#UM22
Days, weeks and months had passed by... I couldn't say that it ran out good around me because there were many times I felt bad, disappointed and sad but it's part of the life, anyway. I am getting used to it while living. I'm not a perfect person and I know that I disappointed a lot of people from the past months, too.
Sa ilang buwan ay marami na ang mga nangyari at parati pa rin akong naninibago dahil walang permanente sa bawat hampas ng mga araw at buwan na tila lahat ay hindi dapat kasanayan dahil gaya ng araw, lumulubog at naglalaho kalaunan.
But luckily, I passed my second year; sweating and barely breathing. School is expensive, Mommy was always reminding me that even when she could build a school. She just doesn't want me to expect that she'd spend money when I fail. Although, Papa's providing my tuition but still not okay to fail, kasi kapag may nagpapaaral ay naiisip na ayos lang bumagsak at mayaman naman kami.
Hindi ako pinalaking ganoon bilang anak na estudyante, my tuition was limited and balanced every year that got me feeling the pressure every exam days and moving up. Means, I shouldn't fail a year because I'd be the one in charge for the next year. Usapan na iyon ng mga magulang ko. Mas ayos pa kay Mommy na ubusin ko ang allowance sa luho kaysa ang magkaroon ng bagsak. I don't know, I can't understand-they want every Miramontes to soar high with good grades without a failure in school.
Soaring high isn't easy... well, as for me that wasn't born with intelligence.
I looked at Chancent who was busy talking to his Mommy on the cell phone; his head was on my lap, we were at his condo's balcony-our favorite spot every past afternoon to spend and wait for the sunset.
"What? I just went back to check the reports, Mama."
Marahan kong hinaplos ang kunot sa noo niya, he looked a bit annoyed now. He inhaled and looked up at my face, bahagyang kumalma ang mga lukot sa noo.
"Please, give me this week. I'll go back again and work."
Chance sighed heavily, he sat up and just settled beside me. Minsan kapag magkausap sila ay naf-frustrate ako, hindi ko kasi naririnig pero wala naman akong karapatan manghimasok sa usapan ng anak at magulang.
I've been just so curious because his parents were calling him every week recently and after the call, he was leaving Davao for Manila. He said, it's all about work. Pero ang alam ko, hindi sanay ang Mama niya na wala siya sa lugar at parati iyong inaatake ng depression.
"I have a girlfriend here, Ma-" napabuntong-hininga siya at hindi natuloy ang sinasabi, mukhang binabaan siya ng tawag.
Huminga ako ng malalim at hinaplos siya sa batok para pakalmahin, he looked stressed while dialing again but the line was already off.
"Umuwi ka na lang ulit, mukhang ang tagal ka nang pinagbibigyan ng parents mong magstay dito."
Totoo naman, napansin ko rin iyon kahit noong una pa lang na parang required siyang bumalik ng Manila kada buwan. Ginagawa naman niya iyon pero nagtatagal lang ng ilang araw at bumabalik ulit. He's a businessman, anyway. Most of them are usually out of the country or something. Hindi ko nga alam kung kumusta ang trabaho niya, e. Para kasing nakatengga siya sa Davao kahit may nag-aasikaso talaga sa construction site.
"I'm already twenty four," he stated irritably.
I inhaled and nodded.
"Namimiss ka lang siguro ng Mama mo."
He rolled his eyes tiredly, still problematic.
I know that his Mom has mental illness. It was already treated but when her children turned legal and free from them, she got anxious and usually stressed. Narinig ko lang iyon sa kuwento ni Chance, kaya pala madalas iyong tumatawag sa kanya para mangumusta o 'di kaya'y pauwiin siya. Naiintindihan ko naman iyon, doon naman talaga si Chance sa Manila at narito lang dahil sa project na ako pala ang dahilan.
Tss, this man and his efforts to reach me!
Sa sumunod na Sabado ay sinundo niya ako sa bahay at pinaalam kay Mommy, hindi naman niya nakakaligtaan iyon tuwing sinusundo ako. Minsan ako na lang ang napapagod sa pagpapaalam niya, pero sobrang nagustuhan siya ni Mommy sa ganoong kaugalian. Minsan lang magbigay ng compliment si Mommy at iyon ang compliment niya kay Chance noong minsang maghapunan kami.
"Saan tayo?" tanong ko habang nagmamaneho siya.
He licked his lips and shrugged.
"I have no plan."
My forehead crumpled in disbelief. "What?"
Tumawa siya. "I have no plan, I just wanna be with you this whole day."
"Bakit? Babalik kang Manila bukas?"
He nodded simply. I smiled.
"That's good, your Mom will surely be happy!"
He glanced at me softly. "I just forgot that it's her birth month. I hope I could bring you but... yeah, school."
"August pala ang Mommy mo... sayang, every holidays lang kasi ako puwede or sembreak."
He took my hand and kissed it while driving, I really love it when he's doing this! Hindi ko alam kung ilang litrato na ang mayroon ako na kinukuhan siya kapag ginagawa ito.
Months of being together, I'm still happy to have him around. Hindi ako nagsasawa at kinasanayan na talaga ang lahat.
I smiled and lifted my cell phone to capture how he kissed my hand, natawa pa ako dahil napatingin siya at matalim iyon.
"Ayusin mo! Mukha ka namang bad guy dito, e!"
He laughed, I captured it immediately. Hininto na niya ang sasakyan sa basement parking.
"Ang hilig mong manguha ng picture!" reklamo niya habang pinapatay ang makina.
I pouted. "Memories!"
"Tss, are you gonna put them all in a slideshow for our wedding?"
"Hay naku, Chancent Arlow! Ayan ka na naman sa pagka-assuming mo!"
We both laughed and went out of his car, we met in front of his car and I clung onto his masculine arm—I nuzzled it and giggled as we walked into the elevator.
"Love you!"
He giggled cutely but still manly because of his massive built.
"I love you." He kissed my hair and pushed the elevator button, he rested his back on me as I rested mine on the cold wall.
I hugged his waist from behind and it made me want to capture ourselves in the reflection, I quickly opened my cell phone to give it a shot.
"Picture, babe!"
He looked so lazy on the first shot, I bit his arm and pouted to point the mirror. Napasinghap na naman siya pero hindi nagreklamo at ngumisi, he hooked me in his one arm and lifted my head to kiss my lips.
"Give this a shot, okay." He chuckled.
I smiled while he's kissing my lips, kinuhanan ko naman iyon kahit natatawa. Isang beses niyang pinanggigilan ang ibabang labi ko bago kinuha ang cellphone ko para tingnan ang picture.
He smiled. "There you go."
Umirap ako, kinuha ko sa bulsa niya ang cell phone niya. I typed his passcode, it's my initials in numbers but he changed the last; 7783—SPVE.
"I'm gonna airdrop it," I said. "Puro mukha ko 'to, baka akalain fan lang kita."
"Napakayabang!" tawa niya.
Bumaba na kami ng lift habang abala ako sa pagpapasa ng pictures namin, hindi naman kasi siya mahilig magpicture na magkasama kami—mas laman pa ng cell phone niya ang mukha ko. I have a lot of ugly stolen pictures in his phone. He doesn't usually show his face that much on social media, even on Instagram? He only had four pictures in a row, puro tanawin pa. Then his posted pictures these past months were all my faces.
"Bakit kasi baliw na baliw ka sa akin, ha? Sana naman 'yong tayong dalawa ang wallpaper mo at pinopost sa IG. Pagkakamalan ka talagang stalker nito, e." Iling ko. "Iyong ibang babae tuloy, akala wala kang girlfriend at puro ka lang pagfa-fan boy sa non-showbiz girl!"
He hooked his arm around my waist while we're walking in the hallways, he was laughing.
"Kainis, ang yabang-yabang talaga!" He squeezed my waist and poked his nose on my cheek. "Gusto mong matutong magluto?"
I nodded excitedly. "Are you going to teach me today?"
His lips touched my ear to whisper. "Pakasalan mo muna ako."
"What? So, gagawin mo akong cook pag nagpakasal na tayo?" kinalas ko ang braso niya sa baywang ko at naunang magbukas sa unit niya.
Humalakhak siya at sumunod sa pagpasok ko.
"Hindi naman. Gusto mo matuto, 'di ba? Iyon ang bayad kasi tuturuan kita, e. Ang unfair naman kung walang bayad."
"I can't believe you! Ang hopeless ng reason na 'yan, Chancent!"
He laughed even more. "Kidding. Pero tuturuan kita ngayon kung sinisipag ka, I went to mall earlier and bought supplies here."
My eyes twinkled.
"Talaga?"
"Oo, ayaw mong magdate sa labas, e. Dito na lang tayo magluluto."
I smiled widely and nodded. Nilapitan niya ako at hinila paupo sa sofa, he removed my heels and put my bag on the other couch. I asked him a lot of questions about cooking while doing that, he even put slippers on my feet.
Our day started in the kitchen. He started teaching me how to hold a knife while slicing meat and veggies, I was so attentive and a bit scared that I might slice my own fingers. Habang ginagawa ko iyon ay nanonood siya at nagsusulat sa papel, iyon yata ang steps na susundin ko sa pagluluto.
Actually, ang tagal ko nang nagpapaturo dahil marunong talaga siya. We've been dating indoor for the past months to avoid spending money and he was the one who cooks, tuwing monthsary naman ay dinadala niya ako sa mamahaling restaurant pero nagugulat ako na nalulula na ako kapag kumakain kami sa labas. Naisip ko lang na marunong naman pala siyang magluto, puwede na iyon sa aming dalawa kapag kakain tuwing magkasama.
So basically, our months were spent in his condo—sometimes, at home. Kapag weekdays, napupunta siya sa bahay at weekends naman ako puwedeng lumabas kasama siya. Busy rin siya sa trabaho, pinagpapatuloy niya iyong pagtulong-tulong kila Heidden sa site. Ilang beses na rin siyang umuwi ng Manila sa lumipas na buwan kaya medyo kinasanayan ko na iyon.
Habang hinihimay ko ang dahon ng gulay ay napansin ko ang ngisi ni Chance, he was just watching me because I told him. Sinasabi niya lang kung anong gagawin o kung anong mali sa ginagawa ko.
I lifted my gaze to look at him with my forehead wrinkled, his grin grew wider and a chuckle slipped out of his lips.
"Anong nakakatawa?"
Pumangalumbaba siya at umiling, I glared to push my question and he sighed with a smile.
"Nothing's really funny. I just love to watch you, and I can't help but think about the future years with you." He inhaled. "Paano kung magkasama na tayo sa bahay, 'no? Ang sarap sigurong matulog at gumising na katabi ka tapos ganito, we'll cook—you'll get used to do things without maids."
I smiled, inirapan ko siya.
"You won't treat me like a princess? That's sad!"
"I will but not in a dreamy way. You're already my princess, but we still need to learn how to do things without having servants because life shouldn't be ignorant in that way as if everything needs to be served."
I pouted, suppressing my smile.
"You're so mature, Chance."
"I'm not young anymore. Though, Mama and Papa didn't really spoil us to be masters."
"Wala ba kayong maids sa inyo?"
"We had maids when we were kids until thirteen but Papa never let us depend on them, we always do chores with schedule." He laughed a bit. "Naalala ko nga, si Nyxinea 'yong reklamador pagdating sa gawain. She doesn't wanna wash dishes that much."
I laughed. "Ako rin, ayaw ko maghugas ng pinggan!"
He walked towards me and nodded while looking at me.
"I'll do it, then. You'll be in charge of cooking our everyday meals, deal?"
"E, hindi rin ako magaling magluto!"
"Sige, ako na rin 'yon."
Natatawa ako. "Kakasabi mo lang na hindi ako gagawing prinsesa. Ako na lang sa paglilinis ng bahay!"
He stopped behind me, he put my hair up to tie it—he was so used to it, he always does that to me. Ngumuso ako at nilagay ang mga gulay sa mangkok, I felt him nuzzling my nape right after he fixed it. I flinched in tingles of his lips as he kisses my nape down, it was shivering that's slowly taking my breath away.
Huminga ako ng malalim at marahang pinilig ang ulo upang pagbigyan siya roon, hindi ko na nga lang magawa ang dapat na gagawin pa dahil napako ako ng maliliit niyang halik. He pulled me to turn around, our eyes met that made me feel electrified. I gasped when he crouched down to kiss my lips that I gladly welcomed with passion, I couldn't count how many minutes we were kissing and he'd stop when I couldn't breathe for a while; kissing down my neck and jaw.
"I t-thought we'd cook today?" I asked while he's kissing my neck, my head was up for his space.
Chance already stopped smoking for my kisses, that was my deal. Kapag nagyoyosi siya ay hindi ko pinagbibigyan makahalik, I don't want him to smoke again because it's dangerous.
"We will..." He chuckled gruffly with a sound of his kisses down to my shoulder blade and chest part.
I was gasping, still breathless by the feeling of anticipation and nervous at the same time. I'm wearing a ruffled off shoulder dress, it was so easy to kiss my naked skin. I held on his nape as he was giving wet kisses on my chest, his huge hand found a way up to my right boob and started caressing it with my clothes on. I can certainly feel his heavy breathing while kissing my neck, it was warm. I pulled him more, hugging his nape.
I felt him pulling down the chest line of my dress to reveal my brassiere and he started kissing my cleavage, suckling skin on some parts that makes me feel more hot. Halatang gigil ang bawat halik doon, this isn't the first time he did this and I got used to the kisses like these.
His other hand was caressing my butt cheek, he carried me up as his lips met mine again. I got busy kissing him, he put me on the counter; his hand went in, unclasping my brassiere. Binaba niya agad iyon kasabay ng aking dress, kinalas niya ang mga braso ko sa kanyang batok upang hilahin pababa ang manggas ng ruffled dress ko paalis sa mga braso. I was already topless, he gently gently caressed my boob nakedly as his lips found my other nipple. Muli akong humawak sa kanyang batok habang dinarama ang kanyang paghalik at masahe sa dalawa kong dibdib.
Hindi naman kalakihan ang dibdib ko pero sakto lang iyon sa kanyang kamay, naghahabol na ako ng hininga sa kiliting dulot ng dila at mga labi niya. Bumaba ang isang kamay niya sa aking baywang hanggang sa hita, ilang beses niya iyong hinaplos at pisil sa gigil na paraan bago ko naramdaman iyong pumasok sa damit ko.
A moan slipped out of my parted mouth as he slided his thumb on my center, it wasn't certain at first but I felt the tingle it brought especially when his thumb started sliding up and down onto the cut of my center even with my boyleg on, my hips were grinding to meet it because it feels so good. He was suckling my nipples like a baby, my body was really hot at the moment with all his deeds. I could feel my throbbing walls, I held on his wrist while his massage is becoming harder.
"Ah..." I was moaning as it began to get faster, his other hand held my waist band to pull it down and he stopped caressing me to remove my boyleg.
I gasped in dismay, nagmulat ako ng mabigat na mga mata para babaan siya ng tingin—nahuli ko siyang nakatitig lamang sa akin, kinuha ko ang kamay niya upang ipagpatuloy ang ginagawa. His lips sided as his thumb started caressing my center again that made me close my eyes and bit my lips to stop my moans, I'm just with my panties now and I could certainly feel how wet I am.
"Chance, take me into your room—huwag dito..." I said lowly, my voice was shaking.
"Hmm, why?" he whispered, kissing my neck soundly while he's still caressing my sensitive bud.
"Shit..." I gasped, yumuko ako sa panghihina at binaon ang mukha sa gilid ng kanyang leeg.
He sided my panties to touch my flesh without anything, I shuddered because this is the first time he touched me there nakedly. I hugged his nape and buried my face on the side of his neck even more, his thumb slided up and down and it feels so wet. I moaned softly, he was massaging it up and down—then circling around the very sensitive spot that made me shudder with every flick, moaning.
Moments passed, I was soaking. My hips were unexpectedly grinding against his hand.
"Part your thighs more, baby..."
I gladly did it and he hooked them around his waist, he gasped heavily and carried me up—walking faster into his room. We climbed on his bed together, he kissed me hotly and unhooked my legs to part it and positioned in between me. Muli niyang ginilid ang panty ko bago pakawalan ang labi ko.
I was clueless when his kisses slowly went down—kissing my tummy, I sat up to look at what he's doing but I got so occupied with his caressing thumb on my center. Ilang saglit pa ay naabot ng labi niya ang pagitan ng mga hita ko, my heavy eyes widened at the first touch of his lips and I lost myself as I watch him flicking his tongue around my folds. I ran after my breath, closing my eyes.
"Goodness, Chance!" I moaned loudly.
His chuckle vibrated that made me moan more, I held onto his hair as he started licking me deliciously. Para akong papanawan ng hininga anumang oras, sa bawat halik ng labi at galaw ng dila niya roon ay siyang pag-ungol ko. Habang ginagawa iyon ay unti-unti kong naramdaman ang pagpasok ng daliri niya, iyon naman ang sumunod kong daing dahil may hapdi.
"Oh, please... it hurts."
"Shh..." he hushed me and circled his tongue along with suckles on my folds.
I was moaning loudly, his finger dipped in and out slowly. I feel so tight around it, medyo hirap at ingat pa siya sa ginagawang iyon.
"Arlow..."
"Hmm?" he hummed and went up to kiss my lips, his finger was slowly penetrating me. "You're so fucking tight and wet."
"Is it o-okay?" I asked shyly.
He chuckled gruffly and stopped kissing me to watch my face, I opened my eyes to look at him and his finger thrusts faster. My lips parted to moan and gasp as my forehead wrinkled with pleasure, his eyes were so dark while watching me—I couldn't see it because of his thick furrowed brows, he licked his bottom lip and bit it. He looked like he was so pleased with my expressions and moans.
"I fucking love you, so bad..." he hissed in a low and deep voice.
I was gasping and I couldn't help but close my eyes, his finger went faster and harder that in no time—I shuddered by my burst out, my moans were louder. Hindi ko alam kung ilang segundo akong nanginginig habang pinagdidikit ang mga hita ko dahil sa naramdamang kalangitan.
Mabilis siyang bumaba upang paghiwalayin ang mga binti ko at saka ako muling hinalikan doon, hindi ako makapaniwala sa ginawa niya. Uminit ng husto ang mga pisngi ko at pilit siyang inaalis doon pero napapaungol lamang ako.
"Chancent!" I called frustratingly, came out like a long moan.
He licked my everything before he went up again with a grin on his lips, I gasped and pushed his cheek in my embarrassment.
"Bakit?" natatawa niyang tanong.
I shook my head and sat up, fixing my panties, closing my thighs. "Magtoothbrush ka!"
He licked around his lips and shrugged, he kissed my jaw.
"I love you," he said with a chuckle.
Huminga ako ng malalim, medyo nakarecover sa nangyari—marahan kong hinawakan ang panga niya at hinalik-halikan siya sa iba't ibang parte ng mukha. Natatawa siya pero hinayaan ako. I kneeled and put my hands on his both sides, my other hand went up to untie the lace of his sweatshorts.
He groaned and stopped my hand but I didn't, hinawi ko ang kamay niya at tinulak ang dibdib niya para sumandal sa headboard ng kanyang kama. His lips were parted while looking at me, I hurriedly pulled down his waistband.
"Sileas, enough," saway niya at hawak sa siko ko.
I put my index finger on his lips while pulling his boxer shorts, he's not really comfortable wearing briefs. Hindi siya nagb-brief, boxers lang! Masikip daw kasi kapag nakabrief. I chuckled mentally, he tried to stop me again by kissing him but my hand was brilliant—I slided my hand into his boxer shorts to hold him and it felt so alive that made me real curious how enormous it is, he gasped and cussed against my lips.
I took that time to pull his bottoms completely, my eyes widened as I saw it standing so proud in thickness—he's also long and hard. I bit my lips to cover my shock, nagkatinginan kami at nakita ko ang pagtaas niya ng kilay.
"Ang... yabang mo," mahina kong nasabi.
He smirked and shook his head, hinila niya ang siko ko at akmang itataas ulit ang shorts niya. I pushed him and held his shaft with my both hands, I stroke it down that made him suddenly gasp. Fuck, he's so thick and long plus the fact that it's alive—really scary.
Paano kung...
That's why I need to please him, I'm not yet ready to take him today. I'm scared.
Marahan kong tinaas-baba ang aking mga kamay roon, I wasn't really ignorant about this because since we were making out—I got curious, I watched porn to learn how to please a man and this is what I got. Tiningnan ko siya habang ginagawa iyon, pikit na ang mga mata niya at nakasandal lamang sa headboard—mabigat ang bawat paghinga.
I swallowed my nervousness, I slowly crouched down to kiss his tip that made him gasp loudly.
"No fucking blowjob, baby!" he hissed crisply and pulled me but I didn't let him.
"I wanna do this, please..." I said and pushed his hand away.
Napamura na naman siya ng malutong, I didn't care about his profanities and I crouched more to put his length in my mouth. He inhaled so deeply as I slowly took him down but I couldn't take it fully, my mouth's limit was just until the half of it! It was frustrating but I continued, my head started moving up and down while taking him in and out of my mouth.
I stopped in frustration. "You're so big, Chance. Tell me if I'm not doing good, I'll try to—"
"Fuck it, Sileas!" he hissed and I know he'd stop me now even though he looks so pleased. Namumula ang kanyang mukha hanggang leeg at pawisan ang noo.
Oh, how much I love this view!
I swallowed and continued what I was doing, I just held on the half of his shaft while taking him in my mouth. Hearing his moans as I went faster makes me wanna do more, I didn't notice that it got deeper—I choked, he immediately held my hair to stop me but I didn't. I just carefully take him again and again, I heard his heavy breathing and small groans.
It was a damn pleasure to me until his groan turned into a harsh cuss, he was fast to pull me away. Naghahabol ako ng hininga. I wasn't doing anything special yet! Hindi pa ako nakakarecover mula sa ginawa ko sa kanya ay naramdaman ko ang paninigas niya, he got his own zenith. He pulled my nape and kissed my lips harshly while having his release.
I gasped and chuckled while kissing him back. Kinalas niya rin ang halikan at tinitigan ako, madilim ang mga mata at nag-iigting ang panga.
"Don't do it again!" he hissed and wiped my lips with his hand.
I licked my lips and shrugged, I kneeled to look at my dress on my waist that got his liquid on it—I sighed and looked at him again.
"You should've let me swallow—"
"Shut up!" he hissed and took of his shirt. Tinaas niya ang boxer niya at mabilis inalis ang dress ko sa akin bago sinuot ang shirt niya sa akin.
I pouted and rested my back on the headboard.
"Take my panties off and wash them, hindi ako puwedeng umuwi na iba—"
He exhaled while looking at me seriously.
"I know. I'll take care of it." He pulled down my wet panties and kissed my lips before climbing off the bed.
Pinagdikit ko ang mga hita. He walked towards his closet, I watched him but his butt caught my attention. That was my favorite part of his body but now? I think, I have a new favorite. I bit my bottom lip and looked away when he went back with a boxer shorts.
His serious eyes met my naughty look, napailing siya at sinuot na sa akin ang boxer shorts niya.
"I love you, Chance," I said naughtily with a giggle.
He glared at me. "I love you, take a rest. I'm gonna wash your clothes."
"Magluluto ako!"
"I'll do it, just take a shower or rest here."
I groaned. "Why are you so upset? Am I the only one who blowjob you?"
"Your mouth, don't mention it again."
"Bakit? Ano pa bang ibang term noon? Uh... subo?"
He gasped but a chuckle slipped out helplessly, he quickly kissed me.
"I shouldn't have let you do it, I don't want you doing it for me."
I sighed. "No, I wanted to do it and... I loved it, anyway."
Gigil ang mga mata niya, hinalikan niya ulit ako bago tumayo.
"I'll just wash your clothes... if you wanna take a shower, feel free."
I giggled and nodded, tumungo na siya sa hamba ng pintuan at muling lumingon sa akin.
"I love you."
Humagikgik ako.
"I love you more!"
Umiling siya at humawak sa door frame.
"No, I love you more."
I shrugged.
"We love each other so much na lang!"
He puckered his lips to the side and shrugged with a chuckle before leaving the door. I was smiling, nahiga ako at tumulala sa kisame.
My, God. I didn't expect he'd be pleased and I'm so happy to see him like that, it was so lovely and heavenly as how he made me feel everything in one moment.
Napailing ako, pigil ang hagikgik at saka pumikit. I placed my hand on my chest that was pounding harshly, my heart was screaming his name happily.