Nobody's POV
The greenette woke up to the sound of noise coming from the hallways. He looked at his clock and it was the time when his classmates would be getting ready for school. He went to get out of bed but he was super shaky and weak. Izuku was wondering why he felt like this. But then he remembered yesterday. He gasped in suprise. "I...I have my memory...back.." he quietly said to himself. He tried to get up for the second time, and he finally got up this time. He was about to get ready for school but he remembered what Aizawa had told him. Izuku wouldn't be going to school this week. He walked to the bathroom and stared at his reflection in the mirror. He was thin, had bags under his eyes, and pale. "Why did it have to be me? Out of all the people in the world....why did I have to be this ugly?" He said to himself.
Your so disgusting
I dont think anyone is as ugly as YOU
Others cant even stand you're presence
So what if you got your memory back? They still hate you and you are still worthless. Nothings changed.
Why cant you just die already?
Do everyone a favor and try to commit suicide one more time and get it right!
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Izuku was in tears and immediately went for his razor. He took the tiny peice of metal out of his secret spot and without hesitation, Izuku took the blade to his skin and cut. He cut and he cut until there was so room left in either arms. But he decided that he wasn't done yet. He began to cut both his upper thy. He snapped out of it and realized just how deep his cuts were. There was blood running down his legs and arms and onto the floor.
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He started to panick. He got into the shower but almost fell because he felt light headed and dizzy. His cuts stung from the water hitting them. When the water first hit his cuts, he winced at the pain. Eventually the cuts stopped bleeding and Izuku got out of the shower and looked at the floor. He almost stepped in his own blood. He grabbed a towel and wet it. He scrubbed the floor until there was no blood. Izuku sighed and walked out of the bathroom. He grabbed some bandages from his drawer and wrapped them around his arms and legs. He fully dried his hair and since he wasn't going anywhere, he put on a dark blue hoodie and black sweatpants.
He walked back to the bathroom and brushed his teeth. He was about to lay down, but a note slid under his door. He walked over to his door and grabbed the note. This is what it read...
Goodmorning Izuku. We dont know when you're going to be awake but we have to go to school now. When we get back, can the class please talk to you? Not even about...you're memory loss or anything...but just to talk to you? We miss you. Please come talk to us.
From- The class♡
Izuku's POV
I loked up from reading the note.
They dont care about you!
The last thing they want to do is talk to a nobody like you
Pathetic
The voices are absolutely right. They dont want to talk to me. Why would they. A threw the note away and walked back to my bed. I sat down on the side of my bed and grabbed my phone. There weren't any new notifications like usual. "Heh....not surprised in the slightest." I said. I went to my messages and texted my mom.
"Goodmorning mom! I hope you're doing alright. Have a good day Mom!♡"
And I click the send button. I set my phone back down. It was quite. Everyone had left. The silence broke by the sound of my stomach growling. Even if I'm hungry, I cant eat. I refuse to eat. I walk out of my room and into the elevator and into the kitchen. I open the fridge and grab the water and a glass. I pored the water and take it back to my room. I'm alone. I have nothing to do.
(Big time skip by me because I dont know what to put right now)
Bakugou POV
Class ended and we were walking home. Everyone was talking to each other like everything was normal. I mean I guess Aizawa told us to act normal and put everything behind us...but how? How are we supposed to act like everything is back to normal. Before I know it, we are at the building. I walk to Izukus room imminently. I got to the second floor and walk to his room. I am standing at his door, hesitant to knock. I build up all my might and knock on his door. A couple seconds later, I see the small timid boy standing at the door looking at me. "Yes?" He asked me shakily. I start to cry. "K-kacchan!? Wh-what are y-you crying f-for?!" He asked me, clearly worried. I don't answer, but just hug him instead. I hold onto him tightly. "K-kacchan...?" He tries to speak but a voice came from down the hall. "I...Izuku?!" Icy hot gasped. He ran towards the two of us and looked at what was happening. He also started to cry. He joined the hug and Izuku said "YOU TO TODOROKI?!" He remembers us...."Midoriya....you...remember me right?" Asked Icy hot. Me and Half n half stopped hugging Izuku. He was just looking at both of us. "Yes...I have full memory of everyone and everything. I'm...back" That was izukus response. "Would you like to see everyone?" I asked him? His response made my heart skip a beat.."Wait...Kacchan....why are you being so nice to me? This isn't like you!" I was shooken by what he had just said. "Because...I just regret everything I've done...I want to change
..I really do Izuku..." Half n Half and Izuku were looking at me shocked. "You promise you wont hurt me anymore?" Asked Izuku, breaking the silence. I looked up at him with years welling in my eyes. "Izuku......I promise" We all hugged for a minute or two but then I asked again if Izuku wanted to see the others. He just looked at the ground but then agreed. We all walked to the elevator and pressed the floor to the common area. When the elevator doors opened, I was nervous that Izuku would be scared to see everyone, but I was wrong. I ran out of the elevators and jumped over the couch toppled onto Pink cheeks.
Izuku's POV
The elevator doors were about to open. I need to put on a happy, energetic act so no body will suspect anything. The elevator opens and a run out and see Uruaka. I jump over the couch and land on her lap and "smile". But I have to be honest, the look on her face sure was priceless. "DEKU?!" She yells in excitement. She wraps her arms around me and hugs me. I hear a bunch of people in the kitchen saying my name. "MIDORIYA?!" "IZUKU???" "IZUKUS BACKKKK!" Everyone ran to me and hugged me as well. Some were even crying. "G-guys?! What are you crying for?" I say while fake giggling. Holy shit this exhausting. I just want to go back to my room and be alone. But for now, I just have to go along with it. "Did you guys see the way Deku jumped over the couch and landed on my lap?! That was such a cool entrance!" Uruaka exclaimed. "Heck ya! That was awesome!" Hagakura said. If I'm being honest, I am glad that I have my memory back. But that doesnt mean I'm glad to be here. I want to stay in my room and curl up in a ball and cry. But nope. That's not what I get. Then I heard louder voice say "Alright Alright that's enough!" I turned around and saw Kacchan and todoroki walking towards everyone and me. The class stopped hugging me and we all sat down on the couch. There was silence until Kaminari broke the silence. "Ok ok come on guys! No need to be so depressing! Midoriyas back! Let's have some fun! Here. How about we have a class sleepover in the common area tonight as a celebration for Midoriya being back? We can have snacks, movies, games and just have a fun, chill night. Sound good?" Sure, Kaminari was a but dumb at time but boy did he know how to lighten the mood. He also had pretty good ideas and could calm people down most of the time. I mean...at least that goes for everyone else. I didnt want to do that. Why would I? I could barely look someone in the eyes for more then a second because I'm nervous that they would judge my face and point out all my insecurities! Even if I felt this way and I dreaded the thought of spending time with people, I had to say yes. What was I supposed to say? "Hey guys. Sorry but I'm not going to join you because I am depressed and want to kill myself and I rather be in my room crying and cutting. Oh yeah! And I also hate socializing and I know you guys want me dead anyways so have a good night. Bye!" Yeah no. "Heck ya dude!" "I'm in!" "Of course!" Everyone was agreeing and smiling with each other. "Izuku?....Izuku!?...IZU- " I jolted my head up. Kacchan finally got my attentio. "S-sorry! Yeah I'll g-go! D-Definitely." Everyone went back to talking and talking to each other about what movies they were gonna watch and what snacks they were going to bring and stuff like that. Exept for Kacchan, Todoroki, Uruaka, and Iida. The looked a bit worried. When I saw them staring at me, I did my signature fake smile. Even when I smiled, they still looked kinda worried. "Alright everyone! Go get you're the stuff that you want to bring from you're rooms that you want to bring it down here." Announced Kaminari. Everyone went to the elevator. We got in and I was squished and almost fell but I grabbed kacchans stomach to I wouldn't fall. I held on until we got off. I looked at him, anxious that he might be mad, but instead it looked like his face was as red as a tomato. "Ahem bakugou!!! Dont think I didnt see what just happend with Midoriya and you! He almost fell so he grabbed onto you and you started blus-" Kirishima was interrupted by an angry bakugou covering kirishimas mouth. "Dont you say another word or you're face is gonna have burns and scratches for weeks." And with that he walked to his room. "Hey kirishima. What was that all about?" I asked him. "Oh you'll find out soon enough." He said and walked off. I wonder what's hes talking about. I brushed it off and kept walking to my room. I grabbed a blanket, pillow, phone / phone charger, and a big hoodie. I went back downstairs with my stuff and set it in a corner while the others were setting up a fort. When they finished, we but our stuff down and it looked something like this.
I was honestly surprised at how good they did. The girls had there own section and the boys had there own section too. But it's not like we couldn't go on each others side. No one really cared. "I got the snacks and drinks!" Said Mina. Food. How am I just not going to eat the whole night without anyone noticing? "Ok everyone. Come sit down! Were gonna play truth or dare." Said Kaminari. Kacchan came up from behind me and grabbed my wrist. I dont know if I was just paranoid, but I felt something...i dont know...like a moist feeling on my wrist. I tried to ignore it. Kacchan stopped pulling me and pointed to a spot. He sat down and patted the spot next to him. I sat down next to him and he ruffled up my hair and smiled. Sure, it was a bit strange seeing Kacchan being so nice, but I really enjoyed him not bullying me all the time. "Ok so it will go me, hagakura, kouda, Asui, Yiyorouzu, tokoyami, Todoroki, Uruaka, Jirou, Mineta, Izuku, Iida, Kirishima, Shouji, Bakugou, sero, tokoyami, Aoyama, Ojirou, and satou." Denki said to the class. We were doing our truths and dares and enjoying ourselves when Iida pointed something out. "Um Midoriya? I think there is....blood on you're sleeve. Are you ok?" My heart sank. I looked at my sleeve and yep. There was blood on it. Shit. I imminently got up. The classes attention was on me. "O-oh y-yeah it's just a-a cut f-from earlier w-when I w-was getting m-my stuff! I-I just scratched m-my arm on a n-nail. Nothing t-to freak out a-about!" I nervously smiled and ran to the elevator. I got to my dorm room and ran into the bathroom. I rolled up my sleeve and my cuts were bleeding through the bandages. Shit! Kacchan must have squeezed my wrist to hard. I wiped off the blood and then wrapped up my arm. I threw away the bandages I had on before and put on some new ones. I took off my hoodie and put on a long sleeved shirt and prayed that they wouldn't be suspicious. I walked into the common area and sat down where I was sitting. The four same people were looking at me with a worrisome face. Soon enough, it was my turn. "Izuku truth or dare." I decided to play it safe and said truth. "Did you really get that scratch from a nail?" Asked Kacchan. God dammit. Now hes suspicious. "O-of course! You r-really dont h-have to worry!" "Yeah...ok" Kacchan scoffed and we continued to play. "Bakugou truth or dare?" Asked kirishima. "I'm not a pussy. Dare!" Said Kacchan. Kaminari then whispered something into kirishimas ear. They both grinned and looked at kacchan. "He have to hold Midoriyas hand until the next game we play." That was Kacchans dare?! What?! I looked at him and he had a angry expression but his face was a bright red. He turned his attention to me then out of nowhere, he slid his hand into mine and looked away from me. I felt my face get hot. I covered my open hand with my face. "OooOOOOooOooooOoOohhHHhHhHhHHhhh!" Yelled the class. "G-guys c'mon! We-we aren't l-like that!" The class just rolled their eyes and continued the game. After half a round of truth or dare, Mina came up with the craziest game. "Let's play spin the bottle!" I was surprised that everyone was agreeing! Even Kacchan and todoroki! Iida was against the game so he decided not to play this game. Me and Kacchan let our hands go. "H-huh?! R-really?!" I asked mina. "Yeah why not?" She replied. Shouji placed the bottle in the middle. "Who wants to go first?" Asked Uruaka. "I'll go! Hot babes here we come!" Said mineta. The girls gagged. "He is not going first!" Groaned yiyorouzu. "I'll go instead." I looked at Kacchan in shock. Hes willingly playing?! He spun the bottle. The atmosphere got thick and it felt like time had slown down. The bottle spun and spun until it stopped on........ME?!
Bakugou POV
The bottle landed on Izuku. Hell. Yes. He looked so shocked. He slowly looked at me. I couldn't stand it. This was my chance. I grabbed his shoulders and pulled him into a passionate kiss. It had felt like time had slowed down. His lips were so soft. I had my eyes closed but I could tell he was freaking out. At the beginning of the game, Alien (mina) had added a rule. The kiss had to be 7 seconds. I opened my eyes for a split second just to see his face. It was priceless. His eyes were as wide as I had ever seen them. You could hear the class going "OooOOOOooOooooOoOohhHHhHhHhHHhhh!!!" But I ignored them.
The 7 seconds passed and I pulled away from the kiss. Izuku just just sitting there speechless. Pink cheeks got up and went over to Izuku. "Dekuuuuuuuuu!" She said while shaking him. "I'll....be right back..." he said and stumbled to the kitchen. I watched as he pored a glass of water with ice and chugged the whole thing. He sat back down, looking flustered for the rest of the game. Pink cheeks spun the bottle and it landed on glasses. Everyone was eating snacks and pizza and drinking soda. Everyone but Izuku. In fact, he hadn't eaten at all tonight. I was about to as him if he wanted some food or something but I felt I head land on my shoulder. Izuku had fallen asleep. I smirked and looked at him peacefully sleeping. "Hey idoits. Izukus just fell asleep and I'm gonna call it a night for us. See ya." The class said goodnight so I walked to the boys section of the fort and set Izuku down and I lifted the covers and placed them overtop of him. He was adorable. I got under the covors with him and held him. She snuggled up against me and nuzzled his big fluffy hair into my chest. My ears were getting hot. "God...why was a such an asshole to you Izuku?....I'm so sorry." I thought as I held him tighter. I began to drift into sleep.
Izukus POV
I slowly opened my eyes to the bright sun light. I was laying in the fort from the party yesterday. I got up and checked the time. Everyone had already left for school. I walked into the kitchen and got some water and ibuprofen for my headache. I got to cleaning up the blanket forts. I folded all the clean blankets and sheets and put those back int the closet, then I put the dirty coke and grease stained blankets and sheets in the washer. Same went with the pillow cases. I put the chairs and clips to hold up the blanket and sheets back in the drawers and cleaned up any garbage or food. I finished cleaning and went to my room. I flopped onto my bed and stared at the ceiling for what felt like hours.
Hey guess what....you're useless!
A waste of space!
Worthless.
A peice of shit!
A loser!
An absolute nobody is what you are
C'mon! Just try to die one more time! Kacchan and everyone else would be happier
Faggot
You gay shit. Kacchan wouldn't like a fag like you! That kiss was only for the game! He doesnt like you!
Just die already
I fell off my bed and onto the floor. I sat there sobbing and curled in a ball like the pathetic loser I am and cry for 45-1 hour. The voices were still loud and were multiplying. I had one option.
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I stumbled towards the bathroom and took out my razor. I lifted up my sleeve and saw my most recent cuts. They were going away, but they sure were taking a while. I danced over my cuts and scars with my finger then it was like I got possessed. I started cutting uncontrollably. I cut until the voices went away. I looked at both my arms and they weren't as deep as before it they were still bleeding out.
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The blood was trickling down my arm so I immediately took my clothes off and got into the shower. The water stung and cuts. I was getting used to the pain so it wasn't that bad. It was like a cycle. Cut, shower, bandage, and cry. That was my pathetic life. I am so ready to just make a huge slit on my wrists deep and long and bleed out until I fade into death. After I got out of the shower and bandaged my arm. I put on shorts and a long sleeved T-shirt. My stomach was growling but I didnt want to eat. I don't want to be fatter than I already am. An urge to just yell until I passed out crept up on me. Since no one was here, I didn't see a problem with it. I yelled and cried an yelled and cried until I basically lost my voice. If I'm being honest, I felt a little better after that. I walked back into my room like nothing had just happened. I started to draw.
I was drawing a couple of my favorite character from my anime's I watch but then I thought about kacchan...
I dont really know why I drew these...but I liked it. I but the drawings of my anime characters in a drawer and put the ones of Kacchan in a different place. I keep all my drawings of Kacchan and me in a special spot. I looked at the time and it was already almost time for everyone to get back. Today was friday so the weekend is upon us now. Its not like I have anything to do anyways...
Todorokis POV
Class was going to end soon so I walked to Bakugous desk where he was putting stuff away. I approached his desk and he looked at me confused. "Bakugou. I'm worried about Midoriya. Hes been acting off lately and...that blood on his hoodie...I dont think that's from a scratch that he got...I think you know what I'm talking about..." I said to him. "Right......" Was his response. "We how do we confront him about it? And Uruaka and Iida are also worried about him." I said. "I...dont know....should me you, Uruaka and Iida talk about this when we get back to the dorms?" I was surprised that Bakugou was actually calling Uruaka and Iida by their actual names. That's how I knew he was serious. "Uh...y-yeah...I tell them." And with that, I went and told them. They agreed. Class ended and we got back to the dorms Everyone exept for Me, Uruaka, bakugou, and Iida went off to do there own things. The four of us decided to talk in bakugous room. We sat down in his room and there was silence for a couple seconds but Uruaka spoke up. "So....I think we are all really worried about Deku....". We all shook our heads in agreement. "And we cant just ignore the lines of blood on his wrist either. That obviously not from getting his stuff. There were multiple lines of blood not just one!" Bakugou said. All we did was agree. "So....what should we do about it?" Uruaka said. I spoke up. "Well we cant just assume that he cuts himself, but we also cant assume that he doesnt. So let's just keep close eyes on him and try to find out more information before we confront him. Alright? The three of the passed glances and nodded in agreement. Me, Uruaka, and Iida left Bakugous room and went to our own rooms. I looked at my clock and it was only 4:02 in the afternoon. I grabbed my phone from out of my bag and watched some tv for a while.
Izuku's POV
I wanted to get some fresh air so I decided to go on a walk to the park. I put on a pair of dark blue Jean's and a black hoodie and put my phone in my pocket and grabbed my headphones on my way out of my room. I was hoping I wouldn't see anyone so I wouldn't have to talk. I got to the common area and to my suprise, no one way there. I was happy that I wouldn't have to talk to anyone. I and started walking to the convenient store. My razor was getting dull so I needed to buy a box of razors and some bandages. I wasn't proud of what I was going to buy, but i need them. I took out my phone and headphones and put on some music. The breeze blew lightly onto my face and through my hair. It was relaxing. I had my music on full volume. I clicked on a song and enjoyed the music.
(I really like this song! If you want, you should listen to it!)
I got to the small convenient store and looked around the aisle for my stuff. I found them and brought them to the counter. The man rung up my items and put them in a white plastic bag and handed me them. "Have a good day." I said as I left the store. I checked the time and it was 4:46 now. I didnt want to go back to the dorms yet so I went to a park with a tree I used to climb. I put the bag around my arm and started to climb up the tree. I got 3/4 of the way up the tree. I hung my stuff on a branch near by. I stared into the city and watched as the cars went by and the people walking the streets. I took it all in. It was refreshing to say the least. I felt at ease. After 7-8 minutes after relaxing, a feeling of exhaustion rushed over me. I felt weak and tired. I grabbed my stuff and got down from the tree. I walked back to the dorms without any music but just the sounds of cars rushing by and birds chirping. I got to the dorms and went inside. Ojiro and Kaminari were sitting on the couch, and Jirou and yiyorouzu were in the kitchen. "Oh hey Midoriya. Where did you go?" Asked ojiro. "Oh...just to the convenient store" I replied with a soft "smile". "Oh alright." He said and went back to focusing on his movie. I walked into the kitchen and got some water. I said hello to yiyorouzu and Jirou then went to my dorm. I walked out of the elevator and saw Kacchan walking to the elevators. "Oh hey Izuku." He said calmly. "Oh h-hey!" I said. He looked at the bag I was carrying and asked "Hey whaddya got in there?". "O-oh its j-just a few t-thing from the c-convinient store..." god I hate my stutter. He slightly tilted his head and looked at the bag. Without a word, he ran forward and grabbed the bag from my hand. It was unbelievable at how fast he just was. I turned around and looked at Kacchan who was holding my bag in his hand. "C-come o-on give i-it back!" I said to him. "I will I will! I just wanna see what you got." He said back. No! I can't let him. He will know what I'm doing! I ran toward him but he moved out of the way. I looked behind me and saw that he had ran all the way down the hall. How is he so fast? He looked inside the bag.......He then looked back at me. I looked at him with pure terror in my eyes. I was on the verge of bursting into tears. He started to walk toward me. He got to me and but his hands and my shoulders and said "Izu....what are you planning on doing with this stuff?". That's was it. That's was my breaking point. I burst into tears and grabbed my bag from off his arm and ran to my room. I could hear his footsteps gaining speed but I got to my room and slammed the door shut. Kacchan was banging on my door and yelling stuff like "IZUKU OPEN THE DOOR!". I fell backwards and hit my head on the desk.
Stupid bitch. Now he knows you're little secret
How pathetic
If you were dead, you wouldn't have to deal with this
Worthless
Pathetic
Crybaby
Useless
Slut
Bitch
In the end, you're always just gonna be a Deku
I began to fall unconscious but before I did, there was a loud bang and I faintly saw someone standing in the doorway. Then everything went black...
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