I was furious. Hindi dahil natalo ako ng gagang 'yun kasi sigurado naman akong dinugo s'ya sa inis nang dahil sa akin. I was livid that Anita actually believed that Lauren was a better choice. Not that I cared. Hindi naman ito contest at wala rin akong balak mag-asawa. Kiber ko ba sa nanay ni Dustin kung sino ang gusto n'yang mapangasawa ng anak n'ya?
But seriously, I thought that Dustin deserved better. Someone better than a Lia Agatha Carbonel. That's IF he'd rather not be with me.
"Hay naku, ayoko na ngang problemahin 'yang mga gan'yang bagay. Dapat 'di ko na lang binaba 'yung bruhildang 'yun! Shaving my pubes felt like a more pleasant experience than talking to her," I muttered to myself.
Pero ang init ng ulo ko sa kanya. Sino bang nagpasimuno ng a mother knows best na 'yan? Hindi lahat ng nanay matino. May ibang nanganak lang at iniwan na ang anak nilang parang kuting! 'Yung iba naman parang si Mama na ang tingin sa anak ay meal ticket! May iba ring hindi alam kung ano ang definition ng best. Tulad ng bruhang si Anita na mamimili na nga lang din ng mamanugangin, d'un pa talaga sa kasal na sa isang matanda.
Boba!
"Pero bakit ko ba 'yun pinoproblema?" I asked myself. "Pakialam ko ba sa kanya?"
I went straight to the elevators and smiled at the employees who greeted me.
"Miss Lia, blooming po kayo," one of the female employees remarked and I discreetly checked the name on her name plate. Hindi kasi ako katulad ni Daddy, na pati aso ng mga empleyado namin ay alam n'ya ang pangalan. Ako, kailangan ko pang manduga kasi hindi ako magaling kumabisado ng pangalan at mukha.
"Thanks, Sharlene." I beamed at her.
Sa aming tatlong magkakapatid, ako lang yata ang hindi kabisado ang pangalan ng mga empleyado namin. Si Alexa at Lee Ann kasi ma-chika rin katulad ni Daddy at may talento sa pagkabisa ng pangalan ng mga tao.
Pero ako? Kailangan mo munang mag-iwan sa akin ng malakas na impact bago malagay ang pangalan mo sa kasulok-sulukan ng utak ko. Tulad n'ung nanay ni Dustin.
Jusko sa lakas ng impact na iniwan n'ya sa akin, parang gusto ko s'yang hambalusin ng banga para pasok na pasok sa banga ang beauty n'ya!
"Oo nga po, Miss Lia, blooming po kayo!" another employee piped in and I automatically smiled at her.
'Yun yata ang hindi magandang naidulot sa akin ng pagiging model ko, kapag may kumakausap sa akin ay parang may remote control ang ngiti ko at naka-ready sa isang click lang. Naisip ko tuloy paano pala kung minumura ako? Eh, 'di nagmukha akong tangang nakangiti habang binabalahura n'ya?
"May kakaibang glow po ang pisngi ninyo. Parang ang radiant n'yo pong tingnan," said another girl, whose name was Agatha, as the elevator door pinged open.
We all immediately stepped inside.
"Teka lang, ha, tawagan ko muna ang kapatid ko para bigyan kayo ng salary raise, okay?" I kidded and everyone laughed. "Kayo talaga, feel na feel n'yo akong bolahin. Alam n'yo sigurong mabilis akong mabola."
"Miss Lia totoo po. Ang ganda-ganda n'yo po these past few days. Hindi po sa sinasabi kong hindi kayo maganda dati pero meron pong kakaiba sa inyo ngayon."
Ah, kasi nadidiligan ako gabi-gabi at kahit kakadilig lang sa akin ay dinidiligan ako ulit, I nearly blurted out.
Mabuti na lang napigil ko ang bunganga ko kasi sigurado akong hindi lang ang mga empleyadong nasa loob ng elevator ang mai-iskandalo kundi pati na rin sina Alexa at Lee Ann.
"O sige na, naniniwala na ako sa mga sinasabi ninyo. Maraming salamat!" I said.
I waved goodbye at them when I reached my floor and headed straight to my office. Hindi sa nag-bi-busy-busy-han ako pero marami pa talaga akong gagawin. 'Yung renovation ng restaurant ng Hotel Blanca ang pinakaunang malaking project ko at sobra akong excited na para na akong manganganak sa tuwa.
Babe, wait for me. My meeting's nearly finished. I miss you. I miss you so much, I'm getting hard.
I read Dustin's text message and laughed. Ang lakas maka-PBB teens ng loko. PBB Teens R-18 edition. Si pempem naman kilig na kilig.
Jusko, pempem, ha, kaya gustung-gusto mo si Dustin, eh, kasi bigay-hilig ka sa kanya. Malandi!
Ako 'yung tipo ng taong hindi mahilig mag-text. Ano ba kasi 'yun? Mega-effort sa pag-ta-type at pagbabasa, bakit 'di na lang tumawag? Pero nang dahil kay Dustin, na sobrang mahilig mag-text ng mga kalanturan kahit nasa meeting s'ya, pati 'yung mga ngumingiti at gumagalaw na mga pusa, aso at oso na 'yan at nakakasanayan ko na ring gamitin sa pag-ti-text ko.
Nyemas, Lia teenager lang?
Babe, I'll be 'wetting' for you. I texted back. Thanks for 'dripping' me a message. I added it as an afterthought.
Tawa ako nang tawa. I loved how pornographically witty I was.
Pero 'yung lahat ng kahalayan ko sa katawan ay nawala n'ung binuksan ko na ang laptop ko at nakita ko kung gaano karaming e-mail ang kailangan kong basahin. Nanibago tuloy ako. Pakiramdam ko importante ako at mayroon akong naibibigay na kontribusyon sa kumpanya.
Hindi ko na namalayan ang oras at nagulat na lang ako n'ung biglang may kumatok sa pinto.
I checked the small screen near my computer and got up when I saw it was Dustin.
"Hi." He smiled boyishly as soon as I opened the door and I nearly melted. I pulled him inside my office, locked the door behind us, and immediately hugged him.
"Bakit kailangan mo pang kumatok at 'di ka na lang pumasok sa loob?" tanong ko sa kanya. Yumakap s'ya sa akin at humalik sa pisngi ko. "Kumusta ang meeting mo? Did you meet any girls?"
"Nagseselos ka, Babe? Ang sweet mo naman." He chuckled. "But no, I did not meet any girls and even if I did, I'd still go home to you."
"Sus, bola."
Kinurot ko s'ya sa tagiliran.
Ano ba ito, lahat na lang sa lalaking ito matigas. Nakakainis na nakakakilig! I thought to myself.
"I may be a lawyer but I'm telling the truth," he replied.
Hay naku, Montemayor 'yan ang problema sa'yo, ang galing mo. Pinapartidahan mo na lang ako parati. Wala pang kamay at dila 'yan, salita pa lang pero parang hinagod mo na ang buong katawan ko!
"What did you do while I was away?" he casually asked as his hand cupped my breast.
Okay na sana, sobrang ready ako sa kanyang karinyo, pero, bigla kong naalala ang nanay n'ya na sumugod sa akin at may dalang walis tingting na may mahabang tangkay at isang truck ng dahon ng pito-pito.
"Umupo tayo kasi may sasabihin ako sa'yo," I said as I pulled him towards the sofa.
We sat down.
"Okay, that sounds serious," he remarked. "What's the announcement? Wait, are you pregnant?"
"H'wag gan'un !" I immediately answered. "Ano ka ba naman! Kawawa naman ang magiging anak ko kung ako ang magiging nanay n'ya!"
"Bakit? There's nothing wrong with you. In fact, bagay kang maging mommy. I've seen you with Alexi and Alexanna and you're a natural."
"Natural na malantod," I said. Dustin laughed softly. "Anyway, nakausap ko ang Mommy mo," I announced and he froze. "Pinuntahan n'ya ako rito kanina."
"Anong sinabi n'ya?" It was funny how he ran his eyes over my body as if he was checking for cuts and bruises. "Are you okay, Babe?"
"Yes, I'm okay. Marami s'yang sinabi pero marami rin akong binitiwang salita sa kanya. Gusto kong sa akin na mismo manggaling na nagkabwisitan kami, ininsulto n'ya ako at ininsulto ko s'ya. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin n'ya sa'yo kapag nagkita kayo at wala akong pakialam. I do not like your mother, Dustin and she obviously hates me. Kung may problema tayo d'yan ay ngayon pa lang sabihin mo na kasi hindi kakayanin ng alindog kong makipag-plastikan sa nanay mo at sa mga kampon n'ya."
"Babe..."
"I am being honest, Dustin. Baka kasi pumapak ka ng katol at maisipan mong close kami ng nanay mo. Hindi kami close, inis na inis kami sa isa't isa at wala akong makitang dahilan para makipag-close ako sa kanya."
"Babe, I understand. But please don't be angry at me for hoping you and my mother will eventually reconcile."
"Not in the near future," I said and he sighed. "Look, Dust kilala mo ako, hindi ba? Hindi ako magpapapakumbaba para sa nanay mo. Hindi ako luluhod sa harap n'ya para tanggapin n'ya lang. I am not willing to swallow my pride for someone who thinks of me as trash."
"I know." He smiled. "H'wag na nating pag-usapan kasi ayokong mag-away tayo." He made me stand and guided me to sit on his lap before nuzzling my neck. "Babe, bakit ang bango mo?"
"Parang alam ko kung saan papunta ito..." I replied as he began unbuttoning my blouse. "Babe naman..."
"Sige na, ilang oras tayong hindi nagkasama, miss na kita."
Jusko, ito na naman kami, araw-araw bagong taon. Kapag ito pa naman nakaka-miss sa akin, nagpapaputok. Baka naman magbunga na itong landian namin at hindi na lang si Dustin and dedede sa akin matapos ang siyam na buwan. Jusko h'wag naman!
"Babe, bukas na lang ng gabi kasi bukas ng hapon may appointment ako sa ob-gyn ko at hihingi ako ng bagay na contraceptive para sa akin..."
"Okay..." he said after he succeeded in taking my blouse off. He fumbled with the clasp of my bra and before I knew it his warm mouth was latched onto my flesh.
"Babe..." I gasped. "Babe, ano ba...akala ko ba..."
"Isa lang," he whispered against my flesh. "Sige na, Babe. Miss lang talaga kita."
"Naku..." I was starting to pant.
Hot talaga s'ya at dahil sa kanya ay nagiging mapagbigay ako. Pero sa kanya lang naman. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hirap na hirap akong hindian s'ya. Akala ko yata ako si Santa and since he's both naughty and nice, 'ayun naman ako halinghing naman kaagad.
"Babe, please..." He took my hand and guided it to his crotch. "Tingnan mo kung gaano kita ka-miss...".
He was rock hard. Parang nanghinayang naman ako bigla kung hindi namin itutuloy kasi sayang naman 'yung katigasan n'ya...ng paninindigan.
Naku, tindig na tindig ang paninindigan n'ya araw-araw. Walang kapaguran ito! Dinaig ko pa si Curacha, ang babaeng walang pahinga!
"Pero, Babe...baka...ano...natatakot na ako na baka mamaya may mabuo na tayo at 'di na lang ungol ang lalabas sa akin, bata na."
"Sige na, Babe... please..." he was begging like a puppy. And what kind of woman could say no to a puppy?
Ang langtod nitong tutang ito!
"Sige na nga." I relented.
Tinulungan ko s'yang hubarin ang belt n'ya at buksan ang zipper ng pantalon n'ya. The moment his manhood was freed from its confines, he guided me to sit on it.
Bakit ba kasi nag-iinarte ka pa, Pempem? Hihindi-hindi ka pa, eh, agad-agad namang namamasa 'yang katauhan mo at parati mo namang binibigyan ng gate pass 'yang sandata ni Dust—
"Dustin..." I moaned his name out loud when I felt him penetrate me. He had gotten good at not taking my underwear off and just moving it aside. And I had taken a liking to wearing undies that he could easily move aside.
"I've missed you," he said holding my gaze and I took his hands and guided them to my chest.
"I've missed you too."
I started to undulate as he lethargically surged against me. I set the tempo and he followed, his breath hitching every time I ground myself against his hardness. He did not break eye contact and he was holding my gaze the whole time and it got me more excited.
It didn't matter that my skirt was messily bunched up around my waist, that I still had my t-back on, or that I was sprawled on top of him in a very unladylike fashion. I wanted him. It was as simple as that. And he wanted me. However, that side of the equation wasn't as simple.
"Babe, do you want it faster?" he asked in a husky voice and I shook my head.
"No, I love it this way," I replied and he nodded leaning back against the sofa to continue to stare at me.
There were times when I wanted it hard and fast but there were moments when I wanted it slow. I loved watching how Dustin's eyes fluttered closed with each surge, how his breathing snagged in his throat, and how his mouth gaped open with each thrust. I loved how I was able to bring him to his knees but more than that, I loved watching him watch me pleasure him.
"Babe..." He put an arm around my waist as he pulled me closer towards him before he laved my breasts with his tongue. I felt a probing finger at the apex of my core and I was lost.
I came hard. Twice. And I did not even bother telling him to pull himself out when he reached his climax.
Bahala na ang Diyos ng mga hotdog. I thought doing a mental calculation in my head. Teka lang, fertile ba ako ngayon? Hindi ba dapat meron na ako? Ano ba 'yun, titingnan ko nga 'yung diary ko mamaya, I thought with a frown as I slumped against him, his arms wrapped around me.
"What are you thinking?" he asked a minute later. "Bakit ka nagbuntong-hininga?"
"Do you remember when I had my period?"
Ano ba 'yan, Lia! Pati ba naman kadramahan ng obaryo mo ay kailangan mo pang itanong kay Dustin?
"No," he replied. "Why?"
"Parang hindi pa kasi ako nagkakaroon."
Masyado yatang masaya si pempem at 'di na dugo ang binubulwak n'ya, likido ng kaligayahan na lang parati.
"Well, kung hindi ka man magkaroon for nine months, walang problema sa akin."
He grinned.
"Loko!" I pushed away from his chest to frown at him. "Jusko, ayoko, ano!"
"'Di ba sabi mo hindi ka pa nagkakaroon?"
"Baka delayed lang since mahigit isang taon din akong celibate, baka nanibago ang matres ko."
"Baka."
He smiled before he moved his face close to mine to give me a kiss.
"But what if you're pregnant? Don't tell me you're going to—"
"No! Of course not. Malandyutay lang ako, hindi ako kriminal. Kaya nga hindi pwede, eh. Kaya last day na natin ito na walang protection kasi nakakatakot. Mamaya, daan tayo sa drugstore at bumili kang rubber."
"But what if you're already pregnant, Lia?" he asked. "What if you're already pregnant with my child?"
"No, I'm not!" I firmly said. "Sigurado ako," I added and was surprised when he started driving inside me again.
"What are you doing, Dustin?" I gasped.
"Naniniguro lang din," he whispered as my whole body tingled and I started to moan his name again.