I started shaking "w-what??! how is this even remotely possible??!" i started to yell
"Ma'am please calm down I'll explain everything its going to be alright we can help you get through this as we have never seen a case like yours before okay?" he said
And I rapidly shook my head as I tried to calm myself down
"This is obviously not even realistic?! Two fathers. TWO fathers?!?" I started yelling but then speaking really quietly
"Ma'am it's going to be fine will help you figure this out physically mentally and emotionally, this to us is a first but I assure you well do the best we can."
"No sir you don't understand because you don't have to deal with this!!"
"Ma'am your going to be asked to leave if you don't lower your voice"
I shrugged and felt tears start to pour from my eyes oh my god.
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I finally calmed down on the outside at least so I could get the facts firsthand
Basically the doctor said something's you probably don't want to hear about because it's disgusting body part information
***(basically the first time It didn't exactly fertilize however the second time they mixed and fertilized it or some other derogatory process)***
Any-who, both Jai and Luke are the biological fathers not one more than the other really and if so medically the cells are too small to tell.
He told me to go home and before actually announcing anything or even hinting to a pregnancy ask them how they feel about a child.
Whoever feels better about a child tell them first but explain everything out so in 10 years people aren't heartbroken you know?
So that was my plan Im heading home now.
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I got home and then realized I didn't want to speak to either of them especially Jai.
So I got the brillIant idea to call beau even though I truly didn't want to
"Hey" he answered
"Hey... do you have a minute" I asked
"Uh.. hold on guys...ya" he said pausing and yelling to whoever he was with
"I have a big problem and I need to talk to the boys but I need your help?"
"Uhm sure.. what can I do?" He asked
"Well do you know where the boys are?"
"I happen to be with them Luke right now, but I haven't seen jai since yesterday, come to think of it I probably should get out that" he started talking to himself
"Ok well then can you two come Over?"
"One minute..... Luke" he yelled pulling the phone from his face "do you want to go to Annabelle's?" He said to him
"...Ya sure for what.." Luke said "well figure it out when we get there but get ready were leaving now..... hey Annabelle ya well be right over" he said
"Okay thanks"
"Bye"
"Bye" I hung up
I looked at myself in the mirror checking my state and boy did I look A mess I'm still in my pajamas from earlier and my face is beat red from all the crying, I'm in desperate need of a shower
I ran upstairs figuring they'd be over soon
I showered, got dressed, applied minimal makeup only to appear presentable and headed downstairs.
Just as they were coming in the door, those brooks never seem to knock
"Hey" they said "hey" I replied
"So what's up?"
"Oh um beau can I talk to you privately first" I said a little nervous
"Ya" he turned around looking at Luke then followed me into the dining room shutting the door
Luke walked into the living room turning on the tv
"So there's really no easy way to say any of this so I'm just going to spit it all out, please don't be loud because I need your advice about what to do with Luke, so just try and remain calm" I said taking a deep breathe
"Your making me nervous"
"...Sorry"
"No never mind I don't know why I said that, continue"
"Jai showed up here yesterday and well he raped me and didn't wear protection and I'm not on the pill, I haven't been, basically i was throwing up all this morning so I went to the doctors and I have some medical mystery going on and I'm pregnant with both the twins" i spat out faster than you could say 'impossible'
His reaction was just an extremely confused face he stared at me in awe
"What?" He whispered trying to take it all in
"J-jai raped you..." he Asked not daring to talk above a whisper
I nodded with a look that says 'yup I'm sorry I can't even believe it myself'
He shook his head back and forth eyes crinkled shut "I-I'm so fucking sorry, I don't know what to say"
"Please don't apologize you had nothing to do with it"
"I don't know what's up with him lately I'm sorry well deal with him when he shows up again but for know what the hell do you mean about pregnant"
I sighed dreading this question the most "honestly I can't tell you much only what I know, I'm pregnant and somehow it's both their child"
"What how???!!" His voice raising slightly then dropping it noticing his tone
Luke turned his head towards us for a second
"I don't know some disgusting medical explanation is prominent if you really must know but the doctor told me both their sperm" I cringed at the word "fertilized my egg and therefore they are both fathers"
"Shit, oh my fucking God, how the fuck does this happen to us, the twins"
"I'm so sorry beau I honestly don't know what to do or how to tell them"
"Wait wouldn't one of them be like more of a father than the other ya know?"
"They're twins so there's not much difference in their DNA especially since they're identical, and the cells are too small to tell"
"Oh my holy fuck" he whisper yelled throwing his head in his hands and grabbing at his hair
I started to cry, silently, but I was crying
I'm such a fuck up.
"If this is how you react and your not even one of them imagine how they will react and in their state" I complained my voice shaky.
"This is what you get for being a fucking slut!" Beau yelled
Did he just dead ass say that " shit no I didn't mean that I'm sorry I-"
"No... your right I deserve it" I sniffed
I heard footsteps and Luke was approaching, I don't even care anymore
I felt arms wrap around me " belle I didn't mean that it's just- I don't know how to cope with this all and I don't-" beau talked fast trying to make up for the hurtful words he just scarred me with when Luke burst through the doors
"Okay what the fuck is going on?" Luke half yelled
I cried harder not wanting to tell him
Beau took the hint and told him everything while gripping me tightly, which was surprisingly very comforting at the given moment
"What?!?!?!" Luke yelled practically screamed
"How does that even ?!!? What?!? That makes no sense whatsoever?!?! Ugh you you whore!! You slut!! You worthless piece of shit you!"
My eyes were pouring now and Luke attempted to hit me well hurt me because beau broke contact and dragged him away
I'm I'm everything he just said god I'm so stupid it's not even funny.
"Fucking stop Luke it's not her fault!!! You think she'd ever actually want a child with you!!! Huh! Exactly! She hates this just as much as you do Luke so fucking stop you selfish prick! Who do you think you are calling her all those names ?!?!" I heard a slap and a groan from Luke
"Take a fucking seat kid" beau scoffed walking back over to me embracing me in a hug
I mumbled a "thank you"
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Rather longish update as my apologies for it being a month since my last update again I apologize but thank you all so much for all the votes and comments and reads omg!!!
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