So, I know I'm weird. No need to tell me that, but this is even weirder. You know how most people DONT want to feel pain? Well, I'm not most people.
Instead, I WANT to feel pain. I WANT to know what it's like to be raped. I WANT to know what it's like to be child abused, or to be in a abusive relationship. I WANT to know what it's like to be so empty and in pain that I think suicide is the only way to escape. I want to know what it's like to experience tremendous pain, both emotionally and physically, so I can understand what other people are going through, so I can help them escape the pit of despair and pain.
I'm so foolish, right? As if I could ever understand the pain, the loss. I'm just curious.