"I missed you sleeping next to me last night" I pouted. It was Saturday night so I was at Kylie's, and Kylie was asleep so I'd gone to spend some time with Kendall, who was obviously wide awake at 2am and we were chilling and watching movies together.
"I missed you too baby, I'm kinda used to it now your mom lets me stay over" she smiled and kissed my forehead
"She likes you" I said
"I like her too" she winked and I rolled my eyes
"I can't even tell if you're joking anymore, you're so obsessed with her"
"I'm kidding baby, you're the only girl I want"
"Stop" I blushed and sat on her knee "does your mom know about us?"
"Of course she does, I don't ever talk to girls unless we're banging. Just kidding, I'm too awkward around girls to have sleepovers with them unless they're my girlfriend and I've only had one before you so I guess she already knows my patterns"
"Apart from Gigi"
"Hm?"
"You do talk to other girls"
"Are you seriously jealous?" She gasped with a smile
"No" I said and she flipped us over so she was on top of me
"Yeah you are" she grinned and tickled my neck
"No I'm not" I giggled and pushed her hand off me but she kept on tickling me "Kenny, no, baby, I'm crying, stop!"
"Shh, my family are sleeping" she chuckled and stroked my hair "you're so jealous"
"I'm not!" I protested
"Why are you jealous?" She asked
"Because I'm not" I pouted
"Yes you are, just tell me, you're always weird when I've spoken to her"
"I'm not jealous" I said and smacked her butt, but she still looked at me doubtfully. "I'm not, I swear to you I'm not even bothered by it"
"I don't believe you though" she smiled and we started to play fight each other. I wrapped my legs around her waist when she tried to sit up, and I leaned up to kiss her but she took that opportunity to sit up and put my hands down by my waist. "Admit it, you're jealous off me and Gigi's friendship, aren't you?"
"No!" I denied it again
"Why are you even jealous?"
"Because I'm not!"
"Why?" She whined and nuzzled into my neck "I love you"
"Fine. I'm jealous because she's super pretty and she's a model too so you guys spend a lot of time together"
"Aw, but you're my girlfriend and I love you" she cooed "I don't want anyone else when I have you. Don't tell Gigi I said this, but I think you're prettier than her. You definitely have a nicer body and face"
"You're such a pervert" I said
"I am" she nodded "but don't be jealous, I only speak to her in school and we never text"
"Can I go through your phone?"
"Why?" She frowned
"Cause you're a fuckgirl"
"I mean, you're not wrong" she nodded and handed me her unlocked phone, and I went onto her Snapchat. It was just her friends and me on her best friends list, so I nodded but looked through her recents and the last time she'd texted Gigi was earlier today "you never text her hm?"
"It was about a job we were doing" she said and tapped on her reply, which was 'ok so I'll get Yolanda to pay for the flight , can Z come?' with a picture of her and Zayn Malik, her boyfriend cuddling in bed "She's literally asking for her boyfriend to come on a job to New York, we're just friends" she said
"Fine" I huffed and kissed her cheek and went on her texts. Her most recent one was me, and my contact name was 'Princess 😍🥰😘' so I was happy with that, but I was still feeling a little weird about her friendship with Gigi. It didn't seem right, when I was younger I remember they used to hang out a lot and Kendall seemed to have had a crush on her at some point down the line so I was worried about her still wanting to get with her.
"See? You're the only girl I'm speaking to" she said
"Ok" I smiled and cuddled her
"You're my favourite girl" she murmured "I don't want anyone else, just you"
"Me too" I smiled against her cheek and kissed it "I love you"
"Love you too baby" she said. I felt so safe in her arms, our bodies fit together so well, our bare skin making contact with one another made me feel so happy and warm, I just never wanted to leave.
~
"I just miss her Ky" I grumbled. We were cuddling in her bed and watching Enchanted because I was sad that Kendall was away with Gigi doing a modelling job in New York, and she'd been too busy to even call me in the evenings. We'd been texting a lot, but it wasn't the same.
"I know, but she'll be back in two days"
"But she's already been gone for three days, I'm depressed" I whined
"I know babe, it's fine"
"No" I sighed and sat up. I texted Kendall that I was sad she wasn't here, and to my surprise she called me a few minutes later, but Kylie stole my phone from me.
"Hey baby" her gravelly voice husked
"Hey" Kylie said in a very good impression of me
"Guess what I'm doing right now" she said
"What?" I asked and Kylie passed me the phone so we could talk
"Myself" she said and I frowned
"What do you mean?"
"I'm doing myself" she chuckled and I heard her let out a long sigh, then I realised what she meant
"Kylie's here" I said and she gasped
"Shit, you should've said something. Anyway, how's my baby?"
"She's missed you" I pouted
"Aw, I'm missing you too. I'm coming home on Wednesday though and you'll be the first person on my mind to see" she said and I blushed
"Stop"
"But I love you" she said
"I love you more" I said and Kylie rolled her eyes
"You guys are so gross, go to Kendall's room if you're just gonna make me feel single" she said and I giggled and cuddled her
"Spanish was sad without you today, I was sitting with Matty and his band and they were actually prtety cool" I said, trying to make her feel a little jealous too
"Oh" she said, and her tone had dropped considerably "how was that?"
"Cool, George is so nice" I smiled towards Kylie and she gave me a knowing look "and he was flexing on me the whole time, you know he has AirPods and beats and a MacBook Air?"
"That's great" she sighed
"He's great, maybe I should hang out with you guys more so I can talk to him more" I suggested
"I know what you're doing" she said "and I don't know if you're trying to flirt or if you're mad at me but I don't like it"
"Fine, I'm just a little jealous of Gigi being with you" I said
"I haven't seen her for two days babe, we flew here together but we're both doing different jobs in quick succession so we don't have time to hang out" she said and I relaxed
"Ok" I smiled and got up "Goodnight Kylie"
"Night babe" she said and we hugged and I went to Kendall's room
"What's going on?" Kendall asked while I was getting into her bed
"I'm in your bed"
"What for?" She laughed
"Just hanging out" I shrugged
"Aw, you're the cutest"
"Smells like you in here" I grinned
"Do you like that?" She asked
"Yeah, it makes me feel like you're here"
"What do I smell like? I don't know if what you're saying is good or bad"
"You smell like cigarettes and lynx" I said "it's good"
"I just had the most amazing ice cream, it was bubblegum, and it had cherry sauce and some rainbow sprinkles, I feel bad after eating it, but I'm just so happy I don't care" she said
"Sounds nice, you have to take me for something nice soon"
"The day I get back, I don't care how jet lagged I am, I'm taking you for frozen yogurt and shopping in Beverley hills" she said "I've missed you so much"
"Me too, but I don't miss having really dark hickeys all over my neck all the time" I said
"I miss you having them, they're still there right?"
"Of course, but not as dark"
"I have a couple too, my makeup artist's been giving me weird looks" she said
"Can Gigi see them?"
"Yes" she said
"Good"
"Everyone can see them. Even paparazzi" she groaned
"Don't kill me but I think that's hot"
"I bet you do, you're a dirty little pervert" she laughed "I miss you"
"I miss you too" I said
"And I wish you were with me now, or I was in bed with you and we could just be with each other"
"Not gonna lie, I was really sad without you" I said and looked under her pillow and saw something I didn't expect to see under there "Kendall"
"Yeah"
"What's this under your pillow?"
"Left or right?"
"Left"
"Oh" she chuckled "use it if you want"
"What's under the right?"
"Don't look" she warned me and I looked anyway to find a really cute polaroid of us cuddling on her bed that Kylie had taken a few weeks back
"Oh my god I love you" I gasped and she just stayed quiet "Kenny, I'm serious, that's so cute"
"I just want you under my pillow when I'm sleeping" she said
"In a few days baby" I smiled and put the things back under her pillows but lay with my head on the right pillow, over where the picture was
"I can't wait to see you"
"Mmm" I murmured while I breathed in the scent of her pillow, I could smell her shampoo's subtle vanilla and honey. Everything went quiet for some time when she broke the silence
"Are you falling asleep?"
"No" I lied
"Yeah you are. I'll call you tomorrow, ok?"
"Don't go"
"You need your beauty sleep princess, but I'll call tomorrow. I promise you"
"Ok" I yawned "goodnight"
"Goodnight baby" she said
"Night" I said and she hung up. I put my headphones in and listened to some slow music
It's been a long, long time
Since I've memorized your face
It's been four hours now
Since I've wandered through your place
And when I sleep on your couch
I feel very safe
And when you bring the blankets
I cover up my face
I do
Love you
I do
Love you
And when you play guitar
I listen to the strings buzz
The metal vibrates underneath your fingers
And when you crochet
I feel mesmerized and proud
And I would say I love you
But saying it out loud is hard
So I won't say it at all
And I won't stay very long
But you are life I needed all along
I think of you as my brother
Although that sounds dumb
And words are futile devices