You wake up the next morning before everyone one else which is a change and you go upstairs alone
You head outside to the kitchen make a cup of tea and just stare into space and you go to the day beds and lay in one comforting yourself with the covers when you feel a tap on your shoulder so you look up so see Siannise telling your to move over to you move a bit and she comes into the bed with you
"You okay?" She asks
"Yeah I'm just napping" you tell her
"I came to make sure that you're okay" she tells you as she hugs you
"I'm done with crying" you tell her
"You're allowed to cry" she says as she moves the hair out of your face and then the girls all come out as you sit down on the bean bags
"What are you thinking?" Paige asks
"Get me home" you say
"Oh no, you can't leave us Y/n" Jess says
"You can't leave us" Siannise says
"You came in here to find someone genuine didn't find that in Callum so" Jess says
"Doesn't mean you're not going to find someone else" Siannise says
"I know it's just the thought of being here uncomfortable when I could be at home" you say as your start crying making Jess instantly hug you
"It honestly has nothing to do with you" Jess says
"If Khloe kardashian can make it through 2019 I can make it through this" you say
You're sitting with Demi, Fin, Paige, jordan, Rebecca and Jess when you get a text
"I got a text!" You shout "Y/n and Molly it's time to head out and talk things out. # compare notes" you read out
"Don't worry about it" fin says
"It's probably best that you clear the air to be honest" jordan says
"She clearly made Callum feel things I couldn't do I don't have many notes to compare" you joke
and then you head upstairs and get ready with the girls
You then head downstairs and go and you arrive at the table and sit down
"This is awkward" Molly says
"A little bit" you say with a laugh
"At least we're have a nice setting" she says
"How are you feeling?" You ask her
"I'm not bad how are you feeling?" She replies
"Not great," you say laughing making her laugh "I feel like the worst part for you guys was yesterday" you say
"Yeah" she agrees
"Whereas for me it was just starting" you tell her
"Yeah thats understandable," she says "was it a shock?" She asks
"Ehm no it wasn't if I'm honest but there was a part of me that hoped he hadn't. I was going for what he had said to me and I suppose I probably should've gone off how he made me feel sometimes, I thought we were kind of progressing in a way where if he was to come back on his own then we would have a chat about where that would leave us" you say
"Yeah" she agrees
"Obviously casa would be the ultimate test and then to hear him literally say in front of me what I didn't have with you in three and a half weeks I had with someone after two days" you say
"Yeah" she says in understating
"It's such a kick in the teeth" you tell her
"Of course" she agrees
"I think he used me until something better came along, I don't think we was genuine with me, he lead me to believe we were with eachother and I hope he doesn't do the same to you because you seem like such a lovely girl and I can i my apologise for not coming over to chat with you yesterday or earlier today I just couldn't talk to anyone really" you tell her and she nods
"I get that and I appreciate the apology" she says
"Of course I'm upset but genuinely I don't know how I'm going to live in the villa, I just don't know how I'm going to do it" you tell her honestly
"Don't say that" she says with a laugh
"Hopefully I'll come up with a way but right now it's just very raw" you say to her
"Yeah course" she nods
"What was he like in casa amor?" You ask her
"This is it, this is the thing that's got me so baffled because I feel like we both know two completely different Callum's because I'm not going to lie we did click and after a couple of day's we were really bouncing off each other and on the third day was when he kissed me, we was bringing me tea in bed, he was bringing me things, he was like tucking my arm, he was like cuddling and on the third night he just opened up with all his emotions and feelings which even I was taken back by" she says
"Like I don't feel like he ever opened up to me but I do feel like that's just because he was like lying and I believed it and that's why I think I'm so hurt now" you say
"It's hard to listen to how he was with you and not have your doubts kind of thing because now I'm thinking aw he better not be" she says laughing
"No I don't want to be like that" you tell her
"No it's nice to compare" she replies
"I'm hoping and praying it's not the same thing for you. I'd never want you just because I had that with him for you to have that ever and I hope it isn't," you say to her "shall we hug it out?" You say and she stands up
"Yeah I'm glad we have sorted it, I think this is needed, I think we need a cuddle" she says and you open your arms and you both hug
"I hope it works out" you say
"Thanks we will wait and see won't we?" she says laughing and then she takes your hands and you go back to the villa.
(Luke Ms PoV)
Seeing Y/ns heart break hurt everyone in the villa and knowing there's nothing you can do about it hurts too.
Seeing her go out wasn't nice as she was clearly uncomfortable but did look gorgeous and we are chatting away
"They're back" Callum says
"Hi!" Y/n says to the girls "shall I just leave you to go?" She ask molly and walks to the girls, I see her hug all the girls and leaves most likely to chat to Paige and then Callum goes over to molly
(End of pov )
You and Paige go down and sit on the sofa
"So how was it with Molly?" She asks you
"She's genuinely a lovely girl and I think she feels uncomfortable which I get and he was apparently like being really open and emotional with her, bring her tea in bed. He genuinely led me to believe we were on the same page and he quite clearly wasn't" you tell her and chat to her for a while and then go to get ready
You curl Natalias hair and head outside where you all have a drink and while you're sitting on the bean bags with Paige and Siannise Callum and fin come over
"Y/n can I pull you for a chat, the day beds please?" Callum asks and you nod and stand up
"How you feeling?" He asks as you both walk to the day beds
"Not great" you tell him with a small laugh
"How did the chat with molly go? What were you talking about?" He asks
"How you and her were in the other villa same old same old" you tell him with a sigh
"How are you obviously I know you're hurting and it's not nice to see, I don't want to see you upset and someone's just said that you think my feelings for you haven't been genuine, do you feel like that's true?" He asks and you nod
"Yeah" you simply reply
"The thing is with me like everything I have said to you hasn't been a lie, I haven't come in here to lie to someone. If I wanted to play it safe I would've stayed with you but I would'nt have been true to myself. I don't want you to think everything I've said is a lie it's not" he tells you
"Well I think you are a liar" you tell him almost as a whisper
"Listen, nothing I have said for the past few weeks has been a lie let's get that straight because I haven't come in here to play a game" he says getting angry
"Molly said to me today that I know a Callum and she knows another so if you can portray two different Callum's-" you start
"That's the thing, this is what you're not understand, this is what you're taking out of context the way I was with you I thought I'd give it time, the way I am with you and the way I was with molly in casa amor that's clarified for me" he says
"Well I wish that you had spoken to me about it before you had left, I wish you told me what you were giving time and I'm glad you got clarity and you knew for a fact that i wouldn't be standing down there with anyone else" you tell him
"I didn't know that" he denies
"Yes you did you've mugged me off so bad" you tell him
"Me and you have never had the conversation about being exclusive"Callum says
"Stop putting words in my mouth and you know what I should've taken your actions rather than words but because I wanted to believe you-" you start
"You're kinda like throwing it all on me" he says
"It is all on you" you tell him and talk for a while and as soon as your voice cracks you stand up and leave and head inside and sit on the sofa with Paige, Jess, Demi, Rebecca and Siannise
"You didn't cry" Jess says
"I walked away because I was going to cry" you tell them and you tell the girls what he said
"I expected more from that conversation; I expected a sincere apology and assure you-" Jess says
"He was getting angry at me, you know what I might just go over there again now I'm not upset" you tell them and stand up
"You know what? You are a strong independent woman you remember this" Siannise says and you walk back outside and walk over with your head held high to the day beds and instantly all the boys stand up and walk away and you sit down
"Hi" you say as you place your glass down
"Alright" he says
"I'm not going to make myself look like a dickhead and be all upset because I've done enough of that and it's obviously just a bit shit for me but I'll get over it" you say
"I know I don't want you to be upset because I know it's tough for you it's the last thing I want" he says
"I know but I don't know what you were expecting" you return
"I know I was expecting this but I just don't want it to be like animosity between us because I didn't think that's what me and you had" he tells you
"Yeah but I didn't think this was going to be us so" you say
"I know there's nothing I can do but say sorry" he says looking into your eyes
"No I appreciate that" you say with a small nod
"I just want you to be happy and I know its hard at the minute" he says
"Thanks" you say with a small laugh
"Can I give you a hug or not?" He asks
"If you want" you say as you look down and stand up and he gives you an awkward hug
"I just want you to be happy" he says and you walk away and as you're in the kitchen Luke M is there filling his water bottle up
"You okay?" He asks as he hugs you
"I will be" you tell him and he rests his chin on your head and rocks you both back and forth for a while before lifting your chin
"If you ever need a cuddle or just someone to talk to please come to me" he says softly as he moves a piece of hair away from your face
"Thank you" you say and then Natalia pulls him for a chat and then fin gets a text
"I've got a text!" He shouts "Islanders, the hideaway is open and you must choose one lucky couple to spend the night all alone. # pillow talk # sleeping is cheating" he reads out
"Siannise and Luke T!" You and Paige shout at the same time and then you all go with Siannise inside
"Girls I need to look at 10 10" she says making you all squeal and Siannise goes into her drawers and pulls out a sexy lingerie set making you all squeal and then you redo her hair and touch up her makeup before you all head to the boys and the two go away to the hideaway while you go and remove your makeup and put on a pair of shorts and a bralette and go down to the sofa so you can sleep alone tonight and as you rest your head on the pillow you notice Luke M come in
"What are you doing?" You ask tiredly
"I'm coming to sleep here because me and Natalia pretty much called it off, why are you here?" He asks
"I just wanted to be alone for a bit" you tell me making him gasp jokingly
"Am I interrupting?" He asks
"No you're fine" you tell him making him laugh and then he lays down his pillow and sheet and falls asleep.