"He totally wants you!" Kamari whispered as she was rolling around in my sheets. "A little hump and grind."
"I'm pretty sure it's bump and grind but no way in HELL that's happening , He belongs to Trinity and she can have him." I looked over myself in the mirror , I put all my braids up in to a tight bun to get ready for this party I was being dragged to, my outfit was simple... a red halter top with shorts and an all red pair of 12s. "Plus, who wants a damn man that openly flirts with another girl?"
Kamari nodded agreeably, "alright off of Josiah and his demon on a leash, lets go ! the girls said they're waiting!"
Kamari on the other hand went all out for her outfit, she's been under lock and key at home by her father and I don't blame her though. She deserves to let loose. Her outfit was a short purple sparkly dress and shoes to match.
I found it a bit much, too flashy and just feening for attention but if I expressed that, she'd just call me a hater which I guess I was.
We exited my room and quickly left out the dorm, seeing the look on Trinity's face as she was sitting on the couch alone was obvious she had something to say and it was best we completely ignore and avoid a fight.
"Oh! You two look good!" Eyana smiles at the two of us as we walked down the steps of our dorm building.
Eyana, Samara and Daeshona left out to run to CVS since Daeshona had to get stuff for what she calls an 'emergency hoe bag' Incase of a one night stand.
I never understood how people could have one night stands.
I've only had one boyfriend, we were together through most of my high school years and when it came to having sex it was scarce.
We've only had sex 5 times because he only wanted to do it when moments were right. It was never spontaneous, rough and barely passionate.
It was always missionary and he always finished in ten pumps or less. He'd fall asleep beside me and snore so loud I felt as if my body was vibrating and leaving me there unsatisfied and a bit disgusted at times.
Of course, I enjoyed our relationship and I liked him for his personality and not for his sex skills that he really lacked but I couldn't help but feel if I was single... I could of experienced a bit more.
A one night stand was out of the question for my moms precious daughter. They hammered it in to my head that I was too good for certain things and I appreciate that they instilled that in me but I couldn't help but think what I was missing.
To have someone ravage me, not care if I live or die the next day. No emotions, no attachments and maybe all I know about him is his name.
I wanted to experience the rush of it all, having my face pinned down in to the bed as someone pounds away at me.
The walk of shame was the finak part and of course I It was obvious because of the smeared make up, messy hair and party outfit from the night before.
Then my mind snaps back to everything my moms had told me and the voice in the back of my head telling me if I did anything out of pocket they would know.
"I got my bag!" Daeshona wiggles a bag in her hand. "Ladies ! Off to the frat house we go!"
She turned on her heel and we followed.
Eyana and Kamari excitedly chatted as we walked.
Samara seemed to be thinking about something but it was most likely Raphi. He is the one who invited us to the party and he's all Samara has been talking about since they met.
I was pretty neutral on the whole party thing, I wasn't excited or really against it for that matter. I guess that was obvious by the way I was dressed, everyone but me put in effort.
"Are you going to have fun?" Samara questions distracting me from my thoughts.
"I'll probably just sit in the corner."
"Well we don't have practice until next week, you can let loose ! Get a drink in you or two." Samara wiggles her shoulders bumping me slightly and smiling.
"I'll think about it." I laughed, I could just have a drink, dance a bit, that is what you're suppose to do in college anyways.
By the time we got to the frat house party, people were already spilled out on to the lawn chatting and sipping away at red solo cups. I've been to a couple of parties in high school and none were ever this fill, either this campus didn't have a lot of parties and people were really excited or this was the best frat on campus.
Samara linked arms with me in an effort to push ourselves through the door. It didn't seem needed because with one look at Samara most of the boys moved or stepped forward to talk to her.
Daeshona, Eyana and Kamari seemed to have disappeared in to the party already so I was stuck with Samara who was on the prowl.
"If you see Raphi let me know !" She screamed in to my ear so I could hear her over the loud music.
Dreamville's 'Down Bad' was blaring through the speakers almost making my bones rattle with each beat.
The house was large and people were still a bit crowded as they danced, mingled and stood on the side watching the entire encounter.
"People were grouped off in obvious cliche clicks. Athlete's, frat boys, and the suspected nerds who looked just as uncomfortable as I did.
I wasn't sure how Samara was expecting to even find Raphi in this mess of people but me asking was pointless, she was determined as she kept our hands locked and searched.
"This is a lot harder than I thought !" She yelled. "Maybe we will just run into him..."
I nodded agreeably as I was getting a bit annoyed at being pulled around the party.
The two of us made our way into the kitchen and grabbed drinks. Samara went straight for the dark liquor I couldn't get the name of as she poured it so quickly and tossed the empty bottle in to the trash.
"I don't know your tolerance for drinking but just take a bit of this." She poured almost a gulp full of Hennessy into my cup. "You wanna chase it?"
"Do I wanna what?!" I asked as I shook the drink in my hand.
She laughs at my naivety, "do you want to add something to take the kick off?"
"Oh!" I looked down at the drink and felt a bit of conviction, like my moms were sitting somewhere shaking their heads in disappointment. "No!"
I threw the drink back as I've seen done on movies and instantly felt a wash of heat fall over me. "That's hot! It tastes like ass!"
"Forget the Henny... why do you know what ass tastes like?" Samara chuckles and I enjoyed in.
"Ladies!" Eyana's voice could be heard but she couldn't be seen. After another moment she pushed herself through a crowd of people before stumbling towards us. "I'm sorry!" She looks back at the crowd who was unbothered by her shoving
"Where's Daeshona and Kamari?" I asked, a bit more concerned on where my best friend was but the polite thing to do is ask for both.
"Daeshona already sort of branched off with a couple of people and Kamari is showing these white kids how to do this dance." Eyana shimmed her shoulders to the current song, off beat but adorable.
"Are you sure you don't want to go find Kamari?" Samara asks. "Those dance lessons might come in handy."
The three of us laughed, after awhile it seemed like the three of us were just hanging out. We weren't at a party and it completely calmed my nerves. Eventually, Daeshona and Kamari had texted asking where we were and now the five of us were all together.
As we joked around and did our own thing we attracted the attention of a few people who joined in to the conversation.
Raelle, a dark-skinned girl, I assumed was from Ghana because her shirt read, I am from Ghana, with a short buzz cut and a face full of piercings gravitated towards us and stuck to Eyana as the two of them branches off in to their own conversation.
A set of twins caught the attention of Daeshona and Kamari and Samara set off to find Raphi.
I stood at the kitchen counter watching as they mingled in to their own conversations.
I didn't even know how many drinks in I was, a gulp full of henny turned In to half a cup and I don't even know how many of those I poured.
Once I noticed I lost count of the number of drinks I had it was almost instant that I felt like the room was spinning and I just wanted to lay down.
"You okay?" Kamari called over to me and I nodded.
"The bathroom is upstairs, first door on the right." One of the twins instructed.
"Do you want us to go with you?" Kamari questions once again
"Nah... I got this!" I took in a deep breath and walked forward.
"You sure?" Daeshona was staring at me with a raised eyebrow. "Your walking like Bambi."
"Dae! Shh I got this!" I waved them off as I exited the kitchen. I bobbed and weaved through people amazed that I was able to get through people without falling or bumping into anyone... or maybe I did? I just didn't notice.
I licked at my lips with determination as I looked up at the set of wooden steps.
"You got this... you've jumped over hurdles way worse than this." One step... two step,, three step..
Twenty four steps... or twelve.
Either way, I was upstairs and staring down the hallway.
"Did he say left or right ?" I asked to myself. "To the left , to the left , to the left, to the right." I broke out in to a small moment of song and dance before going back to my mission.
"Left door it is!" I gripped the handle and busted into the room.
It was a bedroom
It wasn't empty.
A female was straddling the waist of a large man.
She was bouncing hard and fast.
His hands were gripping her hips.
"Wow!" I spoke. "You are really good at that!" I clapped applauding the female. "My knees would give out girl! Megan thee stallion would not be proud."
The girl screamed , a bit startled but the guy laughed.
"Get out!" She shouted.
"You're so pretty when you're mad.." I pressed my body against the door way. "You guys think sometimes your parents put these wild ass expectations on to you ? Because I do!"
"I feel you ma..." the guy nodded.
"My name is Niyah... future track star you know current bad bitch." I giggled. "I'm going to leave you guys... but seriously amazing knee work I'm amazed and -"
I was yanked out of the room by my shirt and the door was slammed shortly after.
"This is why you don't drink hun?" Kamari held me close to her and opened the door I was suppose to go in to.
"Go in , girl you look a mess." Daeshona was walking up the steps with Eyana and Samara on her heel.
They sat me on the toilet and reassembled themselves in the mirror.
"Who let her drink this much!" Eyana asks as she was kneeled down by my side rubbing my back and wiping the sweat away from my brow. "Oh, I'm going to get you home! I can make you a sandwich.. you look hungry."
"I want a sandwich... and a pickle.. can I have a pickle ?" I asked her.
"You can have a pickle." She smiles.
"Pickle Rick!" I shouted.
The four of them all exchanged glances before laughing.
"As a matter of fact." Daeshona rests her hand on the sink. "Why don't we all go home?"
"But,.. the twins?" Kamari pouted.
"I completely misplaced my hoe bag... I'm out for the night." Daeshona leans down and loops her arm under mine.
The four of them agreed it was best for us to go home , only after being at the party for at least a good four hours.
They had a bit of trouble getting me down stairs but once I heard the music.
Roddy Ricch's The Box , I escaped their grasp and made my way into the crowd of people.
That's the last thing I remembered before everything went black.
I woke up the next morning feeling like shit.. my eyes felt like they were crusted shut, my head hurt and I felt like I was on a boat.
As my eyes adjusted to the morning light, I was able to make out the object in my room.
At least I was safe in my dorm.
I stretched out my body and felt a warm beside me. I stopped my breathing as I was too scared to look over to my side.
Did I have a one night stand ? I thought to myself.
What do I say when they wake up ? I muddled with my thoughts a bit more until I mustered how the courage to look.
"Hey?!" I whispered pulling the covers down off the persons head.
"Daeshona !" My heart was relieved to see her laying beside me.
"Yo, your breath smells like shit talk that way." She shoved my face in to opposite direction giving me a chance to see Samara on my other side.
"Don't talk over here." Samara chimed in.
"Please just shh my head hurts."
I didn't know where she was but Kamari's voice could be heard from down around the bed and I suspected Eyana was in the room with us as well.
I took in the moment before rolling on to my side and almost immediately falling back asleep.