A week later...
"I can't believe you wouldn't talk to me" Gravity said to me as she grabbed the last chip that was in the bowl.
"We just needed space that's all nothing too major" I replied
We were at her house, hanging out. I forgave her because it was useless being mad at her for being who she was. Besides lately I've been at the club more than usual.
I was working my ass off because I really needed that money. My mom wasn't too good and seeing her so sluggish and fatigue made my heart drop into my stomach because I felt as if I wasn't moving fast enough.
After working myself like a dog I decided that I needed some time to myself because I was exhausted.
Making only 800 or 900 a night seemed ideal but it wasn't because sometimes it was less than that on the slow nights.
This was harder than what I ever imagined it'll be.
I snapped out my thoughts and continued watching the movie with Gravity. We both fell into a slumber and woke up to the credits.
I wiped my eyes and looked at the time on my phone.
"Oof! It's late, I have to get home to take care of my mom" I said out loud
"Alright let me get my keys and we can head out" she said
She dropped me off and I got out the car, when I walked in the house my mom was up watching tv and it surprised me because usually she'll be sleep.
"Oh hey mom...you okay?" I asked her
"Yeah I'm fine, I feel a little tired but I'm okay" she told me
Her words came out slowly and I couldn't help but feel worrisome. I just smiled at her and walked away.
I went into my room and wrote into my journal as usual but I was interrupted by the alert from my phone.
When I looked at who had texted me I was shocked.
"Chad🥵: I'm in your city, wtp?" It read
I smiled at it and picked it up telling him he could pull up on me.
When he said he'll be here in about 20 minutes I quickly ran to the bathroom to take a shower.
When I got out he said he was down the street, I quickly freshened up and got dressed.
I threw on these tight fitted Nike shorts, a Nike spots bra and of course the Nike tech to go with it.
I peaked out of my room to see if my mom was sleep but she wasn't. I sucked my teeth and just shook my head, all because I knew what I had to do.
"Chad🥵: come outside"
My phone flashed his text across my home screen, I glanced at the window, unlocked it and jumped out.
How ghetto that was I thought to myself.
We were sitting in the car and I wasn't saying anything because I felt like I could be myself around him but then again it was like he still made me nervous.
My heart was doing the DASH bitch, then not to mention my coochie was niagara falls because his existence just made it wet.
"You good?" He asked me with a chuckle
"Yeah I'm okay" I said trying not to sound too awkward
"It's alright baby girl, I make you nervous?" he asked me while adjusting his self in his seat facing me
Without words my soft brown skin turned red, I was so embarrassed like how my own face fold on me like that.
It was hard to keep a poker face around him because he was so attractively intimidating.
It was like he knew just what to say or what to do at the right moment. Chad saw through me when he first met me, not that I was hard to understand because everything I did was weird and obvious but I wasn't used to people paying any attention to me.
Only people who did notice me was Gravity and my mom then came Chad topping both of them.
It was like he studied me, I was a song and he knew every word without even trying.
"You know how I know you nervous?" He asked me
"Huh? How?" I said with a shaky voice because I was daydreaming
"No eye contact, you don't look people in they eyes when you're nervous around them" He told
How the hell he knew that?
"I guess you're right" I replied with a laugh
"Yeah I am right and you know I'm right but nah come here. You super far from me" He said
WHEW SHIT! I hope this nigga don't impregnate me
I moved closer to him and he hinted to me that he wanted me to straddle him.
I wanted to disappear into thin air because he was looking at me...IN MY EYES!
"You so beautiful babygirl" he told me as he reached for my hair letting the hair down my back.
"Thank you" I said quietly
"Aliza I make you nervous?" He asked me
"Very much so" I answered
"Why?" He asked as if he didn't know I really didn't know what he was getting at but I was about to explain anyway
"Because you m-" I was cut off by his soft lips hitting mine
The kiss wasn't ordinary it felt like it was going to lead to something more. I didn't want that to happen because losing my virginity in a car wasn't ideal.
He slid his hand into my pants, touching my wet vagina. He started rubbing on my clit and moans escaped my mouth as we kissed.
"You ready?" He asked me
"No...I'm scared" I told him
"It'll be alright, babygirl"
We made our way to the backseat and he laid me down on the seat. I had no idea what was about to happen, but I just mentally prepared myself for whatever it was.
He started kissing on my stomach and that made goosebumps appear on my skin.
He made his way down to my vagina, and went crazy. I was amazed of the incredible feeling that was happening down there because I never experienced it.
When he was finished we laid there for a moment, his head was between my legs and I played in his hair.
"Ima have a lot of fun with you" He told me
I just chuckled and after a couple jokes and kissing he dropped me off home and that's how the night ended.
I finally felt like I was a normal teenager, sneaking out, getting oral, making out in a car...WHEW!
It was a lot that I missed out on, taking care of my mom was like a full time job. I didn't blame her for anything but I knew I had missed out on many things.
It was no time to be a kid or a bitchy brat to my mom about not getting the right shoes or clothes.
The next morning at school
"So you jumped out the window and your mom didn't notice?" This is crazy I don't think I believe yo ass, that's so ghetto" Gravity laughed at me as we ate breakfast
"So what! He told me he was coming so of course I was going to go outside!" I laughed and said
"Bitch I'm CRYINGGG!!! You so lame for that, your momma should've caught you. Where you met him anyway?" She asked
I had to laugh at her comment to think about a good and believable lie.
"I met him at my job though, he ordered something and he kept eyeing me so yeah I gave him my number!" I said
That was believable because I always told Gravity about the ugly weirdos who always tried to talk to me.
"Oh wow! But anyways how was it? Did it feel good?" She asked me
"Hell Yeah, it was my first time and BABBBYYYY it felt like I was floating!" I expressed to her
"Hmmm okay, I guess child" she said
"Yeah, I like him so much. I used to like him a little bit but now WHEW!" I replied
"That's good I'm happy for you, but what school he go to?" She asked me
as she picked up her carton of juice.
Bitch he graduated years ago!
"He's not in school" I simply said
"Not even in college? How old is he anyway?" She asked
"He's um...25" I told her now turning my head the other way
She started choking on her juice a bit but managed to get it down her throat.
"25???!??!?!??? What the hell? Ali? I-...I don't know about this Ali" she said to me
"Yeah I know but I like him, Gravity and I don't know, he's different from what I had. These high school boys don't know what to do with me, they think I'm weird" I informed her
"So what! You're a teenager still, doesn't matter if you're 18 or not. At least these boys are your age" She told me
"I understand that but I'm happy now can you go back to the excitement you felt for me in the beginning before I told you his age?" I asked her
"I don't know Aliza...just be careful"
We threw our trays away and went our separate ways to get to class. I thought about what she said but it wasn't long before I let it go.
Like I said, keep your friends who say stuff like that around it'll really help you in the future but I didn't understand that.
I thought they were over reacting because maybe they thought I was too young for him.
When I got to class of course Josiah greeted me, I wasn't going to be rude though so I said hey back.
"You good today?" He asked me
"Yeah I'm good, I'm doing way better than before" I replied
I really was happy in that moment, everything was going smoothly.
"That's good I'm happy you happy" he said as he smiled at me
I knew Josiah liked me but was too afraid to say it but it was whatever because I really didn't pay it any attention.
"Don't forget to do your homework and study for your quiz next week" my teacher yelled as the class ended.
I was walking out of class, and went to my locker to put some of my books inside and when I closed it I saw Kairo stupid ass standing in front of me.
"Can I help you with something?" I asked him annoyed
" I just want to talk, I over reacted." He said
"Kairo please! What can we talk about? Please tell me because I wanna know! You let that bitch disrespect me in front of half the school and you tried to shame me for talking to a boy who wasn't even anything to me while you were busy making out with your ex in the music room. How does that make you look? You sound and looked stupid! Over here fighting Josiah because you're upset that he can treat me better than you ever can. Please get out my face unless you have an apology waiting for me!" I didn't give him time to say anything back to me because what the hell for? I was good off him and he could have all that toxic energy he came with.