing. Nobody needs you here.Una puta como tú que a nadie le importa"
Gabriela's hand hit him on the cheek so hard that she cursed under her breath with the pain she felt. Not only physically but inside too. And that was the worst.