3 years later
So,yeah I end up having twins one boy,and one girl they bad and they 2🤦🏽♀️.I still haven't talked like said a word I just started therapy 1 year ago for that!
"Nia and Jeremih c'mon"Oreo said as he was taking them to get ice cream so I can go to therapy
"But I want to stay with my mommy"Nia whined and looked at me
I shook my head no
"But we're going to get Ice Cream"my brother told her
"Oh yeah we finna get some ice cream"she said happy
"See you"my son Jeremih said hugging me and then Nia hugged me
Nia is so little
But Jeremih is big just like his dad
(Ik that lil boy big asf😭)
"Please don't let Jeremih get those shoes dirty I just bought those"I typed and showed my brother
"Jeremih don't get your shoes dirty yo momma just bought them and she gone be mad if you get them dirty"my brother told him
My son nodded his head
So they left and my other brothers were gone so it was just me.So I went to go get in the shower
So I picked out some black ripped jeans,my white Air Force ones and a black shirt,with a white sweater
And I went outside to get in my car but I had to take a picture cuz I was cute
So I went to therapy
Everyday she make me draw how I'm feeling,today I'm feeling pretty good so I drew a girl in a field full of flowers smiling
"That's good your doing good today"my therapist said
I gave her a smile
"Girl Jason and Maci won't stop asking about Jeremih and Nia"she said referring to her niece and nephew
"They can come over tomorrow"I typed
"Are you sure? What about college,your project"she asked referring to my online classes
"Girl yk me I'm almost done with that I started it the first day and I just need to finish a little"I typed
"Ok"she said
"So have you tried to talk"she asked me
"Yes because I know sometimes my kids wonder"I typed
"Okay okay so umm we're actually going to work on that because trying to talk isn't going to help"she said
I nodded my head
"Okay so I'm going to give you a few things to choose from pick 3"she said
I nodded my head
"Gargle warm salt water,Apple cider vinegar,Tea with honey,ginger root,OTC pain relievers,drink plenty of water"she said
"This isn't going to get your voice back all th way but it'll help get it close to getting your voice back"she said
"I choose gargle warm salt water,ginger root and Tea with honey"I typed and showed her
"Okay now do each of one everyday"she said
I nodded my head
"Ummm I kind of have to go I'm sorry"she said looking at a text from her phone
"It's okay"I typed
So we hugged and I went out to my car
"He's been abandoned his whole life (Oh yeah)
If loving me is hard, I apologize
If I push you away, promise you'll stay by my side
He's been broken, traumatized
Uh-huh
Yeah, yeah, yeah, uh
Yeah-yeah-yeah, dawg, yeah-yeah-yeah, dawg
Uh
Now here's a toxic trait that I have
I beg for distance when I'm mad, but bein' distant, we won't last
And if it's best for you, then go be free
But if you plan on comin' back, then baby, you shouldn't leave
'Cause by the time that you get back, I'll be gone
Too scared of bein' alone, and where I lay my hat's my home
And I know that you're frustrated, you want me to open more
But it takes a strong, strong heart to heal my broken soul
Broken soul
Broken, soul, yeah"As I got in the car and hooked my phone up to my aux cord and blasted Rod Wave
So I went to Walmart.My kids are going to kill me when they figure out I went to Walmart without them
So I typed what I needed in my notes the other day
Pizza
Chesse/nacho,sliced,shredded
Juice/water
Pizza puffs
Pancakes
Chips
Bread
Cupcakes
Pork chops
Spinach
Lasagna
Chicken
Chicken nuggets/tenders
Wings/BBQ and hot
Mashed potatoes
Tater tots
Eggs
Burgers
"Damn this list long"I thought to myself
So I was reaching to get some chips and I
couldn't reach and then I saw a group of boys walking down towards me
"You need help shorty"The tall darkskin said to me
I shook my head yes
He grabbed the chips and passed them to me
I kissed my hand and put it on his face
"Is that your way of saying thank you"The lightskin boy in the back asked
I nodded my head yes
So I start walking off
"Aye lemme get yo number"the darkskin boy asked
I turned around and I made a thinking face
So I grabbed his phone and put my number in it and saved me under
Amber Bamber🙃!
"So yo name Amber"he asked
I nodded my head
"Wait you what cha ma call lil sister"one boy from the back said
"Murder,Terrence,Marquis,Demetrius and Dominique lil sister"another boy said
I nodded my head
"And you out here giving boys your number"he said sounding shocked
I was dead😭like nigga u asked for my number
I turned around put the duces sign up and continued my shopping.
•••
(I just put y'all on a good song🤟🏽🤷🏽♀️!)
"First off Imma start this bitch off Rest In Peace
my lil brother died and I just cried so we had hit the streets
we keep spinning blocks and patching opps they ass can't get no sleep,
we was riding really lurking,body rolling like 4 deep
I just want the top no be rude but please don't use yo teeth"I heard blasting as I walked in the house and saw my daughter playing with some girl and my son with Oreo and his friends playing the game
"Mommy"Nia said running up to me happy
I smiled and hugged her back
"Mommy we had some chocolate ice cream"Nia said tugging on my leg
"Ewww...chocolate I had strawberry"Jeremih said playing the game with Oreo and his friends
"Hey bookie"my brother said
I nodded my head and hugged him
So I cut they game off
"C,mon Ma why you do that I was just bout to win"my son said so mad
"Bookie bro yo ass play to much"Oreo yelled
I popped the lock on the car and opened the door and he saw it was groceries to get
And he got mad and went out there to get them
So I went upstairs,took my shoes and coat off
I got my soap,and towels
•••
So I go out the shower,and I ran to my room with my dry towel on with my dirty clothes,and phone
So when I got in my room I closed the door and threw my clothes in the dirty clothes hamper
And I put my panties and bra on,then these short shorts
And I was about to put my shirt on until somebody bussed in my room
"Yooo"my brother friend said welcoming his self in my room
The friend who argued with Oreo about me sitting on his lap
I hurried up and grabbed my shirt and tried to put it on but I struggled and finally made it
"Nigga u ever heard of knocking"I typed and showed him
"Yeah but ion do it"he said hunching his shoulders
Domo POV
"Remember I was broke as fuck,now my check big
Bitches still let me fuck,when they know I fucked they bestfriend
Please do not ask me no questions bout who my ex is
She wasn't good with relationships but her neck is
Bought a car is wasn't fast enough but this cat is
And it's all black bitch I'm flying Batman bullets holes all in his car look what that Mac did
Better make sure your next plan be your best plan"I rapped as I walked in the house and Batman by Fbg Duck was blasting
"Yooo where Bookie"I asked Oreo
"Right I just bought her this bracelet from Pandora dat bum been wanting"Nuke said
"And I bought that bum some sugar cookies"Buba said
"She upstairs"Jeremih said
So I went upstairs to see her and Enoch
(Oreo homie)
"Hello"Enoch said running his hand through her face
"Is you slow"he semi yelled
"Amber gurl"
"So you just gone look at me"
"Ight ion care"
"I'm not finna keep trying to talk to you and you won't respond"
"Amber"
"I'm finna tell yo brother you won't talk to me"
"Ight now I'm finna beat yo ass"
"You not scared"that nigga just kept talking to her as she just looked at him
Buba start laughing,so I slapped him in the mouth
"Nigga what is you doing"I said looking at him slow
"I tried"he said getting up hunching his shoulders
"Nigga tried what"Buba said laughing
"I tried to get her to talk"he said sounding so serious shaking his head
"Nigga nobody told you to try"I said which made Buba laugh even harder
"My mind did"he said then left out