I'm sick of it all
Trying so hard to only come out on bottom
My heart beats for certain things
That drive it into the ground
I'm tired of it all
The pain that comes with effort
Twisting my soul into knots
Until it's unrecognizable
I'm bored of it all
The work becomes a nuisance
Giving my best to be disappointed
Time and time again
I'm hurt by it all
Until the stress is like a second skin
Rippling over my body in waves of agony
Pounding on my heart and mind
I'm lost in it all
The path stretches before me into the unknown
Far further than anything I've ever seen
Until I know not where I need to go
I'm hate it all
Every time I think about it
It brings on a new wave of dread
Until I despise the future that hasn't been made
I'm stuck in it all
Lost with nowhere to go
Held down by commitments and promises
Needing to break free but not knowing how
I'm clutched by it all
It's holding me back
Hanging on to the past that has nothing to give
There's nothing to gain
I'm saddened by it all
I know what it holds
And yet a part of me can't let go
I can't seem to step out of the predetermined fate
I'm shaken by it all
Everything about it pulls me under and only frightens
I'm terrified by what might come to pass
Leaving me in the ashes
I'm done with it all
I've lost the will to try
To go on and break free of the pattern
Pulling away from dreams and hopes
Until I've felt the sounds
Touched the sights
Tasted the feeling
Of what it's like to let go and drift away