A/N: warning this deals with suicidal thoughts and behaviors if you are having these thoughts please seek help! And this idea was given to me by this amazing lady Keli0596 so thank you girl ily ♡♡
Damon's POV
Where is she? Why hasn't she returned? Was i really that bad?.
All this questions are feeling my head I'm looking in the bathroom mirror wondering what is wrong with me but i can't figure it out. I look to the tub and see a rusty razor blade. I sigh and pick it up. [Do i really wanna do this?]
Demon in my head: do it do it do it damon, she doesn't care about you. You only saved her life
Angel: don't do it damon! She loves you she just needs time!
Demon: listen to me idiot, how could she love a killer like you?
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Angel: you don't kill innocent people they are bad and deserve the worst!
Demon: pish posh, shut up and let him do it
Angel: no, he doesn't need to!
They continue fighting in my head and i eventually give in to the demon and slit my wrist.
"Wow, it's like the pain is dripping out of me" i say out loud
I cut my other wrist a few times then my left and lay in the top just staring out into space until i blackout.
Cassie's POV
I'm packing up to head back to Damon's house. Once i arrive i call for damon. No anweser. I guess the guys are at the warehouse. I bring my back upstairs and unpack. I suddenly get the urge to pee i go into the bathroom and scream!
"DAMON! NO!" i scream
They guys rush up and see what i see
"CALL 911" justin screams
"ON IT" kevin screams
Soon the ambulance arrives and carries damon to the hospital. They plug him up to an oxygen concentrater i hold his hand.
He sirs and looks up at me i cry on his chest "d-d-damon? W-why d-did y-you d-do t-this?" I ask crying
"B-b-because, i-i-i couldn't t-t-ake it anymore" he says weakly
"Take what?" I ask through tears
"I-i thought you weren't coming back" he says weakly once again
I cry "babe, I'm sorry i should have talked to you and i know this horrible timing but I'm inlove with you"
He sits straight up "what??"
We arrive at the hospital, they bring damon in a room he tells them that I'm his wife so they let me stay over night and he can have the girls&guys come visit him.
He sits up a bit in bed and looks directly at me. I nod understanding his look.
"Yes, you heard me correctly and no you weren't out of it. I'm inlove with you and your stuck with me I'm never leaving you ever again!" I say laying my head on his shoulder
He smiles weakly "I'm inlove with you too cassie, i have been since the night we met"
I smile and kiss him he kisses back
"Well someone is definitely feeling better" a nurse says smiling
I blush and sit down "sorry" i say embrassed
She giggles" I'm married too honey, don't apologize"
I furrow my brows and look at damon he smiles and shrugs i roll my eyes and shake my head.
"Alright, mr Underwood i gave you some fluids and we wanna monitor you for a few days so this won't happen again the doctor will see you later okay?" The nurse asks
"Okay" he says nodding
I cry softly damon looks to me "hey, what's wrong?" He asks
"This is all my fault" i say crying
He motions for me to lay next to him i do and he holds me as i cry "angel, you didn't know i gave in to temptation" he says
"Bullshit, it's my fault! If i haven't left you then maybe you'd be okay!" I say crying harder
He kisses my lips softly i kiss back as tears stream down both of my cheeks
"Stop blaming yourself, i did it you didn't make me nor did you put the razor to my wrists" he says
"No matter what you say I'm still gonna blame myself" i say crying
"You shouldn't i love you" he says smiling
I half smile "i love you, but i don't see how you can love me, I'm such a bitch!"
He gets a look I've never seen before which terrifies me to back away
"Cassandra lockwood, don't ever say such horrible things about yourself! None of this is your fault! Your far from a bitch" he says
I just nod i can't speak because the look well, let's just say if looks could kill I'd be dead by now.
"I'm sorry this happened" i spit out
"Angel, come here" he says
I sit on the edge of the bed and he wraps his arms around me
"Everyone has demons to face some face them in cutting others have music or something me? I have depression so this is normal for me" he says
"I still feel guilty" i say sighing
"Angel, please stop it hurts me to see you cry" he says
I smile "like i said no matter what you say I'll always have this over my head"
He remains quiet and just holds me for a while until we fall asleep.
A/N: 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😭😭😭😭😭😭 wow sad very sad but it's for the story line so i hope you enjoyed! Super long update! Word count: 966 words stay tuned!