At home....
Somewhere in boston....beacon street
Its like 3 o'clock in the afternoon...I just been here two days and im wanna go back ..for me this is a eternity..this is not my home..doesn't feel like home...I miss them..stiles his sarcasm...scott my wolfie...scary eyes isaac...the bansee lydia...the hunter allison...my body guard the twins...the psycho uncle peter ...uncle my father....derek..my......my what
Ahhhh....this not what I want....there always a option even for love...
Does he miss me...I can find out but then I cant turning offf...our bond ..
Sitting in my room...looking around...everything in my room doesn't belong to me..this is not me...this part of me is gone ..thats him my father..
The good thing he have...when im around ..he dont bother me at all..but like everything ..im always alone..
I want my life back...my room ..my friends...my family...him
I cant deal with this right now...
I left because ...I want some space..I need to heal..but im feeling more hurt than before...
Getting out of my bed...im looking for some running clothes..changed...taking my keys going out and drive....
I need to run...it help me think...
My life doesnt stop not here not now...
Theres is only on place here I can think and run....chestnut hill reservoir...beautiful place..the few one that I like it ..a lot..
There is a big difference from here a city Boston beacon street and there a town.beacon hills..feeling myself out of place....
Parking at the reservoir..For the west area...getting out of my car.. breathing ...exhaling. .looking around...
Putting my earphones listening chrisina perry jar of hearts and start to run..the view is stunning...you can see the boston collage...the trees....nature...freedom....my wolf part need this...
I dont know how long I run...I just stop looking at the lake..sitting in a bench....admiring the sunset...
You know was the worst ..I wasnt alone...
What do you want...I ask without looking at him
Talk to you...paul said
I dont have nothing to talk about especially with you ...I said looking at him
You are the only wolf ..the only one..I know that cant be trace..today you dont gave me any problem at all to find you..what happens with you...paul said woried
And you still work for my dad...thank you...I said sarcastic standing up
For the lat time..I said im sorry...paul said
Im sorry doesnt take away...the pain...the memory....the nightmares...him...I said looking at the lake
Jeannie...I dont know what more can i said to convinced you..paul said
Then dont try...it cant be changed...if happened...I still feel and smell his blood in my hands...I said looking back at him show him my eyes electric blue then back to normal
He was wrong...paul said anger
he was you friend...I said uncomfortable
You said yourself ..he was.. until the moment he hurt you ..he was ..paul said walking at me
Watching him getting closer hes the opposite at derek...
this one is the good guy tipe..caramel ondulate hair...blue eyes..great body...sensual voice..but not like derek not at all...
I hate to see you mad at me..paul said trying looking at me seriously
You deserved.it...I said smiling
That what I looking for...see you smile...paul said smiling
Looking at him strange..
Really...what are you doing here...im said walking at him
Well....i was gonna ask you ..if you want going out with me...just dinner..no compromised..just change the routine..paul said passing his hands over his hair nervious
No...im sorry...I cant...I said looking a another way
You cant continued..Pusshing people away....paul said grabbing my arms
I can and I will...I said stepping away from his arms walking at my car
He must be hurt you really hard...doesnt let you..met another people...paul said putting his hands on his pockets
Yes he does...and still do it...to my heart..I said getting inside in my car and leave..
Back at home..
Getting inside the house taking my earphones....the sound of a familiar vioce
Where had you been..dad said worried
Running ...I said getting close to him and kissing his cheeks
We stayed in silence...
Jeannie...dad said looking at me sad
Im fine....just out of place...beside you sent paul to follow my tail..I said smiling walking at my room
I need to protect you...dad said
I know....I said exhaling tired looking the mail in my computer
You want to talk about it....dad said following me
Sitting in my bed taking my sneaker off and put it on the floor on one side
Theres nothing to talk about..is in the past now and I wanna keep it like that....I said looking at him
My phone is buzzing....
Taking my phone and look who was it...cora...cora calling me
Can I have a minute along...I said to dad show him my phone
He just smile at me...
Ill be in my office...dad said closing the door behind me
Answering....
Hi...I said
Hi.....how you doing...cora ask
Out of place...tired...but fine and you..I ask
Great....never better...cora said
We stayed in silence
Jeannie....cora said
Yeah....I said
Are your not gonna ask for him...cora ask worried
How is he....I ask tensed
Silence....doesnt talk...I know why...hes....cora didnt finish
Yeah....I missing him to...I said with a nod in my throat
I dont like see him like this..you can see him smile but his eyes said another story...cora said
Im sorry...cora..I didnt..I never have the intention...to make him feel like that..but...what he did...even I know it was gonna happened..I saw it happened...I wasnt ready to face it...im still .. hurt..I said
He hurt to...jeannie...he really sorry...can you at least trying talk to him...at least listening your voice.....for me please....cora said begging
I keep silence looking at my phone....breathing out and answer
Where is he....I ask
Hes here dont hang up ...and thank you...i own you one...cora said
Listening all her movement....until I heard his voice with his sister..suddenly silence...but iknow hes got the phone...i can listening his heartbeat.....
J ean...derek said tensed
D...hi...I said shy
Listening him smile
Hi....derek said
How you doing....I ask trying to talk natural
Fine...and you...derek ask
Fine....I said sad
Silenced.....
Why your lying...derek said
He got me out of place..
Jean...talk to me...derek said
About...I ask
Just talk to me...derek said
Ok....where are you right now..I ask
Right now....south america...walking around....keeping my mind sane...thinking of you ....on us...and you. derek said
Im in boston...with dad...keeping my mind sane like you..and ...I cant get you out of my mind..too...happy...I said
I know...stiles told me where you are...and..I know what you feeling right now...he said smiling
You call him...I ask
Yeah...derek answer
Why didnt you call me...I ask
I didn't because I dont know how you gonna react...if you gonna answer me or dont...
You can least trying dont you think...a message anything..I said
Another silenced moment...
I miss you...derek said
It still hurt...I said
I know....im sorry...derek said
Are you coming back..to becon hill...I ask
Only if you want to...derek said
I do...so we can talk....I said
You do...derek said surprised
Unbelievable but yeah...I wanna talk.. I said surprised to
Ok ...them..derek said
See you them..I said
I cant wait...to see you..derek said
Me too...bye...I said
Bye...derek said hanging the phone
Love always have an option...when is real....trying....