Chapter 99
|Smut|
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"Are you really sure?" Yoongi asked softly, moving two of his fingers inside of Jimin, slowly working him open for what was more to come.
"Are you gonna stop asking me every three seconds? I'm okay with it, I swear. It's... it's scary, but for some reason, after everything we've done before, it seems like an easy step." Jimin explained, arching his back when Yoongi touched a part inside of him that made him feel something, even if he wasn't sure what exactly.
"How many have you been doing lately?" Yoongi asked, soothingly rubbing Jimin's hip, casually adding another finger. Jimin hissed at the stretch, but it was okay. Yoongi was a lot better at this whole preparation thing than he had been with himself. "I mean, like this. You said you have been trying? How many fingers did you use?"
"Up to four." Jimin explained. "Although I usually stopped pretty much right after I put four in because..." He grimaced in an attempt not to clench. "... because it hurt too much."
"Three should be enough... and you're amazing, you know that?" Jimin could feel Yoongi's hand against his cheek and when Yoongi shifted his weight to kiss him, he couldn't help but feel reassured by Yoongi's weight on him.
"I know I'm amazing." He joked, closing his eyes. This was great. This whole thing they had. Their dynamics. How safe Yoongi made him feel. Everything was great.
There was something about it that made Jimin want this forever. No, not just something. Everything about this. Jimin wanted to have Yoongi by his side forever.
"There we are." Yoongi whispered, carefully pulling his fingers out of Jimin, wiping them on a tissue. "So, theoretically you would be ready... still wanna do this? It's totally okay if you wanna back out." Yoongi promised, pushing some of the hair out of Jimin's face.
Jimin shook his head. "No, I'm sure. I want this. I really do." He closed his eyes, simply breathing for another couple of seconds. "Um... maybe before we do... I... just a short hug again? I know this is ridiculous but..." He was interrupted by Yoongi wrapping his arms tightly around him, burying his face in his neck.
"Yeah, me too. I really need a hug too." Yoongi sighed, teasingly biting Jimin's neck before nuzzling it again. Jimin could feel Yoongi exhale against it, then breathe in deeply. "You know, your scent is like the most relaxing thing to me. It automatically makes me feel more comfortable, no matter how on edge or nervous I am." Yoongi muttered, pecking Jimin's neck, right underneath his ear.
Jimin couldn't stop a warm giggle from escaping his lips. "That tickles."
"Does it?" Yoongi did it again, this time purposely brushing his lips over Jimin's skin, which made a shiver run down his spine.
"Fuck off."
Yoongi let out one of his laughs, the breathy ones he hardly ever let anyone hear, and Jimin could feel warmth gather in his stomach. Yoongi was his. This moment was his. He'd used to have a lot... he still had a lot, but now he also had the one thing he really wanted. That one thing that was really important to him and it was here right now. Laughing with him, teasing him and sharing this amazing moment with him.
"I think I'm ready." Jimin whispered carefully, pulling out of Yoongi's embrace before placing a soft kiss on his lips. His heart was still racing in his chest, a tiny bit of nervousness still evident in his stomach, but he felt ready for this. Ready for taking this last step with Yoongi that he had been avoiding for months now.
He wanted to do this... he just felt a little scared. Not even about it being too gay. Really not that. The blowjob had made him more nervous in that aspect than actually having sex. No, instead it was a way more basic reason... he was kind of nervous about how painful it would be.
"Lie down on your back. It's probably a little harder like that but I want to see your face." Yoongi chuckled, watching as Jimin made himself comfortable on the bed. Jimin felt weirdly excited but also nervous with Yoongi's eyes on him like this. He'd finally be able to give Yoongi something he wanted but hadn't gotten in a long time because of him.
Jimin felt another wave of happiness and warmth rush through him at the thought of how Yoongi had been willing to wait so long for Jimin to be ready and be the one to breach the subject. At no point had he pressured Jimin in any way or made him feel like he had to do this.
"I don't know if you wanna hear this, but you look really pretty lying there like this." Yoongi whispered, sounding in awe while running his hand over Jimin's stomach and up to his cheek before keeping it there and leaning in to kiss Jimin again. Jimin felt an odd feeling of excitement at how Yoongi was leaning over him... it did something to him. He hadn't even known he had wanted this, but he clearly did.
"It's manly." He joked before returning Yoongi's kiss, enjoying the feeling of Yoongi's stomach right against his. He could feel Yoongi's dick too. Right against his. Still something he wasn't quite used to but certainly no longer felt weird about.
"Of course it is." Yoongi chuckled, pecking Jimin's cheek before pulling back and grabbing the lube to slick up his dick. He was using a lot of lube... a lot. Jimin felt his heart rate pick up again at the sight. An odd mix of anticipation and nervousness.
"Are you ready?" Yoongi asked for the hundredth time, but Jimin was grateful still. He felt more like he could ready himself like this. When he knew exactly when it was coming.
"Yeah." His voice came out a lot breathier than anticipated. "Fucking nervous and kinda terrified of it hurting, but I'm ready."
Yoongi chuckled, reaching for Jimin's ass and carefully pushing two lubed-up fingers inside to make sure he was still stretched out enough. Jimin gasped at the sudden sensation. It felt a lot better than it had just a minute ago. Maybe because his ass was warmed up now, in a sense.
"As long as you communicate with me and tell me what hurts, I'm sure we can keep this mostly pain free." Yoongi reassured, teasingly squeezing Jimin's thigh while pulling his fingers out of him. Jimin felt weirdly empty... maybe he was looking forward to this for more reasons than just pleasing Yoongi and getting close with him.
"Lift your ass." Jimin did and Yoongi placed a pillow underneath, lifting him up a little.
This was really happening, wasn't it? He really was about to sleep with Yoongi like this...
"Ready?"
Jimin laughed. "You're making me even more nervous by asking this soooo much."
"Sorry." Yoongi did not look even the tiniest bit sorry. Instead, he seemed amused and maybe a little horny. His eyes kept going to Jimin's lips, chest and ass.
"Just, let's do it already."
Yoongi laughed. "Wow, sexy."
The way Yoongi's eyes crinkled up was contagious and Jimin couldn't help but smile as well. "Shut up."
"Sure sure, I will." Yoongi leaned down, placing one last lingering kiss on Jimin's lips before sitting up straight. Jimin watched nervously as he added just a little bit more lube to his dick before doing the same to Jimin's rim. The lube felt cold but good at the same time.
And then Yoongi finally lined his dick up with Jimin's entrance... and Jimin felt way too many emotions at the same time. Happiness, anxiousness and of course horniness. Slowly Yoongi pushed in... really slowly, but Jimin was grateful. Like this the stretch was surprisingly painless, but he could tell that if Yoongi had gone just a little quicker it would have hurt a lot more.
For some reason, his brain had to supply him with the fact that of course Yoongi knew what he was doing. This had been his job for quite some time after all. That thought certainly was a little weird, but at the same time part of him couldn't help but be a little excited at the aspect of Yoongi, who knew exactly what he was doing, taking care of him.
For once Jimin didn't have to think. Instead he got to let Yoongi decide and be in control. Yoongi kept pushing in until his dick was about halfway buried inside of Jimin... and Jimin still didn't feel any pain. In the past he had tried anal with girls before and he had heard them all whine over the same thing... and his dick was a lot smaller than Yoongi's. He hadn't been nearly as careful though.
"Does that feel okay? No pain?" Yoongi asked and Jimin sighed, but he couldn't help his smile.
"It's great that you're careful, but you don't have to be that careful."
Yoongi chuckled, and Jimin felt that inside of him. That was weird. "At least I'm aware what I'm working with. You know, this could hurt a lot if I did it wrong."
Jimin pulled Yoongi down for a kiss. "I know, I know. Your dick is scary big, but no, it doesn't hurt."
"And how do you feel about... you know... having a dick inside of yourself?"
Jimin chuckled. "Nooooo, don't say it like that. Don't make me acknowledge it." He had acknowledged it inside his head multiple times already and he didn't feel weird about it at all. Which was surprising but at the same time it really wasn't. He and Yoongi had been dating for a long time. It would have been odd if he still felt weird about being with a guy.
"Well, there is a dick inside of you. A pretty gay dick." Yoongi chuckled, kissing Jimin deeply. Of course he knew that Jimin was fine with it too.
"Ohhh how scary." Jimin let out a soft gasp when Yoongi rolled his hips carefully. He didn't go any deeper just yet. Only kept moving within the limit he had reached just yet, but even then it felt way too good. Fingers were nothing compared to a dick...
"The scary dick feels really fucking good." Jimin whispered and couldn't help but smile when Yoongi snorted amusedly on top of him.
"That's relieving to hear." He giggled, pressing his lips against Jimin's again. They stayed like that for a while. Just enjoying the way it felt when their breaths mingled, their lips brushed and Yoongi ground his hips against Jimin.
"Please, more..." Jimin couldn't help but want more. He wanted to go all the way. Even if he wasn't used to it. Even if his fingers couldn't even reach as deeply as Yoongi's dick could and it was bound to feel weird. He just wanted Yoongi to really feel him.
For him to finally get what he had been so patiently waiting for. Jimin wanted to reward Yoongi, as stupid as it may have sounded.
Jimin closed his eyes, enjoying the weird sensation when Yoongi's thrusts started going deeper, filling him up more. While the feeling certainly was anything but familiar he could already tell he was going to like it in the future. Maybe not that much right now because of how odd it felt...
But Yoongi's stomach rubbing against his dick felt fucking amazing... just like seeing Yoongi's naked body above him was more than just a turn on. The broad shoulders, the mint hair falling into his face, his sharp eyes and the blissed out expression on his face... plus the tattoo on the inside of his arm that was visible as he brushed Jimin's hair out of his face.
Jimin might not have been able to get the most out of getting fucked... mostly because it took his body a little to get used to the feeling, but seeing Yoongi being lost in pleasure... it turned Jimin on just as much as he had been when they'd had sex with their roles reversed.
He knew he'd start getting more pleasure out of this soon too... it had been the same with Yoongi. He'd also taken some time to really enjoy the feeling of a dick in his ass. The first time had been great, but the best part about having sex with Yoongi had been slowly learning what really felt good for him.
This was just the first step of many... but sleeping with Yoongi like this certainly was a huge step in the right direction.
He gasped when Yoongi wrapped his still lubed up hand around his dick. This feeling, combined with the way Yoongi rubbed against his prostate and his lips on Jimin's felt almost overwhelming. Jimin was doing practically nothing aside from kissing Yoongi back and yet there was all these sensations and overwhelming emotions washing over him.
"It's a lot." Jimin whimpered, not even knowing why he was saying that... whether he wanted Yoongi to stop or if he just wanted Yoongi to know.
"I know." Yoongi pressed a kiss to his cheek, not slowing down even a little. Instead he sat back up, slightly lifting Jimin's ass, and suddenly he was going even deeper. Jimin could feel Yoongi's hips meeting his... he had bottomed out entirely and it didn't hurt even a bit. It just felt a little odd, but even that feeling was beginning to fade out. Instead all Jimin could focus on was how good Yoongi's body meeting his felt like and the way Yoongi's dick brushed his prostate when he pulled out.
"Think you can come for me like this?" Yoongi looked completely lost in pleasure, staring at the place where his dick disappeared inside of Jimin.
Yeah. Jimin was pretty sure he could. Especially with Yoongi's hand jerking him off, perfectly in sync with his thrusts. He nodded, being pretty sure he wouldn't be able to answer coherently. He just wanted to focus on the feeling of Yoongi inside of him.
Yoongi kissed Jimin deeply, his stomach once again adding more pressure to Jimin's dick, and Jimin couldn't help the whimper escaping him. Yoongi's hand felt so rough and perfect around him and Yoongi's dick was rubbing him just right. And Yoongi's scent was everywhere.
He could feel himself getting closer with every thrust and Yoongi just kept kissing him, perfectly in sync. Maybe it wasn't just Yoongi's dick that was getting him closer and closer to coming, but everything Yoongi was doing slowly pushing him towards the edge, and Jimin was more than fine with that.
Yoongi seemed to be close too, soft, breathy moans coming from him every few seconds... which wasn't surprising considering Yoongi hadn't been able to fuck anyone like this in quite some time. Seemed like their first time wouldn't last that long... not that Jimin minded. Not with the pleasure slowly building up more and more in his stomach and the thrusts feeling better by the second.
He wanted to feel it... the shivers when Yoongi came inside of him. The feeling of Yoongi burying himself deep inside of him. He wanted to share that special moment... just like they were going to share it many more times in the future.
"I'm close." He gasped out when Yoongi thrust particularly hard, burying his face in his neck and softly biting at the skin there.
Yoongi sounded out of breath when he answered. "Me too..."
"Want you to cum inside..." Jimin giggled when Yoongi groaned and he could pretty much feel his dick grow even harder inside of him.
"I was expecting that, but fuck." Yoongi let out, his hips snapping forward harshly. Jimin let out a whine, pulling Yoongi down for another messy kiss. He was this close to coming. Every flick of Yoongi's hand bordered painfully close to making him spill over. Yoongi kissed him messily, his thrusts becoming a little hastier, less coordinated as he came closer to the edge.
And then his grip around Jimin tightened as he finally toppled over the edge, thrusting sharply before burying himself deep inside of Jimin and coming inside of him. The sensation, plus Yoongi's tight grip, was what pushed Jimin over the edge as well, closing his eyes as he felt his orgasm wash over him and Yoongi's dick twitch inside of him. He could feel Yoongi burying his face in his neck and Jimin just enjoyed the feeling of having Yoongi this close when the boy collapsed on top of him.
"Fuck... that was a lot." Jimin was the first to speak and he could feel Yoongi laugh on top of him.
"True... that felt even better than in my memory." Yoongi pressed a kiss to Jimin's neck, sending a shiver down his back.
"I can't believe we did this." Jimin giggled, just enjoying how blissed out he was feeling, even with his own cum sticking to his stomach and the fact that they were both covered in sweat. It didn't matter. Not when he felt this at peace.
"I'll go prepare a bath." He couldn't help the whine escaping him when Yoongi pulled out, leaving Jimin to feel oddly empty. He got one soft peck on both cheeks, but then he had to watch as Yoongi left the room to prepare the bath.
He could hear the sound of the faucet being turned on and minutes later the familiar scent of the lavender bath salt he had bought for Yoongi was filling the apartment.
"Come on, let's get you cleaned up." Yoongi helped Jimin out of the bed and quickly led him through the apartment to avoid dripping cum everywhere before helping him sit down in the bathtub. Jimin could admittedly barely focus on anything. He felt so fucking sleepy now that the adrenaline was no longer there. He barely noticed when Yoong slipped into the bathtub behind him, pulling Jimin to rest against his chest and running his fingers through his hair.
All Jimin could focus on were the feelingings of contentedness and sleepiness. This was perfect. At this exact moment there was nothing else he could have wished for...
Jimin had always had a lot, but right now he knew he had everything he could ever need.
He'd found that in Yoongi.
A/N
So as I said before there will be an epilogue, but it might take some time for me to write because going by how busy I've been recently, since I wasn't even able to find the time to upload, it might take a while.
This is the official end everything else that is to come is somewhat of a bonus, of what the future looks like.
Thank you to everyone who has supported this story so far! It was a lot of fun to write and sorry for taking so long to post the final chapter! Love you all and if you haven't maybe check out one of my other stories<3
All the love!
-Leni<3