She didn’t know anyone but the lads, Liz, Murad and both of them didn’t answer. No one was left but Tim, Emma and Lauren and she doesn’t know them that well.
She sat in the bench that was on the street, she took a deep breath in hope she'll stop crying, but she couldn’t. The tears kept falling and her breath was inhaling trying to keep up with them. All what came to her mind is why? Why would a mother leave her daughter and just vanish?
After a while, she stopped and the only place she could have think of was the bar.
He came back leaving her though he didn’t want to and they all gathered around him the moment he arrived.
"So where is she?" Zayn asked.
"She refused to come back, and didn’t let me to go after her" Harry answered.
"Where did she go to now? How can we know?" Zayn asked again.
"I don’t know Zayn! Ok I screwed up with her and now I don’t know where she is" Harry replied.
"Guys give her time, she needs it. You cant keep following her on every step she walk, just be sure she is okay and give her time" Mia entrapped.
"Babe, I am going call me if something happens" Mia hugged Zayn and went out.
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When time got late, most of them were home and only Louis and Niall were there.
"Let us call Liz and Murad to see if she went to their places" Louis said.
"I called them both many times till they answered and they both didn’t see her. And called her phone, but she isn’t answering too. Where is she?" Harry complained.
"What about her flat?" Niall asked.
"Its already taken by someone else, she has no place to go to" Harry said madly hitting the table next to him.
"Ok where do we usually hang out? Restaurants, pubs or anywhere" Niall said.
"Restaurants are closed and she doesn’t drink that much" Louis said.
"Why I didn’t go after her?" Harry asked himself loudly.
"Its not your fault, she is an adult I am sure she will be fine. Let us just wait and keep calling her, maybe she isn’t answering because she is mad, maybe she went to hotel" Louis said as he pat on Harry's shoulder.
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"Hey Miss, are you okay?" The bartender asked Hannah, she went to the pub and stayed there drinking a glass after another, her phone was next to her and the bartender noticed that she was totally drunk and unable to leave.
"I have no family" Hannah said in sadness raising her hand asking for another drink.
"Okay let me take you home do you know where you live?" asked.
"I have no home" she replied then shouted "whoopoo"
He saw her phone ringing since while, so he grabbed it and answered it.
"Hello" the bartender said.
"Hello, who are you? This is Hannah's phone where is she?" Niall asked madly.
"Someone answered her phone" he yelled calling Louis and Harry.
"Hannah, that's her name" the bartender said.
"Where is she? And why are you having her phone?" Niall asked.
"I didn’t take anything, she is here over drunk and I wanted to drive her to her home because we are closing, but she says she doesn’t have one" the bartenders said.
"Look she is in 'Rumba pub' can you come and take her" the bartender said.
"Ok, we are coming just please keep an eye on her" Niall said.
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They all went to grab her, when they got close to the bar. The bartender noticed them.
"Oh, Harry the liar is here" Hannah said slowly as she stood in front of him, she was too wasted and fell on him. He held her, lifting her up on his arms.
"No, I want to stay. Leave me alone" she kept complaining, but she was unable to talk clearly or focus, Niall helped Harry and they all went to the car.
"Thank you for answering the phone, where is her stuff?" Louis asked the guy.
"Check there and here is her phone" the bartender said.
"Did she cause any trouble? Did someone do anything to her?" Louis asked.
"No, she just stayed there drinking a drink over another, talked with random people, danced. At least that what I saw" the bartender replied.
"You saw her like this and kept giving her drinks?" Louis asked madly raising his eyebrow.
"That’s my job, she ask and pay then I give" the bartender replied in teasing way so Louis walked pass him madly.
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When they arrived Harry picked her to her room and put her in her bed and she started to mumble few words.
"Was I that bad?" Hannah said in her bed and Harry sat next to her rubbing her hair so she can sleep.
"Shshsh just sleep now" he said with a husky voice slowly.
"You are a great person, just wish if you can see that" he said, but she was already sleeping, so he covered her with the blanket then started to collect the mess she made with that box. He turned the light off and before he went out he said "I am sorry".
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Louis came on the next day, he came with good intention wishing that she had forgave him.
"Good afternoon, wasted" Louis said as he entered Hannah's room
"What happened?" said and gowned.
"Don’t" Hannah stopped him from opening the curtains, but he neglected her and did.
"I hate you. Why I have this damn headache?" Hannah asked holding her head.
"Don’t you remember what happened?" Louis asked as he gave her a cup of coffee.
"Wait, I was in the bar and somehow I ended up here" said slowly remembering.
"You got too drunk and the bartender answered your phone and we brought you here. I know you didn’t want to be here, but that what happened" Louis replied.
"Please tell me that you didn’t find me in a lab of some guy" Hannah said in mockery.
"*Chuckle* No you were too drunk to do anything" Louis replied and sat next to her she started to wake and drink the coffee while Louis was nervous unable to explain, he kept staring with a sympathy smile till he had the strength to talk.
"Look its not just Harry's fault because its my fault as well. We called her but she didn’t answer and we both thought that if you knew that it will affect you; Dr. Deans said that any bad memory could affect. I am sorry I shouldn’t have to lie till now" he said.
"I forgive you both because I would have done the same thing, but what you did and I would do is wrong, but at least it was for protection. I was over pissed on you two because I felt betrayed and disappointed" she paused for a moment then continued with a sigh.
"Betrayed because you two are my family and you hided that all this time, disappointed because I thought I would have normal family and be normal, but obviously I am an abnormal person. Can we just stop talking about it now".
"Don’t tell Harry what I told you, let him feel bit of guilt. You brought coffee lets see what he brought" she smirked to stop the pity looks.
"He is afraid of facing you and waiting downstairs" Louis said.
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Hannah went downstairs later after Louis with mad look on her face, looking for Aspirin and pretended like Harry isn’t sitting there and like he didn’t make her breakfast.
"I am sorry, you have all the right to hate me I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness. I made you breakfast so you can eat something after all what you drank" Harry said and was about to walk away, while Louis watching them from far and smiling then Hannah laughed hardly.
"What is it?" Harry asked.
"Nothing silly just wanted to tease you. I decided to forgive you if you brought me Aspirin because my head is killing me "Hannah said and then hugged him.
"Thank you, because I don’t know what I would do if you didn't forgive me" as he was hugging her.
"I still haven’t forgave you completely, so don’t rely on that" smirking at his face.
"Han, are you ok?" he asked and she nodded with grin and changed the subject.
After breakfast and when Hannah was away, Harry came close to talk with Louis.
"I don’t believe her, she forgave us I know but she is over normal with finding about her family, I mean we are talking about her being with nothing about them to this! Knowing about her brother death, that her dad left them and don’t forget the big thing, her mum" Harry whispered.
"I know I see that too, I tried to talk with her but she only said that she was sad that she had this family and didn’t want to say anymore" Louis replied.
"She is pretending, before she slept yesterday she was saying random words like 'am I bad person' 'why she left me' and words like that. I am afraid what if she kept on putting that fake smile" Harry said.
"Try to ask her today I have to meet Katie she totally despised me" Louis replied.
"They all did, when I told them that she is okay they were kind of blaming us, same for before I saw the judging looks on Niall's face the whole time and he let us drive him when we found her" Harry said.
"And he wanted us to take her to his place, in that moment I was going to explode of anger, they all judging without putting their selves in our shoes, we screwed but we were thinking about her" Louis said.
"Yeah, but she is safe and forgave us. Just hope she gets over this, I will talk to her when she gets out of her room" Harry said.
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In her room she went back to that box, she returned on reading the old diary and she found lots of guilt and pain more than the happy moments so she skipped it and took the flash memory and plugged it to the laptop and she found files of photos and videos of her past. In school and with Matt
She saw many photos and something inside her just wanted to stop and close everything and try to avoid it, but there is something else that wanted to know and to see how was the old she. She started playing a video named "Cameraman Matt".
In the video..
"Matt say cheese" Hannah said.
"Hannah, get out I have to study, please" Matt said seriously then noticed that it was a video not a photo.
"You think you are funny" Matt said and stood up running after her, she was laughing trying to hide, but he held her and took the camera.
"Now its my turn to be the cameraman, here we have Hannah" Matt said as he stopped her from running, she sat on the bed laughing in front of the camera.
"So Hannah, are you ready to confess your love to Alex?" Matt asked.
"*Laugh* Matt you are the worst cameraman ever, you know we are just friends now give me my camera and go and study "future doctor"" Hannah said and took the camera from him.
She saw other videos and couldn’t help but closing it, she lied on her bed thinking. All of that happened and she can't remember, she felt sorry that the old she had to go through that losing her brother and be through that painful life.
She put it all in the box and closed it, the only decision that came to her mind that she doesn’t want to see that box again. And she doesn’t want to talk about it.
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Louis went to the radio station where Katie works, she was mad at him. She believed he screwed and she was thinking could he hide something from her too.
"Come on Katie, even Hannah forgave me and you won't" Louis said walking behind Katie.
"Did she? That's good for you, if I were her I wouldn't do that" Katie replied smirking.
"Please Katie, put yourself in my shoes, Hazz and hers. You would do the same. Now can you look at me" Louis said with puppy face.
"I cant stay mad at you anyway" Katie said and kissed him and she went back to work while he stayed there watching her.
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"They gave me the day off" Katie said to Louis after spending half hour waiting for her.
"This day is getting better and better" Louis replied as he came in front of her holding her neck.
"Oh don’t say that, now you will jinx it" Katie said as she touched his lips by her finger.
"I'm Capricorn, I don’t believe in luck" Louis said and kissed her.
"Ok Capricorn lets go" Katie said.
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Harry wanted to talk with her, but she went out on purpose. She rolled the city in circles not knowing where to go to and when night fall she went to the same pub.
She sat and drank glass after another, tried her best to erase the memories. Danced and laughed with anyone said yes.
But at moment some guy tried to hit on her during her crazy dancing with him, she pushed him and yelled "Hey".
And he walked away, when she sat again she realized she is unable to forget and go to another world, she is still awake. She still feels the pain, but she had no other exit but there in that place drinking while a side of her wished if she was sober. Wished if she talked to them or anyone. But that thought didn’t last long, her denying part stopped her.